553 STOP 2 STOP-2: New Purgatory City's "Spiritual Mentor"

-Hideka's subconscious-

04：22 AM

Hideka realized that her mental endurance limit was approaching, and now she was standing on the edge of a cliff, and the ball of her forefoot was already hanging in the air, and she would fall if she moved forward slightly.

Tremble in the balance.

Xiuxiang is at ease.

There is no real feeling.

If it hurts, you have to feel the pain very much, such as cutting your body with a knife, that is the pain you can feel.

And this feeling, as if watching a movie that is not very attractive, after watching the joys, sorrows and sorrows of the characters, I feel that it is just like that, if there is a little more resonance, it is difficult to trigger.

Xiuxiang felt that her real sense of this place was already a tube of toothpaste that was running out, and if she didn't use scissors to cut the toothpaste skin and pull out the toothpaste from it, no matter how much effort she tried, she couldn't squeeze out anything.

Here, living, dying, happy, sad, all faint.

Here, heaven and earth seem to have nothing to do with themselves.

Here, being so detached from reality cannot but be said to be a kind of pathetic.

But what effect will any change have on the true self?

"I see, where am I!"

Xiuxiang has now completely understood that her body is in that car at all, and she is not going anywhere.

Her consciousness, however, was active, with little rest......

Consciousness can allow itself to do anything, because consciousness is equivalent to fantasy, fantasy is unlimited, fantasy has no boundaries, so fantasy can do anything, then you can be here and there all at once.

"It's me?" thought to Hideka, bitterly.

"Could it be that I am the mastermind behind the scenes?" Xiuxiang felt that saying this sentence would make her feel painful, although it didn't really hurt, but maybe it was like drinking dry red, and it wasn't necessarily necessary to get drunk and take preemptive action.

Using an electric drill to drill the body, at that time, I told the running drill bit how to make myself painful, and it was after the drill bit was pulled out that those pains hit the brain.

Xiuka still couldn't believe it.

"Even if you are the one who creates fantasy worlds, you can't create anything yourself. However, you should not throw yourself into a terrible world full of unknowns, let yourself constantly experience pain and suffering, constantly face the unknown and challenges, and constantly be subject to all kinds of stimuli. Thinking of this, Xiuxiang felt that if she reasoned according to this logic, she seemed to be a pervert, a complete masochistic pervert.

"It can't be. "Xiuka has to remind herself that your mind is already dangerous.

First of all, I am so cute, it is impossible to change the sky.

Secondly, he is so sensible, it is impossible to love and abuse, whether it is to give or receive, it is unimaginable for Xiuxiang.

She tried to think that she would whip the toiling people with a leather whip, but she could not feel that her hand would not be so neatly lowered. How to ignore the suffering of others, this cannot be done at Hideka's age and experience, because she still retains a compassionate heart.

"So, it's not me. "What I'm missing is a spiritual mentor who can guide me and tell me how to do it." I won't be like this, even if a person has countless faces, there is no such face, and even if it exists, I will completely destroy her. ”

"If there is a guru like that, someone tells them when to stop. ”

Even when I'm on the edge of a cliff, no one says a word in my ear: Stop.

How Hideka looked forward to hearing the voice "Danger!"

That's just a synonym for comfort.

There should always be someone in your ears to tell yourself, but now your vision and hearing world are quiet, without any intruders, this is a **quiet world.

I got used to the sound of the traffic on the road outside, the sound of the wind, the rain, and the sound of "rustling" that I don't know what it was, and I got used to the sound that should be in my ears.

But now, it's too quiet.

"Terrible. Hideka concluded that what made her stand on the edge of the cliff was not danger and imminent danger, but the kind of horror that was bound, "isolation".

Isolation, not for no reason.

Isolation, not suddenly.

Isolated, right in the heart of Hideka.

She knew that there was fear in her heart.

She didn't know what that meant until she found out it was isolation.

"Nothing happens for nothing. Xiuxiang chewed on this sentence, electric light flashed from her mind, and disappeared into the black night sky, "Yes, by the way, someone did all this on purpose!"

Xiuxiang had determined it before, but now her heart was not just affirmative, but almost frustrated unwillingness.

"Unexpectedly, I was kept in the dark. ”

"It's too much, it's too much. Hideka wanted to hold on to something because the sense of authenticity was being lost, as was the kind of unreality that she felt at first, a tension that was difficult to put into words.

"What you should have known a long time ago, you just couldn't find out. ”