Chapter 102: Dissecting the Heart
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Feng Yiping looked at his son's stretched little face under the night light, quietly listening to his snoring like an adult, and his little body was not in harmony, his heart was full of peace and warmth, and he was a little dizzy with happiness.
hugged Ma Ling, who walked in quietly, in his arms, and kissed her lightly in the hairline, and a faint sense of satisfaction came to his heart.
The two crept out of their son's room like conjoined babies, "He hasn't stopped smiling today," Ma Ling said.
"Didn't you notice, I'm the same," Feng Yiping picked her up, "Hold my son during the day, and my son's mother at night,"
Ma Ling snorted softly, and Ren Feng Yiping carried himself to the bed, "Just wait for me to graduate, when I graduate, we can be closer to you, and he can see you often,"
"I'm sorry," Feng Yiping gently kissed her on the forehead and the tip of her nose.
Huang Jingping made the decision not to get married not long ago, and then told her that she had a child outside, Feng Yiping thought that she would definitely not be able to accept it, so the temporary arrangement for Ma Ling and Vincent could only be like this.
"You really don't need to feel like this," Ma Ling leaned against his chest, "having Vincent is the greatest gift from God to me,"
"Also, do you know why I didn't tell you in the first place?" said Marling.
"Yes, why? Is it that if I don't go to you, you don't plan to take the initiative to tell me?" Feng Yiping actually wanted to ask this question all the time, but several times the words came to his lips and he took it back.
He worries that the answer he hears is, "What if you tell you?"
"If I had told you at that time, with what I knew about you, with what I knew about Chinese men, you would most likely have proposed to me,"
"Right?" she looked up at Feng Yiping.
This is also the first time that the two of them have mentioned the word marriage.
In fact, Feng Yiping also thought about this matter in private, if he knew that Ma Ling was pregnant and married, this was really a choice he was likely to make.
He's actually a very traditional man, that is, he will take responsibility for what he does.
It's just that, in that case, making such a decision, the reason for proposing marriage is definitely not pure.
Compared with Zhang Yan, who has been with each other in his previous life, his husband and wife for more than ten years, and Huang Jingping, who has been getting along day and night in this life, knowing cold and hot, if there must be a sequence, in his heart, it is difficult for Ma Ling to rank in front of the two of them.
"You do know me very well," Feng Yiping nodded.
"But I don't want to be your responsibility, and I don't want the children to be your responsibility," Ma Ling said, "I don't want to accept a man's marriage for responsibility, and I don't want to be a woman who steals someone else's boyfriend,"
Ma Ling buried his head in his chest, "So I chose not to tell you,"
"I thought I would be strong enough to raise him independently, but when you appeared in front of us, I realized that my strength was also disguised,"
"I just found out that in my heart, I have some resentment towards you, resentment before when I was pregnant and gave birth, why weren't you by my side?"
"That kind of emotion, even I was shocked, it turned out that in my heart, many decisions are also self-deception,"
"So, even if you don't find us then, I think I'll reach out to you after a while...... ,”
Feng Yiping's hand holding her tightened, and he understood why Ma Ling said that he was also startled.
If Ma Ling only regarded Feng Yiping as an ordinary one-night stand or at most a few night stands, then he would not resent him for not being by his side when he was pregnant and giving birth.
The reason why she was resentful was because she might not have realized that she had Feng Yiping in her heart for a long time.
"I'm sorry," Feng Yiping said, holding her face, "I couldn't be by your side during those times,"
At such a moment, it would be superficial to say sorry.
Ma Ling reached out and pinched the corners of his mouth, "But I don't regret the decision I made in the first place,"
"I don't want to get a marriage proposal that is not pure, I am actually very satisfied with the current situation, your concern for us, your love for children, are pure,"
"It's the same for you," Mr. Feng said.
Ma Ling kissed him lightly on the lips, "Moreover, I don't think I myself would be willing to get married and start a family now, I am really not ready for that, I am very satisfied with the current state, and I enjoy the current state,"
"So, I don't want you to have any feelings of being sorry for us, it's my choice, and you're doing a good job," this time, she held Feng Yiping's face.
"Although the relationship has changed substantially, it was in college, but when I was in high school, I had a girlfriend, she was my classmate in junior high school," Feng Yiping mentioned Huang Jingping to Ma Ling for the first time.
"She is a very traditional Chinese girl, I am the center of her life, I came to the United States, she also followed, she is a year older than me, for some reason, she has long wanted to have a child,"
At this time, if it is mentioned that Huang Jingping wants to have a child sooner because of Zhang Yan, it is naturally unwise.
"In May last year, we had a daughter named Amanda, that is, Vincent had a sister half a year younger than him,"
"So, I still feel sorry for you,"
But the point that Ma Ling heard was not the same thing as what Feng Yiping said - it cannot be ruled out that she did it on purpose.
She gently slapped Feng Yiping's chest, "That means that you were just 21 years old, and when you were 22 years old, you had sons and daughters one after another?
Feng Yiping ignored her intention to deliberately change the topic, and said solemnly, "But please rest assured that you and your son will definitely give you a normal life,"
Ma Ling twisted in his arms, "I knew you would think and do this, after all, my son is so good and sensible, and of course, his mother is not bad,"
"Her mother is very good, very good," Feng Yiping emphasized.
Ma Ling was glad to hear such words, "It's just, why are you so sure, even if you want to give it, we will definitely agree?"
"Yes, I'm sure his mother will agree," Feng Yiping said, "isn't she?"
"Yes, or no," Ma Ling said with a red face, and then changed the subject again, "Who can guarantee that you won't encounter similar other troubles in the future, such as this classmate Xiang today,"
"Don't tell me, you don't know what she thinks?"
"First of all, I know, you must be overthinking,"
"I don't know what she thinks, but I know what she thinks," Mr. Feng said.
"Finally, are you jealous?" Feng Yiping asked with a smile.
"No," Ma Ling said loudly, "This classmate Xiang, except for today, she and you have met so many times, this should also be fate, right?"
"In China, the word fate can actually be said separately, even if there is fate, it may not necessarily have a share," Feng Yiping said, "She is really just an ordinary classmate,"
"She definitely doesn't have the kind of idea you guessed, today she came to me, completely because of work, her family should have some connections in some areas, can provide a good opportunity for my lithium battery sales,"
"That's right, she can provide an opportunity for your lithium battery sales, it stands to reason, shouldn't you chase her? Why is the current situation completely reversed? If there is no other reason, is this reasonable?"
"Reasonable, some of my classmates are just as enthusiastic as she is and care about my work as much as she does,"
After saying this, even Feng Yiping himself felt that this was definitely not a strong reason, so he continued to play, "At the same time, she did this to apologize for the misunderstanding she gave me in the early years,"
"She turned out to be a reporter for our school newspaper, and she couldn't get used to me,"
But many years have passed, and it is not a strong reason, under Ma Ling's joking eyes, Feng Yiping felt that he had finally found the best reason, "She did this, the most critical point is that my lithium battery is the best product in my country at present, and it is also the best choice in some industries,"
Although it doesn't matter if he says that he is interested in his battery, Feng Yiping, who does not know the principle of confidentiality, spontaneously believes that this matter should not spread.
Ma Ling also didn't care what kind of unit it was, "Hmph, why haven't you seen a male classmate who cares so much about your affairs?"
"Yes, there are many more, but they are currently in China, and the best two, that is, my junior high school classmates, are now starting their own businesses in China, and they are doing well,"
"Yes, the male classmates are all in China, and the ones abroad are all enthusiastic female classmates," although Ma Ling was a little yin and yang when he said this, Feng Yiping still felt very cute.
"You also know the cost of American universities, many families in the United States can't afford it, and there will be more families in China who can't afford it."
"There are not many of the classmates I know who come out to study, some because their families can't afford such expenses, some because they don't have to, and of course, some because they don't have the opportunity,"
For example, the other five in his dormitory, it is estimated that only Yan Zhida and Han Guiliang can afford to study abroad, Liang Yonggao's family is estimated to be struggling, and Lu Wenqing and Jinbao's family must not be able to afford it.
Moreover, if several of them want to be admitted to graduate schools in well-known universities in the United States, it is unlikely that they will be able to.
Besides, with the conditions of Han Guiliang and Yan Zhida's family, including the conditions of Zheng Jiayi's family, there is not much need to work hard to study in the United States.
Feng Yiping didn't wait for Ma Ling's refutation this time, and immediately moved on to the next topic, "So, I am preparing such a fund in the near future to provide support for some domestic students who cannot come to the United States to study because of expenses, but the current progress is not going well,"
This is also where Feng Yiping feels breathless, his suggestion, the general direction, the relevant ministries and commissions are recognized, but it involves specific operations, and the following handling departments have many different opinions.
When Jin Ling gave him feedback, she said, "Either we don't go through these units at all, we will directly set up such a fund in Hong Kong, and then publicize it through other channels, so that those students in need can know the news."
But Feng Yiping's activity this time originally hoped to create a momentum in China, so he has not yet agreed to Jin Ling's suggestion.
"That's right, charity, when will the free rice project be launched?" Ma Ling thought of this stubble again, she always remembered that it was that idea that made her fall in love with Feng Yiping at first sight.
"It's been ready for a long time, just waiting for you to implement it," Feng Yiping is happy to fulfill Ma Ling, a person who has always been enthusiastic about charity and environmental protection.
"Then I'll promote it now, okay?" Ma Ling sat up.
"Don't worry," Feng Yiping pressed her down, "Now it's getting easier and easier for us to promote this website, through nextdoor, through Google,"
"It's just that in the matter of charity, the prestige of the initiator is also crucial, of course I believe that you can organize this matter now, but what you lack now is prestige,"
"So, I still hope that when YouTube goes live, you will officially become the chief content officer, especially after getting acquainted with those people in Hollywood, you will definitely get twice the result with half the effort, what do you say?"
"Hmm," Ma Ling stroked his hair, didn't speak, and kissed him softly.
Maybe it's because tonight, they finally talked more thoroughly about a lot of things that they pretended to be confused and didn't want to mention in the past, and the moment their lips touched, they both felt like it was their first kiss, and they felt a little heart-to-heart connection.
Feng Yiping opened his eyes and saw that Ma Ling's eyes were slightly open, thinking that she and himself had the same feelings.
She only opened her eyes for a moment, **** and her hand, and she has been familiar with Feng Yiping's search and exploration .......
Although it felt like the first intimate contact, after all, they were all old drivers and experienced drivers, so this night, they naturally blended ...... quickly. (To be continued.) )