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What I turned off was my mobile phone, and what I couldn't turn off was my wrenched heart. He didn't reply to my texts and turned off his phone. With whom, it seems to be self-evident. Maybe it's Kong Lingyi, maybe it's someone else, but in short, it's not suitable for me to disturb. At nine o'clock in the night, the person who is not suitable for me to disturb - I want to laugh, but my heart is full of bitterness, I want to cry, and the tears are almost dry.

In the days with Feng Ziyue, how many times has my heart been hit like this? His women were like thorns, and from time to time they would cut my heart with bloody wounds that hurt to the bone. I was powerless to parry, powerless to fight back, I used to want to escape, but now it seems that I have been scattered, and I don't even have the strength to escape, so I can only survive and rely on his little tenderness.

I was like a little beast walking in a predicament, unable to find the exit ahead, and beware of the cold arrow beside me, I was hurt, and I could only lick my wounds and wait for healing. But what can I do? I am not qualified to pursue the truth, let alone have the courage to pursue the truth, perhaps only when the wound is completely injured can I be numb, can I stumble to find an exit, and this "for a while" can pass as soon as possible. The six hardships of life are the extreme. But I am in this state, knowing that I can't, but it's hard to give up, and the bitter fruit can only be borne by myself.

Insomnia is the beginning of suffering. When the cranky thoughts of the middle of the night are entangled, the ensuing insomnia can push the sad mood to the brink of collapse. Two consecutive nights of insomnia made me a little crazy, at one o'clock in the morning, I simply got up and went to the study, turned on the computer, opened a chat room, it turned out that I was not the only one who was sad, all kinds of women, all kinds of grievances, telling their own stories, I didn't type, only quietly savored the pain of others, and the bloody smell of my own wounds seemed to be getting heavier and heavier.

Someone inadvertently shared a song, which shredded my fantasy even more fiercely, "You are lonely to find me, you have so many lovers, you only find me when you need it, I give you so much, what else do you want, I don't want to cooperate anymore, it's not anyone's fault, it's the fault of lust, so please let me go." (No pop-up ads) "This song made me cry. Me and him were born from the interweaving of his lust and my helplessness. Can such feelings be considered feelings?

In the dark, I sneered at myself, and silently set this song as his special ringtone, and I always remind myself of my location.

Don't get your hopes up from the start, don't be disappointed. The pain I feel now comes from the fact that my desires are getting heavier and heavier, and I want to get more and more. But the reality is very cruel, so remind yourself not to vainly pursue what doesn't belong to you, is it possible to feel more at ease?

Sunday's traffic regulation class was even more weak, and I couldn't help but take a nap in class in the afternoon. Looking at Secretary Li, who came to pick me up again, I couldn't help but sigh that when I was studying, I didn't have parents to pick me up every day.

On the way, Secretary Li said to me: "Mr. Feng will call me in the morning and ask you to call him back during the day." ”

I was stunned for a moment, took out my mobile phone, and it turned out that it didn't turn on after turning off the ringtone last night. When he called back during the day, he stabbed me hard with two words during the day, but unfortunately it's almost night now, and he should be inconvenient again. Don't make yourself sad.

I lightly replied "yes" to Secretary Li, but the phone was not turned on again. I don't have the courage to hit the wall again and again, I'm afraid of pain.

The state of going to work on Monday was a bit trance, insomnia for three consecutive nights, and the dark circles under my eyes were like a national treasure. I sat in my seat and stared at last week's report and took a nap, but fortunately, Zhou Yi didn't give me any task in the morning.

Remembering Ai Yun a little, he called her: "What are you doing?"

Her voice was a little hesitant: "Ready to eat." ”

The background sound was messy, and I vaguely heard the sound of shouting, and I was anxious: "Where the hell are you?"

She paused and sighed, "Hospital." [Fast update, refreshing website pages, few ads, no pop-ups, I like this kind of website the most, be sure to praise"

As soon as I heard about the hospital, my scalp began to tingle, and I didn't care about going into details, so I asked her for the address of the hospital, grabbed my bag and rushed out. rushed to the elevator and suddenly remembered that he hadn't asked for leave, and then turned back to Zhou Yi's office, panting: "Zhou Yi, I'm sorry, I have to ask for leave in the afternoon." ”

Zhou Yi raised his head, looked at my expression, hurriedly walked to my side, and said with concern: "What's wrong?"

"My best friend, hospitalized. "I'm a little flustered, Ai Yun, it's my biggest concern in Beijing besides him, even a few points closer than him, she is the only one who can really treat me without wanting anything from me.

"I'll go with you, in case something happens, multiple people have more strength. Zhou Yi grabbed his coat and hurriedly followed me.

When I arrived at Ai Yun's ward, Ai Yun looked at Zhou Yi who was following me, and his face was a little embarrassed: "Who is this?"

"Zhou Yi, Xiaowei's friend. "Zhou Yi didn't need me to say hello, he introduced it automatically.

Ai Yun was about to say something when a middle-aged nurse came in and said in a loud voice: "Why did the gay man come in? ”

Zhou Yi blushed and looked at me and Ai Yun: "I'll buy you lunch." He left the ward as if he were running away.

Ai Yun couldn't help but snort, and the haze of many days dispersed slightly: "Your friend is very interesting. ”

The nurse urged, "It's time for an injection." "Side check the information," Aiyun, progesterone, hg. ”

Ai Yun nodded.

When the nurse went out, I asked, "What kind of medicine is this, what's wrong with you?"

Ai Yun thought about it for a while and said to me seriously, "Xiaowei, I'm pregnant." ”

I froze, "You're not—"

Ai Yun twitched the corners of his mouth: "Isn't it funny? I used to try every possible way to give birth, but I couldn't give birth, but now I'm leaving, but I can give birth, is God playing with me?"

I suddenly understood the reason why she didn't smoke and drink as usual when I saw her that day, not because of driving, not because of upset, but because she was worried.

"Do you want this child?" I hope she doesn't want it, she is going to get divorced, how will she live with a child in the future. And looking at a child who looks similar to Lin Yucheng, how can he let go of the child's father? I am afraid that it will be difficult to get out of this knot in this life.

"Absolutely. Ai Yun said firmly, "Not long after I went to Lin Yucheng's hometown, I found out that I was pregnant. I knew that you would definitely persuade me not to, so I didn't tell you. I saw red yesterday, so-"

I was a little curious how she knew that I would persuade her not to, seeing her somewhat apologetic look, my heart was shocked, yes, I didn't even hesitate to do my own child, how could I persuade her to keep the child. My heart ached and I couldn't breathe.

"You are confused" I tried my best to calm my sadness, and persuaded her, "How are you going to live without a child?"

"But that's my child," Ai Yun's eyes were a little sad, "No matter what Lin Yucheng does to me, the child is innocent." ”

The child is innocent, this sentence made my face slightly hot, and I couldn't say it.

"With this child, Lin Yucheng will not be divorced. "My words are getting harder and harder, and I don't even know what I'm talking about.

"I don't know. Ai Yun pulled her hair in pain, "Since I had this child, I have asked myself countless times what to do. With my previous temperament, he had a second wife outside behind my back and gave birth to a child, so why should I swallow my anger? In the second half of my life, I turned a blind eye to his second wife and evil seeds? But I thought again, what did I like about Lin Yucheng in the first place? In addition to being good to me, I am not rich? I also deserve it. If the child can really trip him, this life will be over. ”

I bit my lip and was speechless, and after a while, I asked her, "Did you tell Lin Yucheng?"

Ai Yun shook his head, "Not yet, I'll think about it again." ”

Zhou also happened to buy lunch and came back. A few cups of porridge and a little light side dish. I didn't have the heart to eat at all, but Ai Yun ate it in a big gulp.

Seeing that I looked at her in surprise, she smiled sadly: "I don't eat it, and now some people want me to eat it." ”

My heart was sour, and Zhou Yi handed over the porridge to ease the atmosphere: "Xiaowei, there are also people who want you to eat." ”

Ai Yun twitched the corners of his mouth and looked at Zhou Yi thoughtfully. I'm full of embarrassment, this Zhou Yi, what do you know, talking nonsense.

It's time to get out of the hospital. Zhou Yilu said: "It seems that your friend's situation is not bad. ”

I breathed a sigh of relief: "yes, otherwise I really don't know what to do." ”

"It's a blessing to be your friend. Zhou Yi smiled.

"Why?"

"You're going to put your heart into it. It's rare. Zhou Yi's words warmed my heart.

I smiled, "You're my friend too." ”

Zhou Yi joked: "So I'm also very happy, don't you see?"

My heart was slightly lighter, the afternoon sun shone through the car window to warm my heart, three days of torment, I felt very relieved at the moment, I didn't sleep.

The dream was not peaceful and peaceful, the dark and deep night sky, there was no one around me, only myself in the desolate wilderness, faintly heard the cry of a baby, I followed the cry like a demon, my heart was more anxious than ever, is it my child? Is he okay there—after walking for a long time, the cry is getting clearer and clearer, but there is no human figure to be seen. I cried out in a hurry, where, where?

A spirit, woke up suddenly, found that the car was downstairs in the company, he burst into tears, and Zhou Yi was watching me quietly next to me. Seeing that I opened my eyes and handed me a tissue: "What did you dream about?"

"I had a nightmare," I wiped from my tears, shaking uncontrollably. I found that I was covered with Zhou Yi's coat, and I hurriedly wanted to take it off.

Zhou Yi held my hand and looked at me deeply: "Xiaowei, you are not happy, are you?"

Zhou Yi's side face flashed a faint halo in the afternoon sun, illuminating his contours very deeply, his eyes were inquiring, caring, and there were some feelings that scared me. I looked a little distracted, this is a man in the sun, and I'm just a dead grass that grows madly in the night.

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