Chapter 126: A Man's Outpouring

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Matthew's car drove steadily, and at about four o'clock in the afternoon, it stopped on the parking apron in front of the main building of the Kwok Manor.

"Liu Zhixing should be in the back garden now, right?"

Guo Shouyun, who was just about to enter the door after getting out of the car, suddenly stopped and asked.

"Well, if nothing else, he reads every afternoon from half-past three to five on a bench under the oak tree at the back of the garden. Wendy replied.

Guo Shouyun nodded, "You take my things to the study, I'll go see him!"

"Okay, boss!"

Passing through the corridor inside the main building of the villa, entering the back covers an area of more than two acres, or sparse or dense, dotted with rhododendron rhododendrons, moons, wisteria and other colorful vegetation gardens.

Standing on the steps, through the gap between the vegetation, Guo Shouyun almost immediately saw Liu Zhixing, who was sitting on a bench quietly reading a book under a leafy oak tree about fifty meters away in front of him.

Wearing a light cyan coat, with eyes, and a thin face, he looks like a sculpture from a distance, with a solemnity in the quiet!

After a little scrutiny, Guo Shouyun went down the steps, strode along the winding garden road through the garden, and sat down on the empty seat of the bench next to Liu Zhixing.

"Mr. Guo!"

Sensing the movement around him, Liu Zhixing, who turned his head to look, was surprised and ready to stand up.

"You're welcome!"

After waving his hand to signal him to sit down, he glanced at the book he was holding, "The Economic History of the United States?"

"There's no particular reason, just want to find out!"

After turning the pages of the book, Liu Zhixing smiled.

"If you want to understand a country, you must first understand its history! Especially its economic history!" After a pause, Guo Shouyun groaned slightly, "Have you ever considered taking the university entrance examination again?"

Liu Zhixing's eyes changed, his body shook unconsciously, and after a moment of silence, he slowly shook his head with a calm expression.

"No, I'm pretty happy with my life now!"

"Really?" Glancing deeply at the thin middle-aged man in front of him, Guo Shouyun said with a hint of sigh in his tone, "A comfortable life is really good, and sometimes I like it too." However, in contrast, I still want to achieve my life ideals more. Besides, I don't think you ventured to the U.S. to make a living?"

A trace of complexity flashed in Liu Zhixing's eyes, although he still didn't speak, the look on his face couldn't deceive people.

"Can you tell me about your past?"

"Before?"

Turning his head to look into the distance, Liu Zhixing's face showed a trace of memory, a trace of confusion, and endless regret and sadness!

"It's the 'before' after you were admitted to Beijing University in '86!" Guo Shouyun said in an accentuated tone.

"You know everything?"

Liu Zhixing's tone trembled.

"Got to know a little bit. But I'd rather hear it yourself say it yourself!" Guo Shouyun said calmly.

Liu Zhixing's body trembled slightly, and it was not until he took a deep breath that he eased up. But the remorse and sadness on his body are even stronger.

After brewing for a long time, just when Guo Shouyun thought that he couldn't get an answer, Liu Zhixing's low tone echoed in his ears.

"My hometown is Tang~Shan, Hebei Province, China, and the earthquake in 76 destroyed my home, and at the same time made me lose my parents. Later, I was taken to the capital by my grandparents, and there was a girl of the same age as me next door to our house named Yang Xiyue!"

When this name was mentioned, Guo Shouyun heard a strong love in his tone!

“… Maybe it's God's arrangement, we are all in the same class in elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and even most of the time we are at the same table. Moreover, we were in the top two of the class in every exam. In the Chinese concept of education, students who study well will always receive preferential treatment from teachers. Therefore, because we compete with each other in learning, appreciate each other and then have a young love, the teacher is also 'turning a blind eye'. Later, we were admitted to the same university at the same time. At that time, the two of us were already talking about getting us engaged!"

“… The door is right, Lang has a concubine, and at that time, we were envied by neighbors and even classmates. The success of my love also promoted my studies. As a sophomore, I not only had excellent grades, but I was also the vice president of the school's student council. If there is no accident, I will be elected president and graduate in four years for a Ph.D. Or enter a large state-owned enterprise, and everything will be beautiful!but...!"

The warm tone suddenly turned heavy, and Liu Zhixing, whose body was trembling violently, stopped abruptly. After adjusting for a long time, I heard him continue: "But I responded to that sentence: there are unforeseen circumstances in the sky, and people have good and bad luck. With the reform and opening up of China, the affluent life abroad and advanced science and technology have brought an unimaginable and violent impact to us who have just opened the country. The stark contrast makes everyone wonder if the ideas and beliefs we once held on to were wrong? When this suspicion reached its peak, the 86-year school ~ tide broke out!"

“… However, at that time, I had just entered the university gate, and my understanding of the outside world was still in a state of ignorance. So it wasn't affected until three years later...!"

Eight or nine years of political ~ governance turmoil, Guo Shouyun had not experienced it in his previous life, but he heard a lot.

"I participated in the movement in front of Cheonan~. And then... I was expelled from school!" The heavy words revealed the depression in Liu Zhixing's heart, "I have no academic qualifications and diplomas, and the worst thing is that the events of eight or nine years are recorded in my file! In that era when state-owned enterprises occupied the main body, this almost cut off all my upward channels. I couldn't find any decent work other than manual work such as farming, building toilets, and cleaning people. I'm not reconciled, I'm not reconciled. Think of the fact that I used to be the pride of heaven that my teachers liked and my classmates envied, but now I have been reduced to cleaning the toilet with a group of reckless and rough women? This drastic gap has destroyed all my self-confidence and pride. After hitting a wall repeatedly and being ridiculed repeatedly for half a year, I was completely hopeless. I spent the whole day drinking to kill my sorrows, and I was like a useless waster at that time!"

Liu Zhixing's tone revealed infinite hatred for himself.

“… At that time, no one wanted to be with me except my grandparents and Xiyue. Especially Xiyue, she insisted on marrying me despite the opposition of her family! But at that time, I was full of resentment towards society, and I realized how precious this affection was!"

Two lines of remorseful tears slowly flowed down the corners of Liu Zhixing's eyes.

“… At that time, our family was all supported by Xiyue's salary. Grandma died in '93, we had a baby in '95, and my grandfather left in '96. But at that time, I was still confused. Liu Zhixing, who was too emotional, tried to calm down before continuing, "In the nineties, it was hot to go abroad, and Xiyue, who knew that I had no chance in China, wanted me to change the environment. So, she worked hard to get into the State University of New York at Stony Brook, and then quit her job and brought our family to the United States. ”

"It's a pity that God doesn't open his eyes. Not long after we arrived in the United States, Xiyue was diagnosed with uterine cancer during a physical examination at school!" Liu Zhixing's tone and body trembled violently, and the tears of remorse in his eyes flowed down like a river bursting its banks.

Guo Shouyun felt his endless sadness and regret, in fact, he had never seen a man cry so heartbroken in his two lives! That kind of heart-rending and deep-rooted sadness made Guo Shouyun couldn't help but turn his head and couldn't bear to look at it anymore. He was afraid that he couldn't help it!

The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, just because he hasn't reached the sad place!

Liu Zhixing, who had been suppressed in his heart for too long, too bitter, and too tired, did not slowly calm down until a quarter of an hour had passed.

Looking at his red and swollen eyes, Guo Shouyun took out a tissue and handed it over.

"Wipe it!"

"Thank you!" choked up and took it, wiping the tears from her face, "Two years later, Xiyue left, and I regret not being at the beginning." It's a pity that she never came back. With her last words, I left New York and came to Seattle in a sad place... Met you half a year later!"

After a pause, calming down again, "This is my story, a coward's story." You must despise me at this moment, don't you? But it's normal, even I despise myself!"

Looking at Liu Zhixing, who was full of ridicule, Guo Shouyun said in a heavy tone: "I really despise you, you don't have the responsibility of a man." ”

"Yes, I don't deserve to be a man! What kind of man am I, I have simply lost the face of a Chinese man!" Liu Zhixing laughed miserably.

"So, are you ready to continue to lose the face of our Chinese men, or are you ready to change the status quo and set an example of a good father for Nannan?"

"Of course I want to set an example for Nannan, but I...!"

Guo Shouyun waved his hand to interrupt his words full of excitement, "You are only 32 years old now, and you still have a lot of time to struggle and change your current situation." Therefore, if you really want to be worthy of your wife and her hardships for more than ten years, start to change from now on!"

After the words fell, Guo Shouyun stood up.

"I have already completed your investment immigration qualifications, and you can get your green card in two days at most. It's up to you how you choose next. After the words fell, Guo Shouyun took two steps forward. After a moment's hesitation, he stopped, but he didn't turn around.

"If you want, I can help you apply for a university, or you can do an internship at one of my companies. ”

After finishing speaking, Guo Shouyun walked towards the villa in front of him.

Looking at his tall back, Liu Zhixing stared at him for a long time and muttered, "Thank you!"

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