"Teacher, am I doing the right thing?"

"Teacher, did I take the first step?"

"Teacher, don't leave me, okay?"

In the ruins, the teacher's figure is always in front, and Yuan Changwen desperately wants to catch it, but he can't catch it. Even when the teacher heard the shouting and turned around, he still didn't speak.

Don't go!

Tell me, did I take my first step!

Yuan Changwen chased after him in the ruins, dusting up every step, but the teacher's back was even more hazy.

What did I do wrong, and why didn't you answer me, teacher?

There was no sound, only the earth-yellow ruins, the broken pillar, standing silently.

Where is this?

Why did I meet a teacher?

Yuan Changwen asked himself, and suddenly found himself dreaming.

Lucid dreams?

Yuan Changwen looked at the teacher's distant back, and found that he was still catching up, and every step had to be hard to take a step.

Why do I know I'm dreaming, but I still can't control my body?

Thinking about the problem in his mind, his body is still chasing the teacher's back.

What the?

…………

Yuan Changwen opened his eyes, and it was pitch black all around, and he didn't seem to be able to see the green before. But the spiritual power clearly told Yuan Changwen that the green aura still shrouded the entire city.

I don't know what this green aura is, but every time I inject my spiritual power into it, especially when I take the initiative to spread my spiritual power and don't control it, I obviously feel the slow growth of my spiritual power and the feeling of comfort.

How could I dream of the teacher? and ask the teacher aloud if I had taken the first step?

It seems that the killing has a great impact on him. If you think about it carefully, how can it not be big? I am the character of Yuan Changwen, and killing the character is equivalent to destroying the whole person.

I wonder if the teacher had experienced the same pain at the beginning?

Definitely, no one can easily kill a character, and no one can kill a character without a little pain. If there is really no pain at all, it means that he is not controlled by the character at all, and such a person himself does not need to be killed.

I have always believed that the cultivation of spiritual power requires effort and talent, and that the whole process of spiritual practice should be a peaceful, upward and loving journey. But it never occurred to me that the path had become so dark, and that I had become irritable and full of hatred.

Be open-minded and accept views that are contrary to your own?

Sorry, I can't. It's just a fake exchange, just to affirm each other's roles. I can't have any opinions, once I have an opinion, there is an opinion, and all opinions are distortions.

Yuan Changwen was lying on the bed, his eyes open and he didn't feel sleepy. It's pitch black all around, how should I move forward?

Where do you go from here?

Yuan Changwen had no hatred or anger at the moment, and he was lying alone in the dark night, unable to find his direction at all.

I'm not done yet, but I can't even see the way forward. I know that my mind is full of falsehood, but I can't find a target to kill.

What could be more pitiful than that?

Yuan Changwen remembered that he was once a student, and at that time, academic performance was almost the only criterion for measuring a student. Although the school will emphasize comprehensive quality and various specialties, everyone knows in their hearts that top students will always be welcome. As long as the top students are not arrogant, it is generally difficult to make classmates hate.

When I grew up, it seemed that "success" was the only measure of a person. Although society will likewise promote what is outside of money for love life, as well as those for a fulfilling lifestyle. But we know deep down that rich people are always welcome, and deep down we just want to be rich.

it!

Is there any difference between the two?

Doesn't that mean that I haven't grown up at all? I'm just a rude kid, and although the content of the judgment has changed, the whole pattern has not changed at all.

Stirring with colored metal sticks is more mature than stirring with wooden sticks?

Each period has its own pursuits, which is a good rhetoric.

Every era has its own troubles, and that's a pertinent description.

I'm a piece of shit at every age, and there's no difference at all. Maybe after the age of ten, I won't have any growth to speak of. Everything is in the same mode, it's just a matter of changing the content.

It's always fear, it's always driven by fear, and it's always about the desire under fear.

"One day, I suddenly became a top student, super awesome. No one dared to reprimand me, and those teachers were very respectful when they saw me, and they went to class when they wanted to, and they went home and played games if they didn't want to go to class. Whoever calls me good grades, the principal has to be polite and three-pointed, otherwise who will fight for the highest honor in the school? Believe it or not, I will change schools?"

"One day, I became the richest man in the world / I had superpowers / I had a golden finger, and I wanted to make those who looked down on me kneel in front of me honestly. Anyone, no matter how powerful they are, has to bow their heads in front of me. Play with the whole earth, surrender or die!"

Please tell me, does it make a difference?

Then as an adult, I looked down on me in school, what is the importance of academic performance? You're too naïve and naïve, and there's still a lot to learn.

Shit!

Why do you say these things? Why do you think that the world is real? Why do you think that your own views are correct? Constantly trying to convince others, constantly proving that you are right, Rinima is disgusting.

Adults look down on the school, and the school looks down on the children, what does this Nima mean?

Anyway, I just want to express that I'm the best, you are all scum. And those students, who seem to ignore the so-called society, ignore the so-called adult world, and compare themselves with each other in their own circles.

Or is it healthy competition?

Isn't that the case with me now? Ignoring the false self-definition in my head, ignoring my own distorted views, clinging to a small circle and trying to compare. Career, income, companion, travel location, food and clothing?

Such a poor brain, such a limited cognition, and then I tried my best to toss in this rather limited circle, trying to make everyone recognize my height. Showing off, comparing, and constantly forcing others to recognize me.

And for those people who will make me admire, those who will make me contribute to the recognition, I generally don't reach out. Even if it is contacted, it is another show-off, "You see, I'd rather be a phoenix tail than a chicken head, look at how hard I work, I don't want to waste time at your level." ”

Perhaps, this is the ladder of social progress.

However, it's none of my business! Any society, any imperial dream, is all false.

Damn, I won't be able to talk to people at all, because no matter what I say, it's a kind of falsehood and an opinion, and it's all affirming the other person and my role.

It just so happens that I'm the only one here.

Lucky......