When I woke up early, I lay on the couch and asked myself more than once.

How did I become the way I am now, living the way I hate the most?

I smelled of alcohol, I couldn't get conscious, I didn't know how I got back, and when I was drunk, I was angry and angry at the people who cared about me.

It was already dark, and when I looked at the time on my phone, it was already half past five in the morning.

Got up from the sofa and was about to go back to the house, and then Jiang Yan's room opened, and she walked out of it.

"Let's talk. She looked at me, then stood across from me and said.

I could hear the seriousness of her words, and there was a look of non-refusal.

I nodded numbly.

"Do you think it's really good for a man to get drunk every day?"

Her words were light, but I could hear a great deal of disgust in them.

"I'm sorry. The corners of my mouth moved, and I didn't know how to answer her question, so I could only answer with these three soft words.

Jiang Yan laughed when she heard my 'I'm sorry'.

I know, it's laughing at me.

I also know that this answer of mine is not the answer she said she wanted.

I'm also annoyed with myself like this, but it's really hard to change.

"I don't want to hear these three words you should know, so can you tell me the answer that is in my mind?"

I rubbed my head and lit a cigarette.

"I... Take your time, it's annoying and confusing, so that's the only way I can make myself better. ”

"Slowly? How long is it slow, is it a day or two days, is it a month or longer?"

She said it harshly, but I felt like she was on top.

I'm also a little annoyed, and I want to do something to me, so I said take my time.

"You really manage too much, I'm not happy, I'm not happy, I want to numb myself with alcohol, this is my business, you don't have to care about me in the future, it's dead or alive, it's okay!

Jiang Yan looked at me, and then the atmosphere became solemn.

"You always think only of yourself, and I don't want the person I share a room with to be a person who gets drunk every day. ”

"You never think about me, I'm a woman, and I face an unconscious person who drinks every day, and I worry about what will happen to me and make me feel insecure. ”

"Li Yu, take care, please be mature. ”

Jiang Yan returned to her room after saying this, and walked out after a few minutes, and then left her key still on the ground.

He walked out of the door with his suitcase in his hand, and then slammed the door shut.

The sound of her coming down the stairs was heard in the corridor, very crisply, without the slightest hesitation.

This time...

It's really a sentence.

It never starts, it ends.

In the quiet room, all I could hear was my pounding heartbeat.

I slammed the glass on the coffee table to the ground, and then I hit it with my fist.

One punch, two punches, and finally until blood flowed from my hand.

Let's go, let's go, it's far away from me.

Just like Li Nian once said to me, I will always be the one who disappoints.

Just like Jiang Yan said to me today, I am an immature person.

Don't you all want to say I'm a naïve person, well, I admit it, and I accept it.

I sat on the couch for a long time, and the blood in my hands was dripping on the clean floor.

Finally, he shook his head, there was something more painful than this.

sighed, and vented almost, life has to go on, continue to breathe.

He took out the potion from the TV cabinet and treated it briefly, and then bandaged himself tightly with gauze.

After resting for a long time, I walked out of the house, went to the breakfast shop downstairs to take a bite, and then repeated the same as yesterday to get on the bus to the unit.

After arriving at the unit, my Xiao Qi saw me and asked me what was wrong with my hand.

I just smiled at her, said something I had accidentally touched, and went back to my desk.

The day passed quickly, and it was dull.

Some people like this kind of relaxation, some people like busy sweating, and now I am also confused, which one do I like.

After work, eating, getting drunk, this is my arrangement for today.

When I came to the door of the 'Lost' bar once, unlike yesterday, I was even more embarrassed today.

After walking in, yesterday's boss looked at me, and then at me again, the hand who could play the guitar yesterday was already bandaged with gauze today.

The boss nodded at me, and I replied.

After ordering a few beers, what I didn't expect was that the boss actually brought it to me personally.

He put the beer on the table and whispered, "Order a song, you can see you're in a bad mood." ”

I thought about it for a while, and then said to the boss, 'Sing a song of Faye Wong's laughter and forget the book'.

The boss snapped his fingers and replied to me, "Tasteful." ”

The boss on the dim stage walked up slowly with a guitar in his arms, and then a beam of light shone on her.

Maybe she's in a bad mood too, or she's never been in a good mood.

The guitar prelude sounded, and although I couldn't play it anymore, I could still move my other hand and follow the rhythm of my boss.

When the boss saw me, he smiled softly at me.

The melodious voice sang out, and every song of hers sang her feelings, and this one was no exception, because it sang to my heart.

After a song, I got up from my seat and began to applaud her, despite the wound on my hand.

Then the gauze was a little red, and my hands hurt.

The boss put down his guitar and walked over to me, saw my current state and said, "Need help?"

I shook my head, not wanting to bother people too much.

Just like yesterday's checkout, the boss didn't say anything else, took a look at me, nodded and went to work elsewhere.

After drinking the beer I wanted, it was time to leave after listening to the story in the song, and when I came to the bar, I didn't ask the price, but still gave the boss 300 yuan and walked out of the door.

I spent a day's wages like this, but this time I didn't feel distressed.

Just a few steps out the door, I heard a voice behind me, the voice of the 'lost' bar owner.

"I've been drinking for two days, don't come tomorrow, let yourself rest. ”

I lit a cigarette and asked, a little incredulously, "You can't lose money for doing this?"

The boss laughed when he heard my words.

"Money is nothing outside of the body. ”

"Boss, I'm very stubborn, the more you say you won't let me, the more I will come. ”

"I'm also very stubborn, the more you say you want to come, I won't let you in. ”

"We'll see!"

"We'll see!"