Chen Xing stood in the largest room on the second floor, saying that it was a room, but there was actually nothing at all, a bed board, a table, a chair, and that was all. Chen Xing sighed, walked to the table and saw a piece of paper on the table, on which was written in crooked black ink, "I know I don't deserve all the good things." ”

Seeing this word, Chen Xing felt a pain in his head, and there was also pain in his heart, the pain like his heart being squeezed made Chen Xing squat down directly and form a ball, and beads of sweat poured out on his head.

After a long time, Chen Xing recovered and regained his mobility, and the pain was like the distress of experiencing a master on this body.

Seeing that note, more memories appeared in his head, and it has been several times today, Chen Xing wiped the beads of sweat on his forehead, stood up and sat down on the chair, looking at the white paper spread out on the table, he already knew why Chen Xing committed suicide, depression.

Luo Feng knows very well how desperate depression is, because he has experienced it, he was also a depressed patient, but he came out through his own efforts, of course, not completely, there is a saying that depression cannot be truly cured, there is always a chance of recurrence, but Luo Feng chose to continue to live.

When he was still Luo Feng, he had an ordinary childhood, an ordinary college graduate, he was an ordinary person who lived an ordinary life and was pampered by ordinary parents, he found a job and lived an ordinary life.

Until one day, a car accident took away his parents, and since then he quit his job and started wandering alone.

Everything has changed.

Whew, Chen Xing took a deep breath and picked up the blank paper on the table, "I know I'm not worthy of all good things." "These words are so glaring and bleak, it's very hard, Chen Xing.

Brother, you should wait a little longer, you really deserve all love and joy.

Folded the white paper upright and put it in the table drawer, Chen Xing stood up, since everything is irretrievable, he has to live well, and the last Chen Xing got eternal peace.

But I still have to live.

Chen Xing walked to the toilet and looked at the slightly childish pale face in the dim glass, only those eyes were inexplicably calm and firm. I can be regarded as reborn, but this is the worst rebirth, I didn't go back to the past, and I was reborn in a person who had nothing, which is really—nothing.

There is no so-called cheating, but Chen Xing doesn't think there is anything, his soul is cheating, the soul of the twenty-seven-year-old Luo Feng is in the fifteen-year-old Chen Xing, this is cheating. You've experienced youth, you've experienced loneliness, you've experienced pain, you've experienced friendship, love, maturity, and that's not just a word.

But now is not the time to think about this, Chen Xing is very hungry, the sky is dark, it's time for dinner, not to mention that the ghost knows if Chen Xing ate before jumping, anyway, he is starving to death now.

But there was not a single grain of rice in this house, Chen Xing searched his memory, and there was no memory to explain where there was money in this house.

No wonder it's depressed? Who suffers from this?

Chen Xing really endured it, when he wandered around in his previous life, there were a lot of hungry times at the beginning, and then there were fewer and fewer people, people live for a lifetime, and one mouth can make you full most of the time.

Take begging for food, begging for food, in the past, begging from door to door was to beg for some food, and few people who were allowed did not give leftovers, until the goal of begging became money, all this has changed, and it also shows from the side that today's beggars actually eat a full meal.

Chen Xing walked out of this concrete, steel and stone brick combination, shook the gray short sleeves on his body, and it was a little wet, but Chen Xing didn't mind, and then looked at the big open space around the corner of the house, except for this house, there was no other house, of course, if this can also be called a house.

This clearing can be said to be halfway up the mountain, just by the sea, the sea water washes the reef under the cliff, Chen Xing stands next to the cliff, he is more than ten meters in the sea, the sea breeze blows his wet clothes, and his salty hair, he jumped from here to commit suicide.

Who would have thought that this chicken break building is still a sea view house?

The sea, Chen Xing likes to see the sea very much, otherwise he would not have taken a boat to the sea.

Cooing, his stomach screamed, calling Chen Xing back to reality, rubbing his stomach, alas, there were no abs.

Hey, Chen Xing saw that there were people fishing on the reef not far from the cliff, licked his lips, his eyes flashed, it was time to use this mouth.

Go back along the road you came up just now, and after walking for a while, Chen Xing arrived at the rocky reef, a middle-aged man was wearing a straw hat, fishing with a fishing rod in front of him, and the sea water was half rushing and half slowly beating on the reef, this kind of place fishing is really good.

Chen Xing pursed his lips when he saw the straw hat, people who wore straw hats to go out fishing in the summer of this year are really emotional, although the sun is not big now, but most people will buy a fishing hat, and some even wrap it like an Afghan woman with only one eye exposed.

Chen Xing was not too dirty, he sat next to the middle-aged man and looked at the live fish net in the water, well, there was movement.

"Big brother, what's the matter, what kind of fish?" Chen Xing said with a smile after confirming that there was a fish.

The middle-aged man didn't expect this young man to talk to him as soon as he came over, in fact, the fisherman met others this kind of chat is very frequent, that is, when he himself walks one day and meets someone fishing, he will definitely go up to chat a few words, but that is a person of their age, how many young people are fishing, let alone chatting like this.

No one minds having someone to chat with, unless you want to be alone.

"It's okay, so-so, a few more catches at high tide. The middle-aged man also responded kindly.

When Chen Xing heard this, he stood up and pulled up the fishing net in the water and looked at it, "Hey, that's right, it's all so big." ”

It is very good, there are a few white and chubby ones that are more than enough to eat for a meal, Chen Xing swallowed his saliva at an angle that the middle-aged man could not see and put the fishing net back into the water.

"Haha. The middle-aged man smiled proudly, which fisherman doesn't like to be told that the fish he catches is big, this fart is not tired.

Chen Xing sat back next to the middle-aged man again, and he didn't have a word to talk to the middle-aged man.

If young people may be a little disgusted by this kind of chat that comes up directly, but people who are a little older will not mind this kind of chat, and they may only find out when they are older, and many times it is a good thing to have someone to chat with you.

The middle-aged man was also in a good mood, chatting with the young man in front of him, chatting and chatting, he found out how he felt like a peer.

"Does the eldest brother have a child?"

"I have a daughter. ”

"How old are you, are you in college?"

"I'm an intern, I'm older than you. ”

"Oh, that's great, you don't have to worry about the kids. ”

Hearing this, the middle-aged man even glanced at the young man next to him, his face was still childish, he looked like a minor, his face was still so flat when he said this, I felt a little weird at my age, my daughters are older than you!

Although it's weird, the middle-aged man doesn't mind it so much, if this young man really talks to him about what young people do, he doesn't understand, open his mouth and close his mouth, what idol 101, what creation 101, Fan Fan, Hanhan, Kun Kun, what are they.

Chen Xing didn't think there was anything wrong with the topic he was talking about, so he talked to the middle-aged man, and also talked about the local situation, the environment, and occasionally the fish also helped the middle-aged man copy the net.

Soon it was dark, the sun was setting over the sea level, and the light was dim.

"Young man, I should go too, and you should go home too. The middle-aged man smiled and stood up from the stool, put away the fishing rod and said.

"Okay. Chen Xing also stood up and patted the dust on his buttocks to help the middle-aged man clean up his things, and when he saw that it was almost over, he picked up the fishing net in the water and handed it to the middle-aged man.

"Big brother, can you give me a fish?"

The middle-aged man was stunned for a moment when he heard this sentence when he took the fishing net, he was not hesitating to give the fish, but wondering why a young man would ask him for fish, this is not a good-looking ornamental fish, as for eating, the middle-aged man did not expect to go here.

In this era, are there still children in the family who run out to ask for fish for dinner?

Strange and strange, the middle-aged man quickly took out the largest fish from the fishing net and handed it to Chen Xing.

Chen Xing took it and pinched it with both hands, this fish strength is still quite big, and it is really difficult to control it with one hand.

"Let's go. The middle-aged man packed up his tools and said goodbye to Chen Xing with a smile.

Chen Xing also smiled and nodded, he wanted to wave his hand, but he grabbed the fish with his hand, and the fish waved its tail vigorously, splashing the sea water on his face.

The middle-aged man left, and Chen Xing took the fish and walked back.

The fish was still shaking vigorously.

Chen Xing threw the fish on a stone with all his might, and the big fish stared at it and twitched a few times before stopping.

What madness are you, brother?!

Chen Xing pinched the fishing net with one hand and whistled, and walked leisurely towards his "home".

The sea breeze on Chen Xing's face in the summer evening made Chen Xing have a strange sense of comfort, he was born inland in his previous life, and he had never seen the sea a few times, he liked the sea very much, otherwise he would not have sailed into the sea in a boat that day, and sank into the sea.

Carrying the fish back to the cold concrete steel mixture, Chen Xing walked into the kitchen, of course, it is the so-called "kitchen", there is no gas, there is a stove, but the whole kitchen is only a pot, and when he saw the Laotan sauerkraut packaging on the side, he knew that it was only used to cook instant noodles, but how did he cook it without gas?

Looking for it in the kitchen again, Chen Xing quickly got the result, there is a hot water kettle, this thing is good, Chen Xing clicked the hot water kettle and put it on, clasped his hands with anticipation and waited.

For a while, there was no movement.

Chen Xing's face full of anticipation fell, and after a closer look, the indicator light was not on. Chen Xing had a bad premonition in his heart, and walked quickly to the switch of the kitchen light, clicking, there was no movement,

If there is no electricity, it should be that the electricity bill has not been paid.

Chen Xing supported his forehead, with a headache, this time it was either because of the memory pouring out of his head, or because he had a simple headache, no wonder he jumped into the sea, did he know that he couldn't stand it when the power was cut off.

Fortunately, Chen Xing would not be knocked down like this, he sighed, and continued to look for it in the kitchen, and the corners were scattered, but fortunately, the kitchen was already empty and there was nothing, and Chen Xing quickly searched for it.

Found it! Chen Xing was surprised to take out a box of matches from the corner of a drawer, this fish, he Chen Xing has eaten it today! Chen Xing glanced at the motionless fish on the table next to him, his eyes were firm.

Handle the fish with a knife, there is no seasoning in the kitchen, Chen Xing was lucky to find a few packs of Laotan sauerkraut instant noodle seasoning package, good guy, sauerkraut fish!