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Recently, 29-year-old Chen Yi often dreams of the past, and there are some people who see the meaning of the marquee before dying, but it is not a return to the light, 18-year-old she is full of spirit, and the dream lover of the female students in the entire Xiaguang City, Bai Qi, holds hands and eats skewers in every alley outside the school, and people who pass by will involuntarily be attracted by her brilliant and full appearance, she grew up bathed in the amazing eyes of everyone.

With a face full of collagen, she once sat on the rostrum in the playground and leaned on Bai Qi's shoulder to make a presumptuous speech: "When I become a middle-aged woman, the world will be destroyed." ”

In the distance of the teaching building, because it was evening self-study time, there were neat lights lit up, like a man-made distant galaxy.

Bai Qi kissed Chen Yi's forehead, looked at her with a smile and asked, "Then what if we were still together at that time? I want to live to be ninety-nine years old." ”

Chen Yi raised his head, pecked his chin lightly, and said sweetly, "Then ...... Let the world wait a little longer. ”

Now she is 29 years old, Bai Qi, who said that she wanted to grow old with her, has already disappeared on the other side of the ocean and become an elite financial planner on Wall Street, but she is just a teacher in an English training class in Chaoyang District, Beijing, and there is less than a year left, she will cross the age of 30 and become a middle-aged woman in her mouth, and the world shows no signs of destruction.

To a certain extent, in a certain sense, she had too high expectations of herself, and felt that a part of her soul was indeed dead.

She dreamed that she was still wearing a sky blue school uniform with a high ponytail, standing in the shadow gap between the first experimental building and the second experimental building, and on the day she quarreled with Bai Qi, she didn't want to take the college entrance examination anymore and wanted to go to Beijing to be an actor.

"You're crazy!" Bai Qi said several times in a row, "You're crazy", he also blushed, and slapped the wall on his side with his palm again and again, the sound of skin and flesh hitting the cold bricks, venting the inexplicable anger in his heart for him, "If you want to be an actor, you can take the film school exam, is it necessary for you to give up studying now?"

"I don't want to miss the best opportunity-" Chen Yi had already made up his mind, and his face was arrogant.

Beijing, for Chen Yi has always been a mysterious and sacred city, symbolizing the starting point of all dreams, the uncle who worked hard in Sijiu City, less than thirty years old, earned a market value of 10 million industry, is her respected idol, when the uncle mentioned that he wanted to partner with someone to open a star agency to get involved in the showbiz, she immediately felt that this was a call from fate, she Chen Yi wanted to become a big star, it was fate.

From the time she was sensible, the people around her would praise her appearance with real feelings, and when she was sixteen years old, she reached the peak of everyone's amazement, in the small Xiaguang City, who doesn't know the school flower of the second experimental school, Chen Yi? How many students from other schools are squatting at the school gate just to see her beauty, and there are even office workers who don't know what to do and bad run to her home to make an appointment with her parents to become her adult husband, and finally the whole community is beaten out with a broom.

Everyone defaulted to Chen Yi's face to eat, she had that capital, so when she proposed that she wanted to become an actress when she grew up, there were no adults who laughed at her childishness, and even adults coaxed the children in the family to ask her for an autograph, "It will be worth a lot in the future." They laughed and said, each word adding weight to her self-confidence and pride.

"I won't let you go. Bai Qi's eyes were red, still trying to convince her to stay, "Beijing is not as good as you think, not everyone can pick up gold on the ground when they go there." ”

"But you also said that I'm not an ordinary person, I'm gold, aren't I?" Chen Yi held his face and asked firmly, "Do you really like me?"

"Nonsense. Bai Qi pursed his lips, first nodded awkwardly, and then shook his head, "I don't like you, I don't like you." ”

Chen Yi smiled contentedly and made a decision on his own, "You must be admitted to a university in Beijing and come to me." ”

Bai Qi nodded, did not shake his head again, Chen Yi clearly remembered that he promised himself, but he did not come, they contacted through the Internet, even during the college entrance examination, the two of them also said good morning, good afternoon, good night to each other, but after the college entrance examination ended, Bai Qi's QQ avatar was gray and broke off contact with her.

When Bai Qi's QQ avatar lit up again, he said that he had arrived in the United States, and what happened during this period, he never mentioned it, so the two chatted intermittently about what they had and what they didn't have, until Bai Qi took the initiative to mention the girlfriend he was dating, Chen Yi could be regarded as admitting this fact in his heart: the two of them had already broken up, perhaps, they had never dating, and they fell in love when they were young, but they were just a family on top of friendship.

Chen Yi's road to the north is not smooth, she is aiming to become a big heroine, and she is also mentally prepared: everything has a step-by-step process, there are so many people in the world, miracles are not enough to distribute, and the myth of overnight fame may not happen to her, so she is ready to endure hardships, she firmly believes that hardships will come willingly, because she is beautiful enough, hard enough, young and promising.

Later, when she was 25 years old, she suddenly realized that in the huge entertainment industry "meat grinder", there are countless beautiful people, young people follow one after another, and no matter how beautiful or ugly they look, everyone who eats boxed lunches in the crew works hard, she is not the only one, she is not special at all.

In the end, she relied on the best subject she learned in high school: English, and the funny thing is that she studied so hard because she imagined that sooner or later, she would go to a foreign film festival to give an acceptance speech.

The night before her 29th birthday, she was walking on the way to the bus station, holding up the phone and arguing with her mother, the cold wind was biting, the back of her hand exposed outside the cuffs was frozen bright red, and when she hung up the phone, she almost thought that her entire palm had been cut unconsciously, and she only had a trace of heat in her ears that had been tightly pressed by the mobile phone screen.

After taking a seat in the last row of the bus, listening to the prompt sound of "get on the bus and swipe the card", her tears gushed out, and just now her mother was asking her why she didn't go home during the Spring Festival? Why haven't you talked about a boyfriend yet? When will you get married? I'm getting older, and my womb is about to be unable to conceive a child—

It shouldn't be like this-

At the age of eighteen, she envisioned many futures for herself, but she never imagined that she was nearly thirty years old and still alone, sitting in the bus after work late at night and shedding tears, not to mention that there was no husband and children, in such a vast and hurried city, her savings could not even afford a square meter house.

With the sound of brakes, the radio prompt in the car is calmly narrating: "Sanlitun Bar Street Station has arrived, please swipe the card when you get off, and passengers who do not swipe the card, press the ...... at the terminal"

- "Terminal! At your own risk!"

Because she suddenly remembered Bai Qi, who used to sit beside her in a school uniform, after receiving the second half of the witticism, Chen Yi, whose face was full of tears, didn't have time to adjust the corners of her drooping mouth, so she laughed "poof", she wiped a handful of tears, and rushed out of the car regardless of it, and there was still an hour and a half before midnight, and she rushed into a bar nearby.

Drunk like mud, in a trance, she couldn't remember how many strange men came forward to talk, she changed her previous reserve, did not refuse to come, like a gift delivery to everyone left a phone number, and even laughed with them-

- "Do you want to marry me?"

- "It's my birthday, oh no, it's a few minutes, it's coming, it's going to be right away, treat me to another drink......"

- "What zodiac sign are you? I'm a Pisces, let's see if we're worthy?"

Before drinking the fragment of consciousness, she seemed to see Bai Qi, his image flickered far and near, wearing a smoky gray trench coat, so she crossed the stranger's shoulder and shouted at the mirage, "Bai Qi, you bastard, why don't you come to Beijing to find me? Why don't you continue to love me?! Why do you give up on me-"

2

When she woke up from a distant dream, it took Chen Yi a while to figure out that she didn't need to wear a school uniform to class, which also meant that she couldn't see Bai Qi today, so she got into the quilt melancholy and decided to sleep for a while, but the smell of lavender essential oil wafting in the air woke her up suddenly: This is not her home!

She sat up with the bullet in her arms, rubbed her head stinging from hangover, her eyes were dry and itchy from crying all night, the heavy and airtight curtains completely soaked the room in the darkness without a trace of light, and finally saw clearly, the fifty-square-meter bedroom was decorated in a dark industrial style, and every detail exuded the smell of money, it was obvious that this was not the dilapidated tube building she shared with others.

lifted the quilt to take a look, what was worse than being naked was that she had changed into a nightdress, which was obviously "after the fact" and could not be "after the fact", she exclaimed in her heart: It's over!

She held her head and fell into the memory, who was it? Which man was it?

With the sound of footsteps outside the door, she cried and thought, it must not be the greasy fat man who had been pestering her last night.

The door opened, and the feeling of Bai Qi slowly appearing in the backlight was like a searchlight coming in, illuminating the fog in Chen Yi's heart, and there was thunder in her ears, as if fate was singing, eager to give her a revelation about the way out of her emotions.

Bai Qi, who was wearing a beige sweatshirt, was taller and stronger than when he was in high school, his chest was bulging under the cloth, and the home pants tied at the ankles covered his long legs very hard, he grinned, his expression was not as innocent as when he was a teenager, his eyes flashed with the cunning light of an old fox, and his voice said lazily: "Wake up?" ”

Chen Yi raised his hand and pointed at him, and let out a loud exclamation: "Bai-Qi!"

He was stunned for a moment, raised his hand blankly and said, "Here?"

She grabbed a pillow beside her and threw it at him, her tone full of disgust, "You're responsible for me!"

"What's your responsibility? don't touch the porcelain, okay?" Bai Qi dodged the pillow and said calmly, "I didn't touch you." ”

Chen Yi was stunned, lifted the quilt, revealed the white lace nightdress on his body, and asked strangely, "Where are my clothes?"

"Wow, it's sexy. Bai Qi touched his chin, pretending to smile evilly, and when he saw Chen Yi hurriedly hiding back in the quilt, he sighed, "The sugar was changed for you." ”

"White sugar?" With Chen Yi's doubts, the door behind Bai Qi was completely opened.

A big beauty poked her head out from under Bai Qi's armpit and waved her hand at Chen Yi to say hello: "Hey, old Chen, long time no see." ”

Thinking of it, Bai Tang is Bai Qi's sister who is nine years apart in age, Chen Yi stared at her in surprise, because her impression was still a primary school student wearing a red scarf, who would have thought that she would be so beautiful when she grew up, standing next to Bai Qi, who was 1.86 meters tall, she didn't look much shorter, and she was a supermodel figure.

Bai Tang looked at Chen Yi meaningfully, squinted his eyes and smiled, "You, after so many years, it is not expected to be much." ”

"Get out!" Chen Yi threw out another pillow.

3

Walking out of the bedroom, Chen Yi couldn't help but take a deep breath for the fragrance of the rice in the room, on the dining table in the dining room, four dishes and one soup were fully arranged, and the white sugar sat down, and he had already picked up the chopsticks and ate the dried fried beans, Bai Qi pulled out a chair, looked at Chen Yi with a smile, and motioned for her to come and sit down.

Finally regained a hint of familiarity from his eyes, and the heart in Chen Yi's chest slammed into her.

After sitting down, Chen Yi saw clearly that the stir-fried beef was filled with cumin, and the fish ball and cabbage soup were sprinkled with a lot of black pepper, she picked up the steaming white rice and breathed a sigh of relief with satisfaction, "It's so fragrant......

Bai Qi picked up a piece of beef and put it on the tip of the rice in her bowl, and said in a tone that knew her well, "Sprinkle cumin and pepper, and it tastes delicious, right?"

He still remembered his preferences so clearly, and finally pressed down the heartbeat a few beats faster, Chen Yi took a sip of soup, only to feel that his throat was warm and sweet, and this hot flow slowly extended to the lower abdomen, and for a while, her stomach seemed to be lit with many lights, bright, illuminating the river that was still black yesterday.

During the meal, the three of them chatted with each other, almost all of them were Bai Qi and Chen Yi in contact with each other, Bai Tang didn't have too many words, she had been swiping her mobile phone with one hand, from Bai Qi's words, Chen Yi didn't get too much information, and it was not clear why he came back to Beijing, and what he had experienced before, but there were two things confirmed: first, he is now single;

In Chen Yi's head, all kinds of data are running fast at this time, yesterday I felt that I was going to be alone, and today I suddenly received a big gift from God - an old lover who returned from overseas, a high-income elite with real estate in Beijing - this is not the best marriage partner!

When she was almost done, Bai Qi knocked on the table at Bai Tang, she looked at him impatiently before she stood up and turned off the lights in the house, while Bai Qi took out a cake with candles from the kitchen with both hands and sang a birthday song to Chen Yi.

The candlelight on the surface of the cake was connected into a small piece of dancing firelight, which was even hotter and more dazzling than all the lights Chen Yi saw in the bar last night, she was a little dazed, but it was just a night passed, and she felt that her life had been turned upside down, and she went directly from a depressing documentary to a love popcorn movie.

Bai Qi saw the glittering tears in Chen Yi's eyes, and many past events came to his heart, he couldn't help but raise his hand to touch her cheek lightly, and asked movingly, "Are you happy?" Seeing her nodding obediently like a middle school student, he smiled, "I will give you every birthday in the future." ”

Hearing his words, Chen Yi ate a bite of cake as if she had eaten a reassuring pill, she turned her face away, as if she saw the second half of her dusty life in a hazy vision.