I remember I was only 10 years old.

Summer came very early that year.

It was only the end of June, and the temperature on Binjiang had soared to 36 degrees Celsius at noon.

In the afternoon, Wang Jing and I went swimming at the beach.

Just as I was swimming happily, I suddenly felt cramps in my legs and couldn't swim.

I felt a force pull me down, sinking more and more! I tried desperately to get rid of it, but to no avail, I wanted to shout, as long as I opened my mouth, my nose, mouth, ear canal, and eyes were filled with fluid. At this time, I was like a sponge, pressed into the depths.

……

I don't remember anything after that.

When I woke up and was back on shore, there was a boy kissing me on the lips.

I sat up suddenly, stretched out my hand, slapped it over, and scolded in shame and urgency: "Stinky rascal!"

The boy was shirtless, and his black hair was soaking wet.

He was stunned by my slap at the time, and it took a long time for him to react, and then he glared at me fiercely and said, "You are drowning, if I hadn't passed by, you would have hung up." ”

"Don't use the excuse of saving me as a reason for you to be a hooligan. When I'm stupid, I don't know who you are, you're just a stinky rascal!"

"Does anyone say that about the lifesaver?" the boy was so angry at my vexatious attitude that he blushed, "I would have known that I wouldn't save you." This is artificial respiration, no common sense, neuropathy. ”

In a fit of rage, he pushed me to the ground, got to his feet, and walked away in a rage.

At this time, Wang Jing said to me: "I can't swim, so I don't dare to go into the water." At this moment, the boy happened to pass by, and without saying a word, he immediately ran to the river and jumped into the water to save you. ”

Only then did I realize that I was really wrong to blame the boy, and the guilt spread throughout my heart.

Just as I was about to say thank you, he had already walked away, and I only had time to see his soaked vest and a distinctive flower-shaped red birthmark on his left arm.

Eight years later, at the age of 18, I was admitted to Hama University to major in landscape architecture.

As soon as I entered the university, I heard that there was a great talent in the Department of Economics, named "Chen Xiao". People are not only handsome, good at reading, and have a good family background, but the most rare thing is that this kind of excellent man is clean and self-conscious, and never has scandals with girls.

One day, on the school road, I met Chen Xiao unexpectedly. From the first time I saw him, I was thrilled.

Chen Xiao's appearance completely met my aesthetic standards at the time.

Even so, I'm just a freshman, and I've never dared to think anything wrong about this kind of god-like figure.

However, as Chen Xiao's fan sister, I usually gossip about him with my classmates.

"Then who handed Chen Xiao a love letter again, who put heart-shaped candles downstairs in Chen Xiao's dormitory, and who approached Chen Xiao to confess in the library by taking advantage of his own work, but Chen Xiao clearly refused. ”

But fate is like this, the more afraid you are, the more you can't hide from anything.

At the beginning of the school year, during the cherry blossom season, I went to the city library to borrow books, and I stopped by the riverside park to enjoy the flowers.

Under the cherry blossom trees in the park, I saw Chen Xiao.

He was in a daze, as if he was waiting for someone.

I actually walked over to talk to him, and that's how we got to know each other.

Many years later, I learned that on that day, Liu Yanyu broke up with Chen Xiao because he couldn't stand the long-distance relationship.

In order to heal and take revenge on Liu Yanyu's derailment, Chen Xiao that day looked very different, he actually took care of me, and then pursued me.

At first I sensibly rejected him.

Because of this, my roommates despised me, saying, "What are you doing with nothing? Who is Chen Xiao? ”

But can you imagine the feeling of surprise and panic in your heart that "a god-like figure in everyone's eyes would pursue such an ordinary you"?

Later, by chance, I found the flower-shaped birthmark in my memory on his left arm.

I was stunned, it was him, the kind-hearted boy I had been looking for for 8 years and saving people without leaving a name.

His passionate pursuit and his saving grace to me overlapped completely at this moment, and I couldn't help falling in love with him.

I accepted him, became his second girlfriend, and began to do what a girlfriend should do.

I bought him breakfast and sent it downstairs, but he didn't like it and threw it in the trash.

I washed his clothes, but he disliked the smell of the laundry detergent I used when he wore it, and yelled at me not to touch his clothes.

I went to his dormitory to tidy up his room, but he hated me for disturbing him and his roommates, and forbade me to go to their dormitory again.

I bought clothes for him, and he disliked that the style I bought was too earthy, the color was too ugly, and the brand was not high-end enough, so he gave it to his roommate directly in front of me.

He has a bad stomach and can't drink cold water, so as long as he is playing, I will stay in the audience to bring him hot water, but he thinks I am in the way and affects his interest in playing, sarcastically I am so idle, why don't I learn from Liu Yanyu and go shopping to buy clothes to dress up.

He liked David Beckham, and I made up my football knowledge to have a common language with him, but he scoffed at my opinion, thinking that I was a layman, what could I really do?

I've been trying to change myself and hope to be what he likes.

Looking back on myself now, I was so stupid.

But at that time, I really loved him too much, so I always firmly believed: perseverance, gold and stone can be carved, people are not plants and trees, who can be ruthless? As long as I do my best to be good to him, he will definitely be moved in the end, and will return the love I want.

After four years together, one day, he suddenly had a very sincere attitude, and knelt down to propose to me, saying, "Lin Mengning, thank you for being kind to me all these years." I think I like you, marry me, and I wish you happiness for the rest of your life. ”

I thought that he might have really let go of Liu Yanyu, and my efforts had really paid off. So I accepted his proposal despite the strong opposition of my family and friends.

After I got married, in order for him to come home and eat a hot meal after a busy day, I learned how to cook well, but he either didn't want to sit down and eat my food, or he reluctantly sat down to eat and then checked it out, insinuating that my food was not delicious.

I was afraid that he would have stomach problems and advised him to drink as little as possible, and often called him to come back early when he was socializing, but he hated me for being verbose and hung up on my phone, which was commonplace.

I cared about everything about him, but in exchange for his indifference and cynicism.

In the past 5 years together, what he has done to me has become more and more chilling to me.

People's hearts are long, and my heart will hurt and be tired and die.

It wasn't until later that I found out that I would propose to him because I knew that Liu Yanyu was married to another woman, which led him to make that impulsive move.

At this time, I suddenly realized that he didn't love me, and what he did in the past was just a retaliatory act against Liu Yanyu's betrayal. And I was just a cannon fodder who happened to appear at that time.

A person who doesn't love you, no matter how much you do for him, it will be in vain; blindly forcing and blindly seeking perfection will always be in exchange for harm to yourself. People who don't love you won't love you after all, and the wrong fate is wrong after all.

Seeing all this, I began to try to let go and stop paying attention to his affairs.

Half a month before the divorce, we had a big fight, and he said that he wanted to separate and calm down.

I was so tired that I felt like my 13-year love affair with him was actually just my own one-sided paranoia.

So I agreed to separate and let him move out of our shared home.

It was then that I found out that Liu Yanyu had returned.

Maybe I've been an obstacle between them from beginning to end.

When I saw them dating on Sakura Road, my heart, which I still felt a little bit about, died.

I think it's time to set things right.

So I forced him to divorce, set him free, and fulfill them. That should be the only thing I can do for him in the end.