Lin Nuan hugged him tightly, because he was afraid, this was just a dream, he was very afraid, if he was not careful, he would turn into a cloud of smoke and completely disappear in front of her.

If everything just now was just a dream, then the feeling of this dream was too real, all the pain, the gunshots, the blood, it was so real. Thinking of that, she couldn't help but hug him tighter and tighter.

Cen Jinghuai chuckled, "What's wrong with you?"

She looked up, her eyes full of tears, and looked at him carefully, she took his hand, felt his temperature, and then, put his hand on her cheek, "You pinch me." ”

"What are you dreaming about?"

"Pinch me!"

He pinched it gently, and Lin Nuan didn't feel very painful.

She pursed her lips, there was an indescribable sadness in her heart, and she held his hand tightly, "Are your injuries healed?"

"What injury?"

"You're done with what you're going to do?"

"Yes, I can stay with you forever and never leave. ”

She laughed, tears streaming down, "What about the blood clot in your head?"

"Well, the doctor said it scattered on its own, which is a miracle. ”

"yes, it's a miracle. She sniffed and glanced sideways, Zhinan and Yulin, who were standing beside him, were full of laughter, very quiet, and stood next to them obediently, not disturbing them at all.

When Lin Nuan saw them, her tears fell even more fiercely.

She held Cen Jinghuai's hand tightly, her throat seemed to be stuck by something, she had a lot to say, but she didn't know where to start.

Cen Jinghuai wiped away her tears, held her cheeks with both hands, and said with a smile: "Why are you crying? Don't cry, go to dinner, okay?"

"Cen Jinghuai. She called his name with difficulty, "You don't want to go, okay?"

He smiled even brighter, "I'm not leaving." ”

"You have to do what you say. ”

He nodded, "Of course, of course I will do what I say." ”

She hugged him again, tightly.

Cen Jinghuai hugged her for a while, and then picked her up, "I have no choice, I can only carry you to dinner." ”

Then he took her in his arms and took the two children to the dining hall together.

There was a table of dishes specially prepared for them, and Cen Jinghuai was wiped away from her tears and fed her.

The monk next to him saw it, and couldn't stop coughing and warned, Buddhism is pure, a little restraint.

After the meal, the family of four went for a walk to watch the sun set. Then go back to the side room and sleep.

Cen Jinghuai came to pick her up and go home, he said that he had completed the task and could live a normal life with them incognito in the future. Chen Xueyi has already arranged everything, and he doesn't have to think about others in the future, in the future, in his heart, she is the first, and her children are the second.

For the rest of her life, there will be only her.

At night, he told her about the future, and when he returned, he would buy a new house, decorate it himself, and then spend more time with the children, and take them out on trips every year, at least twice.

The most important thing is to take another photo with her and get a marriage certificate.

Lin Nuan listened quietly, a pair of eyes that had not been removed from his face, those eyes, containing affection and affection.

Cen Jinghuai was a little uncomfortable with her.

"You've been looking at me like this since just now, what kind of dreams did you have? ”

Lin Nuan didn't hide it, and said: "I dreamed that you died, you were shot a lot, and you were dying. You got in the ambulance, put oxygen, kissed me, and told me to live well. You've bled so much, I can't even look at it. ”

"Your face is a little bit of ashes, and I guess you don't want to die either, because I see the reluctance in your eyes. I have been waiting for you for a long time, I am in Yanshan, eating fasting and chanting Buddha every day, doing a lot of things, I beg the Bodhisattva every day, beg him to save your life, beg him to let the blood clot in your head disperse by itself, beg him to let you do everything smoothly, complete the task as soon as possible, and return to us. I said, I can't live without you, I said that I am willing to stop eating meat for the rest of my life, even if I lose my life. I want you to come back and spend my life with me. ”

Her tears were always in her eyes, shining in the warm yellow light.

She reached out and touched his face, eyebrows, eyes, nose, lips, and the scar on the side of his face, "You are so handsome, counting your days, I haven't been a husband and wife with you and lived a good life." I'm unwilling, I haven't taken you out properly, if I take you out, I will definitely get the envy of many people. And then you have to show that you love me so much, haha, you feel happy when you think about it. ”

She laughed, "I want to live my life with you." Whether it's plain or hard, it's good to be together. ”

He leaned over and kissed her on the eye, "Okay, you can get whatever you want." I'll give it all to you, all to you. ”

"Hug me. She opened her hand.

He did as he said and hugged her.

She leaned into his arms, rubbed lightly, and after a while, raised her head and kissed him intimately.

The next day, their family of four left Yanshan.

Lin Nuan didn't have any luggage, and she had nothing to pack, so she said goodbye to the monks of the temple, and they left.

All the way down the mountain, laughter.

The whole mountain is filled with the laughter of children.

Zhinan was squeamish, and after walking for a while, he wanted Cen Jinghuai to carry him, Yulin was still very manly, took her hand, and walked slowly down with her.

Along the way, Lin Nuan still had to kneel and worship when he walked through the temple.

There is still only one prayer in her heart, begging Cen Jinghuai to live, and she is even willing to die in his place.

I only want him to live.

All the way down the mountain, when he arrived at the foot of the mountain, Chen Xueyi was waiting there, he was standing next to the car, Ji Silai was also there, the two of them stood there together, looking quite a match.

They had a relieved smile on their faces, and they should also be emotional, their family of four was finally able to be reunited.

They walked over, and Chen Xueyi patted Cen Jinghuai's shoulder, "Happy? Look at you like this, you can't close your mouth." ”

Cen Jinghuai still smiled and said, "Can't you? ”

"Do I need to be jealous?"

He sighed, then pulled the car door, "Get in the car and take you back." ”

Subsequently, several people got on the bus.

All the way, the atmosphere in the car was very happy, and Lin Nuan still looked at Cen Jinghuai most of the time. Watching him and Chen Xueyi joke with each other and talk, so real.

She looked around again, and the scenery rushed by, and it was also very real.

Ji Silai: "What's wrong with you?"

Lin Nuan looked at her, smiled, and said, "It's nothing, I haven't gone down the mountain for a long time, and I suddenly feel a little unaccustomed to it." ”

"Congratulations on finally reuniting as a family. ”

She smiled, "yes, the family is finally reunited." ”

She turned her head to look at Cen Jinghuai again, just as he was also looking at her, the two looked at each other, and his eyes were full of smiles.

Lin Nuan unconsciously leaned over and hugged him, regardless of the fact that there were other people in the car, just wanting to be close to him.

They went to the nearest city's airport and flew back to their previous city.

Zhinan and Yulin are already in elementary school.

Nothing has changed here.

On the same day, Chen Xueyi stayed for a meal, and after that, he told Cen Jinghuai about the things that had been arranged.

Lin Nuan sat in the master bedroom, packing up her things, and Ji Silai chatted with her.

Lin Nuan: "Over the years, thanks to you taking care of the two children, I think they are very well-behaved, and they don't reject Cen Jinghuai at all, it must be your credit." ”

"They've grown up, they've grown up, and there are some things that you can understand if you talk to them well. ”

"yes. It turned out that they were intimate with Cen Jinghuai like this. ”

"Since your family is reunited, I won't follow you in the future. ”

"Huh?"

"Didn't you let me take the exam before, I was admitted, I wanted to go outside alone, and I happen to have some money in hand now. ”

"That's right, you can't always be a nanny for me, wronged you. ”

"There is no grievance, the salary you give me, I may not have it when I go out. ”

Lin Nuan smiled and didn't keep it.

The two chatted about something else, and Lin Nuan went outside to be with Cen Jinghuai.

The next day, Cen Jinghuai and Chen Xueyi went to run errands, completed all the work documents, and then went to see the house, and soon finalized a small villa with a suitable size and a good environment.

I bought it right away.

Chen Xueyi stayed here for about a week, and after everything settled down, he left.

Finally, it became the world of their family of four.

Lin Nuan didn't go out to work, Cen Jinghuai seemed to have endless money, he didn't work for a long time, and they stayed together.

The two children went to school during the day, so they went to decorate the house together, supervised the work themselves, designed, and the days flew by, and they moved into their new home.

Lin Nuan still doesn't work, she is wholeheartedly a housewife at home, and she doesn't want Cen Jinghuai to go to work, anyway, there is a lot of money in his card, so much that it can't be used up, and she doesn't spend much, so she lives like this, there is no problem.

When the children are on vacation, they go out on a trip.

After traveling domestically, I went abroad.

After all, she was not idle for a moment, as if she was afraid of something, and she wanted to do and say everything that should be done.

She rarely took the initiative to express herself before, but now, she has to say to Cen Jinghuai almost every day I love you, and she is very affectionate.

Sometimes even more than once, many times.

Say when you think of it, do it when you think of it.

Capricious and messy again.

But Cen Jinghuai connived and responded.

Days like this, day by day, time seems to be fast, but it seems to be very slow, they are not old, and the children do not grow up.

But Lin Nuan didn't pay attention to these, and still lived a stable life with Cen Jinghuai, living how he wanted, and living seriously. Every day is very serious and cherished.

Many times, she doesn't even want to sleep and just wants to watch him all the time.

One day, they had nothing to do, sitting on the terrace of the villa to bask in the sun, warm and comfortable.

Lin Nuan looked sideways at him, "We'll pick up the child together in a while." ”

"Hmm. He nodded, not looking at her.

He looked into the distance, and suddenly his expression became a little solemn.

Lin Nuan felt that he was a little abnormal, "What's wrong?"

He was silent for a moment, then looked sideways at her, "How long have you been with me?"

Lin Nuan paused slightly, "What's the matter, I naturally want to accompany you for the rest of my life, and you have to accompany me to old age." ”

He didn't speak, just looked at her.

Her heart was pounding, and she had a strange feeling, "What's wrong?" ”

She got up and wanted to go to him, but the moment she got up, everything around her suddenly changed.

In the blink of an eye, the surroundings returned to Yanshan, and they stood at the door of the study.

Her eyes twitched slightly, and she turned her head, and there were still scriptures she had written on the table.

She pursed her lower lip, and then turned her head, Cen Jinghuai smiled, with tears in her eyes.

Lin Nuan took a step forward, he stepped back and said, "You have to live well." ”

"You want to live too!" she shouted loudly, a little angry and a little anxious, "Don't you want to live such a day? You owe me, aren't you ready to pay it back! Cen Jinghuai, you promise me that you will accompany me for the rest of your life!"

He didn't speak, his expression unchanged.

Lin Nuan rushed over, only this time, she could no longer hold him.

She passed directly over him, she was stunned, turned her head, and his whole body became empty.

It seems to be gone in the next moment.

"You have to live well. He repeated.

Lin Nuan walked up to him, tears fell, and she was like this, watching him disappear in front of her.

He only smiled for the last moment, and then dispersed with the wind.

She is still in the temple, alone.

In her ears, the Sanskrit sound was beautiful, and she looked at the colorful glow in the sky, and she couldn't stop her tears. She began to cry, and then she cried loudly, trying to vent the pent-up pain in her heart.

But no matter what, that kind of grief only gets deeper and deeper, and it seems that a deep hole has been dug in the heart, which can no longer be filled.

I don't know how long it took, and the surrounding environment fell apart in her cries.

Everything, plunged into blackness and silence.

She didn't know if it was her fantasy or Cen Jinghuai's fantasy.

Whoever it is, she's only one left now.

She was the only one crying, haunting herself, and finally, she lost consciousness.

……

Lin Wenwen sat in the ward, watching Lin Nuan cry, and her eyes couldn't help but redden.

She got up and took a tissue to wipe away her tears.

Lin Nuan was also injured, but Cen Jinghuai was more serious, and it was so chaotic at that time, no one cared about her, and she didn't want people to touch her.

In this way, after standing at the door of the operating room for a long time, a large pool of blood flowed under his feet, and the nurse found him before he pulled the person away.

It was the seventh day she had been unconscious, and there was still no sign of waking up.

Cen Jinghuai died, she didn't see the body, someone came to tell her, and she died.

It seems that the injury is too severe, and the blood clot in his head has collapsed, and almost all the expert doctors have collected it, but they have not been able to save him.

Lin Wenwen looks at Lin Wenwen every day, and many times, she is conflicted, hoping that she will wake up, but she doesn't want her to wake up.

After waking up, how to talk to Cen Jinghuai about her?

Cen Jinghuai is gone, and the Lu family will naturally be taken over by Lu Zhengxun, and he will manage it with full authority.

He came almost every other day, and so far, Cen Jinghuai's funeral has not taken place. He was waiting, waiting for Lin Nuan to wake up, waiting for her to see him off for the last time.

Over the years of working with Cen Jinghuai, the deep affection they have established, although Cen Jinghuai doesn't say it, he can still know from some of his words that his feelings for Lin Nuan will remain unchanged in this life.

Lin Wenwen said: "The doctor said that everything is normal for her, and it depends on her own will to wake up, maybe she will wake up tomorrow, or she may never wake up." ”

"Don't wait for her, let Cen Jinghuai settle down. ”

Lu Zhengxun exhaled slightly, and it seemed that he could only do this.

Three days later, it was Cen Jinghuai's funeral, because of what he has done over the years, many people spontaneously came to attend the funeral, and his funeral was very low-key and very simple.

No one saw his remains.

That day, Lin Nuan suddenly woke up.

She didn't arrive until the end of the funeral, and the day of the burial was still a sunny day.

She hasn't recovered yet, and she was brought over by someone from the hospital.

When Lin Wenwen saw her, she was startled, surprised and delighted. Quickly go over and hold her up, "You're awake." ”

There was no one else in her eyes, and she said, "Where is he?"

"What?"

"Who is he?" she asked slowly, rather than crying.

"Warm, you calm down. None of us want these things, but since they have happened, we must also face them calmly. People who are alive have to live well, don't they?"

Lin Nuan turned his head to look at her, his eyes were not bright, and after a few seconds of silence, he said, "You take me over." ”

"I'll take you there, but you have to promise me that you can't be impulsive, you know?"

"Good. She nodded.

Lin Wenwen saw that the calmer she looked, the more panicked her heart became, she held her hand tightly and led her over.

This meeting has almost dispersed, only the people of the Lu family are still standing there, and Shi Wenyue, all of them have their heads down, Cen Xingduo is crying very much, and people can't stand steadily.

"The warmth is coming. Lin Wenwen said, and the people all came back to their senses, looked over, and then stood on both sides and gave way.

Lin Nuan looked at the tombstone standing there, looking at the photo of Cen Jinghuai on the tombstone, she gritted her teeth and didn't let herself cry.

She broke free of the hands of the others and walked over step by step, standing in front of the tombstone, looking down at him.

The person in the photo didn't laugh, I don't know when the picture was taken, she crouched down and laughed, "You bastard." ”

She said in a hoarse voice.

Her voice trembled, the cemetery was quiet, and her voice was so soft that it still reached the ears of others.

Just such a simple sentence suddenly cast a layer of dust on everyone's hearts, and that sadness became deeper.

Shi Wenyue didn't cry all the time, but this time, she shed tears uncontrollably.

Lin Wenwen subconsciously hugged her, "It's okay, you still have us." I believe that Cen Jinghuai is in the spirit of heaven, and I hope you can continue to live well. ”

Yes, he did think so, and he thought that she could still live well without him.

Time can erase many things, including feelings, including traces of a person.

On this day, Lin Nuan stayed in front of Cen Jinghuai's tombstone for a long time, until she was physically exhausted and fainted again.

She woke up again, three days later, in the hospital.

Lin Wenwen lay on the bed and fell asleep, the surroundings were quiet, and it was dark outside.

She didn't move, for fear of alarming Lin Wenwen.

But Lin Wenwen still woke up, she set off the alarm clock, Lin Nuan was on a drip, and she had to call someone to come over to change it.

She woke up and saw Lin Nuan with her eyes open, she was stunned at first, and then cried with joy, she was speechless with excitement, she held Lin Nuan's hand, tightly, and after a while, she held back a sentence, "It's good that you can wake up again." ”

Lin Nuan slowly tugged at the corners of his mouth, revealing a very shallow smile.

Lin Wenwen said: "Warmth, you want to live, do you understand?"

"I know. "Her voice was very soft and soft, and it sounded weak.

Lin Wenwen wiped her tears and pressed the nurse's bell.

She didn't dare to leave a single step, she hadn't returned home for the past few days, and the children were all taken care of by maids. She didn't dare to leave, she was afraid that Lin Nuan would wake up and no one would see it, and then she would do something stupid.

When people are impulsive, they really do anything.

She didn't look like she could live.

She was really worried.

originally wanted to say that she would bring her children back, but in the current situation, she didn't dare to say anything, and no one dared to ask, for fear that if she talked too much, it would hurt them.

"Warm, you still have two children, you know?"

Her voice was soft, "For the sake of two children, you can't be okay either." Cen Jinghuai is gone, they can't lose you anymore, do you know?"

Lin Wen's eyelashes trembled, and when she heard the words Cen Jinghuai was gone, her heart also hurt, she smiled and said, "I know, sister, don't worry, I won't let myself have trouble." I'm fine, I've thought about the outcome, so he's gone, and I'll accept it. I accept them all. ”

"When you say that, I believe you. ”

She was still smiling, "What are you doing? You think I'm going to kill myself?"

"It's not impossible. ”

She smiled deeper, but her smile didn't reach the bottom of her eyes, "Sister, you also said that I have two children, how can I die? Only Cen Jinghuai has the ability to abandon us." ”

"It's not easy to say that, I heard from people in the hospital that he had been shot a lot, and the rapid bruise in his brain, not only did not go away, but it grew bigger and bigger. Her words stopped there, sighed, and said: "There are some things, we have nowhere to reason, people like Cen Jinghuai, such a way of dying, I feel unfair when I look at it, you are sad and I am sad." But people can't be resurrected after death, life still has to go on, and people who are alive still have to live, don't you say?"

"Hmm. ”

Lin Nuan nodded, thinking of the last words Cen Jinghuai said in her dream.

He said, "Wait for me." ”

She closed her eyes, she believed the words.

She believed that he was not dead, that he would not die, and that he would definitely come back.

Good people will be rewarded, she believes that a good person like Cen Jinghuai, the Bodhisattva will definitely be able to see it, and will definitely bless him with peace and sound.

Lin Wenwen didn't say more, she just hoped that what she said was the truth, and sincerely hoped that she really thought like this.

The nurse came, saw the person awake, and went to call the doctor on duty.

After a brief inspection, Lin Nuan was fine, and he had to recuperate well.

Lin Nuan was quite obedient and did not do anything extreme or worrying.

It seems that he really accepted Cen Jinghuai's departure calmly.

In the days that followed, people came to see her.