928 How the whirlpool of abhorrence is resisted

-Ward 1701, M Hospital-

March 23rd

9：09 AM

Xiuxiang was thinking, "Am I a poor person?"

She thinks, she's not.

If you can live, you should be grateful, because the most priceless thing in the world is human life.

Different people have different judgments about Xiuxiang.

Undoubtedly, in the eyes of doctors and nurses, Xiuxiang is a lucky person.

However, in the eyes of the police and others in society, perhaps Hideka is an unfortunate person.

So, is Hideka herself a lucky person or an unlucky person?

She was favored by the heavens, and although she suffered many accidents, life went on, she was still alive, and she had found that person. Hideka discovers that now she finally understands why sometimes we don't really be happy when we get the wrong goal. Sometimes, it is not explained by some kind of mysterious "fate", everything is mutually effective, everything is arranged with a higher and more perfect subtlety, and we cannot understand all this.

Now, she was free from the curse of seeking.

Everything, okay, right?

She didn't have much to look for.

In the past few days, in the daytime, in the dream, in the fog, in the most marginal state of consciousness, she relived that wonderful trip again, and she seemed to have gone from "the sad feelings of separation from Childe" At first, she was really in pain, and she felt a heart-rending pain again in her dreams, however, she soon found that last night's experience seemed to open the dam of her heart, and those painful floods poured out, and now there was no sadness in the container of her heart, but empty, so that she didn't know how to adapt, can people only be immersed in a certain emotion?

She thought she was in love, but now she realizes that maybe she doesn't miss the past so much.

Fickle!

She wondered, what would life be like if she didn't look for that person?

Will she live a completely different life because of this?

Will the mystery of her past experience never be solved?

Even so, so what?

Now I found him, but found that although he was still close and far away, he could not touch it, but the encounter could not last long, but the wait was finally a memory, and her mood had changed unconsciously.

Xiuxiang discovered for the first time that there was a ruthless seed in her heart, and that kind of seed was in her heart, and this time she really found out, and now the seed is about to germinate, but she doesn't remember when she received this kind of thing.

Her state of mind is changing, she finds herself feeling "bored", this world, her attachment ends here, her pain and happiness also end here, everything ends.

She was a little surprised that she thought so!

From now on, completely separate from your past self, forget everything, let go of everything, and never look back again. Again, don't look for it anymore. Don't think about it anymore.

It's over.

She was amazed to find that the moment she looked at the police, the moment the police began to question herself, she had completely changed her mood, she had become- very lazy.

Her mood has hardly changed much, she knows that she has experienced a wavy line, and the general trend of falling from the peak of the wave has gone, it is difficult to turn around, and it is difficult to become "happy." ”

Perhaps, you can also say that she just goes with the flow, but she doesn't like this "Buddha" feeling, but it seems that she has to be dragged into this whirlpool and cannot be freed.

This is a spiraling downward vortex, and below this vortex is an invisible black area, and this vortex has an irresistible gravitational pull, which makes people involuntarily inhaled, like a kite manipulated by a kite string, like a puppet manipulated by a string, or an iron nail attracted by a magnet.

Now she has almost lost the obsession of seeking at the beginning, and feels that life may be about to be dull.

"Ah, my whole life. Xiuxiang's gaze was empty and indifferent, "Perhaps, it's just a simple past." ”

The police didn't seem to be listening to Hideka's monologue, they were still checking the transcript and checking the relevant information, and the older policeman brought a big black notebook, which was densely packed with many words, and the policeman's handwriting was neatly written, but it was not good-looking.

"Miss Han, are you single?" the young policeman asked, turning around.

"Yes, I don't have a boyfriend. Hideka replied.

"Since you mentioned a ...... Eh, the question of the fantasy world, can you tell us what you think?" The young policeman still looked a little interested, and this behavior once again proved that people's psychology of wanting to know more about things that are more bizarre and unbelievable is universal, and the so-called "curiosity" has swept almost the entire human world.

Hideka began to tell again, and after the police interrupted 5 or 6 times, Hideka finally finished her "succinct" statement, and she was basically satisfied with her sane and calm reaction this time.