See?

See how the practice itself is hindering my practice?

I'm very happy once I've made progress. As soon as there was no progress in my practice, or even regression, my whole mind was in a state of complete panic.

In other words, the fluctuations in the practice itself were enough to destroy me. Damn, who's practicing? and for what?

No matter what kind of goal you have in your practice, it means that you are still in a certain point of view. I must practice to the peak, so that everyone will worship themselves, and no one will dare to bully me, and no one will dare to provoke me.

Everyone will respect me, and my mother will hold her head high and be proud in front of the world.

Spiritual practice has a life of its own, and it is not under my control. The reason why I was anxious and panicked was entirely because of the characters. The character has a lot of false self-definitions, "If I don't practice, I'm finished", "The one who is slower than me is now practicing ahead of me", "Why haven't I moved forward yet?"

And these false self-definitions come entirely from the empire, society, the propaganda of the times, and so on. It is because of these self-definitions that the characters begin to think about the future, anxiety, fear, and so on.

It's not me thinking, it's the characters who are thinking. Then, all the basis of thinking is completely based on the memory, experience, cognition, and information reserves in the brain.

And all the data in my head comes only from what I have seen and heard over the years. Again, back to square one, because a false self-definition exists, which gives rise to any aspect of thinking. This reflection makes the character believe that the future is as he thinks about it.

As a result, the fluctuation of anything will collide with the emotions of the characters, thus pulling emotions.

All of this is because I have a self-definition, so the character can easily manipulate me. It's hilarious, don't I know that these self-definitions are all false?

I know, and then what?

And then I still hold on to it, and let the character use these self-definitions to play with me, and I in turn help the characters continue to grasp these false self-definitions.

Perceptions are all distorted.

The collision between new ideas and old ideas seems to convince each other that they are right. It's like two camps, waving their flags and shouting separately, giving examples to prove that they are the truth. Keep poaching people from the other party's camp, this news and that news, isn't that just doing such a thing!

You have to have a point of view, you have to be part of a certain camp. Otherwise, they will be eliminated by society and even suffer a certain amount of mutilation. Like being sent to a psychiatric hospital or something.

Can I really control my thinking? It seems to be, but it's not at all. The characters are thinking on their own, driven by various self-definitions in their heads, and with the help of the influence of the environment, to facilitate the progress of thinking.

It's related to me!

The character will protect himself, but now it seems that he can't keep it.

I identify with those thoughts and treat them as if I were who I am, as if I were thinking. And at times like these, I don't realize I'm thinking. With this kind of wholehearted thinking, it is easy to solve problems.

But what is the problem that needs to be solved? Without killing the character, that's the biggest problem. For the rest, as long as the characters exist, there will be endless problems. It may seem like a sense of accomplishment to solve a problem, but to whom does that sense of accomplishment belong?

The characters are in this world, entertaining themselves and playing with my life. And it's all my life, Nima didn't even start and it ended. The character's use of fear made me dare not resist at all, and I was bound in a cocoon of fear and couldn't move.

The most ridiculous thing is that in order to reassure us, the character actually diverts his attention, and then uses pride such as contempt to make himself satisfied with the status quo. It felt good, as if I wasn't imprisoned at all.

I didn't finish it, this is the ironclad truth, no matter how much you say, it's just a whitewash, and no amount of explanation is just a trick of the characters. Who's explaining? The characters themselves are explaining.

The so-called others are nothing more than other people's roles, and of course the roles have to save each other, after all, the roles can only rely on the roles of others to gain recognition. It doesn't matter if this recognition is positive or negative.

My life has never begun!

I'm just a little worm wrapped in fear, afraid to do anything, and all decisions are made in that little head. Haunted by fear at all times, it seems that the whole universe is full of hostility.

The first man in the empire?

Haha, my disciples, my admirers, do you know what you are worshipping? Who would worship a little worm like me? Who would want to be my disciple?

Bugs lead bugs. Only the same kind will pursue the same kind, and will worship the same kind. Because that's my dream, and it seems to be what my future will look like. But it is not the heart of the person who worships, but the environment of the person who worships as one's own dream.

Adored by many people, recognized by many people, it seems to raise his arms and call everyone to respond.

It's not fear, it's fear, it's ignored, so it's the desire to be recognized.

It's funny, I just dreamed of going all the way, but deep down, I knew that I would never have a chance to reach the top of the empire in my life. But on the lips, it seems that you must have this kind of dream, otherwise you will be despised by others.

On the one hand, he fantasizes about the peak, and on the other hand, he is firmly bound by fear. Everyone knows that if I go according to the current situation, I will never have a chance to reach the top of the empire in my life. It seems that if you leave the current orbit, you will die without a place to bury.

Will the future be good? We must say that it is good, but deep down we all know that it will not be too good. And in action, it seems that we have determined that the future is quite bad. All precautions are a reaction to the assumption that the future will be bad.

Is the future going to be over? The light in the darkness, the hope in the fear, these are just the characters' efforts to prevent themselves from playing badly, and they give me a hope. Avoiding being overwhelmed by a lot of fear, and a stress relief that appears.

It's all noise!

After so many years of practice, countless sweats and countless efforts, now it is something that is blocking my progress. I can't find any other way than to kill.

It's a pity that my former honor is now thrown away. However, if you want to continue the honor, this is a trick of the character in itself. Who stipulates that "what was once honored must continue to bloom in the future?"

It seems that once you fail, you will be ridiculed by everyone and used as a negative teaching material. Or completely forgotten or something. Who is stipulating that "in life, you must succeed, at least you can't live up to time." ”

So, what is considered success, and what is the time to live up?

It seems that the answer to the question must be given to someone else, who will judge whether his life is worth it or not.

It's all opinions, it's all distortions.