Die, I have nothing but death,

And if the character wants to continue struggling, then he has to be interested in other things, such as earning money, dreams, etc.

There was a fear behind me, trying to divert my attention from "having no role", having to earn money, having to make a living, but I couldn't figure out where this "had to" came from.

I felt more and more the grief of death, and the urge to cry seemed like attending my own funeral, and I couldn't stop at all.

I don't know what all this is all about, like a broken engine, if you want to move forward or go back to the past, there is no way to do it.

Just waiting there to die.

I became idle every day, and even after removing the time, the phrase "every day" became unreliable.

It's just the realization that I had nothing to do yesterday at this moment, and it's just what I realized at this moment.

Memories become background information, just to enrich the authenticity of the moment, and it is not worth believing.

I still have fear, the character of Yuan Changwen itself is composed of fear, as long as the killing is not completed, then there should always be fear.

Whether or not to believe in fear, that's another matter.

Fear "has no role", but many things, it is the fear of losing character attributes to cover up the fear of "no role".

For example, there is no money, for example, there is no career of your own, for example, you dare not pursue anything, such as you must do good deeds, etc.

Fear is not real in itself, and my opponent is not fear.

It's like I'm not going to fight the boss's moves, but I need to kill the boss directly.

Treating a move as a target, and not getting a boss, is just going around in circles.

Die, nothing to live and nothing worth living.

Time no longer has continuity, and it is so inexplicably presented at this moment.

The memories are no longer real, and I am aware of the present, which contains memories of the past.

There is no reason to believe that what is in my memory has really happened, and it does not need to happen, only at this moment I take the memory in my head as real, then it has already played its due role.

I wanted to die, but I couldn't, and the tenacity of the characters turned it all into a constant tug-of-war.

The character also wants to grasp the "presentation", as if presenting time presents the character and the past, but it is just unreal.

It's just what you're aware of, and that awareness is real, and the rest is naturally not real.

The thing behind the wall is not presented, because the definition of the word "present" is the perceived element of the picture.

It seems hard to believe that the saying "things I can't see don't exist".

But what reason do I have to believe that "things I can't see exist"?

The crux of the whole matter is, if I can't prove that something exists, it must not exist?

That awareness is real, truth is everything, that awareness is everything, and naturally there is no place for anything else.

And the twist in my mind wants to entangle with the fact that I admit that none of this is true, but how am I going to deny that the world is present?

Using the definition of the word "present", it seems that the distortion in the mind cannot be quelled.

No, it's just what you're aware of.

I believe that the things behind the wall are still there, because I can clearly see the things behind the wall when I go behind the wall.

But that's still just what you're aware of.

What if one day the thing behind the wall was nothingness?

I wouldn't be surprised, because it's still just what I'm aware of, and the causality itself is wishful thinking.

There is nothing magical about being able to happen according to what I believe, and there is nothing magical about not happening according to what I believe.

It's all just what you're aware of.

Just as I believe that "when I was in the wet market, my home still exists", this belief itself is, I know it's not true, and I know that I'm just wishful thinking.

I fell into the trap of answering questions, as if I had to answer the questions, not destroy them.

The characters often change concepts like this, and I have to specialize in things that I can't answer at all.

Just as I can't answer the question "Does the world show the law of apples landing", I can't prove that apples will definitely land, but I can't prove that apples won't.

But I know that what I believe is, whether it is believing that "Apple will land" or "Apple will not land", it is.

It's all just the content of realization, the desire to confirm what is just a distortion in the mind, the desire to survive, the need to rely on these beliefs to analyze and weigh them.

It's all just to hinder the downstream, or rather, to take control of one's life from the downstream.

I don't know if the apple will fall to the ground, or if there will be anything else behind the wall.

But I know that no matter what, it's just what I'm aware of.

Believing that there is something behind the wall is brainwashing, believing that there is nothing behind the wall is still brainwashing.

However, the stuff behind the wall really isn't presented.

Unfortunately, the distortion in the mind has taken these beliefs as the truth, and I can't see that these are distortions, wishful thinking.

Just talking about the moment, then all speculation about apples falling to the ground, things behind walls, shopping for groceries and so on.

Everything based on time is speculation and.

What I can be sure of is that at this moment, the memory is not real, and what I see at this moment is not real, it is just what I am aware of.

I don't know if it's a compromise, all my anxieties are based on believing that the thing behind the wall is real.

I believe that the world is moving, that there is a cause and effect relationship to all of this, and that once these things are destroyed, anxiety will naturally lose its structural platform.

At the same time, the character of Yuan Changwen has also lost its authenticity.

Using "the thing behind the wall is not presented" may be a good way to destroy the distortion in the mind and cut off the anchor that is firmly clung to.

Because "the thing behind the wall is not presented", it is easier to get close to the stream, it is easier to overwhelm the characters, and it is easier to destroy those so-called cause and effect relationships.

What you realize at the moment is all there is to it, and the rest is just a relation, a speculation based on time.

Die, nothing, the role of Yuan Changwen does not exist at all.

The character wants to keep grasping something, but I know that the character is grabbing, and the character is just artificially distorted.

There is not a single character, and there is not a single me.

It's just what you're aware of, and it's impossible to know what the rules or essence of the content is.

All reasonable explanations are only speculation, and only that awareness is true.

It seems that stopping believing in this feeling is more like directly judging that there is none.

I don't know, it's more of a guess at this stage, I have no reason to guess, and I can't guess.

The world is not real, and I really don't understand where I have so many words to say.