Yuan Changwen trembled all over, trembling inexplicably, not afraid or panicked, but just felt a sudden rush of sadness.

It seems that something has left him forever.

The lake water was cold, but Yuan Changwen felt warm. Unlike the previous flames brought by the anger, it was as if the whole body was burning. At this moment, it is just a little warm, sad but not painful, wanting to cry but only shedding a tear.

The trembling was like the trembling of crying. Unfortunately, there is only a tear, which is inconspicuous in the lake. But Yuan Changwen knew that it was his own tears, a tear that even the lakes of the whole world could not hide.

What's that? What's that thing that leaves itself?

Yuan Changwen asked himself, but he couldn't find an answer. Even if the answer is found, it is not necessarily the answer, it can only be said that in the limited knowledge in the character's head, the answer is the correct answer.

The water of the lake ripples, and the lights change unpredictably on the surface of the lake, like the starry sky and bewitching dancing girls, like curved broken lines, but more like chaotic starlight.

However, Yuan Changwen couldn't see this, and he couldn't see anything in the depths of the lake. Just like the character of Yuan Changwen, he can't actually see anything.

I always think that I can see things, and I always think that the character of Yuan Changwen has the function of seeing things. But how can I be sure of this?

Enough is enough, and before I know it, it's like thinking about these questions, and it's not at all controlled by my will. If I had the will, it would have been completely destroyed, or there was no way to control the continuation of these things.

It's a bit like a tumbling tire, at first you can control it, but then it seems to fall down a steep slope and you can't control it at all. And then I kept alternating between discomfort and relaxation, and many times I was reluctant to continue to kill, because that ease was really great.

If there is a cultivator, then I am definitely a great immortal at ease!

It's a pity that the slash is not under his control, and the abrupt will appear. Even if you don't think about it anymore, those ridiculous things are as if they are placed in front of you, and they are easily seen through. Then, hating the twist in his mind again, he unconsciously continued to embark on the path of slashing.

Is that so?

Perhaps, this kind of summary is meaningless, and he is still killing, and he has not yet finished it.

However, I always felt that there was nothing to kill, but the discomfort forced me to kill, and I always couldn't help but see the absurdity that I couldn't see.

Of course, it is entirely possible that he is still deceived by fear, and he has not even started to kill at all, and has not taken the first step at all.

Who knows what the slash is all about? Who knows what the first step is? Who can be sure that I can touch the truth by doing this?

No one dared to say that, not even the words of the teacher. After all, I just remember that the teacher said this, and who knows if what the teacher said is true?

Even if it's true, even if the teacher starts the killing like this, it touches the truth like this, and it's useless for me.

I can't know this, and the belief that slashing can touch the truth is just wishful thinking. To think that the teacher has touched the truth, that the teacher's word is sacred, is just another faith.

The twist in my head is still arrogant, and I'm learning how to perceive the flow of life. So, will the slash continue?

It's not accurate to ask this question, because the question contains the assumption that I'm sure my actions and thoughts are slashing, so I can ask myself if I want to continue slashing.

But can I be sure that my actions and thoughts are killing, or can my actions and thoughts really have the effect of killing the distortion in my mind?

Look, I can't even confirm such a thing, what else can I claim?

Maybe I'm going around in circles, maybe I can't end my life, and I haven't even started killing in my life.

Who knows?

After not being afraid of life, it is easy to become idle. Then, the first reaction was, "How can I do nothing", and the residual distortion in my body will affect me. But then you think, "Why not?"

When I felt it carefully, I found that there was nothing abnormal, and I didn't feel anything that needed to be done at all.

That's it, it sounds ridiculous, but now I'm living on it. I will no longer rely on the distortion of my head, nor will I believe in any authoritative statements, just rely on the flow of life.

The only thing that makes me do this or not do it is the feeling of the flow of life. Perhaps, going with the flow will lead to hurtful speech, and there will be some words and deeds that do not conform to emotional intelligence, which will lead to the breakdown of friendships and so on.

But it doesn't matter, who knows what will happen later? I don't do and don't want to do those behaviors that are chosen and weighed through the twist in my mind. Something obvious, such as declining some invitations yourself, or repeatedly declining some invitations, will definitely anger the other person.

According to the distortion in the mind, this is not being a man, which must be provoking the other party not to give the other party. However, with the flow of life being arranged in such an arrangement, I have no reason to refuse it. Ridiculous, perhaps, but it seems to me that listening to the distortion in my head is ridiculous.

Or, maybe you've become stupid, or maybe you've been made inhuman by your own thinking.

Is it possible that what the teacher said is actually wrong?

Of course it is possible, in fact, what the teacher said must be wrong. Is the teacher's killing journey exactly the same as mine? Just because the teacher touched the truth earlier than me, my killing must be in line with the teacher's explanation?

It's funny, I'm standing here, can't I look at it?

Of course, maybe I'm just thinking about it, maybe the situation will be in line with the teacher's explanation. It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter if it meets the teacher's explanation, I'm moving forward, that's the key.

It must be admitted that the flow of life is only a guess, just as the existence of the Tao is only a guess. Since I can only be sure that "I exist", how can I be sure of the flow of life or the existence of "Tao"?

As I see others, even though "someone else is a real person" is a guess, it's hard for me to discard that guess.

Everything is an element that is perceived at the moment, and it is normal to relate to these elements, and it is crazy not to relate to it. I'm just crazy, trying not to relate the elements I perceive, like the inverse in "Reverse is immortal", isn't that what I want to describe this state of?

I began to feel a little different, and it seemed that those esoteric words became very straightforward in my eyes. And if your own explanation is different from what the author wants to express, then it can only mean that the author is talking trash talk.

Arrogant, and narrow-minded.