Back in Beijing, I began to prepare for my resignation. Search the major job boards on the Internet. Before finding a new company, you can't recklessly resign, after all, your family is in a difficult situation. In the city of Beijing, every day when you wake up, it is all about asking for money. Once you have no income completely, you will panic.

Taking advantage of the day when Ziyue was not in the company, I secretly went to interview three companies. One of the company's HR directors, Shengda, seemed to be quite interested in me and asked me a lot of questions. I naively thought that I could finally get out of that life.

I'm not ready to leave my cousin's debts alone, I plan to resign and pay off some of my son's money every month, if he is in a hurry, I'll go to Ai Yun for help, she just got married, her husband is financially good, maybe I can help a little.

I also thought about explaining this matter clearly with Ziqing, but I hesitated and gave up. Ziqing's family situation is not good, the house is rented by the company, and there is a sick mother at home, I really don't want him to worry about me anymore. And my cowardice has created the fact that I and my son are more and more unbearable. I'm afraid that Ziqing won't be able to accept it, how many dark nights I woke up, I began to regret it, if I hadn't given Ziyue the keychain in the first place, if Ziyue hadn't said anything about my cousin when he called - maybe everything wouldn't have happened. However, reality does not allow me to make a second choice. I can't say these things to Ziqing after all.

A few days later, I received a call from one of the companies, the one that had started to take an interest in me, informing me that I could go to work. I was so happy to receive that phone call, and I instantly felt that the sky was full of dark clouds. That day, I went to the vegetable market to buy a lot of vegetables, made a big meal for Ziqing, and prepared to surprise him when he came back.

Ziqing came home from work, saw a full table and wondered what day it was, knowing that I was going to change jobs, he was taken aback and asked me why I wanted to change. I told him that the secretary who was the leader here is under a lot of pressure, and his time is not free. Ziqing is still full of suspicion, after all, the strength of the new company is not a grade at all compared to the original company, and the salary is much worse. But what could be happier than getting rid of that man? I'm going to have a showdown with him when the formalities are almost done.

That night, Ziqing said emotionally: "Xiaowei, marry me." "At that moment, I was drunk and nodded happily. We discussed the National Day and went to meet our parents and got married at the end of the year. In fact, my original plan was not to get married so early, but now I feel very insecure, I just want to get married as soon as possible, and I also hope that the warm arm of Ziqing can become my lifelong harbor.

I arrived at the office early the next morning, only to find that Ziyue had arrived. He usually comes to the company once a week and will call or text me in advance so that I can arrange the schedule for the day. This is the first time I came without saying hello. I was a little apprehensive, there happened to be a few documents to sign with him, I knocked on the door and went in, and saw that he was talking on the phone with a gloomy face, so I wanted to put down the documents and go out first. He glanced up at me, his gaze cloudy, and my heart was furious. Hurry up and get out. After about half an hour, he called me in with an inside line. I think the documents are signed. He looked at me, handed me the phone, and sneered, "Looking for you." "I wondered what kind of phone call I could get to him.

After taking it, the other party's voice was very soft: "Miss Zhao, I am Luo Yuntian, the general manager of Shengda, and the staff who informed you to go to work before made a mistake." I'm so sorry. My brain banged, I couldn't listen to a word of the next words, and I still couldn't escape from his palm. A trace of fear flashed from the soles of my feet, and I looked at Ziyue with a trace of sadness: "Mr. Feng, do I have the freedom to resign?"

Ziyue went over and closed the door, pointed at me and said coldly: "Don't do tricks, I, Feng Ziyue's people, only I can dump it." "Come and put my arms around my shoulders, I wore a professional suit that day, my clothes were very tight, and I had to struggle because he was uncomfortable. He slammed my head hard, looked at me with a smile and said, "Zhao Xiaowei, I found that I can't do without you." ”

I hid back and leaned against the wall, I bit my lip and tried my best to whisper: "Mr. Feng, you don't lack women, your money, I will pay it back as soon as possible-"

Before he finished speaking, he had already pinched my chin roughly, and whispered: "It's not enough with you and me, you'd better be obedient and don't force me to use tricks, it will be ugly." His voice became a little ghostly, "I forgot to tell you that the man's injuries are not yet healed, and you want to grease the soles of your feet so quickly?"

I want to struggle, but I can't break free, I want to shout, but outside is full of colleagues in the office, I can't rush out like this, Ziqing's face and future, my reputation and job, are like ropes holding my hands and feet. Cowardly, I once again succumbed weakly.

When it was over, he coldly threw the papers at me, and told me in a voice that I was going to the headquarters for a meeting next week. It was as if he and I had just chatted casually and had nothing to do with it. My heart ached, and I tried my best to suppress my fear and shame and escape his office.

Ziyue told me with an intensifying humiliation that he should not play tricks under his nose, let alone try to secretly resign and leave. I was as powerless as a caged beast. After that, my heart was half dead, and I didn't dare to try to struggle anymore.