Chapter 82: Love to Despair
Some people say that feelings are sometimes as fragile as a piece of glass, and they will shatter when you fall, but I always believe in it. The relationship between me and Tao Wanxin is unbreakable. I didn't say a word at the beginning, and after a year in the army, Tao Wanxin didn't even know my life and death, so she waited for me for a year with little hope. Later, Xiaoyue committed suicide, and I kept Xiaoyue in the hospital without caring about her, and in the end, Tao Wanxin was able to understand me and still never gave up on me.
She's so dependent on me. Love me, how could I have thought that today's her would resolutely say such a thing as breaking up, I don't want to believe it, I can't accept it, my eyes are red, I shouted to her: "I don't agree!"
Tao Wanxin's tears were still flowing, but her tone was still so firm, and she said hoarsely: "I've already decided, it's useless if you don't agree!"
My head was confused. In an inexplicable panic, I red-eyed and shouted excitedly: "Didn't you promise me to be my woman for the rest of my life?" Are we going to be together forever?"
Tao Wanxin's tears flowed even more fiercely, and her emotions were about to get out of control, she choked up and said to me: "That's all in the past, I used to think too perfectly, but now, everything has changed, and it can't go back to the past!"
Seeing Tao Wanxin so sad and wronged, I am really uncomfortable, but I am so powerless, indeed, I used to be. I have sworn in my heart countless times that I will never let my woman shed tears or let my woman be wronged, but today, she has suffered such a great grievance, but I can't do anything, because the person who hurts her heart is no one else. It's myself.
I have no confidence, but I still can't accept the breakup, I clenched my fists and said bitterly: "Why can't I go back to the past, what is wrong with me, you tell me, I can change, you promised me, you will not give up this relationship easily, why do you have to break up?"
After hearing this, the despair in Tao Wanxin's eyes became even more profound, she suddenly wiped the tears from her face, and then said to me very seriously: "Some things can be forgiven, but some things must not be treated as if they never happened." I'll just ask you, you have to tell me honestly, you and my cousin, last night, nothing happened?"
In a word, I instantly revealed my true form, I can't deceive myself anymore, and I can't deceive Tao Wanxin, I can't tell those lame lies, and I know that I can't deceive them. A woman's sixth sense is very keen, Tao Wanxin must have firmly believed in something, so she will completely beat me to death with a stick, and if I lie, she will definitely be even more disappointed in me.
I froze in place, struggling for a long time, before I was unable to say, "Yes, but that's because I'm drunk, not sober, I don't know anything, and after waking up..."
Tao Wanxin couldn't listen to it anymore, she was completely desperate, she directly interrupted me: "Okay, don't say it anymore, I don't want to hear it." Ge Tian, I ask you to think about it for me, it's all like this, do you think we can go back to the past, can we continue to have a good relationship?"
At this moment, there is both resentment and deep pain in her eyes, I touched her eyes like this, my heart hurt even more, I hate myself, and blame myself, things have happened, I can't escape at all, Tao Wanxin asked me to think about it from her point of view, of course I know that her heart is completely broken, and the man she loves is splitting her legs, which in itself is a fatal blow, which is difficult for any woman to accept.
What's more, the person I have sex with is her cousin, the person she has relied on the best since she was a child, even if she is generous, doesn't care about everything, and continues to associate with me, then she won't have a pimple in her heart from now on?
I knew that I had made a mistake, made an unforgivable mistake and hurt two women at once. For Sister Yu, I left her with an indelible scar mark for a lifetime, she pretended to be calm after the collapse, let me forget about last night, and continue with Tao Wanxin, she wanted to leave the pain to her alone, and wanted Tao Wanxin not to be hurt in any way.
And Tao Wanxin, she loves me so much, but she resolutely proposed to break up, it must be for her cousin, she can't forgive me for the mistakes I made, and it is impossible for her to love me after I defiled her sister, she can't care about it, and she can't ignore her sister, in the end, she also chose to bear this pain alone.
Their sisters are willing to let themselves hurt for each other's sake, and I, what did I do to make such a big mistake? Why would I bring such deep harm to such two good women?
Perhaps, on the road of love, I went too far, I didn't handle my feelings well at all, and I didn't really recognize myself. For that ignorant first love, I suffered too many blows and tortures, Xiaoyue hurt me completely, so exhausted, it even ended so sadly, from beginning to end it was my wishful thinking, it was Xiaoyue, who gave me the trauma of love, and made the shadow in my heart more and more heavy.
And Tao Wanxin, she brought me hope, brought me sunshine, brought me true and pure love, she gave me the courage and confidence to love, she gave me a taste of love, the relationship we established is so deep and precious, it makes up for the lack of my soul, and makes me full of expectations for the future, but such hard-won love is about to be lost, I really can't accept it.
Almost in a pleading tone, I confessed to Tao Wanxin: "Xin'er, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, just forgive me this time, give me a chance, please!"
Tao Wanxin had no tears, her expression began to become indifferent, her eyes were completely desperate, she stared at me stupidly for a long time before she said coldly: "I said, some things can be forgiven, but there are some things, I must not treat them as if they never happened." Do you know, I didn't have a mother since I was a child, I didn't have a good relationship with my father, I didn't have a good relationship with many people, but my cousin, she was very good to me, I regarded her as my only relative, friend, she was the person I relied on the most and trusted, she would share all her good things with me, but, everything can be shared, man, but no, I can't share the same man with my cousin, do you understand!"
I don't want to understand, I just know that I can't lose Tao Wanxin, I suddenly stepped forward, grabbed Tao Wanxin's shoulder, and said with grief: "Xin'er, it's not what you think, it's really not what you think, the woman I love the most in my heart is you, it's you, I'm just with Sister Yu..."
Tao Wanxin didn't listen to me at all, so she threw me away directly and roared at me: "But you have already had a relationship with her, this thing can't be erased at all, it can never be erased, my cousin values this the most, you are her first man, she can't forget you, if you are a man, take responsibility, it's impossible for us, I can't do it as if something didn't happen, I really can't do it." ”
Tao Wanxin's words became more and more decisive, I saw in her eyes that it was unforgivable, unacceptable, I thought that love could maintain the relationship between two people, I thought that as long as I explained to her, the person I loved was her, and the only person I loved was her, she could forgive me, but things are really not so simple, and the relationship between me and Sister Yu can really never be erased.
I'm going crazy, it's messy, I really want to explain again, but I don't even have the words to convince myself, I really don't know what to use to persuade Tao Wanxin, I'm so powerless, I don't know what to do, I can only keep apologizing and repenting, I keep saying sorry in a choked voice, I'm sorry, I hope to use my sincerity to influence Tao Wanxin.
But in the end, it's all useless, my powerless repentance is only exchanged for Tao Wanxin's firmer voice: "Ge Tian, if you really love me, then I beg you, forget me, don't come to me again in the future, let me live a quiet life, okay?"
After speaking, she didn't look at me anymore, turned around directly, and left resentfully, the thin back looked so desolate and sad.
I didn't chase after it, I didn't have the face to chase after it, this unforgivable mistake I made, pressed my body, dragged my feet, made me unable to move, made me weak, and made me completely lose my courage.
I just stood in place, stunned, watching Tao Wanxin's back gradually fade away, as she left, my heart became colder and colder, more and more desolate, and it felt like the end of the world.
When Tao Wanxin walked out of the alley in despair, walked to the road, and was about to disappear, my heart was completely broken, and I began to close my eyes in despair, but, at the moment when my eyes were about to close, suddenly, a large truck suddenly came out of the road...
A piercing sound of brakes broke the tranquility of this world, and in an instant, my pupils dilated, and I didn't even have time to say careful, so I watched Tao Wanxin, who had lost her soul, be knocked out and fly out, and at the end of the alley, only a large truck facing me was left.
As if there was a thunder on the ground, I was stunned, and after a second of frozen, I suddenly screamed, rushed out of the alley like crazy, and rushed to the road.