Twenty-five, the past is unbearable

One

After Qin Mingliang died, Wu Xiaoxiang was in a trance for a long time, and as soon as she closed her eyes, she was Qin Mingliang's shadow.

Wu Xiaoxiang always recalled the scene in the university before, at that time, how good, she held Qin Mingming's arm, and went in and out of the school in the school, attracting many envious eyes, they went to the school cafeteria together to line up to buy food, bought food, Qin Mingliang fed her, she fed Qin Mingliang. They went to evening self-study together, read books for a while, and read Qin Mingliang for a while. On Sunday, they took the bus together to the city, to see the Sun Yat-sen Mausoleum, take a walk around Xuanwu Lake, and walk the Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge.

When she just graduated, how good Qin Mingliang was to her, Qin Mingliang's family had already found a good job for him in his hometown, he didn't go, regardless of the opposition of his family, he wanted to come to the northwest wholeheartedly and be with Wu Xiaoxiang.

I remember that year, Qin Mingliang came to the provincial capital, just got off the train, he encountered a sandstorm, covering the sky and the sun, no one could be seen on the other side, Qin Mingliang hugged Wu Xiaoxiang tightly, Wu Xiaoxiang shrank in Qin Mingliang's arms, she hoped that this sandstorm would keep blowing, and she would be in Qin Mingliang's arms, like this for a lifetime.

After work, they are in a system again, during the day, they work hard, after work, no matter spring, summer, autumn and winter, no matter the wind or rain, Qin Mingliang rode a bicycle, came to the forestry station where Wu Xiaoxiang worked, picked her up, and on the way home, Wu Xiaoxiang sat on the back hanger of the bicycle, hugged Qin Mingliang's waist tightly with both hands, closed his eyes, and enjoyed the warmth of this man.

Since when did they start quarreling?

Oh, it started when Wu Xiaoxiang was promoted by the organization.

You can no longer leave work on time as before.

The small trees in the forest farm have insects, and it is useless for the workers to spray them, looking at the small trees full of holes, the workers are anxious, and the leaders are even more anxious.

Invited experts, twenty-four novel monitoring, to find the reason.

Wu Xiaoxiang, together with other leaders, accompanied the experts to find ways to find countermeasures.

Qin Mingliang waited and waited at the gate of the forestry station where Wu Xiaoxiang worked, but it was already completely dark, and there was no trace of Wu Xiaoxiang.

A staff member of the forest farm came out and said that Stationmaster Wu couldn't go home today and asked him to go back.

Qin Mingliang was sullen, he didn't pick up Wu Xiaoxiang, his son was in kindergarten, it was so late, he hadn't picked it up yet, his son should make trouble again.

Wu Xiaoxiang didn't go home all night.

Two

Qin Mingliang returned home, and his son asked his father, where is my mother?

Qin Mingliang said indignantly: "Your mother ran away with someone!"

The son was crying.

Wu Xiaoxiang couldn't take care of her son and Qin Mingliang anymore.

Qin Mingliang bought his son's clothes, and Qin Mingliang checked and signed his son's homework.

Picking up children, sending children, shopping for vegetables, cooking, washing clothes, and cleaning up the house, Qin Mingliang has become a family "cook".

Qin Mingliang became more and more impatient, his temper began to deteriorate, and finally, he broke out and hit Wu Xiaoxiang.

The first time he hit Wu Xiaoxiang, Qin Mingliang also regretted it, looking at Wu Xiaoxiang's crying pear blossoms with rain, Qin Mingliang felt extremely uncomfortable.

However, the number of times is too much, and it becomes numb.

After Qin Mingliang walked for a while, Wu Xiaoxiang began to reflect on herself, Qin Mingliang had many mistakes, so didn't he have any responsibility at all?

Is it intolerable? Is there no room for it?

Anyway, Qin Mingliang is dead now, people die like lights going out, and they will never be seen again, think about it, forget about him.

However, not only could I not forget, but I also thought more and more about it, thinking about his disadvantages and his benefits.

Is it wrong to get a marriage that you love with yourself?

Qin Mingliang is destined to make Wu Xiaoxiang unforgettable for the rest of her life. She swore that she would never find a man again for the rest of her life, and she would be alone for the rest of her life.

My sister said that she knew this was the case, so why bother in the first place? Find another one, good man, there are many.

My sister said that she and her ex-husband have been divorced for many years and know how difficult it is for a single woman to live alone: "You don't know now, but you will know later, it's okay during the day, it's alone at night, that loneliness, that loneliness, that helplessness." As the saying goes, good children are not as good as halfway couples, or find one as soon as possible, sister, when I was young, I was more stubborn than you, my mother said many times, just don't look for it, now, people are old, want to find, there is no room, it's late, you are busy, there is no time, sister will find it for you, this time, you must find an honest man, accompany you for a lifetime. ”

Three

Qin Mingming's death also left an indelible impression on his son Dabao.

Although his son Dabao has witnessed Qin Mingliang's atrocities many times. But he still thinks that Qin Mingliang is his father, a relative who gave birth to him and raised him, no matter how wrong he is, no matter whether he makes progress or not, and even beats his mother and him all the time, Qin Mingliang still shouldn't die like that.

Dabao stubbornly believes that his father's death is directly related to his mother, because his mother never cared about his father, was inconsiderate of his father, patronized his own career, and buried himself in work, which caused a huge psychological loss for his father.

Dabao has rarely seen his mother once since he was a child, since he went to kindergarten, his father sent him by bicycle, and later, when he went to elementary school and junior high school, his father accompanied him, held parent-teacher conferences, and his father went, every morning, Dabao sat on the back hanger of the bicycle, looked at his father's wide and thick back, and felt that his heart was very steady, this thick back gave him a shield from the wind and rain, gave him infinite strength, and gave him a sense of security. When he sleeps at night, he likes to get into his father's bed and lean on his father's solid chest. He didn't want to lean into his mother's arms, her breasts were too soft.

Dabao believes that his father has a lot of bad things, grumpy, always beating his mother, but that is caused by his mother not caring about the family, although his father is not good at cooking, he can't make any exquisite dishes, but his father is diligent, hard-working, meticulous to make delicious home-cooked food, so that Dabao eats well and eats full.

Four

Dabao saw that his mother had never cooked at home, nor did he do housework, let alone pick him up in kindergarten, since he was a child, his mother had endless meetings and endless work, Dabao was at home every night, looking forward to his mother coming back early, so that he could get close to his mother and talk about interesting things in the kindergarten, but every time, he looked forward to it and looked forward to it, fell asleep in a daze, woke up, and his mother still did not come back.

Dad is at home, always sighing, hating himself for not progressing, can't go hand in hand with his mother, Dabao was a child, he didn't understand adult things, grew up, knew, he said to Dad: "Dad, don't be sad, you don't progress, you are my good father." ”

When Dad was drunk, he beat Mom and Dabao, Dabao thought that Dad beat them because of his bitterness, and Dabao didn't hate Dabao.

Since Dabao remembers, his parents have always quarreled and quarreled, and later, he always fights, he wants to persuade, but he doesn't dare, he grew up, and finally once, when he saw his father beating his mother, he didn't know where the courage came from, rushed up, hugged his father, and threw his father on the bed, Dad looked at him, whining and crying, he also cried, and cried with his father, he saw that his father seemed to be getting old overnight, and his former tall and straight figure was rickety, and his temples had white hair, Dabao was sad, and in his heart, he was in great pain.

After his father died, Dabao became less talkative, and every day, he looked at everyone in the family with hatred, and he thought that it was these people who killed his father.

Dabao didn't want to stay in this house anymore, after graduating from high school, Dabao didn't go to the college entrance examination, he was alone, behind his mother's back, signed up for the army, and became an armed police soldier.

By the time Wu Xiaoxiang knew, Dabao had already packed his luggage and was ready to take the car to Xinjiang.

Wu Xiaoxiang never thought that her son would have such a decision, and her identity could not be obstructed. She could only pinch her nose and watch her son step on the train to Xinjiang.

The son left, and Wu Xiaoxiang fell to the ground crying. Now, she's truly alone.