Sitting on the bus, I was still entangled in my heart, am I going like this, am I not afraid of meeting him again? Or am I subconsciously looking forward to seeing him again, even if it is the last time? If I can't meet him, what should I do? Do I want to see him or am I afraid to see him? Hesitating and tangled, I came to his house again.

The familiar room is cold and somewhat unfamiliar. I suddenly remembered the little turtle, who had been busy with work lately and hadn't come to feed the baby turtle for almost a week. I hurried to the study, God forbid, the little turtle was still fluttering. I sprinkled a few turtles into it, and I actually shook my head and tail as if I didn't like to answer. I can't help but want to laugh, it's really the nature of the owner, like your master, I don't care about anything, and I don't eat life-saving meals.

Looking at the room again, maybe it was about to be completely decided, but the mood was much calmer, not as sad as every time I came before. I silently cleaned the house, especially Ziyue's study, wiped every crevice of the desk, and wiped the keyboard of the computer carefully. Rubbing the swivel chair he used to frown on over and over again, he sat down quietly, turning back and forth, his fingers gently tapping on the desk, when he sat here, would he frown, ponder, sigh? Thinking about it, the corners of his mouth were lightly raised, and he smiled faintly.

It's already dark, he hasn't come back yet, but I'm panicking in my heart, I'm leaving, maybe I'll never come again in this life, maybe I'll never see him again, even if there are thousands of reluctant attachments, I should say goodbye at the end. But why didn't he come back today, I was a little annoyed.

The hour hand slipped to 9 o'clock, I couldn't help it anymore, Zhao Xiaowei, you are brave once, just once, take the initiative to say goodbye to him.

Gritting his teeth and trembling, he sent him a text message: "Ziyue, the key and bank card are on your desk, and I took the little turtle away." I wish you all the best!"

A few seconds later, I received a reply from him, "Wait for me." ”

I pinched my phone and my heart started to beat wildly. The waiting time is torment, ten, twenty, an hour. As time passed, my heart became more and more flustered, and I became lovesick again, but I was afraid of seeing each other, and I was even more timid when I saw each other. I didn't know what the "timidity" in the ancient poems was, but now I know that it is the taste of extreme longing and extreme inferiority mixed together.

I stood nervously at the window, and finally saw the familiar car downstairs bypassing, but I had the urge to run away, daring to take the initiative to send a text message, but I couldn't face the reality that my initiative invited him. To love to the extreme is humble. I was already humble, and I didn't have any confidence to stand in front of him.

Taking advantage of the fact that his car was turning to the underground garage, I rushed downstairs. Walking out of the community and walking aimlessly and quickly. On an November day, the cool breeze rose, the night was full of silence, I wore a little little clothes, and I couldn't stop shivering.

Suddenly, the mobile phone rang loudly, I pressed it hard, and it rang again, I couldn't help but pick it up anymore, his voice was a little anxious: "Where are you?" My tears flowed: "I don't know." He said in a deep voice: "Look again, what buildings are around?" I looked around: "Highway entrance, traffic light" He said urgently: "Wait for me in place." ”

A few minutes later, his car came speeding over, stopped beside me, and finally saw him again, a little haggard, emaciated, angular face, my eyes were on him and I was no longer reluctant to leave, I looked at him stupidly, tears could not be stopped, fluttering and falling non-stop. He looked at me, his eyes were a little hot, a little painful, he walked up to me, he and I were silent, I just wept, he reached out to wipe away my tears, and trembled: "It's cold, it's time to spend your face." ”

I sobbed, "Money, I don't want it, I'm not worth that much." ”

He sighed, "Do you have a grudge against money?" and opened the car door and pushed me into the car hard.

When I drove back to his house, he just sat on the sofa and smoked, didn't look at me, didn't know what he was thinking, and didn't say a word.

I sat on the chair opposite, and suddenly felt that I was so bored, people had already let go, and I ran back to see their faces, isn't this self-inflicted humiliation?

I stood up and smiled with tears in my eyes: "I'm just coming back to deliver money and keys, nothing else, I'm leaving." "I turned around and wanted to leave.

He stood up suddenly, took two quick steps, grabbed me from behind, and his voice was a little hoarse: "A text message from you, asking me to rush back from the Xiangshan venue all the way to 180, and you just go like this?"

My heart sank, I couldn't hold back any longer, and I took a bite of his hand in front of my chest, biting it hard, and I couldn't cry.

His body trembled slightly, he didn't struggle, and when I let go, he turned me around, and the kiss fell like rain on my face, forehead, and neck, and his kiss was thick and powerful, even a little crazy.

His voice trembled a little: "Xiaowei, do you know that I miss you-----"

A sentence I miss you, so that my heart, which was already in tears like rain, turned into green smoke, my heart was soft, I sobbed and kissed him back, and said in my heart, my thoughts about you will only be deeper than you, not shallower than you. But he was embarrassed to speak, and only whispered his name: "Ziyue, Ziyue"

I had never called his name so softly, he buried his head in my chest and said emotionally: "Xiaowei, call my name, I like your voice." With tears in my eyes, I called over and over again, "Zi Yue, Zi Yue." "I am wailing in my heart, when will I be able to call "my Ziyue".

He hugged me tightly, I could barely breathe, his kiss pecked my chest, I couldn't help but moan softly, but it aroused his desire even more, his hands roamed over me emotionally, making me gasp with him. When he finally came into me, I had anticipation and longing for the first time. Imitation of a number of dried green seedlings sucking the rain and dew, and like the cold plum in winter facing the snow droplets, the wisps of lingering threads, it is actually a bitter love. I thought that this moment would last forever in his arms.

When the intense lingering calmed down, he leaned on the head of the bed and began to smoke again, I pulled his hand, I had just bitten out the blood stains, my heart hurt a little, and asked softly, "Does it hurt?"

He didn't answer, but grabbed my hand and put it on his chest, and said in a deep voice, "It hurts here." ”

I bit my lip, not knowing what to say, and after a while, I said, "I hurt too." ”

He smiled, and his voice was muffled, "Do you still have a heart?" Your sentence wishing me all the best, it is better to directly rip out my heart. ”

I blushed, but he dragged me to his chest, and his voice was low but firm: "Stay with me for a while." “

Listening to the powerful beating of his heart, I was reluctant to get up, for a while, I can't say whether it is long or short, I am afraid that I am looking forward to the long day, but he is short of love. It's just that at this temperature, I really can't say no, I just nodded slightly, his hand stroked my hair, and I was silent for a long time.

Outside the window is as clear as the moon, the room in the house is charming, the lights are not turned on, the moonlight is like water soaking in the hall, Ziyue's face in the moonlight is clearly a little handsome, I look a little stupid, I can't help but reach out to touch his eyebrows, but he grabbed his hand and put it on his lips and kissed it carefully.

Such a night, such a moon, I really hope that the moonlight will not linger again, and linger and linger. My heart was given a temporary respite and peace. After days of entanglement, the pain seemed to be soothed by this moonlight, and it quietly bloomed like a white lotus.

If this moment can be eternal, it will be a lifetime without regrets.

Suddenly there was a ticking text message, and the voice was mine, and I was just about to get up, but he stood up first on the side of the bed: "I'll go." ”

I turned on the light, but saw him standing beside the bed with a blue face, throwing his phone to me, and sneering: "Zhou Yi?"