My mother listened to it for a long time, sneered and said, "What do you love or not, you have been dead for so many years, and what are you doing asking this question." ”

My mother dropped me off at the gate of the community, but she didn't go upstairs with me, probably because what I just said ruined my mood, so she didn't say anything to me and drove away.

I came home exhausted, just opened the door, only to find that my mother-in-law came to the house, and prepared a sumptuous dinner, Zhan Dong came out of the kitchen, at a glance saw me who had just entered the door, he immediately put down the plate in his hand, wiped off the water droplets on his hands on the apron, arrived at my side and quickly pulled me into the bedroom.

I didn't understand which one he was singing, and then he lowered his voice and said, "Since you were hospitalized, my mother has been crying at home every day, and today I am finally in a better mood, so don't mention the child later." ”

As soon as I wanted to say something, Zhan Dong covered my mouth with his hand, and said with a hint of weakness in his voice: "I know, if it weren't for my mother, your body wouldn't have become like this at all, Kelailai, my mother is also kind, no matter how you say that she is my mother, I hope you can be considerate, and ......"

When he said this, he stopped, took my cold hand and said, "And even if we can't have our own children in the future, it doesn't mean that we won't have the opportunity to be parents again.

I haven't had any special thoughts about children, but I didn't expect that after my body changed, Zhan Dong would have this kind of thought, and it was so urgent, but it was normal to think about it, after all, he, like his mother, has always been extremely pursuing children, and now I can't have children, adoption is the fastest next step.

Just as I was pondering Zhan Dong's words, I felt that his hand holding my hand was getting tighter and tighter, so tight that I felt pain, I frowned and raised my voice slightly to look at Zhan Dong and said, "What are you doing?"

Zhan Dong suddenly realized, as if he was frightened, his hand immediately shrank, and he immediately smiled and said, "Did it hurt you?"

I rubbed my somewhat reddened wrist and said strangely, "Of course, how can you use so much force?"

Zhan Dong scratched his head a little embarrassed and said, "Aren't I afraid that you won't agree......?"

Speaking of this, he lowered his head, looking at the past from my point of view, I inexplicably saw a trace of sadness from him, and I suddenly understood, in fact, it was not Zhan Dong's mother who wanted the child the most, but Zhan Dong himself.

After so many years of marriage, he has given me too much freedom, so much so that I sometimes ignore his feelings, inexplicably, at this moment I suddenly wanted to hug him, and I did the same, but he was caught off guard by my hug, his face was surprised, and even a little panicked.

This is the first time in our five years of marriage that I have taken the initiative to give him a hug, and in normal marriages, both of us play the role of competent husbands and wives, and there has never been a time when we have lost our minds or lost our minds, even if we want to hug, we need to say to each other in the ward and wait for each other to agree.

This was the first time I felt guilty and sympathetic to this man, and I finally agreed to his proposal to adopt a child without too much hesitation.

But I didn't expect that this would be the stupidest thing I have ever done in my life, that is, at this moment I felt guilty about him, and these guiltes finally pushed me into the bottomless abyss, if I could go back in time to today, I would not hug him, I would slap him expressionlessly, and then say to him: "Why don't you die?"

Marriage is also deceitful.

Once the matter of adopting a child was mentioned on the front, after getting the consent of Zhan Dong's mother, it was quickly advanced, and on the day I went to the welfare home to see the child, Zhan Dong and I asked for leave in the company in advance, and the two of us went to the mall in a panic for a long time, and bought a lot of snacks and toys that children like to eat, and we didn't have much contact with the children.

I thought we were going to pick our future child out of the more than 200 orphans, but just as my scalp was tingling, the director of the orphanage privately led us into her office and volunteered to recommend a child to us.

That kid is outstanding, and he is a little better dressed than ordinary people, and when he sees me and Zhan Dong, he smiles sweetly, and he looks like it.

The dean said that this child has no physical and mental health problems, because he grew up in an orphanage, he is not afraid of people, and his personality is also cheerful, so he is always polite to people, and asked me how Zhan Dong and I feel.

Zhan Dong was so happy that he didn't know what to do, naturally it was a good bite, he warmly picked up the child and couldn't wait to play with the newly bought things, I stood aside and watched coldly, not too close, the dean thought I didn't like it, smiled and asked me what's wrong, is it not very satisfied.

I smiled and replied that I was very satisfied, and then turned my head to look at Zhan Dong.

After so many years of marriage, I realized that he could be so happy, so happy that it made me feel strange.

I stood there the whole time and looked at the past, this child and Zhan Dong were very close to each other, and as soon as he opened his mouth, he called Zhan Dong's father, which made Zhan Dong's heart flutter.

The child who fell in love with him was naturally adopted by us in the end.

In addition to Zhan Dong likes it very much, my mother-in-law also likes it even more, holding a grandchild in her arms, making it like a biological child, it is strange to say, that child gets along well with everyone, but I don't like it very much, it may be the reason why I don't want to be too close to him, he never takes the initiative to ask me to hug, nor does he coquettish with me, even if he talks to me, he always looks afraid of approaching.

I told Zhan Dong about my doubts, I told him privately when the two of us were lying in bed at night, and Zhan Dong explained to me that I was too serious and asked me to play with him often, so that I could cultivate feelings, after all, it is a lifelong thing.

I don't know why I'm like this, whether it's because I'm biological or not, I always feel like I'm separated, but in real life, there are always too many things that need to be compromised, such as you don't like it, but the other party likes it, and you have to accept it for the other party.

I leaned on the bed and pondered for a long time before asking Zhan Dong if I wanted to take the child to the playground tomorrow, but after this sentence was finished, Zhan Dong fell asleep, did not respond to me anything, and his face was tired.

During this time, he had to play with his children until late every night, and he had to go to work, so he was naturally extremely tired.

I looked at his sleeping side face and found it bored, so I turned off the light and lay down as well.