It is true that no book is written without coincidence. It was by such a coincidence that I became a generation of Internet celebrities, an Internet celebrity who everyone shouts and beats like a rat crossing the street.

On the morning of the second day when I returned home, I was deeply distressed because I was thinking about the novel I was writing, because I had no inspiration for a while, and my mood fell into an inexplicable anxiety.

All this is like prepared for me, just turned on a news channel on the TV, a news made my eyes black and almost fell - the kind father in the subway incident because of the previous internal injuries were too serious, the first week in the ICU ward after careful treatment and then transferred to a general ward, after two weeks of hospitalization, but suddenly deteriorated, and finally died of ineffective rescue. As a result, the vicious incident that suddenly happened in the subway before was filtered and analyzed again from beginning to end, and the spearhead was directed at the girl who was standing at the bottom of the elevator at the time, who was looking at her mobile phone intently, and more importantly, me, a mother who did not take care of her children.

My personal information was also exposed, including where I was born, what school I attended, what major I graduated from, what job I worked in, and even a general circle of relationships. Especially for me, a derelict mother, who fought with someone in the subway at that time, it became the focus of everyone's attention. Those do-gooders quickly found the malicious rumors that had been spread on the Internet and unceremoniously announced them. What's more, the scene of the fight between Hadron and Rufeng that day was even recorded by well-wishers. So for a while, on TV and on the Internet, out of pity and sympathy for the deceased, the ruthless criticism of me was also regarded as a beautiful tribute to the deceased.

For this father, I have not been able to visit in time, which has become the biggest regret of my life. A good person should not be forgotten, and I still can't let go of this person when I think of him after many years. If it weren't for his efforts to block the crowd that fell one after another, it is estimated that it would have been my daughter who was hit hard, and it was he who made me remember that there is an energy in the world called sunshine.

After the subway incident, when I knew that he was stable in the ICU, my heart was relieved, I wanted to wait for him to take the child to see him before he was discharged from the hospital, but there were unforeseen circumstances, I have been in trouble, all kinds of things are cut and messed up, and this matter is slowly put aside, I didn't expect that the news of him would be such a bleak result. While praying silently in my heart for him that a good man like him would reach heaven and enjoy eternal bliss, I fell into endless desolation and darkness. The heart that had been calm was suddenly swept into the center of the storm, and it was passively spinning in mid-air and unable to find a place to stay.

Gossip is like a dish in a pot, which is repeatedly stirred in the cauldron of society by those self-righteous people with all kinds of onions, ginger, garlic and various flavors, giving birth to a fragrant and attractive taste, and I have realized the dream that many people can't achieve in a lifetime without leaving home - to become an Internet celebrity. Shen Weilan's three words have suddenly become a popular word on the Internet, and the number of web pages that I get by casually typing into the search bar seems to have paid a lot of advertising money. The hand of fate is really magical, and it always surprises me a lot before I know it, and this surprise almost stimulated me to collapse for a while. I hate it so much, very much these irresponsible people who spread right and wrong casually, hate this network manipulated by the vast majority of blind followers, hate those who like to follow people without standards of right and wrong and wait to watch the excitement, and hate why they are themselves, why they live in this era, and live in such an environment formed by a group of ignorant people.

On that day, I completely locked myself in the house, locked in the bed in my room, and I didn't even have the courage to go downstairs. A lot of incomprehensible resentment consumed my spirit, making me feel dizzy when I looked at the ceiling of my home, and I felt anxious when I listened to the sound of flowing water from the water pipes. My daughter and my mother rarely watched TV, and they didn't know what was going on, so they came to the bedside and asked me to pull me, and I pretended to be sleeping. I knew they were worried about me, but I was really weak on all fours, like a cotton wool blown around by the wind, soft and lazy. The daughter was frightened, and the mother was frightened, so she hurriedly called Qiangzi to tell him, but in exchange for an understatement, "It's okay, let her be." ”

I was lying on the bed, confused but awake, presumably Qiangzi must have seen the news, we have been in conflict, his attitude is expected by me, but when I really heard this simple sentence from my mother's mobile phone voiceover, my heart was still sour and tight. When people are sad, they always can't help but think of the past, and perhaps this is the most special healing function of the human brain - to comfort the current trauma by reminiscing about the good. In my haze, I suddenly remembered the time when I fell in love with Qiangzi, how he gave me flowers, how he took me to the movies, how the two of them stupidly walked around the park together, and when I was self-absorbed, Qiangzi's face suddenly became like the wind. I was really startled, I woke up, I opened my eyes suddenly, and then a cramping sensation in my heart spread all over my body, and I was sweating profusely in the pain, and then my consciousness drifted away.

"Doctor, what's wrong with my daughter? Why did she suddenly fall into a coma, and for so long?"

When I regained consciousness, I heard my mother's anxious voice asking the doctor.

A middle-aged woman replied gently, "Auntie, does anyone in your family have a history of heart disease?

"No, our family, including her father, has never heard of this disease, do you mean that my daughter has a heart attack?!"

"Doctor, I'm her husband. "It's the voice of the hadron.

"Auntie, don't worry, I'm just a routine consultation, the purpose is to help us eliminate some uncertainties, so as to make an accurate diagnosis, so as not to delay your daughter's condition. "The female doctor had a good attitude and didn't get bored by my mother's anxiety.

"Patient's husband, come to my office, I have something to know from you. Auntie, you get your daughter some water to drink first, she is already awake. "The doctor had noticed my condition, found an excuse to break my mother away, and left the room. Then he went out with Qiangzi, and before leaving, he glanced back at me, but did not speak, and could not see any expression. I glanced back at him, then deliberately twisted my head away, and didn't say a word.

My mother hurriedly walked out of the emergency room, quickly brought in a cup of boiled water in a disposable plastic cup, walked to my bedside, frowned into a lock, and asked, "Xiaolan, how are you feeling now? Okay, how can you faint? Have you ever had similar symptoms? Have you ever felt unwell? Come, come, drink some water first. ”

My mother's concern made me feel both warm and distressed, "Mom, my heart hurts violently for a while, and then I don't know." I don't usually have it, you see that I can eat and drink, there should be nothing wrong? I guess I am not in a good mood today, and I think too much. Don't worry, I'll pay attention to it later. This will not happen again. ”

My mother told me what the doctor had just asked, and I always felt uneasy in my heart, feeling as if the doctor had something to say and was hinting at something. In order to prevent her from continuing to speculate, I asked about my daughter, distracting her.

In the doctor's office, the female doctor asked solemnly, "This family, I would like to know if your lover has any similar situations in her life, such as coma, angina, headache, etc." ”

"I haven't heard her mention it in the past few years of marriage, and once, probably a few days ago, I can't remember clearly, she once fainted because of a headache, and she didn't hear her say anything uncomfortable when she woke up. The doctor's questioning brought back memories of Qiangzi, and his heart suddenly sank, and his two fists clenched involuntarily, and then he stretched out and grabbed the corners of his clothes.

"Don't be nervous, I'm just asking, I can't see any problems in the preliminary examination at present, and all indicators are normal, but the sudden fainting is something to pay attention to, she is still so young. So, if you can, I recommend that your lover get a full body check-up. ”

Hearing the doctor's final conclusion, Hadron loosened his clothes and breathed a sigh of relief. "Doctor, since there is no problem, can we be discharged from the hospital now?" asked Qiangzi anxiously, deliberately avoiding the doctor's proposal.

The doctor looked at Qiangzi's face, and a trace of casual disdain flashed in his eyes, "It's up to you to check it or not, and with the current situation, you can be discharged if you are not uncomfortable for another two hours." ”

Hadron returned to the ward, relayed the doctor's words, ignored the doctor's suggestion to do a thorough examination, and then went out into the hallway, found a seat and sat down. The seats were diagonally opposite the entrance to my ward, so they could see each other, and even though I was lying on the bed, I could see his every move. Today he seems to be very unsettled, a little restless, from time to time he will stand up and walk back and forth, and the mobile phone is also taken out of his pocket and put back, looking at it over and over again, as if there is something particularly important waiting for him to do. I was really impatient, so I asked my mother to tell him that if there was something to do, he could go first and not need to be here, but he had no intention of leaving.

People's emotions are contagious, and I watched his unintentional irritability, and began to get upset again. Later, I thought that since there was nothing unusual about me, I decided not to wait for any observations, and it should not be a problem to simply leave the hospital. So, I got up and got out of bed, my mother helped me, and Qiangzi followed, walked out of the ward, walked through the corridor, and soon arrived at the hospital lobby, and through the lobby to the hospital entrance.

Unexpectedly, the moment I walked to the steps of the door, the bright lights flashed wildly at my eyes, and then I only heard one "click" after another.