002 Parting with life and death
On a hot afternoon, a few autumn cicadas hid in the dense forest, and their cries rose and fell.
A storm is coming! In the corridor, a low-flying dragonfly can reach out and catch it! However, when you slam your eyes on your target and are about to strike, you unexpectedly run away between your fingers, even though your fingertips touch the vibrating wings!
There was no one in the auditorium, and this silence reminded me of writing an advertisement with Han Dong to find sponsorship, and that night, we were always looking for ideas, and through our unremitting efforts, the school won the championship of the city's debate competition.
Man pushed open the door, interrupting my memory, and she couldn't help but ask: "Chairman Han, haven't you been contacted? Hmph! It's like the world has evaporated! I really don't know it's such a person, with a human face and a beast's heart!"
"It's yours, it's yours, it's not your demand, it's not coming!" I pretended to be nothing, turning the pen in my hand.
"Xiao, isn't this your temper?, where is your competitive personality?!" Man bent down and put his hands on my shoulders.
"I came into this world, but unlike others, I was an outcast thrown in the garbage can! If I hadn't met my adoptive mother, Chen Qingmei, I would have been eaten by wild dogs! Am I wrong? This is good, I tried my best to change my fate, and I was so dignified, and suddenly another Zhu Hui popped up, and God was embarrassing me! You say, do I still want to go abroad to study for a doctorate? Watching them go in and out of the double is right?" My face was hot, as if it was about to burst. Man put his arm around me and soothed my agitation. She understands me, and I can't be relieved to be quiet.
"It's a great opportunity to go to further education, but if you really don't want to go...... We can get along forever, and maybe we can meet a better man. By the way, why hasn't your mother brought you braised beef lately?
I smiled wryly, "Since my mother divorced, I don't want to go back to that home!"
"I think my stepfather seems to be very nice to you. Your mother loves you even more, in the class, who has your living expenses high, except for Han Dong. ”
"I really don't understand the things of adults, why can I have children, and adopt me when I am young? This question that has plagued me for twenty years will never be answered. Now my adoptive father has restarted the family, which is not my home, and my stepfather beats the children except for drinking and gambling. Seeing me is like seeing a plague god. "I don't want to mention that devastated home, I just want to earn money, buy a house, take my adoptive mother to my side, and repay the kindness in my old age!
Man blinked her big watery eyes and looked at me, she was wearing a modified satin cheongsam in sky blue today, which was very charming. Her dress and expression always made my mood change suddenly, she held up my face and said: "It should be like this, Auntie came last time, I think she is really old! Auntie will definitely be able to enjoy Chen Xiao's blessings!"
My nerves relaxed, but my whole being was soaked in sadness.
"Xiao, your mother has come to see you in the dormitory! I didn't get through to your phone, and my calves were sore. Sweating profusely, Juan pushed open the door and shouted.
I ran back to my dorm panting, my mother sitting on the bench in front of the desk, holding a handkerchief wrapped in something.
"What's wrong with this face? Did he beat you again? Is it because of school again?" I saw my mother and saw the blood on her face, and my heart ached.
"You don't have to worry about adult affairs, as long as you do your studies well, it is a comfort to your mother!" My mother stopped her tears, and when she saw me, her face was full of joy, but she couldn't hide the hardships of life.
"It must be for the sake of me going abroad to beat you. Mom, you're going to leave him!"
"How to leave? The person who has lost his mind and gone crazy, I am also confused, I should take you to live, no one should look for me. But what else can I do but rent?"
"Mom, I know you have paid a lot for me, so I don't want to study for a doctorate, I want to find a job, a monthly salary of more than 10,000 yuan, and a year-end bonus, let's buy a small room and leave that drunkard. I can feed you. "I looked at my adoptive mother, her tears streaming down her cheeks, soaking her scars. I gently wiped her cheeks with a tissue, and she hugged me and cried. Since I was a child, she would hug me and cry when she was wronged, so until now, I rarely shed tears. No matter how big the pain is, it won't make me cry in front of people, such as the incident with Han Dong. Because I didn't want to bring up more pain for my adoptive mother.
My mother stuffed me with a passbook, stroked my hand and said, "Child, this is my private savings over the years, it is safer to stay with you, and when you get there, the money will be kept for emergencies at a critical time." I know you can take on private work, but I don't want you to be too tired, and I still focus on your studies. Be sure to go to school in Switzerland. Don't talk to me about not being able to read stupidly!" My mother's hair was gray again, and he looked at me expectantly.
"Also, this jade rabbit pendant is a rare thing, it is with you, and now that you are older, I will give it to you! Perhaps, this object can unlock your life experience. Be sure to put it away!" Mother took out a thumb-sized jade rabbit from a wooden sandalwood box, exuding the fragrance of old things. Xu has been pressed under the box for decades.
"Mom! I just want to stay with you for the rest of my life, I don't want to look for them! With you, it's enough!" I casually threw the jade rabbit on the table.
"Put it away, from today onwards, the Jade Rabbit is here, the Jade Rabbit is here, the Jade Rabbit is here! This is more important than anything else!"
The adoptive mother's eyes were melancholy, mixed with a hint of pain, which was her usual look, but the ordeal of this life was because of me: a woman who supported a child to study until now, and changed countless jobs. I was so cold-eyed that I even watched her clean the toilet. I swear that I must let my adoptive mother have a good life.
But my mother was so good when she was young, I heard my uncle say that she could enter the state and become an excellent telegraph operator.
My mother's cell phone rang, and it was the drunkard stepfather who called, saying that he wanted his mother to open a taxi at night, and he ran long distances at night. What bullshit is a long distance, it must be a bit of gambling again.
I grabbed my mother and told him not to go back. The mother said: "The younger brother Ziheng has not eaten yet, although he is not biological, but he does not have the pain of his mother, and the child is also pitiful." ”
My mother walked out of the dormitory, she shook a few times while walking, I ran over and held her, she smiled and said to me, "It's okay, blood pressure is a little high, just go back and take some medicine." I haven't had a day off, and I'll take a nap in the car!"
I asked him to stay at the hospital where the school was located for a full body check-up, and she gently pushed me away and told me to go back and prepare the materials for going to Switzerland. Maybe that's how she can feel at ease.
My mother drifted away and disappeared from my vision.
My phone rang, although Han Dong's phone was deleted, but seeing the familiar 2358, my hesitation did not stop me from connecting the phone, as if another hand slid the screen of the phone.
"Look back?" Han Dong is still the same as before, he likes to surprise me. But I didn't look back, I didn't want to look at that face, the face that had been hypocritical for three years, I was waiting for an ending, so that he would personally make a break for our three-year relationship. I froze in place, he leaping in front of me like a kangaroo, and my peripheral vision told me that he was still in disguise, and so real.
"Why don't you send me a message after a few days of walking? I'm too busy over there, so we can get our little family ready in a few days! When we get a marriage certificate abroad, the raw rice is made into ......," Han Dong excitedly described his beautiful plan. And I couldn't hold back any longer: "Your plan is very blue, does Zhu Hui know?"
Han Dong's happy expression stopped abruptly, he was stunned, and then stammered and asked, "You, how do you know her?"
I took out the photo, as well as a copy of Zhu Hui's test sheet I received today, and threw it on his face: "You cooked raw rice with her!"
"How is this possible, she and I have never been in love!" Han Dong was a little flustered, he picked up the photo and envelope, pulled out the list, covered his face and cried!
"Chen Xiao, I originally wanted to marry you in Switzerland, I want to make arrangements for going to Switzerland these days, and I will come back to give you a surprise. Father forced him to die, Xiao, I really don't know what to do, but you know, I love you deeply, as deep as the waterhole under the chain bridge where we met. ”
This is the second time I've seen Han Dong cry, and he cried so much that every woman who has loved her wants to be able to forgive him. But I broke away from his suffocating hug.
"Xiao, I'm really helpless, I love you!" His sincerity made my heart soften, and I really wanted to hug him tightly and say, "I don't care about everything, if you still love me, we will never come back to Switzerland!" But this sentence choked deep in my throat.
"I'm a third party, right? Han Dong! I never want to see you again! Get out, I never want to see you again!" Han Dong didn't catch up, I knew that the matter between us must end like this, why didn't it end like this? Zhu Hui and Han Dong's family business has been close partners for a hundred years.
Now, the marriage of the two families is also his mission. Maybe he has his own helplessness, and if I can think like this, my heart will not be so stinging for a while. But in the middle of the night, my tears soaked the pillow towel, and I tried my best to restrain my emotions because I couldn't let the people around me see my weakness.
At three o'clock in the morning, I heard Mann's sweet snoring. Maybe she really hasn't paid to the male god to sleep so sweetly.
There was a loud knock on the door. The doorman's aunt gasped and said, "Chen Xiao, answer the phone quickly, your family, something happened at home!"
I looked at my phone, it was already out of power, it was turned off, I was wearing the wrong shoes, and I was pulled downstairs by my aunt in a panic.
"Xiaoxiao, your mother died, and there was a car accident at the high-speed interface at twelve o'clock. Come back, come back!" said the uncle, choked up on the phone, his voice as low as a mouse.
I called Han Dong, a three-hour drive, only Han Dong could send me home as quickly as possible, and when I turned on the phone, I saw that Han Dong left me more than 100 messages.
Han Dong drove the car downstairs to the dormitory, holding a shirt in his hand. Like a faithful servant.
"Xiao, I will accompany you, everything will be fine, you have to be strong!" Han Dong seemed to have prepared lines many times, which made me feel a little contrived, maybe he felt that we should be cautious when getting along with each other.
Han Dong's face was darkened, and he had obviously lost a circle. This phenomenon cannot be explained by me, a student of biogenetics.
The streetlights of the campus dimly illuminated the road, and Han Dong skillfully drove the car out of the campus. His movements were so steady that it was as if nothing had happened, and maybe it was just a nightmare.