Chapter 45: Resentment
"Cut, you have always liked to be a deserter, we all know this, that Ling'er also met at my wedding last time, what about her, she has come back, plans to stay in Shanghai for a long time, and recently found a job, what do you think?"
"What is she doing in Shanghai? Shanghai is not her home. Li Shaohui asked with a frown.
"What do you say? What do you say she is doing in Shanghai? Shanghai is not your family's, can you take care of it?" Lu Yao looked at Li Shaohui's impatience and said angrily.
"And what does she do?"
"What else can I do, start from scratch, I am currently a small clerk, doing some miscellaneous work, sending couriers to others, printing materials or something. ”
"Oh. Li Shaohui replied lightly, and then there was no other reaction, he suddenly remembered the situation when he promised to just find a job last year.
Lu Yao stirred the coffee in the cup and said regretfully, "Shaohui, don't you want to know how she is doing now?"
Li Shaohui was silent, just staring at the desktop in a daze.
"What a stubborn donkey, when people are not there, you want to die and live, and finally come back, you are like this again, you love to ignore it. ”
Li Shaohui raised his head and looked at Lu Yao, and sneered: "At this time and that time, me and her have already ended, and I let go of it on the day I came to Shanghai, so her life or death has nothing to do with me, and I also ask you not to tell me about her, I don't want to listen to it and I don't want to care." ”
"Duplicity, are you really not worried about her? Do you really want to ignore her?" Lu Yao smiled, as if she had seen through Li Shaohui.
"What is there to worry about, she is also a high-achieving student, and she is not stupid, if she can't even do a little clerk, she might as well go back to her Shenzhen, what are you doing here, who do you want to perform?"
A woman who is almost 30 years old and a 20-year-old girl compete for a job with little technical content, these are not counted, she has no work experience, it is inevitable to make mistakes at work, and it is not easy to distinguish between mistakes and being blamed by colleagues and leaders, so she can only be stuffy in her heart, even after work, she is lonely and alone, and there is no place to talk to someone, it is really pitiful, when did you say she suffered such a grievance? When I went to visit her a few days ago, she was hiding in that rental house and crying alone, her face was also very bad, and she had lost weight in less than a week. As she spoke, Lu Yao's eyes began to moisten slightly.
"Is it? Wasn't she very clever before? She can see everything at a glance, she rarely makes mistakes, even if she makes a mistake and is criticized, with her confident and optimistic attitude, she won't care too much, doesn't she just laugh it off?" Li Shaohui didn't believe Lu Yao's words, it wouldn't be Tang Fengling who asked her to come over and pour bitter water and play the emotional card, right?
"You also know that it was before, but now it's different, now I feel like Ling'er is like a different person, shrinking from doing things, even speaking is quiet, and often has to look at other people's faces. Lu Yao shook her head with regret, and she didn't understand why Tang Fengchime had changed so much.
But when these words reached Li Shaohui's ears, they made Li Shaohui feel extremely harsh, others didn't know the reason for Tang Fengling's change, and he had already investigated Tang Fengling, but he was very clear.
The reason why Tang Fengling has become very different from before, and the reason why she has become this trembling appearance is because of her previous unbearable experiences, the man she was with was not a good person, and I heard that there was a more fierce tigress in that man's family, about the past two years, Tang Fengling had to accept her sex in order to please the man who raised her, and served others carefully, and later the bad things of the two of them were discovered by the tigress in the man's family, so Tang Fengling was not less bullied, and over time, Tang Fengling became the only one she is now。
The head is much lower, so naturally it will be shorter than others, and the waist is bent more, so it will not be able to straighten up, thinking of this, Li Shaohui hated it in his heart, and he smiled coldly: "You can't live by doing your own evil, and the current result is doomed the moment she leaves Nanjing, and it's no wonder that others." ”
"Shaohui, how can you say that about her? Anyway, you have loved each other, even if you don't want to help each other, there is no need to gloat so much, right?" Lu Yao retorted unhappily, Li Shaohui's words made her feel very uncomfortable.
Li Shaohui's eyes flashed and then sneered: "What? Could it be that she still wants to do a serious job, can she wash away all kinds of ugly things in her past? Can she wash her cleanly? Can she erase the pain she inflicted on my heart?"
Lu Yao stared at Li Shaohui for a long time, sighed and said: "Shaohui, let the past pass, the most important thing now is to put down the burden and look forward, the past has happened, we can't change anything, the future is the most important."
I heard that when Ling'er separated from that man, she also received a lot of compensation, and judging from her current financial resources, even if she didn't do anything for the rest of her life, she could live a nourishing life. The reason why she still wants to come to Shanghai to find a job that has been wronged is not for you, in order to have a reciprocal relationship with you, is it worthy of you?"
"Hehe, for me. Li Shaohui inexplicably rose a fire of anger in his heart, he blushed and scolded angrily: "Sister Yaoyao, you really know how to tell jokes, this is the funniest joke I have ever heard in my life." When she Tang Fengling got out that year, she ran away without even letting go of a fart, and then for more than four years, she didn't have a phone call, just like a dead person.
Now it's okay, I've been a junior for a few years, I'm tired of being played by others, I'm kicked, and I'm cornered, but I remember that my predecessor is here, and he said that he was wronged for me, haha, don't you think it's funny?"
Lu Yao smiled bitterly and sighed, and said, "Shaohui, I know you hate her, you can scold her and insult her, but when you finish venting, should you think about the two of you again, after all, she has come back and is still apologetic." ”
At this time, Li Shaohui, who was furious, didn't listen to Lu Yao's words, he was still in the shame just now, only to hear him say again: "Hehe, Sister Yaoyao, what you said is right, what you said is very right, she Tang Fengling really doesn't have to worry about it in this life, and it is probably more than enough to spend money to raise a little white face, right?"
Lu Yao looked at Li Shaohui's face that was deformed by anger, felt pity in her heart, and persuaded in a low voice: "Okay, Shaohui, I won't argue with you about this, I just advise you to let go of what you should let go, so that life will be beautiful, even if two people don't love each other, they should bless each other, after all, you have had a good time and a good love."
If you are willing to give Ling'er a chance to make amends, why not give yourself a chance? Give you a chance in the future? You also know Ling'er's character, if you accept her this time, she will definitely be good to you for the rest of her life, and will definitely do her best to make up for the mistakes she made before, I think even if you put a knife on her neck, she will definitely not betray you again this time. ”
When Li Shaohui heard this, he remembered the sweet time when the two of them were together before, he sighed and said astringently: "Sister Yaoyao, I know that you said this for my good, and I have been taken care of by you all these years, but you don't know my pain in the past few years, how I survived, don't you know? At that time, where was she? You tell me, where is she Tang Fengling? Has she ever thought about my life or death?"
Over the years, I have managed to survive alone, through the pain and suffering, and through the ups and downs, and now I have become impregnable, invulnerable, what do I want her to do? Do you want her to come and expose my scars, laugh at me, and bully me?"
Lu Yao smiled bitterly and said: "What you said makes sense, but I always hope that you can reconcile, you can let go of the past and reunite, after all, Ling'er is my best sister, she has regretted it very much, and you are my closest brother, I really don't want to see you parting ways and becoming the most familiar stranger? Can't you let go of your prejudices and give her a chance? You also know that the bell must be tied to the bell, and only Ling'er can cure the pain in your heart in the past few years, and only she can make you completely forget the past." ”
Li Shaohui smiled coldly and snorted: "Untie the bell, I'm afraid that the more I solve it, the more I die, I don't pick up rags, I have to pick up garbage that others don't want." I, Li Shaohui, have never been a person who likes to eat leftovers, if I can't let go of that pain in this life, then I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life and let it rot in my heart.
Why do I have to accept an apology and forgive her if she regrets it? Who wouldn't say anything if she stands on the moral high ground to persuade others to forgive? But who can do it without blaming the past and loving as before? A thorn in the flesh is a thorn in the flesh, and there is no other way to do it except to pull it out. I'm not a Confucian saint, and I don't have such a big heart. ”
Lu Yao looked at the indignant Li Shaohui with a set of rhetoric, and knew that it was useless to persuade him, so he chose to remain silent.
After Li Shaohui finished saying these tirades, his mood was slightly more comfortable, he turned his head to look out the window, there was a sporadic light rain outside, this cloudy and uncertain weather was just like Li Shaohui's state of mind, he couldn't help but show a confused and painful look again, and muttered bitterly: "Sister Yaoyao, if one day, you also experienced what happened to me, what would you do?"
"I, me?" Lu Yao smiled and said, "I don't know, I may be the same as you, or even more extreme than you, after all, that kind of pain is not something ordinary people can bear." Sometimes I see our family Lao Yu and other girls get a little closer, I feel uncomfortable, I can't help but have a big fight with Lao Yu, although I know that Lao Yu doesn't have that mind, although I know it's just my random suspicion, but the feeling of jealousy and resentment is really uncomfortable, easy to make people lose their minds, let alone betrayal?
Maybe you're right, I'm just standing in God's perspective, standing and talking without backache, and I haven't thought about your feelings.
But Shaohui, no matter what, I hope that no matter what kind of setbacks we encounter, after the baptism of the years, we can look down on everything, let go of everything, and use a kind heart to forgive, tolerate and bless. Lu Yao sighed slightly, and her face was a dignified softness.