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It was getting dark, and the wind blew through the window, and I don't know how long it took for me to hear footsteps going upstairs, and my eyes locked to the door. (Good-looking.)

Ziyue dragged his tired body in, looked at me, and said bitterly, "Xiaoyu went home by himself." ”

"Home in Tianjin?" I asked.

Ziyue nodded, but stopped looking at me, turned around and went to the study. I got up and chased after him, leaning against the door, watching him sit on the chair in a daze, smoking fiercely, his expression was gloomy, except for exhaustion, I couldn't see any other look, but in his heart, he should regret it.

His love for Xiaoyu can be seen in the bottom of his eyebrows and eyes, but today, for my sake, he hit her for the first time. Let a fourteen-year-old child run back to Tianjin in anger on his own. If something happens along the way, who will be able to live in peace of mind in this life? I am suddenly so afraid, afraid that Ziyue will blame me.

I turned around and went back to the bedroom, my head was still dizzy, and I was lying weak, my heart pounding. It wasn't until the second half of the night that Ziyue walked into the bedroom and lay beside me, full of thoughts all night.

At about 8 a.m., his cell phone rang. He glanced at it, got up and stood at the window. The voice was so low that I didn't hear it, only his brow furrowed. After hanging up the phone, he looked at me and said, "Xiaoyou had a fever last night, I'll go back and take a look." ”

"Go back. I urged. He put his arm on my shoulder, looked at me deeply, and said, "Take care of yourself." "Turn and leave. I picked up my phone and took a look, and it was July 21st.

That morning, the sky was overcast and airtight. I just feel breathless. After a few bites, I vomited all the food, and I seemed to feel uneasy from head to toe.

Xiaoyou must have been angry and scared by the slap, so he got sick. The more Zi goes back, how to face his beloved daughter, since yesterday, I have also been entangled in my heart, and I feel more and more weak. [

It was almost noon, and there was a crackling storm and a sound of smashing on the ground, as if the heavens and the earth were covered by heavy rain, and I stood at the window, and the pumpkin was now very leafy, and I thought it could withstand the rainstorm. I was a little relieved, distraught by the heavy rain, and went downstairs and turned on the TV. Bored watching soap operas.

At about 4 o'clock in the afternoon, I changed the channel, and many stations had already begun to broadcast the disaster situation in Beijing, many flooded areas on the Fangshan side, and some underground passages, under the overpass, there was standing water, and cars were trapped. I didn't feel a little curious, can Beijing still be flooded? At first, I just thought it was incredible, and my eyes jumped more and more as I watched my heart jump more and more. I turned off the TV and slept on the couch for a while.

When I opened my eyes again, the torrential rain turned the world upside down. I instructed: "Sister Zhang, don't go grocery shopping, it's raining too much, just eat whatever you want." ”

Sister Zhang responded and went to the kitchen to Zhang Luo. I looked at the time, it was almost seven o'clock, turned on the TV, but I was stunned, I never thought that the water in Beijing could drown people, looking at the reports one by one, I began to tremble, Ziyue went out in the morning, did not give me a call, although at the moment I think he should be at home, but watching the water patch on TV, I still panicked, I couldn't help but take out my mobile phone, thought about it, and sent him a text message: "Is it safe to get home?"

A few minutes like centuries, fifteen minutes passed, and there was no response. I was so anxious that I made a phone call, but it was a standard female voice: "The user you are calling cannot be reached for the time being." ”

My head was banging on my head, and I was beating like crazy over and over again, telling me over and over again that I couldn't get through. The TV kept broadcasting the electrocution due to the torrential rain, drowning the dead, and my lower abdomen began to twitch, and my heart almost jumped out.

Sister Zhang told me that the meal was ready, I waved my hand, I was dizzy, and slowly walked up the stairs, suddenly the mobile phone rang, it was an unfamiliar number, I shook my hand and picked it up, a cold female voice: "Tell Feng Ziyue to listen to the phone." ( ”

I paused: "He's not here." "My heart almost jumped out, this voice, I guessed who it was," he went home to see Xiaoyou. ”

There was a pause, and then his voice was slightly anxious: "What time did you leave?"

"In the morning, it was not yet nine o'clock. Haven't you arrived yet?" I shook violently.

"Nope. "Can you get through to him?"

"I can't get through. I covered my mouth and tried to suppress my crying.

"You're going to kill our whole family. The female voice over there was cold and hung up the phone suddenly.

I shuddered and dialed again, still cold, "The call you made cannot be connected for the time being." ”

"You're going to kill our whole family before you stop" echoed in my mind over and over again, did Ziyue have an accident? Do you really want retribution? Don't repay him, it's all my fault, my fault. My head was dizzy, and I stretched out my right foot to step up, but I couldn't support my body at all, and my center of gravity was unstable and I fell backwards. After a few steps, I rolled down a few times and fell to the bottom of the building, my stomach began to cramp, and I moaned weakly: "Sister Zhang, Sister Zhang." ”

After a few calls, Sister Zhang ran over and helped me up, my stomach hurt so badly that my eyes were black and I fell into Sister Zhang's arms.

I slept for a long time. I remember before, I used to complain about why I didn't faint for a longer time, and if it was longer, I wouldn't have to look at many things and not have to think about them. Now, I've really gotten a long time to faint. It was pitch black in my dream, and I couldn't find a way forward, only the cold and heavy rain all over my body. I poured one after another spirits.

When I finally woke up again, I saw the white walls, the white sheets, and I was in the hospital again, it was really useless. The person sitting next to me made me stunned. It's Ziyue, thank goodness, he's fine. I grabbed his hand and felt a rush of ecstasy. As long as he's okay, I'll be fine.

It's just that why is he so haggard? His hair has turned so white, his whole body has lost weight, his eye sockets are deep, I have never seen him like this, he seems to be ten years old all of a sudden, and now he looks like my father's age. I was excited: "Xiaoyu is okay?"

"Good. His voice was hoarse, and his eyes seemed numb with pain. Stroking the messy hair around my ear, "What's uncomfortable?"

I turned my attention to myself, there was a drip on my arm, I didn't have any strength, and my lower abdomen was a little sore, as if something was wrong. I hurriedly touched it: "Is the child okay?"

Ziyue closed his eyes in pain, grabbed me with his backhand, and his body trembled slightly. "The child is gone?" I asked softly.

"There will be again. He almost squeezed out five words.

"Oh. I answered, and fainted again. This time the fainting time was very short, and before the doctor came, I had already turned around slowly. The doctor briefly examined it and only told him to rest. And he went out.

I looked at Ziyue in a daze, as if I couldn't accept this fact, and asked him softly: "You're scaring me, aren't you?" Ziyue covered his face with one hand and lowered his head.

"Oh, that's true. I let out a long sigh. No more speech. My mind went completely blank. The child is gone, the child, whose child? Have I ever had a child? With whom? Who is this man in front of me? I felt my brain run like a derailed train, and the whole world was alienated from me. Just staring straight at the ceiling. Ziyue talked to me, but I didn't react at all. Don't know what he's talking about, don't even know who he is,

There was only a vague shadow in my head, a small shadow that couldn't see clearly. I can't see clearly in my dreams, is it a boy or a girl, does he look like me, will he shake his little hands and throw himself into my arms like a chubby child on TV? Will he call my mother obediently? But I didn't even have time to see his appearance clearly. Tears flowed slowly and silently, but his eyes were closed, not wanting to look in front of him.

I don't know how long it took, it was getting dark again, and as soon as the door opened, Ai Yun hurriedly walked in. When I got to my bedside, my eyes were red, "Xiaowei." ”

Ai Yun, this is Ai Yun, I just woke up from a big dream, and I threw myself on Ai Yun and cried "ah". I've never cried so sharply, one by one, heartbreaking, not so much crying as a roar, a wail. Aiyun patted me on the back and wept silently. Ziyue couldn't bear to look at it anymore, turned his head and rushed out the door.

In this life, the pain in my heart, just that once, is enough, right? The child I was looking forward to and trying my best to protect with all my might left. I cried in the dark, and all the past flashed through my mind. It turns out that after great sorrow, it is not great compassion, but numbness, just loss of soul, and when it comes to great compassion, it is already the time for consciousness to return.

Ai Yun hugged me tightly: "Xiaowei, if you want to open up, mother and son are also fate." Without that fate, it's useless to force it, and the more you save it, the more sad it will be. Ai Yun probably remembered her seven-month fate, and she couldn't cry because of her sadness.

Fate? It's a bad fate, how can it come from? I cried and fell on her shoulder. After a long time, I cried until I was numb and no longer wailed. Ai Yun fed me two mouthfuls of porridge, and I retched it all again. Just lying hollow.

It wasn't until late at night that Ai Yun went back. Ziyue stayed by my side, watching him grow overnight, and I couldn't speak. I'd like to say I'm sorry, but I don't know where I did wrong.

Ziyue held my hand tightly and looked at him all night, but he didn't have anything to say.

After a long time, Ziyue said in a hoarse voice: "Take care of your body, we will have another child." I laughed silently, laughing until my whole body trembled, laughing until tears overflowed, Ziyue was a little scared, and grabbed my shoulder tightly: "Xiaowei, Xiaowei!"

"We, Ziyue, how can we have that fate?" I closed my eyes weakly, broke his hand away, and lay on the bed, not wanting to look at anything anymore or think about it again.

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