After seeing Uncle Lei away, I took my mother's arm and walked back to the house. I peeked at my mother twice, and waited for her to talk about her and Uncle Lei. But no, Mom just sat quietly on the sofa, picked up the remote control, and watched her favorite TV show. I'm really curious about what my mother thinks of Uncle Lei, and I'm also curious about how far they have developed. However, I also want to tell her about me and Pan Yang.

"Mom, you ......," I hesitated to ask.

Mom turned to look at me and gave me a questioning look.

"Mom, don't you want to tell me something?" I asked.

Mom smiled, this smile was very contented and ...... It's refreshing, as if to say - don't you already know that?, I'm sure mom meant that. But I still wish my mom had told me about it.

"I want to hear it from you. ”

Mom beckoned me to sit next to her, I walked over and sat down beside her, Mom put her arm around me, like when I was a child, took me in her arms, and gently shook my body. After a long time, he spoke.

"Wenwen, I think you're like me, you've been waiting for this moment for a long time, aren't you?" Mom said quietly, but to my surprise, she continued, "Actually, you know everything you want, and besides, because of your father's affairs, your suffering, Mom knows. Actually, blame your mother for not quickly coming out of the shadow of losing your father, and let you lose the opportunity to get your father's love. Mom felt guilty about this, and even felt that she owed you too much. ”

She let out a sigh of relief. I looked up at her face, and my mother's eyes were already full of tears, and I wiped them gently for her. She pressed my hand, squeezed it lightly, and used her hand to prop my hand away. Mom's hands are beautiful, and they are not rough at all, and they are warm. Every time she held me tightly, I could feel a stream of heat flowing into my body, feeling safe.

"Wenwen, I don't know how much you remember about your father, but you must not hate him, my mother's marriage with him was arranged by my parents, and we are all unhappy. However, in the early days of our marriage, we still loved each other for a while, and that was when my mother fell in love with your father and had you, but sadly, I didn't win his heart. In his heart, there has always been a first love. ”

I sat up in shock, Mom and Dad had a loving past? For as long as I can remember, they just kept arguing, and Mom's tears. Mom grabbed me into her arms again and continued.

"At that time, maybe you were too young, you don't remember, the first time my father ran away from home, was to meet a woman who was very similar to his first love, at first they were just very good, your father also mentioned her to me, and sighed how there are two people in the world who are so similar, I also asked him stupidly, then will he fall in love with this woman who is very similar to his first love? He said for sure that he wouldn't, but after a long time, your father's heart unconsciously drifted to the woman, who was very beautiful and caring, and often asked for warmth, long and short. Smell it, you know, everything in this world can be stopped, but only the heart can't stop it, once you leave, you won't look back. And just like that, they eloped. ”

As she spoke, my mother choked up, and a teardrop rolled down my hair. This is her old story and the most hurtful part of her heart, I think if it weren't for Uncle Lei's appearance, my mother might never have said it, and said it in a calm and relaxed tone like today.

"But after they eloped, not long after, your father ran back and asked for my forgiveness, my mother was really stupid and naïve at that time, she really took his words seriously, and now looking back, she was actually lying to herself. In this way, I swallowed all the tears before, silently accepted the fact that he cheated, and forgave him. After he returned home, he was very kind to me, and even more pampered to you, I thought he really turned back, and the previous things were over as if he was over. But ......" Mom paused and pinched the bridge of her nose, "But, who would have thought that his first love appeared like this unexpectedly, it was at a class reunion of theirs, they reunited, the woman had already studied in Canada, and stayed there to develop, and married, but who would have thought that she would return to China and get divorced, just like that, they started dating and dating again. ”

Mom turned off the TV, bowed her head and was silent, this time she paused for a long time, I just snuggled up to her silently, I knew that the painful memories had crawled back into her heart, and she needed time to digest, transform, and forget the pain.

After a long time, my mother spoke again.

"Smelling it, my mother still has some feelings that I can't let go. Because her first love was so terrible for me, I hated her, but also because of my love for your father, I couldn't bear not to hate her, but in the end, she still took away my love. ”

I touched her face, there was a slight chill where the tears had just flowed, and I rubbed her cheeks to try to warm her cheeks again. But I didn't open my mouth, I didn't want to disturb her, on the contrary, I wanted her to tell me all her pain today. Mom, who kept swallowing saliva, seemed to be sorting out her thoughts.

"This woman was at first dressed in a beautiful coat, turning a blind eye to your father's invitations and pursuits, and often refused, and finally, one day, she found me......" Mom began to recall.

——

It was an afternoon, my mother had just returned to Beijing from a report in other places, and my mother, who was still immersed in the work of revising press releases, received a phone call from a colleague, and after the connection, I knew that it was my father's first love.

Dad's first love is called Xing Jiarou, beautiful and gentle, but she has a femme fatale. That afternoon, she made an appointment to meet her mother. Mom thought it was just a friendship-like appointment, but she didn't think too much about it, because Mom vaguely learned from Dad that this woman did not accept Daddy's pursuit, and often turned Dad away. However, after meeting, her true face was revealed.

Mom clearly remembers that Xing Jiarou wore a coffee-colored windbreaker, high boots, and long hair that afternoon. They made an appointment in the park behind their mother's unit.

"Hello, I'm Xing Jiarou, the first love of the sky. Xing Jiarou's opening was unceremoniously.

Xing Jiarou's self-introduction made her mother stunned and felt ominous. However, the well-cultivated mother did not get angry, still stretched out her right hand and said, "Hello, I'm Lin Ruhui." ”

The hand stretched out by her mother was not politely returned the courtesy, but was blocked by Xing Jiarou, which was a precursor to her war against her mother. She pulled out a bitter smile and said in a strange voice: "I know your name is Lin Ruhui, but you may be abandoned by Zuotian very open, and Zuotian can only be mine." ”

"But don't you accept him at all?"

"If you don't accept it now, it doesn't mean that you haven't accepted it all the time, if you want to get away with it, do you understand?" Xing Jiarou smiled evilly, "Men love this tune, the more they can't get it, the more they want, the more expensive it is." ”

Mom was about to speak, but was interrupted by Xing Jiarou.

"And you are just a short existence in his life, and I am the most cherished woman in his life. "Xing Jiarou is arrogant and rude.

"But you've been married, and you abandoned him at the beginning, why do you want to come back now to entangle him, you don't love him, right?"

"Going abroad has always been my dream, and no one can stop me, getting married? I don't love that old man, I only love her Canadian citizenship, and his estate. Xing Jiarou raised her voice, "You are wrong, I am not divorced, but, my husband is old...... I hired someone to take care of him, and I thought it would not be long before he would go to God. ”

"What?!" Mom didn't understand what she meant.

"The nanny will give the old man a bowl of thin rice porridge for three meals a day, and the rest? Hehe, it can only depend on his luck, if the nanny eats with him, there may be an extra bread to eat. As for the water, he can drink whatever he wants. Xing Jiarou smiled wickedly.

"What?!" Mom covered her mouth, unable to believe what she said. "You, you, you're killing!"

"Murder? haha, where is it, I'm helping him continue his life. If he can't hold on to himself, what can I do?" Xing Jiarou continued to laugh.

"But, what does this have to do with Zuotian?"

"Zuotian and I are childhood sweethearts, I don't think you know, right? We went to high school together from elementary school to high school, and we have never been separated. And how could I not know his heart for me?" Xing Jiarou shook her hair, "But, if I am with him, it will prevent me from going abroad, and I can't allow this, so I left him." ”

"Now I'm back for him. As soon as the old man in Canada dies, I will accept his courtship, and who would refuse a young widow?

"Old man, there is a manor, and he will leave me a large inheritance, the old man has only one daughter, but he has already married and gone to France. All of this is creating opportunities for us. ”

"You, you, you're horrible. How could Zuotian fall in love with you?" Mom took a few steps back in fear.

Xing Jiarou approached her mother, grabbed her mother's chin with one hand, and said word by word.

"I'm terrible, then listen to me, I hope you can take the initiative to leave Zuotian, otherwise, I will make you and your daughter miserable! Live forever in the pain of losing your husband and father. Xing Jiarou's face was hideous.

But just when her mother wanted to refute her, Xing Jiarou suddenly fell to the ground, her mother thought she was sick and was busy helping her, but who would have thought that she was pushed away.

"Oh! I didn't seduce Zuotian, don't get me wrong! We're just classmates!" Xing Jiarou suddenly cried.

When she cried, she looked her mother stupid, and she didn't understand what was going on. But just when my mother was confused, my father appeared, strode forward to help Xing Jiarou, and blamed my mother while helping her up.

"Ru Hui, I have always felt that you are a tolerant and generous woman, how can you treat Jia Rou like this?!" Dad's tone was full of resentment.

Mom wanted to open her mouth to explain, but was blocked by Xing Jiarou.

"Zuotian, don't blame Ru Hui, today I took the initiative to come to Ru Hui, wanting to tell her that we are just innocent friendship. However, unexpectedly, Ru Hui had already misunderstood. One of us explained and the other blamed, and there was a little dispute. I also accidentally didn't hold her hand and fell on my own. The woman understated it, but added two felonies to her mother.

"I—I didn't!" Mom replied.

"I don't know if you have it? I saw it all, and it was you who pushed down Jiarou. Ru Hui, I really didn't expect you to be such a person. ”

Dad didn't listen to Mom's explanation, but helped Xing Jiarou to walk out of the park. That night, Dad didn't come home. It also started my mother's nightmare. Xing Jiarou has been doing two things for three days, staging such a drama in front of her father, sometimes in order to protect Xing Jiarou, her father will be rude to her mother, and, as time goes by, her mother no longer explains, and the number of times her father comes home is getting less and less.

About a year later, my father asked the lawyer to bring a divorce agreement, and my mother tore up the agreement in a fit of rage. Later, my father never came back, and I heard that he followed Xing Jiarou to Canada. Until, that afternoon I remember, my father took Xing Jiarou and their children back to Beijing, and settled in Beijing, and my father came back to take away the clothes he left at home, and half of the property certificates and other items.

It's been eight years, and my father has been in Beijing, but he has never seen my mother again, nor has he come to visit me, and the years when my mother was framed and tortured by Xing Jiarou have imprinted my mother with permanent pain, and also left me with an insurmountable knot.

——

Mom finished her painful experience and touched my face. Her crystal tears never stopped falling. Drop, drop, drop, take away all the pain of your mother, I hope she and Uncle Lei can live happily together. And I, I was able to get out of the haze of that experience, it was because of Pan Yang, it was he who wrapped me with love and sincerity, made me open my heart, let go of the pain left by the shadow of childhood, I am grateful, and boldly fell in love with him, we will definitely be happy together, no matter what, we can't be separated, even if thousands of mountains and rivers, even if the universe rises and falls, we can't be separated! Pan Yang, thank you, I love you!