Doing nothing, but not being idle.

There's always going to be something to do, and whatever you do, you're going to get caught up in the role.

I can't stand in that position of awareness, I can't be that consciousness, after all, it's just a picture element.

There are too many distortions in my head, and those baseless affirmations are quietly presumptuous there.

It's all emotional, and there's no reason at all.

I just deserve to die, and I can only die.

What are you doing here, what kind of shit to survive, die.

I was looking forward to my own death like crazy, and the rest of the things didn't matter anymore, just death.

I don't care about what to kill anymore, and I don't want to care about when I'm done, just let me die.

It's all just something that I'm aware of, and I don't have any interest in it.

There is no essential difference between being aware of this and being aware of that, it's just that fear drives me to distinguish and chase after it.

It's all a reasonable arrangement, because it can only be arranged in this way, in fact, after putting aside the distortion in your mind, you can really see perfection.

It's not some kind of like "thank your opponent because they make themselves stronger", what if they kill me?

Is it that I can't thank my opponent because I didn't get stronger or better and died.

This so-called gratitude is just a trade-off, compared with the inexplicable state of being full of gratitude, the gratitude that is distorted in the mind is just a kind of nonsense.

I'm not grateful for anything, on the contrary, I don't know why it's grateful, I just feel that everything is perfect.

You can use picture elements to explain picture elements, such as the development trajectory of your own life, etc., but it is not the gratitude that comes from this kind of thinking.

It is only when we have gratitude that we think like this, and only then do we see the perfection of these things.

The distortion in the mind is all based on fear, and the so-called gratitude is just the joy of looking back after success, if you can't succeed in your life.

And that inexplicable gratitude is perfect at this moment, and the fullness of the heart makes it impossible to do anything to interrupt.

I don't have any reason to try because I'm fine at the moment and feel perfect about it all.

And the distortion in the mind will emphasize hard work, emphasize struggle, because fear is chasing behind.

This kind of sitting there with satisfaction and a little happiness, the distortion in the mind will be called "not seeking progress" or "not pursuing" or something like that.

When I think of the books and words I once admired, they were just a cross-dressing show of fear.

If you look at it honestly, you will find that all of this admiration is simply due to fear.

There is no way to throw away the fear, only to ignore the fear and hack the boss at the same time, and before hacking the boss, you will encounter endless fear to prevent you from slashing the boss.

If you don't know this, then if you just fight against fear, you will naturally win with "fear does not appear".

At this time, he fell into the cross-dressing performance of fear, and he has become an obedient lamb under the whip of fear.

Suddenly I think it's funny, go to any circle that promotes gratitude, ask them why they are grateful, and most of the time no one can answer clearly.

Either it's an answer like "gratitude is good" and you don't know what's good, or it's an unfounded affirmation like "people should be grateful".

Or, the humble begging that "gratitude can make your life better."

People can not be grateful, whether they are grateful or not, just like whether they like to eat bitter gourd, is only a personal preference.

The weird thing is that when I see that this is all nonsense, when I let go of "people must be kind" and "people must be grateful", I became full of gratitude.

It seems that I didn't choose to be grateful, but after discarding all this nonsense, I was grateful and came in.

I have no reason to do bad things, and I have no reason to do good things.

I will not force myself to do good deeds because of the fear of "good will be rewarded for evil and evil will be rewarded".

It's just going with the flow, and I don't hesitate to do something bad, because there's nothing twisted to pull me in.

It's this discarding that makes me feel relaxed and natural.

Perhaps, in the eyes of others, it seems that I am kind, because I will be kind enough to remind others that something has fallen behind, or that I will help others when they need help, or even seem like I am a good person.

But I knew in my heart that all this had nothing to do with good or evil, just with the flow.

Or rather, it's just that going down the river doesn't provide exact directions, and I just don't care.

In a way, the biggest enemy in life is oneself, because there is no one else at all.

The so-called "other people's eyes" are only "I think" other people's eyes, which have something to do with others.

Those industry information, those social ideas, those views about the universe, what the law of the jungle, what natural selection, what efforts can grasp the opportunity, what life is a battle, what loss of all should not lose courage......

Aren't these all "I think" stuff?

I'm the only one in the whole world, no one else.

Others are only aware of the content, I am only aware of the content, and the trees and flowers are still only the content of the awareness.

What else is there besides "I think"?

Slashing characters, like plump characters, is just something you realize.

There was no one else, only me, only that awareness.

I no longer believe that other people are real people, and I can't even think that others are real people without hindrance as I once did.

Loneliness is unfolding, a loneliness that is completely different from loneliness.

It is not the loneliness of hiding in a house or in the mountains without seeing people or friends, but the loneliness that still emerges when you see people on the street, even if you see friends chatting with you.

The world is not real, there is no one else at all.

When chatting, I will temporarily shift my attention, as if the character of Yuan Changwen is a real person and the other party is also a real person, so as to enter the role to chat.

As soon as you think of slashing, you will think of "what you are aware of", and loneliness will follow.

However, it is not obvious, and it may not be very obvious until the kill is completed.

That kind of human interaction, the state where there are so many important things that I need to pursue, I don't have time to think about the reality of the world, and I don't have time to experience that loneliness.

Perhaps, it is precisely because of this design that I have always been immersed in the characters, so that I can fully experience the whole false world.

When you are busy, you don't think, and you don't have the heart to stop and think about "who I am" when you are driven by fear.

Characters will want to be superior, but in a false world, this behavior is simply.

Only when I see it will I feel ridiculous, but when I didn't see it, I would take it for granted and work hard for the pinnacle of life.