As the saying goes, there is no single line of evil, and this sentence was quickly confirmed to me.

I took my mother home and felt like I was being emptied, and my mind was in a trance, and the only thing I wanted to do was to nest in my bed again. The mother carried the same weak body to bring her daughter home from the neighbor and said a lot of thank you to the neighbor for her enthusiastic help. Seeing that I had no desire and strength to speak, my daughter carefully observed me, and then asked a lot of questions with concern like a little adult, looked at me and said that it was okay, nodded and walked away to find her grandmother.

The mother was also too tired, so she chatted casually with her daughter, and then closed the door and lay down to rest. Hadron was still silent, and he couldn't see any emotions flowing on his face.

When it was almost dark, someone knocked on the door, and this person was none other than Swallow. After a few days of not seeing her, the face was even whiter, and she looked very haggard, and her eyes were full of melancholy, and I remembered what she had said again, and I thought of it like the wind. I was tempted to avoid her sudden visit, but I had already arrived at the door, and since there was no way to hide, I said bluntly what I had buried in my heart.

"Isn't it enough that you have been harmed by you?"

"Xiaolan, I'm here to apologize and come to see you. ”

"I don't need you to come and see me, and I apologize I don't accept it. What problem can a word of sorry solve, and how much can it remedy the wound of the soul?"

"I know it's all wrong, I shouldn't have done that, but for the sake of our years of affection, I still want to be cheeky and beg your forgiveness. I'm already a dying man, and if you can't forgive me, I can't die blindly. ”

I was very uncomfortable to hear this.

"Don't tell me this, I don't want to hear it, some mistakes are made, as my good friend, my best friend, is the person who hurt me the most, and he actually ruined my life's happiness with his own hands! Can an apology make up for my lost love? Can an apology plug a hole you poke in my heart?" I said in one breath what I had been holding back for a few days.

"Xiaolan, I know that nothing I say can make up for my debt to you, and I also know that there is no reason to ask for your forgiveness, I just hope that I can help you do something in a limited time, even if I get a little peace of mind myself. ”

"Help me do something? Forget it, no need!"

"Xiaolan, you need help in this situation. ”

"What kind of situation I have, I don't bother you. ”

"You haven't read today's news, are you, just at the gate of the hospital, are you under siege?"

The "bang" in my heart suddenly tightened, these people are really resolute, and they have already sent out the news with a lot of effort. At this moment, my five flavors were churning and suddenly I felt like I wanted to vomit, a feeling of wanting to vomit out all the dirty thoughts I saw. I retracted my tongue into my throat and didn't spit out anything, just swallowing a mouthful of fake saliva. I wanted to run back to bed and take back my quilt and my shell, but I was still angry with the swallows, and I had to hold on.

I pretended to be calm, even though my heart was picking up speed at a pound, and then I tried to be as calm and light as I could and say, "Yes, I was mobbed and now I'm a veritable internet celebrity, so what?"

The eyebrows on the swallow's weak face were deeply locked into a groove, I don't know if it was because of his own body, or because he was in a bad mood, he suddenly coughed, and his cheeks turned red and purple, his lips turned purple and gray, and his sparse hair was scattered on his face, like an old man who was drooping and old.

I couldn't bear to look at it any longer, turned around, picked up my phone and pretended to look at the information on it.

By the time the coughing stopped, the swallow's eyes were filled with tears. She smoothed her hand to her chest, cleared her throat and said, "Do you want to be an Internet celebrity? What are you going to do now?"

"Now that it's all right, let's go back first, otherwise Yuqiu should be worried. ”

"I'm fine, Yuqiu has something to do. At the mention of Yuqiu's name, Yanzi suddenly felt sad and almost shed tears. Since she met Rufeng that day and told all her secrets, she never saw Yuqiu again when she returned home, only a letter and a bunch of medicines kept reminding her: This man is gone.

Yuqiu wrote in the letter:

Swallow, the love I have been pursuing, after learning the secret that you have hidden deep in my heart, I suddenly found myself a superfluous and very ridiculous person.

For so many years, I have never wavered in my love for you, do you know how happy I am when you throw yourself into my arms? At that moment, I seemed to get the whole world, I wanted to shout loudly to tell everyone that my efforts and pursuit were right, I wanted to tell the world that I was the happiest person in the world. Knowing that you are sick, seeing you being tortured and suffering, my heart is like a knife every day, I hope that the person who is sick is me, and the person who suffers is me. But I can't replace you, I can only watch you lose weight day by day, and if there's one thing that makes me feel incompetent so far, it's your illness. I've consulted a lot of information, but I can't find a cure for you, and I've been secretly depressed about it. But every time I face you, I tell myself to be strong, to influence your will with my thoughts, so that you can get encouragement from it. I hope to arouse your desire to survive with my love. Whenever I see you have a little improvement, a smile, I am very grateful, but also see my own value, and you every bit of it, I feel very precious, especially cherished.

But today I realized that I, Zeng Yuqiu, am not the person you really want. How ridiculous it was, and I suddenly realized that everything was wishful thinking.

Swallow, I want to ask if you ever loved me, even if only a little. Do you care about me, even if it's just a little bit. Do you want to find a temporary support when you are desperate? Do you choose to stay with me because you are already helpless? Or do you just want to find someone to take care of? I love you and hope that you can really love me, not as a temporary refuge, or as a substitute, but also as a substitute for a woman.

I'm leaving, I've prepared enough medicine for you to eat for half a year, and I've already contacted the doctor for you, and they will make a return visit every week, if you feel uncomfortable, you can also contact them at any time. In addition, I have called your parents and told them that you are unwell and need to be taken care of, but have not told them your true condition. They should be coming soon, and you're prepared.

I don't want to say goodbye, but as a person who exists without any meaning or value, I still have to endure the heartache to say goodbye. If there's anything special, you can also give me a call. I hope you can be strong in the future and take care of yourself in the days without me. If there is an afterlife, I wish I was your only one.

Good bye

Written by the wind

Yanzi had read this letter many times, and when she was fine, she would take it out and read it, and she could even memorize it, and she burst into tears every time she thought of these words, and this time was no exception.

I didn't hear what Yanzi meant by Yuqiu's departure, I was surprised to see her like this, and thought that Yuqiu had encountered an accident, so I nervously asked, "What did you say? What happened to Yuqiu?" I am full of reverence for Yuqiu, in addition to his infatuation, and his words of comfort when I am frustrated. Sometimes, just a little reminder is enough to awaken hope in the darkness, like a faint spark, but it has the power to start a prairie fire. To this day, I still remember the look and tone of his voice at that time, he was a man full of love and kindness, and he was very wise. To be loved by such a man, any woman will be happy. If he has something long and short, God will really be too blind.

"No, nothing happened to him. It's leaving me, leaving the city. Swallow's eyes were full of sadness and despair, and the previous stubbornness was gone.

"Why?!" I couldn't understand Yuqiu's behavior, and asked in confusion, "He doesn't look like a person who is afraid of difficulties and has a cowardly personality, why is he?"

"I broke his heart!" When he said this, Yanzi couldn't control his emotions and cried bitterly, and shouted, "I now understand your pain at that time, and I understand that you were desperate for the grief of the wind." Xiaolan, I have hated myself all my life, I have hurt one person after another who loves me! I am sorry for you! I have this disease, it is estimated that it is God's punishment for me, which makes me suffer a lot, and finally everyone betrays my relatives!"

I followed her emotional ups and downs, and my heart suddenly felt pity. In my heart, I can't forgive her for her self-righteous and random arrangement, but after all, there is no hint of hypocrisy in our relationship for decades. I suddenly remembered the scene when we went to and from school together in elementary school, the scene when we read together in middle school, and the way she was sick for a long time in college because of those bad boys.

In a trance, a figure suddenly appeared in front of my eyes, like the wind: he took my hand and walked around the school, chatting around the garden, we kissed and hugged each other under the witness of the moon and stars, as if there were only two of us in the world. Then the swallow came running and told me that the wind had turned its back on me, and my heart was like ashes, and I went on a hunger strike, and even wanted to give up my life. Then, the swallow came to tell me again that what she said was false, but I couldn't find Rufeng no matter how I looked for it.

After that, I felt as if I had been hit hard, and suddenly there was a sudden pain, and my whole heart was about to burst, and then I felt a stream of liquid in my mouth gush up the trail of saliva, and the salty smell overflowed uncontrollably to the corners of my mouth. I reached out and touched the corner of my mouth, and it was bright red blood. In the panic, my head experienced dizziness again, and then I heard the swallow seem to scream, as if it was shouting the name of the hadron, but I couldn't hear any sound, and slowly my eyelids became heavy, my whole body became numb, and the whole person began to lose consciousness......