That's right, that awareness is everything, and all that is just the visual element that is perceived at the moment.

In this way, his own killing is a joke. There is no role of Yuan Changwen at all, no one controls me at all, what am I killing?

Excuses, reassure, let me see what other tricks you can play.

I take it all as real, and I'm killing this. I don't think something can happen, and that's killing this. I think there is something that must be done in life, and this is to kill this.

That awareness is everything, it's just a signpoint, not a tool to appease or reduce fear.

It's like the feeling of exhilaration after pooping, which is caused by the completion of pooping, not by imitating the feeling of exaltation. Obviously I want to, but I keep suppressing myself with this pleasure, isn't this?

How do I know how easy it will be after the killing? I don't know, but despite what the teacher says, this thought is just a hindrance to me. I'm constantly thinking about why I'm not done yet, and I'm constantly looking for what I'm doing wrong, which will only lead me to stop killing.

Really? I know again?

What do I know, what do I know?

After removing time, what is left? Is there a causal relationship?

But that sense of absurdity makes me can't believe that there is no cause and effect. The reason why the apple fell to the ground and shattered, is it not that the apple fell to the ground?

The paradox is that it seems that I can't believe that "apples fall to the ground" will not cause "apples to break".

Strictly speaking, I can't be outside of binary. Once I don't believe that "apples fall to the ground" cause "apples to break", I think that "apples to the ground" will not cause "apples to break".

No, not knowing for sure is the answer.

Although it is false, I have no way of knowing how the elements of the picture are presented.

Even, this kind of thinking is problematic in itself, because I have my eyes on the future. Imagine how the future will be presented, and imagine whether the next "apple landing" will cause "apple to break".

Damn it!

Is it difficult to think that this is all-knowing, and what I know is all?

All the pictorial elements that are just perceived at the moment are here. The past is here, the future is here, and this moment is eternal. Do I need more, and why keep looking for more?

And, how can we find more in this unreal world? The character of Yuan Changwen is not me at all, don't you understand?

There is no such thing as the character of Yuan Changwen, but countless things make up the character of Yuan Changwen, and the distortion in the brain is the key element. Therefore, when I use the "role of Yuan Changwen" to refer to it, I have already ignored the key elements.

So, what else is arrogant in my head?

Money is still affecting me, and it seems that as long as I can have enough, I will let go of the killing.

Fear is my guide, and cool points are also my guide.

Yuan Changwen felt powerless, could he really do it?

It's funny that with these theories, you may be able to talk endlessly, maybe you can become the founder of a certain school of theory, maybe you can argue everyone somewhere. After all, once time is removed, any theory of the other side will become.

However, he just didn't kill him, he just didn't jump off the cliff.

What's the use of theoretical understanding? Become a better version of yourself, Achieve more knowledge, Get more applause?

.

If that's not my reality, then it's, and it's no different from all the on the market. Everyone is here to enrich their lives, and they are all here to enrich their characters, so it doesn't matter which method or theory.

As long as it can make the character plump, let the character sleep deeper, and soothe the restless heart, it is a good theory. For the sake of calmness and calmness, even set calm as a good person and irascible as a bad person.

As a result, it is natural to keep the good guys and lose the bad guys. Right, concentrate all kinds of good virtues, as if this is the saint, this is the ultimate goal.

Shit.

Why do you want to succeed so much, why do you want to get praise and attention so much, why do you want to get recognition?

These forces drive me to weigh, to choose, to pursue. It just doesn't give me time to think about what the hell all this is.

Is success real? Who is the object of praise and attention? What does the role of Yuan Changwen have to do with me?

False, all false. Who put those cries like "my fate is up to me, not to heaven"? The so-called anger, the so-called unwillingness, and the so-called ideals are all created by the times.

In other words, their own ideas are based on the elements of the picture. Then, when I say, "My life is up to me, not to heaven", I have already been ruled by "heaven". Those thoughts are all given by "heaven", so what else is there to talk about "not by heaven"?

This idea of "not by the sky" is created by the times, what am I resisting?

It's terrifying to think about, obviously I can't determine the time, but I am dragged by time. I can't be sure of the authenticity of those picture elements, but I have no doubt that they are real. Then, he began to go further and further and make all kinds of efforts for the sake of the role.

Yuan Changwen didn't know how to continue, so he let himself continue to fall. When is the end, when will it end, can you really kill it?

I was still thinking about the map given by the teacher, and I always thought that I had gotten rid of the teacher, but I was still under the influence of the teacher. I adore my teacher and believe in his words. But how can we continue to believe without the existence of cause and effect?

For big things, it seems that because there are too many reasons, any summary is one-sided, and it is not worth believing at all. But what about the little things? What about the apple falling to the ground and breaking? Would I throw the apple on the ground because I didn't know?

The character always wants to find a way, find a stipulation. What should I do when I am afraid? What should I do when I choose? This sense of certainty is reassuring, as if I am not floating in an endless sea of darkness, but walking steadily on the road.

The point is, what the characters do is my business!

Why should I think about how my character should live?

Slashing is all there is to it, and the rest does not need to be considered, at least not now. Maybe after the killing is completed, it will be known.

It doesn't matter what the character does. I can't be sure if the "apple falls to the ground" causes the "apple to break", that's it. I don't want to know the rest, what the character should do, whether the character will still believe it.

Is it possible to pretend to continue to believe in the elements of the picture, to pretend to believe in those distortions, to pretend to believe in those causal relationships?

Perhaps, but that's after the killing. The current pretense is just procrastination, just a trick that the character does not want to be killed.