Chapter 58: The Past
Guan Yue knew that things must not be so simple, it was impossible for a person to drink for no reason, looking at this situation, it was very likely to be related to Aunt Jin.
But this is Zhang Jing and Aunt Jin's business, Guan Yue will not talk too much to investigate*.
Zhang Jing originally thought that Guan Yue would ask, but Guan Yue didn't ask, so Zhang Jing didn't continue.
had to drink porridge silently, although Guan Yue's porridge was good, but Zhang Jing was sick after all, and she lost her appetite, so she stopped drinking half of it.
Guan Yue said: "You lie down for a while, and then ask you to take medicine after half an hour." β
"Hmm!" Zhang Jing lay down.
Guan Yue sent the bowl to the kitchen and cleaned it.
I took the medicine, poured boiling water, and waited for the boiling water to cool.
Seeing that Zhang Jing was just lying down, it was estimated that she couldn't sleep, so she simply talked to her, after all, people who are sick are more fragile.
"Sister Jing, what did you want to ask me last night?"
"The last time I was in Du Jingxuan, I saw that you were very insightful about Guan Huai's paintings, and your surname is Guan, if I guessed correctly, Guan Huai should be your father. β
Guan Yue nodded.
"So, Xiaoyue, can you sue me, why have you and your father lived in City A for so many years, but you have never heard Grandpa Guan mention you?"
Zhang Jing couldn't understand before, how could Guan Huai, an ordinary painter in City A and from an ordinary background, know Chen Jin, a Jiangmen family from City Z, and get Chen Jin's admiration? If Guan Huai is the son of Grandpa Guan, then this question can be figured out.
She wanted to find out what was going on between her mother and Guan Huai, what was going on between her mother and her father, and why Chen Jin said that her existence was her shame, and why her father Zhang Jianbang buried her right to pursue happiness and buried her youth.
Maybe this has something to do with Guan Huai's living in City A for so many years.
Guan Yue is about to explain his life experience to others again, and he still told Zhang Jing the reason why his father told him.
Zhang Jing frowned, she didn't get much useful information from the reasons Guan Yue said.
However, Guan Yue noticed some things from this explanation of his life experience, plus the last time he saw many of his father's paintings in Du Jingxuan, as well as Zhang Jing's strange attitude towards the owner of Du Jingxuan, Guan Yue asked: "The owner of Du Jingxuan is Aunt Jin?
Zhang Jing nodded.
Guan Yue knew that General Chen's daughter was divorced at an early age, so it seems that Aunt Jin and Zhang Jing's father divorced him, is it still related to his father?
However, his father is a good man who takes care of his family, and he loves his mother Zhang Li to the extreme, and it is impossible to cheat in marriage.
Guan Yue felt that it was necessary for him to understand the reasons for Zhang Jing's parents' divorce.
"May I ask, how did your parents get divorced, and what happened between you and Aunt Jin? Why do you seem to be full of resentment towards Aunt Jin, Sister Jing? β
Zhang Jing actually didn't want to talk about these things to outsiders, but because Guan Yue asked, Zhang Jing sorted out her thoughts and said slowly:
"I was born in a family that many of my peers are very envious, my grandfather and grandfather are both high-ranking military officials, my father is the president of the state-owned enterprise Zhongkang Group, chic and golden, and my mother is a celebrity, a collector, gentle and beautiful. However, there is also a sadness that peers cannot see, the union of my father and mother is a political marriage, there is no love between them, they are two strangers living under the same roof, and then gave birth to my third stranger, but my third stranger is also a dispensable existence, and it did not make their relationship improve in the slightest, and when I was five years old, this political marriage finally ended and came to an end. Because of my parents, I'm very resistant to a political marriage without love, which is one of the reasons why I pulled you to block the serialization for me last night. Zhang Jing didn't sue Guan Yue, in fact, her parents divorced, and Guan Huai had to bear some responsibility, but she didn't want Guan Yue to think too much, so she only blamed the reason for the divorce on the marriage.
Guan Yue was relieved, it seems that Zhang Jing's parents divorced only because of their political marriage and had no feelings, not that his father indirectly destroyed other people's families and let Zhang Jing live in a single-parent family.
But he had a trace of sympathy for Zhang Jing. It seems that living in an ordinary family, there is also the happiness of ordinary people.
Zhang Jing continued: "I was born in a family full of strangers, although my father was busy with business, he would occasionally buy some gadgets to make me happy, but since I was sensible, I remember that she never smiled at me, she never hugged me, she never bought a dress for me, she never tied my braids, she never sent me to school...... She has never done anything to me that other mothers have done for her children, she only has a cold expression on me every day, and I can even feel that she hates me, and a child feels that her mother hates her inner feelings, do you understand?"
Although Guan Yue didn't understand very well, she also knew that it must be uncomfortable, but Guan Yue didn't answer, she knew that Zhang Jing didn't need him to answer, all he could do was listen.
"However, these are not the biggest reasons for my resentment towards her, what I have never been able to let go of is that on the night she divorced my father, I hugged her thigh and begged her not to go, she pushed me to the ground ruthlessly, saying that my existence is her shame, she never wants to see me in her life, this sentence rings in my ears every time I dream back at midnight, she is like a spell that makes me remember all the time, she, I will never forgive in my life!" Zhang Jingqing was a little excited.
Guan Yue knew that the resentment between their mother and daughter was too big, and it was not something that could be relieved in a few words, he neither said anything good or bad for Chen Jin, but just handed Zhang Jing the boiling water and medicine and asked her to take it.
Zhang Jing finished taking the medicine, Guan Yue said: "The past is over after all, don't torture yourself with other people's mistakes, Sister Jing should take care of her body in the future, don't drink too much, you continue to rest after taking the medicine, I will live downstairs from you, you can call me if there is anything." β
Zhang Jing took Guan Yue's hand and said, "Can you stay here with me and wait for me to fall asleep before leaving?" I really don't want to be alone." β
Guan Yue had nothing to do, and he was afraid that Zhang Jing's fever would not go away, but it would become more and more powerful, so he agreed.
The cold medicine white and black has a hypnotic function, and Zhang Jing fell asleep quickly, but she was a little unstable.
Sweat broke out on his forehead, and he even whispered: "Mom, don't leave me, don't~ don't hate me...... Don't go, Mom......"
Guan Yue felt the need to call Aunt Jin over, in fact, the deeper the hatred, the deeper the reading, Sister Jing's resentment towards Aunt Jin, on the other hand, was also a manifestation of her heart's desire for maternal love.
Guan Yue called Chen Jin, thinking that if what Zhang Jing said was right, then Chen Jin should not feel much when he heard that Zhang Jing was sick, he was ready to make a tirade, but he didn't expect Chen Jin to hear that Zhang Jing was sick, and immediately asked Guan Yue for the address of Zhang Jing's apartment, and rushed over.
"Xiaoyue, how is Jing'er?" Chen Jin was anxious.
"Sister Jing took the medicine and fell asleep. However, the fever has not completely subsided, so we must continue to observe. β
"Oh, Xiaoyue, thank you so much today. β
"Aunt Jin is strict, even if an ordinary friend is sick, she should take care of it if she knows it, let alone Sister Jing. β
Chen Jin was more satisfied with Guan Yue's character, and felt that if Zhang Jing could be with Guan Yue, she would be relieved.
"Xiaoyue, you have worked hard, I will take care of Jing'er for the rest. β
"Aunt Jin, in fact, I called you over, firstly, to let you take care of Sister Jing, so that you can slowly resolve Sister Jing's resentment towards you, and secondly, I want to ask you for Sister Jing, since you don't like Sister Jing's father, why do you still want to marry Sister Jing's father, since you chose to marry and gave birth to Sister Jing, then why are you so cold to Sister Jing and do not fulfill your mother's responsibilities? And why did you say such cruel things to Sister Jing, who was still five years old, when you divorced? Sister Jing, what did she do wrong?"
Guan Yue's inquiry made Chen Jin return to great regret.
"Jing'er, she is wrong about everything, the fault is only that she became the daughter of a selfish person like me, which made her suffer for so many years. β
"What happened back then that made you have such a big grudge against your daughter?"
"It's a long story!"
"Don't worry, Aunt Jin, you speak slowly!" Guan Yue poured a glass of water and handed it to Chen Jin.
"The thing was actually more than 20 years ago, when the society was in turmoil, and your father and I cut the queue in XX Township, where we met Jing'er's father Zhang Jianbang. In those difficult years, we formed a deep friendship. Later, when he could return to the city, Zhang Jianbang passed through Z City on his way back to W Province, and Guan Huai invited him to play in Z City, and Zhang Jianbang agreed. On the day I returned to Z City, I told my dad that I liked Guan Huai, and at that time, after my dad and Uncle Guan were ventilated, they made a date for us to get engaged, but I didn't expect that your dad's gentle-looking and peaceful man would oppose fiercely, and even said that he would run away from home if he was forced to get engaged, and Uncle Guan was also a stubborn temper, so Guan Huai was locked up until the day of the engagement. However, there was an accident, on the day of the engagement on the way Guan Huai found a chance to escape, I was abandoned at the engagement banquet, that night I was very sad, drank a lot of wine, and then I was confused and saw that "Guan Huai" came back, he said he liked me, and kissed me,...... We had sex that night."
Guan Yue said excitedly: "Impossible, my dad is not that kind of person!"
"Yes, your dad is not that kind of person, after I woke up, I found that the person lying next to me was Zhang Jianbang, I cried and made trouble, but Zhang Jianbang swore that he liked me and took care of me for a lifetime, women were still relatively conservative in that era, and I was abandoned by Guan Huai, and agreed to Zhang Jianbang. Zhang Jianbang returned to W Province and asked his father to come over to talk, because of Guan Huai's repentance, my father lost face, and because he was a good match with Zhang Jianbang, my marriage with Zhang Jianbang was decided. However, I didn't have any feelings for Zhang Jianbang, and I couldn't let go of him for doing that while I was drunk, I proposed to be a nominal couple with Zhang Jianbang, and he agreed at that time. A month later, I found out that I had Jing'er, I refused to save Jing'er, because she was the product of my absurd things and drunken disorder, I even thought about beating her off, but under Zhang Jianbang's strict protection, and the little reluctance in my heart, I still gave birth to Jing'er, but after giving birth to Jing'er, I still don't like her, I feel that she is my shame, and my hatred for Zhang Jianbang has not dissipated, I have always felt that if it wasn't for Zhang Jianbang that night to take advantage of people's danger, I didn't have a relationship with Zhang Jianbang, I have the courage and confidence to continue to pursue my loveγ Zhang Jianbang guarded me for three years, and seeing that I still didn't waver, I finally got impatient and started to go out to find women, but I don't mind, anyway, life is like this, how can I live? However, when Jing'er was 5 years old, when I went to a gallery in City A, I met your father, he told me that he had found the love of his life, and just treated me as a sister, and told me to live a good life with Zhang Jianbang, I knew that Guan Huai was able to escape because of Zhang Jianbang's help, and I hated Zhang Jianbang completely, because I felt that if it wasn't for Zhang Jianbang, Guan Huai would only be with me, and when I returned to Province W, I would divorce Zhang Jianbang, abandon my husband and daughter, and return to Z Cityγ Because the facts of the year were disgraceful, we took measures to hide Jing'er, but I didn't expect that she had been trying to find the truth of the year for so many years. β
Guan Yue was speechless, why let the children bear the mistakes made by adults. Guan Yue is also a little uninterested in Chen Jin, fortunately his father escaped, otherwise he might not have been born in this world. However, Zhang Jing's misfortune, speaking of which, really has something to do with his father. Sister Jing is also a poor person, and she will be kind to her in the future. Guan Yue thought.
"Jing'er is not wrong with anything, the fault is only that she has a selfish, cowardly and irresponsible mother, many years later, I slowly realized that I was selfish and irresponsible, and wanted to make up for Jing'er, only to find that it was too late. When Chen Jin thought of Zhang Jing's hatred for himself, his heart was sad, and his heart was full of remorse.
Poor people must have something to hate, but this hatred will not be Guan Yue's turn.
"Aunt Jin, there is no overnight feud between mother and daughter, from now on, you can make up for the lack of maternal love for Sister Jing, after a long time, Sister Jing will definitely forgive you!"
"Well, I hope so, but whether Jing'er forgives me or not, I will fulfill my motherhood responsibilities that I have not fulfilled for so many years. β