Chapter 111, secretly hesitant and ambitious, thinking about it is full of affection

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Lu Bu Chuanjie's victory is a bit arrogant. After a few days of banquets, all the officials from Xuzhou County who were close and distant were invited, and they all came to the banquet to have fun.

Qi Han mixed in the floating clouds during the day, from morning school to noon, followed Zhao Yun to practice archery and horse archery, because of this rush and fatigue, the old injury has not healed, the body is weak, and there is a hidden cold outbreak, Zhao Yun did not allow him to practice more, and he stopped when he felt that he was sweating lightly. In the afternoon, Qi Han led the people of the Fuyun Department to set up a formation to train according to the method written by the Taiping Essentials. When the lights were on, it was the opportunity for Lu Bu to hold a banquet, so everyone went to the banquet to eat and drink, and rested in the mansion at night, and the days were full and compact.

Lu Bu secretly wanted to see Qi Han, first, to pour out his heart, and secondly, to explain the events of that night clearly. But every time someone summoned someone or submitted a letter, Qi Han refused. I could see it at the dinner, but I was sitting with Zhao Yun. The two of them are intimate and inseparable, and their appearance and bearing are first-class, like a couple made in heaven, outsiders can't intervene at all, and Lu Bu is getting more and more depressed.

He knew that Qi Han was deliberately avoiding him, but he had nothing to do.

forcibly persecuted, but I was afraid that it would backfire and provoke Qi Han's resentment. Slowly Tuzhi, and feel that the affection is growing, the heart is itching, and I can't wait for a moment. What's more, there was a strong (emotional) enemy beside Qi Han, which made Lu Bu feel more and more in danger.

Thinking that he Lu Bu has lived for twenty-nine years, it is the first time that he cares so much about a person, like a stunned young man who has just begun to fall in love, and he has no idea where to start.

This matter is private, and it is a sour and soft feeling that Lu Bu has never had in his heart, and he has no way to consult with his advisers to discuss countermeasures, so he holds it in his heart, so he has to secretly look at Qi Han with a pair of thief eyes at the daily banquet, a few feet away, so as to comfort his heart.

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On this day, it was the middle of winter, the cold was covered with frost, and the sky was fluttering and falling.

The soldiers of the Fuyun Department rested their military formations and returned to the camp to get busy. Seeing off Zhang Bakonglian and the others, Qi Han rode alone on the horse, far behind the team, looking around, but seeing that the sky was gray and the twilight was gradually leaving. The wilderness is boundless, only the yellow soil and the grass are withered, and the crows return to them.

The tents not far away are dotted on the withered yellow grass, lit with lonely smoke and wildfires, and the sound of horses walking away, but it is a sense of desolation and loneliness. He suddenly remembered the day when he attacked Shanyang Kingdom, fought with the Yanzhou army, burned the plains, the soldiers were stained with blood, and the mourning was everywhere.

Qi Han's heart throbbed. couldn't help but sigh loudly: "The general is ruined in a hundred battles. Xiang Heliang, looking back at thousands of miles, the old man is forever. The wind is cold in the west, and the seats are full of clothes like snow. The tragedy of the strong man is not ......"

Before the words fell, the little red horse under him suddenly neighed, a little excited. Qi Han turned around in surprise, and saw Zhao Yun straddled the Jade Snow Dragon, and he didn't know when he had arrived beside him, looking at him with a pair of deep black eyes.

"What is this word? Zhao Yundao.

Qi Han thought to himself, this is the word of Lord Xin Jiaxuan in the future, but it is not easy to say it to you.

He smiled and said, "This is the work of a recluse." He saw that the reckless Shenzhou was in the flames of war, and he was in a difficult period, and he lived for the rest of his life, and Wu'er sang generously and sadly. ”

Zhao Yun listened, his face was thoughtful, he just looked at him and didn't speak.

After a while, Zhao Yun sighed in his heart, and suddenly said, "Akan, do you feel something because of the recent use of martial arts?"

Qi Han frowned slightly, the reins under his hands were tightly controlled, and he lowered his eyes and was silent for a while.

At that moment just now, my heart was sad, as if I had returned to the fiery battlefield. The nose seemed to smell a strong smell of blood again. The stump is broken, and the blood is pooled into a river. It's all because he went to attack Yanzhou that those people died like this......

The boy may be happy for a while, and he will stay until midnight to dream back, but he can't stop palpitating.

Zhao Yun sighed, raised his hand and hooked his shoulder, such an intimate and not excessive action, as if he was silently comforting.

From the very beginning, Zhao Yun knew that Qi Han and him were not the same kind of people.

He was born in the chaos of war, with a blood feud, and grew up with difficulty and hard step by step. From childhood to adulthood, what I saw and saw was the chaos of the times and the tragedy of the people's flesh and blood. And Qi Han is different, he is pampered, he doesn't know the hardships, and at a glance he knows that he was born in a rich hairpin, far away from war, and has no worries about food and clothing. He grew up without hardship.

What Zhao Yunxin yearns for is that the world is peaceful, and the people live and work in peace and contentment. He knew very well in his heart that for this ambition, he had to pay the blood of countless people, and he himself wanted to conquer the world, follow the Ming Lord, and end this troubled world with his own hands.

And Qi Han is indifferent and quiet by nature, and the only person he pursues is peace and infighting. When he witnessed the tragedy of the war and the bloody death of the soldiers, it was difficult for him to restrain the discomfort, pain and disgust in his heart.

For Zhao Yun, the life that Qi Han yearns for is an unattainable luxury.

And for Qi Han, Zhao Yun's ambition is not a blood-colored dream like a high mountain?

Although Zhao Yun didn't know Qi Han's true origin, let alone that he was a wisp of spirit from thousands of years of peace and prosperity, he had already seen the difference between himself and Qi Han clearly.

And the more clearly he could see it, the more he felt sorry for Qi Han.

For his determination, Qi Han never gave up, and it was very difficult to achieve such a point.

Pressing the sour pity in his heart, Zhao Yun put his arm on Qi Han's shoulder, and squeezed the person in his arms half-hugged and half-embraced. turned his head sideways, and the warm breath was spit out in Qi Han's neck. I heard him say in a very soft but firm voice, like a lover's whisper, "Akan...... As soon as the matter in Xuzhou is over, you will take off your armor and go into hiding, right?"

Or return to your hometown and return home, or find a place with good mountains and rivers to settle down, it is better than being with yourself, without a front and back, wandering, and deep in the chaos of war.

Qi Han's body was originally slightly trembling by his somewhat ambiguous posture and tone, but he froze in the next second because of these words.

The brow couldn't help but furrow slightly.

If it weren't for Zhao Yun's slow and soft tone, like a feeling of soft talk, he would almost think that the other party was going to drive him away.

Qi Han broke away from Zhao Yun, turned his head and glanced at him, and saw a wry smile hanging on the corner of Zhao Yun's lips, and there was a heavy love in his eyes, as if he was concerned and pity.

Qi Han didn't have time to distinguish these, he was angry and unhappy, and his phoenix eyes squinted and said angrily: "General Zhao Zilong, General Zhao, is it so untrustworthy?"

Zhao Yun pulled his lips and smiled, looking at the stubborn and stubborn young man in front of him, not knowing what to do with him.

He naturally understood what Qi Han was referring to.

That day, the two of them lay together on the hillside in the suburbs of Xiaopei, his heart was full of affection, and he felt that the future was bleak, but there was no way to stop him. said to Qi Han Zhengse that he was willing to be with him for the rest of his life and never leave.

But what Zhao Yun was thinking at the moment was that if this oath was at the cost of consuming Qi Han's life and happiness...... He would rather break his word.

When he saw Qi Han lonely and lonely on the horse, he was cold and lonely, as if he would disappear at any time, and when he recited "The seat is full of clothes like snow, and the tragedy of the strong man is not thorough", Zhao Yun's heart was like a heavy blow, and he immediately noticed the depression and depression in Qi Han's heart.

Maybe his heart is not limited to this, but from this poem alone, Zhao Yun knows how resistant he is to the war. What's more, he also became the initiator and commander of this war.

This feeling made Zhao Yun feel uncomfortable.

It's like letting a monk who believes in good fruits become a butcher. His labor day and night will be tormented.

And anything that would make Qi Han suffer and depressed, Zhao Yun didn't want it to happen.

"Akan, I don't want to lose my faith in you, but I don't want to see you depressed. Since Zhang Feiyan sent an additional 4,000 men and horses the day before yesterday, the Fuyun Department has expanded to more than 10,000 people. You are tired day after day, your wit is amazing, and you practice formations, but you don't like it in your heart. Zhao Yun raised his hand, brushed off the delicate white snow that was stuck to Qi Han's robe, and sighed, "I don't like the army to fight, why bother to help me live in silence and think about it? ”

Qi Han rarely listened to his explanation, and his heart warmed, and he was a little unhappy. After a turn of thought, he suddenly thought of something, his phoenix eyes turned lightly, and said, "Is this really the case?" I'm afraid that Ah Yun has someone you like, and I'm worried that I'll stick to you all day long, and it's a bad thing, so you want to drive me away, right?"

That day, Professor Han Li Zhao Yun wrote that sentence, and Qi Han secretly guessed that he had a crush. Later, the war was tight, and he left Xuzhou soon and went out with Zang Ba, so it was too late to investigate the matter. But every time I think about it, I feel a little uneasy.

Zhao Yun heard him suddenly say the word "the person he likes", his eyebrows jumped, and he hurriedly parted his face and said, "...... What nonsense. I'm just worried about you, and I'm so sorry to persuade you. The words fell, but the roots of the ears slowly turned red.

Qi Han was stunned, he didn't expect that not only did he not deny it, but he still looked like this, and his heart couldn't help but feel sour and cold.

The light in his eyes dimmed for a moment, but he still had a smile on his face: "Come on, which girl did you fall in love with?"

Zhao Yun chuckled in his heart, and the roots of his ears suddenly became hot.

His eyes were on the snow-white and soft fur around Qi Han's neck, and his throat twitched uncomfortably.

It's not a girl, it's a kid.

These words rolled in Zhao Yun's throat twice, and he secretly clenched his fists, still unsure in his heart.

In this world, not all hesitation is called disappointment.

Zhao Yun's hesitation was all because he cared too much about Qi Han and wanted to take care of him all the time.

I secretly don't know how many times I have thought about it, and I want to reveal my heart to Qi Hanhe, but every time I think of this love world, I am afraid that it will affect Qi Han, so I dispel the idea. As for whether Qi Han would accept his love, Zhao Yun had no time to think about it.

Zhao Yun thought that his feelings for Qi Han had reached the extreme, but who expected that he could deepen step by step.

If you can't see it for a day, you can't hold on to yourself.

When it comes to Qi Han's retreat, Zhao Yun feels more tormented and sad than Qi Han in his heart.

After this separation, Zhao Yun realized that his love for Qi Han became stronger and stronger. The barriers in my heart are getting weaker and weaker, and now, I can't hold on.

As soon as he raised his eyes, the emotions in his eyes were deep and dark, as if a thousand words were about to pour out.