Is that all?

Yuan Changwen sat on the grass in the park, next to the rockery waterfall, and the sound of rushing water seemed very abrupt at night.

I don't know why, but the waterfall in the park wasn't turned off tonight.

Yuan Changwen sat there, leaning on the big tree, looking up at the starry sky obliquely.

There are no stars in the sky, perhaps it is human pollution that hinders the display of the starry sky. You know, the starry sky has always been there, it has been appearing, and those starlights have been trying to shine into the lens of human beings.

Unfortunately, dark clouds, pollution, night lights, etc., these things have been hindering the emergence of the starry sky.

Is this all there for yourself?

Yuan Changwen had been slashing, and when he came here, he suddenly found that he had no anger and hatred, and gradually became calm and lazy.

In the past, this state of peace of mind has always been regarded as a sign of a master. Not impatient, calm and peaceful, not tired of everything.

However, this is ultimately in duality, in the role after all.

If non-dualistic awareness is like the top of a mountain, then Yuan Changwen is somewhere on the mountainside at the moment. The scenery here is very good, and it will not be constrained by the dust at the foot of the mountain. The air is fresh, the stream flows, and maybe there's a cabin.

However, this is not the top of the mountain!

If you don't need to go to the top of the mountain, it's the perfect place to rest. Look at the creek, catch fish, wander around the greenery, and lie on the trees to enjoy the afterglow of the sunset.

Do you want to go to the top of the mountain? The scenery is so good, do you still have to climb? Even if you don't have non-dualistic awareness, it's good at the moment, at least there's almost no fear in sight.

Yuan Changwen felt that he had run out of fuel, and his hatred for falsehood seemed to have dissipated. Without anger and negativity, how can we continue to kill?

Is it really stopping here?

Can't you reach the top of the mountain after all?

This road is not something that can be advanced through hard work, and it is not something that can be gained by gritting your teeth and persevering. Along the way, it is by anger, by the hatred of self-definition, and the negative emotions brought about by the hatred of falsehood are the only driving force.

Yuan Changwen was a little uncomfortable, as if a monster was about to erupt from his chest, but the monster was very small, and it didn't seem to be enough to make people suffocate.

Night, is it really night?

Is the sound of a waterfall really the sound of a waterfall when I hear it?

This world does not belong to me, this body does not belong to me, this thinking does not belong to me, what else belongs to me?

If nothing belongs to me, then what the hell are you doing here?

Past experiences, learning, cognition, etc., have perfectly shaped the role of Yuan Changwen, so we must firmly grasp the reluctance to die.

Can I really break these attachments?

Yuan Changwen is a little unsure, who is sure of these things, and it is not possible to practice many times. In comparison, those tasks that are nine deaths and one life seem extremely naïve.

If you are proud and high-spirited, you already know that you are in failure. It's so unreasonable, it's so nonsense, is this why so many people can't take this step?

Yuan Changwen slowly closed his eyes, wrapped himself with spiritual power, and began to meditate.

It's not that there are no thoughts, but that you observe your own thoughts, and gradually widen the gap between your thoughts.

After so many years of practice, Yuan Changwen has become familiar with the road, and he soon calmed down.

Meditation?

What's the point?

It's just a character.

Any practice that does not touch the self-definition is nothing more than a brutal fullness of character. No matter what the method, you have to kill your self-definition in order to embark on the only path.

After so many years, is his practice so ridiculous in the eyes of his teacher?

It doesn't touch the core at all, and naturally it won't be painful. All the efforts are to strengthen this role, and I don't know it yet.

So what is my current meditation?

Yuan Changwen opened his eyes, didn't meditate, didn't meditate, just stared at the night sky blankly.

There was nothing there, only a little starlight visible to the naked eye. His own starship is somewhere, and the brain will send verification messages every day.

Yuan Changwen began to think wildly, without a clue, and let his thoughts run like a wild horse.

I still feel uncomfortable in my heart, is this the fuel for killing? Can I continue to move forward?

Yuan Changwen didn't know, and he wouldn't pretend to know.

It's really strange, obviously I was full of anger before, why did all of a sudden the anger disappear, and I was only slightly dissatisfied.

Did you lose? Competing with self-definition, or losing?

Why? Why, should a false character have such power? Am I doing nothing but clinging to self-definition?

Or are you in too much of a hurry?

Yuan Changwen didn't know, he didn't know at all, the teacher didn't give a detailed map, referring to the path of killing. Of course, there is no way to give a map at all.

In fact, it's useless to hold the map.

Trying to find a map, wanting to know more, that's in itself a hindrance. The only thing that matters is to move forward, and everything else is an obstacle.

Kill or not.

It's as simple as that, don't you know if you're in a state of killing? If you don't know, it's dishonest, it's whitewashing, it's the same as whitewashing for so many years.

Well, can I do it? What the hell am I doing? Is I on the right track?

One question after another filled Yuan Changwen's mind, and he couldn't find the answer.

What's more, Yuan Changwen already knew deep down in his heart that destroying the problem was not the answer at all.

Should I turn back? Should I continue to cover up? Forget to kill, forget to falsehood, and continue to live in ignorance?

Back in the empire, with my cultivation, I am still the first person in the empire, and I can still enjoy the worship of everyone. Even if the family has such and such problems, even if the empire has such and such disgusting things, at least they are familiar with it.

I know what to do, I know where I am in the Empire, what I should do. Nothing is at a loss, and everything is not unknown.

Should I go back?

Could the so-called beheading be fake? Are those ancient cultivation methods deceitful? And the teacher, could it be just a big conspiracy?

Cut!

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt funny, what kind of thing am I, a conspiracy specially formulated for me? A scam specifically aimed at me?

Can I go back?

Yuan Changwen tried to imagine the kind of life that used to be, the kind of days when they wore masks and communicated with each other. It's not that wearing a mask is bad, and it's not that it's a sincere interaction to remove the mask.

Without this statement, everyone thinks that after taking off the mask, it is a true self. In fact, there is no such thing as "true self" at all, and when the mask is removed, there is "no self".

However, everyone wears masks without knowing it, they are all working hard for the masks, and most importantly, they are all being manipulated by the masks and fear.

It's not people with masks, it's masks with people!

Get back?

Kill me.