Aggrieved, too aggrieved.

It seems that a big fish bone is stuck in his throat, and he can't spit it out or swallow it. The night can't hide the sadness in my heart, and let the tears fly in the wind.

I remembered a book I just read, which said, "The reason why snowflakes are white is because there is a gap between the crystalline particles that fills the air." If we squeeze a flower with an air gap to let the air out, the soft petals will become dull."

At this moment, I am like this squeezed flower, not only my heart is gloomy, but I feel that the whole person will be humbled to the dust.

I don't want to go home right away, but I can't think of where to go for a while.

Pick up your phone and flip through your contacts from top to bottom. I want to call my husband, but if I tell him what the consequences will be, I already know without thinking about it, and it's hard to say whether he will directly kill the kitchen knife on someone's door, or I can't let him know.

Suddenly, I saw a familiar number.

"Swallow?" I asked tentatively, wiping away my tears, clearing my throat, and hearing the phone call.

As soon as the words came out, I remembered that this phone was no longer swallow's, and I was about to hang up. Unexpectedly, a familiar voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Who?Xiaolan?!It's you, you're a dead girl who is willing to make a call, did you change your previous number, I haven't heard from you for a long time, where are you now?!" Yanzi over there couldn't hide the blame, but her tone was full of joy and excitement.

I haven't seen Swallow in two years.

Swallow was my classmate from middle school to college, roommate, and best friend. After graduating, we came to the same city just so that we could see each other again and continue to be companions in the future. She was the teacher, I was the editor, in the first few years, although in different units, but also in different urban areas, but every ten days and a half we would make an appointment to go out together, to climb the mountain, to sing, the two of us crazy, silly fun.

I got married six years ago, and she was single, and I saw her every two months.

Five years ago, I gave birth to a child, and she was still single, and before I knew it, I only saw her once in half a year.

Two years ago, when I was riding the bus, I was targeted by a thief, and when I got out of the bus, I found that my phone was missing. I changed my mobile phone, and because of work needs, I changed my phone number, who knew that I called Yanzi, and the number was wrong, and a man answered it, saying that I made a mistake. I went to her school and her colleague said she left. With all kinds of doubts, she just disappeared from my sight, clean and complete.

"Is it really a swallow? Are you still using this number? You haven't changed your number? You still say me, where have you been in the past two years? Where are you now?" I waited for her to answer a series of questions.

"I didn't go to my old school anymore and I changed jobs. Now I live in the XX Building, it seems that it is not far from the previous office building of your unit. Are you still in your original unit?" she said excitedly.

"Oh, I see. "I'm even more confused about what she's been doing for the past two years.

"You send a location, I'll go look for you now. "She can't wait to meet.

"Okay, wait a minute. "I hung up the phone and sent a locator.

After sending it, I realized that this was the street, and it would be better to find a café or dessert station. I thought about the makeup that was probably washed with tears, so let's think about it. This light is just enough to hide your embarrassment.

Ten minutes later, Swallow got out of a vermilion taxi and appeared in front of me. A pair of small black leather shoes with bows on a flat bottom, a long black dress with small flowers that reached the ankle length, a red leather bag the size of a book on one shoulder, and a low ponytail with hair tied up at the back. The whole person has become a lot more ladylike, but there seems to be some weakness around the eyes, and the skin is so white that it seems to have rubbed too much powder.

The two of us met like this on such an autumn night, on such a street. I thought I should be very excited, but I looked at each other, but they were silent with each other.

I don't know how long it took, but I said, "Shouldn't we have a hug?" ”

So the four hands interlaced each other and hugged each other, and she sobbed, tears flashing in her eyes.

"What's wrong? we should be happy!" I wiped her eyes.

"Uh-huh, yes, you're right, what's wrong with me?" she covered her eyes in embarrassment.

"You seem to be fat. I said.

"You've lost a lot of weight. She said.

"Let's go, let's walk down the street and talk. I took her hand, and the whole palm was fleshy and comfortable.

"Why don't you find a place to sit," she suggested.

"Forget it, if you don't want to go, let's walk the street, we didn't do this very often before. "When I think of the past, I seem to see two familiar backs.

"At that time, we were poor and died, of course we saved money by shopping on the streets, silly girl!" she always liked to call me that.

"Anyway, I like it. I said stubbornly.

"Okay, two big fools, stupid shopping, haha!" her sense of humor returned.

"You!haha!" was amused by her.

We laughed as we walked along the road, and the pedestrians and vehicles on the road seemed to fall silent. The yellow fallen leaves all the way were kicked around by us and became innocent toys.

"Silly girl, tell me, what's going on today? Your voice was a little strange on the phone, and I noticed that you seemed to have cried. As she was walking, she suddenly asked.

"No, no, nothing! what can I do!" I don't want to seek comfort anymore, I'd better digest my own business.

"There must be something, stop pretending, I know you too well. You have always been strong, you don't shed tears for no reason, and you don't shed tears easily. We've been friends for so many years, and you're still hiding it from me!?" she was a little angry.

"It's really fine!" I continued to hide.

"You don't say it, I'm leaving! You don't treat me as a friend!" she was really angry.

I grabbed her arm and shook it vigorously.

"Don't be angry, I don't know what to tell you. I explained.

"Don't worry, I have time, speak slowly!" she said calmly, staring into my eyes.

Seeing her like this, I told her about today's company and restaurant from beginning to end, as it was.

"Scum!!!How can there be such a scoundrel!!The toad wants to eat swan meat!

"It's the first time I've been working for so many years. Disgusting. "I looked into the deep night sky, and I wanted to ask how it was possible to give birth to such a fly-like person under the light of the starry moon.

"Wait, I'll give you this breath!Let the fuck pay for your actions!Just like a bear, I don't know how much I have done!" The more the swallow spoke, the more angry he became.

"No, you can't beat him, and it's illegal to say anything more! I've already thought about it, it's a big deal to resign and quit! I'll deliver my resignation letter tomorrow!"

"Weakness is connivance at evil deeds! you are too weak!" the swallow glared at me indignantly.

"The company wants money to pay salaries, and besides, I don't want you to have any trouble for my business!

"You are just too good at thinking about others, and your Mr. Zhang is by no means a good person, an absolute hypocrite! They must be colluding!" Yanzi said thoughtfully, "How can there be such a coincidence! You are so desperate to work for him! Extremely stupid, you are really!"

"I didn't dare to think about it, I really didn't want to think about it. "It's so tiring to think about it, and my whole head feels like it's filled with lead.

"No matter what you say, I know you're worried about me too, and I must have gotten this tone. Friends just want to stick a knife in both sides!" Swallow insisted, her eyes full of deep determination.

"You don't mind my business! You are my best friend, I don't want you to stick a knife in the ribs! I want us to be happy every day!" The tears were uncontrollable again, and I seemed to have seen the swallow break his head with someone, and the scene was horrible.

"How old are you, you still look like a child, don't worry, I'm no longer the stunned and impulsive little girl I was before. She burst out laughing.

I looked at her, and the whole person seemed to have been reborn, she was still the same as before, but she was not. But the heart is still so hot, and the love is still as true.

A scene from ten years ago resurfaced in front of me.

At that time, when I was just in college, a boy from another class pestered me every day, either a love letter every day, or downstairs in my dormitory, facing the window of our dormitory, and shouting my name loudly with two or three friends as if he was convulsive, every day for more than ten days.

At that time, I only knew how to hide, and I was so scared all day that I didn't dare to go out of the classroom, I didn't dare to go out of the dormitory, and I must have pulled swallows from the dormitory to the classroom. The swallows couldn't bear it, one day, while they were shouting downstairs again, a basin of foot-washing water was poured down, the autumn in the north was a little cold, and the experience of those people can be imagined. We watched them look embarrassed and laughed until our stomachs cramped.

But later, I don't remember how long it was, but I remember that it was the first snow of that winter, and it didn't rain much, but it was very cold. On the way back to the dormitory, someone suddenly grabbed her from behind and pulled her to the grove next to the school wall, and then poured ten basins of cold water from head to toe, over and over again. That night, when she returned to the dormitory with difficulty, there was already a small Xiaoice slag on the outside of her clothes. followed by a high fever for several days, lying in bed and talking nonsense......

"Don't worry, I won't splash people's feet this time, and I won't be splashed by others. She seemed to know what I was thinking, and a sudden remark interrupted my memory.

I'm starting to regret that I shouldn't have told her about what happened today and about that disgusting person.