Who am I?

This question has been haunting Yuan Changwen's mind for a long time, from the beginning of the incomprehension, gradually deprived of self-definition, and gradually revealed the existence of the character.

See how the characters distort me, see how the self-definition deceives me.

Still, I couldn't be outraged by that.

I know it's false, but I'm willing to enjoy it.

I knew I wasn't my job, but the fear in my heart was always pushing me to find a label to define myself.

I want to start killing smoothly, and I want to roar domineeringly, "Who else!"

That veil-like falsehood floats right in front of you, and with just a slight poke, all illusions will disappear. I, on the other hand, didn't have the courage to lift my finger.

How long are you going to manipulate me, and how long are you going to manipulate me?!

Why should I speculate about the future of life? Why do I always want a particular future?

If I don't have control over the future, why bother with fear and anxiety?

Characters want to be settled, characters want to be precise, and self-definition elevates humans to incredible heights, but that's just an unproven assumption.

Let me let it go!

Let the character die, okay?

There are no distorted views, there are no labels for the world, everything is a novelty. I don't know anything about the future, and I'm grateful for the future with an ecological curiosity.

I can be grateful and show that I am still alive. Isn't it a miracle that you are still alive in this life where you can die at any time?

Think about it, how likely are you to cause your own death every day, and how many ways are you going to cause your own death?

To be alive is a miracle, a miracle that is staged every moment of every day.

If there is anything else in the future, let everyone who should come come.

I don't have any fighting spirit, I'm talking about people like me. Oh no, I'm still fighting and I'm dying.

Distorted perceptions, to be precise, all perceptions are distorted. Because there is no such thing as perception, and the character deliberately creates right and wrong, deliberately guiding human beings to make the choice of opinion, so as to control life.

I'm just a rude kid who says "I'm right and you're wrong" and always fights over toys on the grounds that "what did he do first?" ”

Life is just about working, getting married, having children, traveling, and there must be more than that, but why don't I dare to break through all this? Why do I still cling to self-definition?

What's wrong with me!

While complaining about the disgusting shit, I went to eat the shit and smeared the shit all over my body.

Death is looming, and I'm getting closer to death every day.

Life has no meaning, all meanings are false, and all perceptions are distorted.

The character is manipulating me, and any action exists to flesh out the character.

That's what I saw, so why deny it?

The character has a busy life, but is busy for the sake of being busy, because it doesn't know what to do except be busy. In order to make others think, "Ouch, this character is not bad, quite busy and serious." ”

Everyone is an actor, and they affirm each other through their roles. And after the role is affirmed, the motivation is greater and the search for recognition is more diligent.

Even if it's a look of recognition.

What am I doing? Let this role manipulate me? Let my values sway me? Let those bullshit ideas influence me?

The character is the character, it's not me at all!

Why can't I get rid of it? It's not mine, but under my banner, it's swaggering and deceiving in this world.

And what everyone likes is the character, not me. I like my words, I like my thoughts, I like my opinions, I like my experiences, I like my work......

What else is there to be nostalgic for?

Legendary Family?Legendary Love?Legendary Beauty?

Some people are trying to live for me, some people are humbling for me, some people are desperate for me, and some people are doing things they hate for me.

So, should I reciprocate, should I stay, should I make them laugh too?

It has always been "everyone helps each other, then the world is a better place", which at first glance may sound like this, but this is entirely based on the principle of "everyone kills each other".

If everyone helps each other and makes it a source of happiness, then the end result is that everyone is in misery.

Because everyone is helping each other, at the end of the day, there must be nothing to help with. If there are still people who need help, then it means that someone is not helping, and it will lead to someone needing help.

And after no one needs help, people who help each other as a source of happiness, what else is there but suffering?

Perhaps, everyone will discuss and pretend to create some suffering in order to obtain the happiness of helping each other.

And, why live together when you don't need help, staring at each other's places where you need help, but you're always depressed because you can't find them?

Wouldn't it be better to enjoy your own time at this time?

And when I get out of the role, I don't need much help. Only the character will need to continue to plump up, continue to achieve a certain goal.

Just like a character in the game, you have to complete the tasks that belong to this character.

This in itself is a self-definition. All traditional virtues are self-defined, forcibly distorted, and exist to consolidate the whole society.

Everyone must obey traditional virtues, even if they can't do it, but they will try to do something, and no one will deny these traditional virtues. Society doesn't allow it, and neither will the people around you.

It can be said that traditional virtues have been the source of my lowest choice of character actions for so many years.

I want to be a good person, so I do something good, or I don't do something bad.

I want to be filial, so I often go home to visit my parents, at least not to kill them.

I want to be responsible, so I press my inner desires, at least I won't throw away my responsibilities with great fanfare.

No matter how whitewashed, traditional virtues exist to strengthen society. Once society collapses, these traditional virtues disappear immediately. For example, when there is only one person left in the world.

Roles must follow certain rules and don't care what those rules are, but there must be a framework for delineating the roles. Otherwise, the character cannot exist.

If I want to get rid of the character, then all the self-definition that creates the character needs to be killed.

Authenticity is where you go.

Maybe it will be spurned, maybe it will become a negative teaching material, and more likely no one will know about it at all.

There is nothing sacred that cannot be explored, either true or false. And what is false must be discarded.

I know I don't have the courage and determination to start the killing, but I'm going to try, and I'm going to pray for it to happen. Even if it will tear my life apart, haha, to be honest, I don't see anything to be nostalgic about my current life.

Come, I plead for that moment to come, I pray for that event to appear.

There's always an opportunity for this to happen.

Because, I have seen the unreal, and the real absolutely exists.

What is the reason to remain in the midst of falsehood?