Who am I?

This question is enough to destroy a normal person, as long as he is honest enough.

Yuan Changwen is like this, constantly asking himself "who am I", and then he ended up in this point, a murder cell psychiatric hospital.

It is no wonder that it is called the ultimate question of philosophy, and it really deserves its name.

If someone told Yuan Changwen before, asking himself "who am I" would make a person crazy. Yuan Changwen must have scoffed at this.

Just one question, is it so powerful?

Those so-called philosophies, in Yuan Changwen's eyes, are just full of food and nothing to do, and it is better to think about how to make money when you have that time, or have fun and relax.

But after experiencing the Orb Incident, Yuan Changwen became unable to trust the world. The illusion of the orb is so real, as real as it is at this moment now.

There are also all kinds of unbelievable days experienced by Yuan Changwen in the Orb Incident, not only the wishes can be fulfilled instantly, but also the emptiness after the satisfaction.

These things made Yuan Changwen have to think about what is real.

In fact, everyone has a certain sense of absurdity about the world and a sense of "what the hell is going on" about what they are doing.

Yuan Changwen was fortunate to find the definition of self-weaving in the exploration, and he himself was fed up with the pull of emotions, and his hatred of self-definition made him gradually embark on the road of killing.

In the end, it is concluded that everything except "I exist" is either "indeterminably true" or untrue.

I thought that this was the end of the matter. Who knows, understanding all this has not changed anything, emotions still come and go as much as they want, and the "self" still controls the thinking and imagination to be satisfied.

Further!

Submit to!

These two words have always supported Yuan Changwen, but unfortunately they don't seem to have any effect.

wants to surrender, but when things are stimulated, Yuan Changwen will find that he has not surrendered at all.

And the sense of ease that comes with surrendering will disappear after a while. The most terrifying thing is that after this sense of ease disappeared, Yuan Changwen's memory seemed to have disappeared.

I don't remember that the sense of ease in my body has disappeared, and I have to wait for another stimulation, and the degree must be very deep, so that Yuan Changwen can react, he has not surrendered for a long time.

In this way, a tug-of-war began between Yuan Changwen and "self". The two sides went back and forth, winning and losing each other.

And that stupid background, and that glimpse at the beginning, seems to be untouchable.

Even if Yuan Changwen is talking now: "Yuan Changwen is talking, I am aware." ”

Nor will I feel that different kind of awareness, that only true awareness.

There must be something that I have overlooked, or it still needs time, but time does not exist, so why should it take time?

Yuan Changwen is a little confused, in fact, what can he understand?

Surrender and surrender everything you have.

I don't want to understand what the problem is, anyway, God you can do it yourself, what do you love.

Lao Tzu stopped doing it, didn't think, no longer weighing the pros and cons and then picking one of them.

Who knows that what they have picked is the best?

I can only choose the best one within my knowledge, but this is really the best?

Who knows? Right, no one knows.

Yuan Changwen let go and surrendered, Lao Tzu won't play with you anymore, get out!

Life is here, I let it go now, this ship of life will either sink or continue sailing.

Whatever you want!

Thinking about the anxiety and fear he had in the past, Yuan Changwen was reluctant to go back.

Isn't it interesting to be selective about making a decision, and then being scared and pulled by fear every night?

Aren't those so-called open-mindedness just to comfort yourself after failure?

Why not be open-minded in the first place?

What do you live for?

All the meanings of life are additives in the background, and theoretically speaking, you can do whatever you want, and you are at ease in the world.

But in fact?

The most important thing is that I know this, but I can't get rid of the emotional pull brought about by self-definition, and I can't kill the attachment to some self-definition.

What hell is Nima!

Even if you surrender, you surrender from time to time.

Depend on!

How long will this last?

I'm just dead!

"Huh, little friend, you're not in the right state. ”

Yuan Changwen: "What's wrong?"

Lao Zhang looked at it a little strangely and said, "It stands to reason that those who have entered the cultivation should be unswerving. But Xiaoyou's breath is erratic, but it is not as confused as before the road. It's weird, it's weird. ”

Yuan Changwen smiled bitterly: "I don't know either." The only truth has been found, but nothing seems to have changed. ”

Lao Zhang: "The only truth?"

Yuan Changwen nodded: "Yes, 'I exist', this is the only truth." ”

Lao Zhang frowned and asked, "This world is not real?"

Yuan Changwen: "You can only say that you are aware of the existence of this world, but you can't be sure whether the world is real or not. ”

Lao Zhang hesitated a little and said, "Actually, there has been a saying in the Heavenly Machine Sect that our world is not real. Although it can be seen, it ...... Does what you see have to exist?"

Yuan Changwen was very surprised, this kind of thinking is exactly the same as himself!

Could it be that what kind of Heavenly Machine Sect is a person like himself?

Yuan Changwen was a little excited: "Then, has the Heavenly Machine Sect found the answer? What will happen in the end?"

Lao Zhang: "In the end, that person is crazy, and he is also a generation of romantic figures, talented, and he is the sect master of the Tianji Sect at a young age of no more than 100 years old." It's a pity...... Later, this question also bothered countless people, but no one went crazy and no one gave an answer. ”

Yuan Changwen: "There is no answer to this, the world belongs to the range of 'uncertain truth', you can't prove that it is real, and you can't prove that it is not real." ”

Lao Zhang: "So, the only truth is what 'I exist'?"

Yuan Changwen: "Yes, you can also say that you are aware, the awareness of being aware of your own thinking and speaking. ”

Lao Zhang was a little puzzled: "What about my Tao? I think it's true, so it's true." The contempt, disgust, or liking of others does not affect its authenticity. ”

Yuan Changwen smiled: "You also said, 'You think it's real'." In other words, it's not real in itself, it's what you think is true. ”

Lao Zhang took a step back abruptly, and then his whole body began to tremble, and his speech was intermittent.

"The old man understood...... I see...... It's ridiculous, what kind of cultivator do you call yourself...... No, it's true that he is a cultivator, but he hasn't cultivated to the truth...... Haha, think that Lidao is a real person, think that you are not bound by social morality is a real person?"

The old man finally understood that the only truth was the awareness...... Thank you, Xiaoyou...... When the old man moves forward with his own way, it is no longer real......"

"That awareness is the only one, and that's what it really means to be one...... There is also inaction, not because of the existence of cold to know heat, but because of the opposition between cold and hot, inaction!"

"Who said that the incarnation period is the end? Who said that practicing one's own way without being tempted by the outside world is a real person? Before the Tao is established, it is the 'false self', and after the Tao is established, it is the 'true self'? Fart!"

"Haha! The false self and the true self are both false, and the ultimate truth is that awareness, that is, 'selflessness'! After the transformation period, it should be 'selflessness', it should be a return to emptiness!"

Just when Lao Zhang was babbling nonsense, his cultivation seemed to come back, because he was standing in the air and saying these words.

Most people were attracted by Lao Zhang, especially the medical workers, who saw Lao Zhang teleport and levitate in mid-air.

"Little friend, the old man's cultivation is back. But it doesn't matter, the old man understands why that person went crazy in the first place, why no one is crazy anymore. This is suicide, who dares to erase the Tao that they have worked so hard to build?"

"Alright, little friend, I'm leaving. You have to continue, don't be in a hurry, the old man is waiting for you. By the way, you are very similar to my nephew, and you also realized the Great Dao at a young age. ”

"Haha!

After Lao Zhang finished speaking, he stood suspended in the air, and the whole person was ethereal. On the clouds, a bright light fell, as if to praise and lead, and the sky became a little reddish.

Boom!

The light faded and the sky returned to normal.

And Lao Zhang fell heavily to the ground.

He's dead.