In the Yulu Palace, the water vapor is thick, and everything is like an illusion in the eyes, hazy.

The hot spring water is slippery, but it can't wash away the coldness and sadness in my heart.

He stayed in my room, and he couldn't help himself, but it turned out that it was only for a familiar sound, and the sound of "Qing'er" in the vast night called me, or "Lean'er".

Marrying into a heavenly family is destined to have nothing to do with love, which I understand, and I have never expected his heart.

However, now, I find that I can't do it without care.

Perhaps, I can accept the fact that he doesn't love me.

But I can't tolerate it, I unintentionally became someone else's stand-in.

What hurt him was my habitual deep heart and pride, my ease and self-satisfaction that I had in the past, even if it only existed in a moment.

"Qing'er......" The mother's worried voice sounded, and she turned her head to meet her deep gaze, full of pity and guilt.

My gaze slowly swept over the white marble full of ponds, paused slightly, adjusted my emotions, and then asked unusually calmly, "Mother, do you know whether the princess of the former dynasty likes hot springs?"

The mother was stunned for a moment, and then replied: "I have never heard of this, but because of the holy grace, she was able to go out of Beijing often to live in Lishan, and at that time, the Third Highness was her personal guard. ”

I nodded slightly, and my lips slowly brought a touch of self-deprecation, so it was, sure enough, such an extreme luxury, just to restore what she liked in her heart, or to remember the beauty of the past.

Even myself, in his eyes, was only seen as a similar shadow?

But even so, even if the love was so unforgettable, he still forced her to death himself, watching her fall off the cliff of ten thousand blades.

"Qing'er, don't laugh like that!" my mother wrenched my shoulders hard, her eyes were distressed, but more with firmness and toughness, she looked at me, and said word by word: "Listen, Ning Yutian is dead, and the daughter of my Murong family can't compete with a dead man." In any case, you remember, you are the one who is in this Gyokuro Hall now, and you will only be the one who is qualified to enjoy this hot spring and endless honor in the future, do you understand?"

I inhaled deeply, and all the emotions in my heart surged like a dark tide, but finally gradually settled into the first and final calm.

I looked at my mother and smiled faintly: "Let my mother worry, never again." Today's events just make me see more clearly and understand what I should ask for and what I shouldn't. Now, my daughter doesn't want anything, she just wants my Murong family to be able to multiply and be at peace. ”

The mother's eyes were deeply moved, and she paused for a long time, and finally sighed: "Qing'er, you have always been such a sensible child." Sometimes, I really don't know if it's right or wrong to tell you this. ”

sent his mother away and returned to Guimo Pavilion, but saw Xunyun standing outside the door with calm eyebrows, I don't know how long I waited.

Seeing me come back, she stepped forward to salute, and I smiled faintly: "Since the girl is here, why don't you let people call me, waiting like this, but I can't help it." ”

She replied quietly, "Xunyun also just arrived, and he didn't wait too long. ”

After speaking, he took a Hetian white jade bowl from the little girl behind him, and respectfully offered it to me: "This is what His Royal Highness specially ordered Xunyun to boil for the princess." ”

I opened the gold cover, and in the jade bowl was the "Four Joy Soup", which was boiled with red dates, peanuts, longan, and lotus seeds, which means "early birth of a noble son".

The day after the wedding, although Nan Chengyao was not there, I also drank this soup as usual, and now, it is in my hands again, I can't help but smile self-deprecatingly.

"His Royal Highness entered the palace in a hurry, even if he thought about it carefully, he was afraid that he would not bother with such a trivial matter, this bowl of 'four happy soup' must be a piece of the girl's heart, and Miss Lao bothered. ”

Xunyun probably didn't expect me to say this, and hurriedly raised his eyes to look at me, but I didn't see it, and reached out and gently scooped a spoonful with a golden spoon and put it into my mouth.

Soft and sweet, fragrant in the mouth, I couldn't help but smile: "Miss Xunyun is a good craft, I can't learn this." ”

Xunyun lowered his eyebrows and replied meekly: "The princess is a golden branch and jade leaf, why do you have to do this." ”

Shu Ying also smiled on the side: "Good Miss, just tell me what you want to eat, I don't want you to do these things, these hands of yours are only suitable for playing the piano and painting." Xunyun, you don't know how well my young lady plays the piano. ”

I shook my hand holding the spoon, almost spilled the soup, and calmed down my emotions, although my face did not change, but the "four happy soup" in my hand was no longer able to eat no matter what.

Shuying didn't notice my abnormality, and still said to herself: "Miss, when will you play last night's song for me again, okay?" Even His Royal Highness ...... it."

"Okay, Shuying, don't say any more. I forced myself to press it, but I finally couldn't, although the tone was not too emotional, but I couldn't hold back in the end, and interrupted her.

She didn't react for a while, she looked at me a little apprehensively, I closed my eyes slightly, and then spoke again, smiling slightly: "It's not that you don't know that what I like is Qin Zheng." ”

Shu Ying's face relaxed, and said with a smile: "What should I think is wrong, it scared me, but it is also said that Miss's Qin Zheng is indeed more comfortable to play." ”

I smiled quietly and said no more, but I couldn't stop feeling slightly disgusted in my heart.

I have seen it through, but I still don't have the freedom I imagined, and I can't really do nothing.

From the moment I saw Xunyun, I may not even notice it, but I have become sharp unconsciously, and it seems that only in this way can my self-esteem be better.

The curvature of the lips unconsciously brought a bit of self-deprecation and helplessness, and now this may be unavoidable, but after a long time, it will always be good.

While thinking like this, I raised my eyes absentmindedly, but I was bumping into Xunyun's eyes looking at me, which was subtle and calm.

My heart moved, and I was about to say something, but I heard the voice of the little girl outside the pavilion: "Sister Chasing Rain is here." ”

I laughed, what's the matter today, Nan Chengyao's two henchmen and maidservants have come to my Ink Pavilion one after the other.

The rain-chasing temperament is not as quiet as Xunyun, the voice arrives first before the person arrives, and there is a panic in the voice that is extremely self-controlled but can't be hidden after all: "Xunyun, you go back with me, Your Highness has already arrived at the main gate of the palace......"