On the third day, when Li Shaohui was about to go to work as usual, he received a call from Lu Yao, Li Shaohui hesitated for a while, but still connected.

On the other side of the phone, Lu Yao had already bought the tickets for the two of them and was waiting for him to leave.

Li Shaohui bowed his head to the phone and pondered for a long time, still hesitating. At this time, the breeze rushed in through the window, gently blowing Li Shaohui's cheeks, and also blowing the yellowed old book on the table, which was a collection of Xi Murong's essays "On the Dark River", the breeze rolled the book, rustling, and finally the breeze was naughty and tired, and suddenly disappeared, so that the old book stayed in the unintentional page, and there was a small poem "Youth" on it,

"All the endings have been written,

All the tears have also departed,

But suddenly I forgot what kind of beginning,

On that old summer day that never returns,

No matter how hard I go,

The young you are only like a cloud shadow passing by,

And your smiling countenance is very light and light,

Gradually disappearing into the mountains after sunset,

Then he turned the yellowed title page,

Fate bound it very poorly,

With tears in my eyes, I read and read,

But I have to admit it,

Youth is a book that is too hasty. ”

"Yes, what is gone is gone after all, everything can't go back to the original appearance, although the broken mirror can be reunited, but the crack is still shocking. Li Shaohui sighed and thought again, "Even if this kindness gives Tang Fengling hope and allows her to survive, how will she spend the days to come, and will she always accompany her? But can she really throw away all her prejudices, just like at the beginning? If there was still hesitation before, now that I think about it, I definitely don't want to be with her, since I have decided to be the most familiar stranger, then I shouldn't go, otherwise she will just be rescued from the tiger's den and pushed into the wolf's den." ”

Li Shaohui finally made up his mind, and in Lu Yao's urgent urging, he said indifferently: "Sister Yaoyao, I said that I wouldn't go, you just told Tang Fengling that I also hope that she can cheer up and don't give up on herself, I think if she is a person with a heart, she will stand up again without you and me." ”

Lu Yao on the other end of the phone gritted her teeth and sneered: "Li Shaohui, what are you talking about? Are you talking about human words? You are just farting." ”

Li Shaohui closed his eyes in pain, didn't listen to Lu Yao's scolding anymore, hung up the phone resolutely, hid his face and pondered, at this moment, he suddenly found himself a useless person, powerless to the breakdown of Yu Qiangzhai Luyao's marriage, powerless to the pain of the promise he had loved, powerless to Xiao Bei's death, powerless to Xia Xue's departure from Lin Yue'er, powerless to the grief of everyone around him, powerless to do anything about the loss of all the good things around him, he is like a sinful disaster, whoever gets close to him will suffer from the disaster of no reason。

I heard that the climate in the Middle East is harsh, the yellow sand is full of sky, and there are constant wars, since I can't get relief in this bustling metropolis, shouldn't I also go there to experience it like Liu's big head, and let the harsh environment there wash my increasingly tired soul?

When Li Shaohui was about to leave for work with complicated feelings, there was a "knock" sound of slamming the door, Li Shaohui smiled bitterly, and had already guessed who the visitor was.

Lu Yao, who had just come in, was speechless for a long time, staring at Li Shaohui tightly, with resentment and contempt, biting her lip tightly, and said word by word: "Li-Shao-Hui, do you really want to learn more than a strong village?"

Li Shaohui pondered for a moment and sighed deeply, "I won't learn from Lao Yu, and I won't become a person like Lao Yu, but I don't owe her anything Tang Fengling, her life and death have nothing to do with me - it has nothing to do with me." ”

"Okay, you men are really ruthless, kind. Lu Yao nodded resentfully, and suddenly laughed again: "Li Shaohui, remember what you said, I hope you don't regret it." After that, she took out a notebook from her bag and smashed it in Li Shaohui's face, and sneered: "This is what I found from Ling'er's rental house, and it has always been placed next to her pillow, originally I was afraid that you would be sad and guilty, so I didn't dare to show you, but now I found out that you are such a person, so what else do I think about for you?"

Li Shaohui was caught off guard and was slammed in the face by the notebook, and then the notebook fell to the ground again, Li Shaohui looked down, his body was stunned, and he stood in place.

This is a slightly old notebook, its cover is made of pink, the top of the cover is a blue sky inlaid with a rising red sun, under the red sun is a pool of turquoise water, in the lake two mandarin ducks lapping the water, frolicking, their play disturbed the sparrows perched in the trees on the shore, chirping and flying into the distance, leaving rows of willow trees, under the encouragement of the breeze, mischievously teasing, under the trees the pair of young men and girls who are reading books with their backs to each other.

Since Tang Fengling left, Li Shaohui has never seen this kind of notebook in the style of a young girl, and now he has almost forgotten its style and content.

Now Li Shaohui prefers to use a black office notebook, because it not only represents maturity, but also represents a farewell to the past, and also represents a secular city.

At this time, Lu Yao said coldly: "Li Shaohui, don't you want to know why Ling'er betrayed you and why she didn't say goodbye? ”

Li Shaohui glanced at Lu Yao suspiciously, and opened the page, which was a beautiful and neat font, which recorded the girl's heart, ignorant feelings and grievances, and what flowed was simple happiness, faint happiness... Looking at it, Li Shaohui's eyes were slightly moist, and his face was melancholy.

He calmed himself down for a moment, and then continued to look behind him, and this time, he was stunned as if he had been struck by lightning.

Suddenly, he tore the notebook a few times and threw it into the distance, as if he was going to tear up the whole past and throw it away...

After a long time, Li Shaohui, who was in pain, trembled again, squatted down, and went to pick up the notebook that had been scattered all over the ground, just picking it up, and he left tears, why? Why is this happening? Why let her, a young woman, suffer such a disaster...

Li Shaohui, who was depressed, followed Lu Yao on the plane, he looked out the window with a gloomy face, without saying a word, Lu Yao on the side gently patted him on the shoulder and comforted: "Shaohui, since the incident has happened, it is useless for you to regret and feel guilty, the only thing we can do now is to do our best to help Ling'er overcome drug addiction and get out of the haze." ”

Li Shaohui sneered noncommittally: "What do I regret, what do I feel guilty about?"

Lu Yao sighed and said: "You just die, I don't bother to talk about you, if you don't regret it and don't feel guilty, will you go to Shenzhen with me?" And let me tell you, go to find Ling'er, you have to be kind to others, although she is not taking drugs right, but after all, there is a reason for it, you can't teach others with a cold face." ”

"Got it, I'm in my own way. Li Shaohui responded impatiently and put his coat on his head.

The sudden darkness made Li Shaohui suddenly think of the previous bits and pieces, and remembered the night Tang Fengling left.

That night, Tang Fengling was very diligent and gentle, she made a very sumptuous dinner, and bought a bottle of red wine to celebrate her upcoming 24th birthday.

During the banquet, she smiled softly, kept pouring food and wine for herself, and looked at herself with a pulse, but she rarely tasted it. When she was feasting, she was still looking forward to the bright future of the two, she wanted to settle down in Nanjing, buy a small house, have a pair of children, and live a happy life with husband and children, she even thought about the names of her children...

After the meal, I understood her hard work in cooking and took the initiative to take the task of washing the pots and dishes after the meal, but she didn't follow and insisted on resting on the side.

After that, she cleaned up the house inside and out, so that the small house where the two lived was brand new and spotless.

After cleaning the house, it was already about 10 o'clock in the middle of the night, and I started my evening entertainment life again---- struggling in the Summoner's Canyon, but my luck that day was not very good, and I knelt a few times in a row, and I actually fell into the platinum segment, which made my heart very annoyed, so in a fit of anger, I opened a few more handfuls.

While playing the game by herself, Tang Fengling gently hugged herself from behind and said gently, "Shaohui, can you take a look at me?"

At that time, he was still immersed in the thrill of the game fight, so he naturally didn't have time to worry about Tang Fengling's girl's thoughts, so he didn't look back, and shouted impatiently: "Look at it every day, what's there to see?"

Finally, after the game was over, he turned around and looked at Tang Fengling, who had been waiting for a long time.

Tang Fengling was very beautiful that day, with long hair like a waterfall, and no powder on her face, but because she had just taken a bath, she had a kind of purity and charm of clear water out of hibiscus, and she also wore a pink and white silk bathrobe that night, revealing a large area of snow-white skin and slender calves, giving herself a desire to knock her down, and Tang Fengling also smiled lightly, blushing: "Shaohui, it's not too early, let's go to bed!"

He swallowed his saliva, turned his head to look at the fiery record on the computer screen, and was very unwilling, so he was ruthless, and said incomprehensibly: "Ling'er, you sleep first, I'll play a few more." ”

"You can also play the game in the future, let's go to bed early today!" Tang Fengling said, shy and annoyed, and her face was even more flushed.

"You go to bed first, and I'll be right there. As he spoke, he opened it again, ruthlessly not following Tang Fengling's advice, and experiencing the pleasure of fighting in that emptiness.

However, playing games is the same as gambling, it is also very particular about luck, sometimes bad luck comes, no matter how hard you work, you will lose, those negative players such as hanging up and dropping the line to send people to the head will come to the appointment, but I am a game gambler, I have not believed in evil and do not admit defeat, so that night I am more and more defeated, more and more defeated.

Waited until two o'clock in the morning, finally won, looking at the record of a little green among thousands of reds, he could only shake his dizzy head, unwilling to go to bed, and when he lay down, Tang Fengling turned around and tightly landlorded herself.