In the past, we stubbornly thought that to love someone, we had to love the result, whether it was good or bad, it had to be vigorous and full of wind and rain.

Later, I experienced the helplessness of separation and integration, and realized that in the game of love, only a sincere heart is far from enough, those little things hidden in daily life, every minute can make you crazy, love to the end, maybe just a stinky sock that was thrown away, can become the fuse of your parting ways.

Would it be a pity? Absolutely. But it can only be regretted.

Later, even if you have the opportunity to meet again, none of them can really start over like in the movies, so I understand that some people miss out on it forever.

You keep repeating the phrase, "I don't love you anymore, really." "If you say so much that you believe yourself, you can even greet him calmly, as if you never loved each other.

But only you know who the tears and the countless sleepless nights after turning around.

A while ago, my friend's company carried out a big layoff, and he happened to be on the list of layoffs. In fact, after staying in the workplace for so long, it is not unusual to change jobs, but being laid off is something he has never had in his eight-year career.

He said that when he saw his name from the layoff list, he had a feeling of five thunderstorms, as if he had worked all the extra shifts in the past, stayed up all the nights, and all the efforts he had made for the job were all denied at that moment.

The word "layoff" is different from job hopping, it is like being criticized by my name on the bulletin board when I was in school, which is a kind of denial to the world.

On the day he left the company after completing all kinds of formalities, he stood on the overpass of the International Trade Center, with motionless vehicles under his feet, he said that at that moment, he was really on the verge of collapse, but when his parents called to ask him about his current situation, he still held back all his grievances as before, and then pretended to be very impatient, and said to them: "Don't worry, I'm fine." “

The collapse of adults is silent, it is obvious that they have been crushed by life, but they still have to hold on in front of others, giggling like a nobody, until they return to their rooms and close the door, they dare to let themselves crumble into powder.

In order to play a good role as a quiet adult, we keep forcing ourselves to become stronger, talkative, and indifferent, but only we know how many unspeakable things are hidden behind those giggles.

When I was cleaning up WeChat on the weekend, I saw the avatar of an old friend in the dialog box.

At that time, we were both in the city for the first time, and the money in our pockets was cleaner than our faces, and in order to reduce the cost of renting a house, she posted online to recruit roommates, and I happened to see it. That's how we met, and for a long time, we lived together in that rental house of less than 10 square meters.

We've all seen each other at their worst, and we've shared our hearts with each other without any defense.

I still remember the day when I decided to rent a house next to our respective companies and live separately, I was playing skewers and drinking beer with her at the barbecue stall next to the community, and she poured a plastic glass full of beer to clink glasses with me, and said with a smile: "Although it will take two hours to meet in the future, we still have to keep in touch often." “

My chick pecked rice and nodded in agreement, but then our intersection became less and less, and the content of the WeChat chat quickly changed from the original twitter to a polite and awkward chat. And now, her WeChat avatar has fallen silent at the bottom of the conversation list.

In "Spirited Away", it is said that life is a train to the grave, there will be many stops on the way, and it is difficult for someone to accompany you from beginning to end. When the person accompanying you is about to get out of the car, you should be grateful, even if you are reluctant, and wave goodbye.

In fact, we all understand that people who can really keep in touch don't need to deliberately emphasize the phrase "always in touch". It's just that in this popular world of parting, no one is good at saying goodbye, so the phrase "often contact" has become the most euphemistic farewell in the relationship.

There is a line in "I Only Like You" that says: "We were all taught to be honest since we were children, but suddenly one day, you find that everyone around you has learned to lie, some people lie for themselves, and some people lie for others." “

In the past, we thought that honesty and straightforwardness were the only way to do things, but when we grew up, we realized that many times insincere "lies" are the last gentle line of defense before an emotional breakdown.

How can there be a truly indifferent and ruthless person, but the ups and downs of life are never at all by others, so many grievances can only be slowly resolved by themselves, but I still hope that all your duplicity can be understood and hurt by others.