I majored in puppetry in college, which is to stand behind a curtain and manipulate all kinds of puppets to perform for the audience, but strictly speaking, this is a behind-the-scenes job. After graduating from college, I entered the showbiz by chance, and when I stepped into front of the camera, in fact, I prefer to call myself an actor than the title of "star".

What is it like to be an actor? The first word that comes to mind is fear.

I have always believed that the entertainment industry is an illusory castle in the air, and it is difficult for people in this circle to have a sense of peace of mind. When you work hard but always wander downstream, you are worried about whether you are on the wrong path, you are just a little better, and you are afraid that your work will not keep up and your popularity will fall again, even if you stand at the top of this circle, you will be afraid that the back waves will be too fierce and the front waves will be slapped to death on the beach.

Of course, there are also some Buddhist actors, everything is fateful. But I believe that most people are still a little vanity and competitive, including me. But in fact, this is fine, let this vanity and competitiveness become the driving force to move forward.

The second word that comes to mind after seeing this question is unworthy.

I think I'm also an ordinary person, my appearance is not as good as Takeshi Kaneshiro, my height is not as good as Wu Yanzu, and my acting skills can only be regarded as a "novice village" in front of the real gods, but why can I get so many people's like? This is also the question I have always dared to delve into, because I will be weak-minded. Every time I see my wife Peng friends picking up the airport, giving gifts, etc., it makes me feel, where am I worthy of them doing this for me? I hope I can find the answer in the future......

Finally, there is a third word, amplification.

When we appear on television, when we appear on the Internet, when we appear in the public eye, everything we do, will be magnified. The good ones will be praised and praised to the point that the sky and the sun are shoulder to shoulder, and the bad ones will also be pointed out by thousands of people and scolded until the whole person is stunted, which is actually a unique and unequal phenomenon in the entertainment industry. Is it really that good, or is it so bad? In fact, most of the time it is not like this, but it is also something that no one can change, so most public figures actually enjoy the camera, but they are afraid of the camera.

In addition to the above three words that have been haunting the brain, there are actually many fragmentary events. For example, when you get the script for the first time and stand in front of the camera to act, you have no concept of the profession of an actor at all, and you won't take care of the camera position and lighting, etc., but the whole group is waiting for you, and you have to go on it!

and when I was filming "Machine Spirit 1", I didn't have a lot of experience, and I was even told by the on-site teacher that the track was pushed well, and the scene was a little worse. At that time, I gradually realized the importance of acting, and began to slowly explore how to play the right character, how to play a real character. Later, in "The Birth of an Actor", when the acting skills were recognized, there was a feeling that the effort was rewarded.

In fact, the happiest thing about "Acting Birthday" is that I find that I enjoy acting more and more, and now I will feel very cool and enjoyable after filming a scene.

In fact, this question is too abstract, I have talked so much about it, and it is all subjective ideas, but one thing is undeniable, it is an ordinary industry, a technical job in the film and television production chain, and a profession that may be mythologized. After the flash, I still rehearsed silently when I returned to the room, and after such "overtime", I could make progress, not to mention, I went to "work overtime"!

Thank you.

I'm glad that in the eyes of people who like my music, I'm a "star next door," and in the eyes of the rest of them, I'm a passerby.

Although I often mock myself for this, I never felt that "13th tier female artist" was an unfortunate title, on the contrary, I felt that it was an opportunity to maintain a "dual identity".

After releasing my first solo full-length album, when "I Ate Fried Chicken in People's Square" was played all over the streets of shopping malls because of the talent show, I was still working in a public institution, working from 9 to 5, drinking tea and reading newspapers in the morning, and closing the curtains in the office at noon and taking out a folding recliner to squint. No one in the unit knew that I would secretly log in to Weibo during office hours to reply to fan messages, and I ran the music festival on Saturdays and Sundays, only knowing that "Xiao Wang often asks for leave";

Later, it was because there was too much need for leave and music was enough to support me, so I quit.

The same people around him have also been "famous overnight" because of the draft cover craze. Four years on, some people have gone through a lot of ups and downs, and I'm still tepid, unhurried, releasing albums, and occasionally popping up some of the recently written "goodnight songs" on the Internet.

Just like all the students in a class take an exam, there are always people who have to be the last few;

What was blocked by the celebrities who were held up to the altar was the eighteenth-tier stars who looked like countless shrimp soldiers and crabs behind them.

The reason why I say "lucky" is probably because as an eighteenth-tier star, I can not only occasionally appear on TV broadcasts, but also hide in the corners of the crowd, enjoy the moment when the music fans confess during the signing, and can spend the ordinary and casual passage of the year because I am not too much attention.

If you want to ask me, what is it like to be a (18th-tier) star?

That's something like that:

Those songs that permeate the streets and alleys,

Most of them are good friends or their own.

The hot search characters who were picked up on the cusp,

She was in my car and suddenly cried.

The face that has been on TV lately,

Still > last week and even though I'm on the eighteenth line, unkempt when I go to the airport to catch a flight,

There will still be "Hongqiao First Sister" who takes out her mobile phone and takes a selfie mode, and she will appear coldly.

Of course, more of the experience is still the same as everyone else:

worrying about what to wear before going out (/ before the show);

After taking a shower, a large handful of hair appeared at the drain, and he was so frightened that he hurried to Taobao to "prevent hair loss";

My mother said on the front foot, "You are so sloppy that you can't get married", and on the back foot, she said, "Eh, you can talk about one first, let's try it"...

But of all of them, I think the best experience was:

It turns out that my faint glimmer of light has also guided you.

At the beginning of the year, I signed up for a short-term vocal training class. On the last day of the school, a boy from the class came to talk to me.

"Sister Ahma... Do you remember me?"

I looked left and right, and I didn't remember it for a long time.

Then he touched his head and smiled honestly, and told me about it.

At that time, he participated in a national competition for campus singers.

I was one of the three judges on the judging panel.

He said that he didn't make it to the top three of the division, and that the other two judges didn't give him a comment, and he was a little discouraged, but I stopped him before he stepped down and said something to him.

He said, "These words have always encouraged me."

"Now I'm developing music software with my friends and I'm also doing a music company... I didn't expect to meet you here again... It's the last day before I plucked up the courage to tell you... Sister Ahun, thank you. ”

Actually, I can't really remember what was said to him at the time.

But now I see that he is full of energy and has achieved a little success.

There is a sense of relief to look back.

I remembered my teacher's certificate pressed into the drawer on the last floor of the study.

It's probably going to get moldy.

It was when I was in college to prepare for employment.

originally wanted to realize the value of life by teaching and educating people;

Now, through music, it's actually happening.

The applause, the spotlight, the cheering crowd will eventually disperse.

But these small but continuous influences are beautiful traces of my short life that can remain in this world.

How lucky.

In this era, "overnight success" is a common thing.

But people's interest comes and goes as quickly as it comes.

Tomorrow there will always be something fresher and more interesting than today, which will serve as our after-dinner seasoning conversation.

And this long river of history, there are really only a few that can be so popular in the annals of history.

How hard do you have to work to be one of those ones?

How hard do you have to work so that you don't get forgotten?

How hard do you have to work so that you don't get too angry?

How lucky.

None of this needs to be worried about by an eighteenth-tier star.