After returning to the residence, Xia Xiaoxuan returned to the room alone, and then locked the door, hiding in it without making a sound, she had a portable MP3, and she had been playing a song repeatedly that night: I miss you, the voice was very loud.

Zhang Lin and the two of us live in the same room, she is in the top bunk, I am in the bottom bunk, and I am lying on the bed, smoking a cigarette with a heavy heart.

"Give me one!" Zhang Lin's voice suddenly came from the top bunk, and then her hand was stretched out.

I sat up, put a cigarette in my mouth, lit it, and handed it to her, "Don't you know how to smoke!"

"Ahem......"

As soon as I finished speaking, Zhang Lin's coughing sound came from the shop, and then she climbed down from the top bunk directly and stood next to me, Zhang Lin had nothing on her body except for a black tight underwear, I watched Zhang Lin's actions and turned my head to the side.

Zhang Lin looked at me, smiled mockingly, and then was silent for a long time, and asked me, "Han Fei, do you love Gao Lei?"

...... "After listening to this question, I didn't know how to answer, so I didn't say a word and began to play stupid.

Zhang Lin didn't force me to ask, but said to herself: "I know you love Gao Lei, but do you know why I chose to stay in Beijing? Because I don't think Gao Lei can take care of people, so I'm reluctant to leave! Really, Gao Lei is not suitable for you!"

Zhang Lin's words made my heart tremble, but I didn't say anything, listening to Xia Xiaoxuan's sobbing sound next door, I sat up and put on my shoes: "I'll go see Xia Xiaoxuan!"

'Brush!'

Zhang Lin was behind me and reached out to hug me: "Han Fei, I know you don't love me, but I can wait, I can wait until you change your mind!"

I froze, and then pulled away Zhang Lin's hand holding me: "I owe you, I must pay ......it back" After speaking, I opened the door and walked out.

"In your eyes, I'm really not as good as Gao Lei!" Zhang Lin was behind me, his voice choked, and he muttered softly.

'Knock knock!'

I knocked on Xia Xiaoxuan's door: "Open the door, I have something to say to you!"

“…… I'm already asleep!" A few seconds later, Xia Xiaoxuan's voice came out.

"Open the door, I know you didn't sleep!"

There was silence inside, and after a sound, Xia Xiaoxuan opened the door, she returned to the bed with red and swollen eyes, shrunk into a ball in a corner, MP3 around me, a song I miss you has been looping in a single song, I was quiet, sitting on the side and listening to the song with Xia Xiaoxuan, I knew that Xia Xiaoxuan needed to vent her emotions, so she didn't speak, just waited for her to speak first.

'Smack!'

More than ten minutes later, Xia Xiaoxuan picked up a lighter and lit a cigarette, and after gently exhaling a puff of cigarette, she smiled inexplicably: " The first time I listened to this song, it was also the most popular time of this song, and it was also that day that Lei Lei said to me on the Internet that he wanted me to be his girlfriend, and I happily agreed, because I felt that Lei Lei had an unruly temperament, he had nothing, and his eyes were empty, all women would be attracted by this temperament, because he could make a man with empty eyes have her in his eyes, which is what all women dream of, including me, so I am willing to pay everything for Leng Lei, including myself, but I didn't know until today that in Leng Lei's eyes, there has never been me, and I can't change him……”

"Forget it, it's tiring to love someone, it's also tiring to hate someone, Lei Lei is gone, you can meet the next person!"

Xia Xiaoxuan leaned on the head of the bed with a blank face, and her voice was hoarse: "It's good to forget, but what if you can't forget...... Lei Lei and I met in this era of non-mainstream prevalence, when we first met, we both chatted in Martian, and I had to recognize the words I typed for a long time, but he was such an uneducated person, I could insist on chatting with me in Martian, we wrote couple signatures, and described those sentences that we couldn't understand deeply at all, at that time I felt very good, the non-mainstream ran through my youth, I lived in the non-mainstream fairy tale, and now I have grown up, the non-mainstream is gone, and my love is gone！”

Seeing Xia Xiaoxuan's decadent appearance, I sat next to me and was silent, after a while, she suddenly laughed, and the smile was terrifying, I glanced at her: "You won't be crazy!"

"You're crazy!"

"And what are you laughing at?"

"I'm laughing at you, and I'm laughing at myself!"

I frowned, "What's ridiculous about me?"

Xia Xiaoxuan stared at me for a long time: "Do you really think you are suitable to be a bastard?"

"What do you mean?"

"It's not interesting!" Xia Xiaoxuan took a puff of the cigarette in her hand: "Do you know why Lei Lei left?"

He said that he was injured by Brother Liang. ”

"Fart! Leng Lei left because he found that he couldn't fight Zhang Zongliang, and since he couldn't achieve his goal, he naturally left!" Xia Xiaoxuan smiled self-deprecatingly: "I am the one who can understand Leng Lei the most, I knew that he would be ruthless, but I didn't expect his heart to be so ruthless!"

"What are you talking nonsense?" I was in the fog by Xia Xiaoxuan's words.

Xia Xiaoxuan looked at me stubbornly: "Sooner or later, one day, you will understand!"

"You're drunk, get some rest early. I saw her red eyes and a confused remark, and got up to leave.

Lei Lei's departure hit Xia Xiaoxuan very hard, because Xia Xiaoxuan chose to come to Beijing desperately in order to retain the relationship between the two people, but in the end, Lei Lei not only broke up with her because of a trivial matter, but also didn't even say hello to her when he left, since that day, Xia Xiaoxuan has changed, she has become extremely mature and extremely selfish.

......

At noon on the second day, in a Sichuan restaurant.

Brother Liang and I, in the lobby of the hotel, found a window position, ordered a stir-fried bullfrog, a spicy crab, a pepper chicken and a tempeh oyster, and asked for a dozen beers.

"Leng Lei's ambition is too big, I can't take this kind of brother!" After sitting for a while, Brother Liang opened his mouth and said something that was as inexplicable as Xia Xiaoxuan.

"......!" I was stunned by what I said, and I didn't know how to answer.

"Xia Xiaoxuan knows about Lei Lei's departure, doesn't she have any mood swings?" Brother Liang picked up a piece of bullfrog and asked me casually.

"It's okay, it's nothing special, it's just quite lost, Xia Xiaoxuan is a strong person, after getting drunk yesterday, he said a lot of things, but today he woke up, so I didn't mention it again!

After listening to me, Brother Liang nodded thoughtfully, and then asked me another question: "What do you think about Lei Lei's departure?"

I was stunned when Brother Liang's words asked, I thought for a few seconds, and smiled: "What can I think, Lei Lei has this character, he doesn't have any acquaintances here in Beijing, and no one usually plays with him, after a long time, he will definitely not be able to stay!"

Brother Liang smiled, and then looked at me very seriously: "I have always felt that Lei Lei is better than you in terms of mixed society, because he has the energy of mixed society, he is vigorous and resolute, and he is never afraid of hands, so there are a lot of things, I let him do it, it will be more convenient! But now it seems that I am blind, Leng Lei is too good at pretending to be stupid, he is a good hand, but the things in his heart are too complicated, you are not like him, your mind is clean...... Lei Lei always felt that he started too slowly, but if you think about it carefully, you are much stronger now than when you were a waiter in Beiyang, right?"

"......" I smiled and nodded.

"Since you chose to mix with me, then we are a group, and between a group, what is the most important thing? is trust! I came to Beijing to make money, so that everyone can go higher and farther in the future, if everyone's eyes are only focused on these small profits in front of us, then we will not only not be able to mix now, but will have no fun in the future!" Brother Liang said righteously, like an old pedant, and taught me earnestly.

"Uh-huh!" I listened as I ate, pretending to be serious, but I didn't really take it to heart at all.

Brother Liang's words sound very reasonable at first glance, because we came to Beijing to make money to return to Anyang, but if you think about it carefully, it is not like that, because in recent times, Brother Liang has been two ends in three days, and he will go to Fengtai if he has nothing to do, and this trip to Fengtai is often a consumption of three or four thousand yuan, Brother Liang squandered it at the same time, and also told us that the money earned is everyone's, but when Lei Lei went home, he only got two hundred yuan, and it was a little intriguing to combine this matter with Brother Liang's words a little。

"Now that Lei Lei is gone, you are the only one left, see people's hearts clearly in the ups and downs, don't worry, I won't be able to treat you badly in the future!" Brother Liang drew me a cake again, picked up the cup and touched it with me.

"Hey!" I agreed, thinking of something else entirely.

An hour later, Brother Liang and I finished eating and returned to the residence.

"Brother Liang is looking for you, what are you talking about?" Gao Lei saw me coming back and asked casually.

"Stabilize the army's heart!" I took off my coat and threw it at the head of the bed at will: "Lei Lei is gone, I am left alone, he is afraid that I will follow, and this group of people will disperse, so he said something to me, for example, he has always been optimistic about me, but he didn't say anything, hehe, I usually don't speak, he may think I'm really stupid!" I laughed self-deprecatingly, and then lay lazily on the bed.

"Brother Liang, he just has a good mouth!" Gao Lei shook her head slightly, and she couldn't help but laugh.

……

Time flickered, half a month passed, the weather became warmer, and people gradually changed their sleeves.

It's a boring time to live, but there's nothing big going on.

On this day, Brother Liang received a call from Qingwei, asking him to pack up and go out to do some errands, and then Brother Liang greeted me, and the two of us planned to go out.

'Bang!'

When I opened the door, I was bumping into Xiaole who walked in.

"Oops, my big breasts!" Xiao Le covered his chest and glanced at me: "If you want to touch you, it's just right, why hit me, it hurts!"

I glanced at Xiaole: "Don't be a wicked person to sue Ang first, you were in the bathroom that day, and you sniffed my pants secretly, I can see it!"

"Get out, I'm looking for Brother Liang!" Xiaole pushed me away with a smile, and then walked into the room: "Brother Liang, I want to go home!"

'Brush!'

Brother Liang, who was putting on his shoes, raised his head when he heard this, and frowned at Xiaole: "Go home?"

"That's right, there are four days left to be my grandma's birthday, I was brought up by my grandma since I was a child, and the two of us have a deep relationship, so every year my grandma celebrates her birthday, I have to go back......" Xiaole opened his mouth to explain.

"Can't you not go, when the Chinese New Year comes, let's go back together, and when the time comes, I will give you more money, and you can buy more things for grandma!" Brother Liang interrupted Xiaole.

Xiaole suddenly shook his head: "No! When my parents divorced, the court awarded me to my father, so throughout the year, I can't see my mother a few times, and I have met a few times in the past few years, all when my grandmother celebrates her birthday, if my mother can't see me, she will definitely call my father, and if they find out that I am gone, it will be troublesome, I have run away from home all these years, and my father has called the police to find me......"

"That's it......" Brother Liang was silent when he heard this, and looked at me: "Otherwise, you will accompany Xiaole back?" Before the words were finished, Brother Liang himself vetoed: "You can't go, you go, when something happens on my side, there will be no one at home to take care of it!"

"Brother Liang, it's okay if I go back by myself, I'm such a big person, I can't run away!" Xiaole looked at Brother Liang's appearance, and answered with a big grin: "When my grandma celebrates her birthday, I will come back by myself!"

"Tsk!" Brother Liang smacked his teeth with a headache, and reluctantly agreed: "That's okay! I'll send you directly to the station in a while, and I'll buy you a ticket by the way!"