In fact, the book has been over for several days, but because some chapters are blocked, some book friends may not see the ending, you can go to the DAO version to see it.

I've revised the blocked chapter.,But it's not released yet.,Of course,Maybe it can't be released.,Although from my own point of view,,I don't think there's anything wrong with it.,But now the standard of review has gone up.,So I'm not sure if there's still a description of violations......

What makes me more uncomfortable is that in the first few chapters of the book, I didn't drive at that time, I just wrote a system, and I was locked for some reason, alas, I struggled with this for a long time.

However, this is about to be June, the old has turned the page, the new is still ahead, no matter what, you can't remember the previous unhappiness, people have to look forward.

For me, from last year to now, for more than a year, the whole person has almost spent time in a muddy nightmare, and I can't do anything well, and I have always wanted to change, but the mountain of insomnia really overwhelms me.

Neurasthenia, dreaminess, forgetfulness, logical confusion, poor health, gaining weight, frequent colds, gray and less hair, myopia and dry eyes, stomach problems, and even the kidneys are not good.

After counting it, there are too many problems in my body now, so many problems in one, I haven't hung it yet, and I think it's incredible.

Let's talk about the book, the book "Overturning the Times", in fact, I only opened the book in a hurry because the two new books were on the street, in order to find something to do for myself in a hurry, there is no outline, let alone a detailed outline and planning, and I just have a general route in my mind.

According to my idea, write something light-hearted and homely, and then write about the company's business and technology, about two or three million words, mix up 2019, take care of your body by the way, and then conceive the outline of another book, and strive for the next book to become a big hit.

Everything was planned at that time. However, I overestimated myself, at the beginning of this book, I was preparing a single heroine, and there would be no more than three heroines at most, but for a while I was messed up, probably from the beginning of the shelves, I really thought I had read a few harems, and I felt that I should also open a harem like this, and then I wrote the harem, starting with Tang Ting, and then Luo Ying, Tong Yao, and finally out of control, when I wanted to stop, I couldn't stop.

At that time, my body was extremely bad, my willpower was on the verge of collapse, and I couldn't withstand any blow, so I didn't want to write, I wanted to rest for a while.

But later, many book friends persuaded me to continue writing, it doesn't matter if the update is slow, they will always support me, many people care about me, there is no way, I was moved, I can only continue to write.

According to my later redesigned outline, there were about two or three hundred chapters left in the book, but because of this review, I had to die early. Sometimes, plans don't keep up with changes.

After writing the book, I thought I could probably take a break, but I didn't sit idle, and the next day I started to sit in front of the computer and start laying out the outline of the next book, which seems to be pretty good so far, full of cool and rhythm, definitely much better than this book.

At the same time, I also set a goal for myself, which is to exercise willpower and achieve rational self-control as soon as possible.

In the first few days, it was intermittent, but the effect was not bad, at least the logical thinking was normal and the idea was very good.

But what broke me down was that after eight or nine days of perseverance, I couldn't sleep because of stomach pain, and I fell out of running, and just the night before, I had insomnia again, and even last night, I went to read a book on raising pigs, and I didn't sleep until half past four, and when I got up, it was already half past one in the afternoon......

I failed and it was painful.

You don't know, just two days ago, my willpower was as hard as a rock, and I did everything in order, doing laundry, cooking, grocery shopping, mopping the floor, reading helpful books, going for a walk, running and exercising at night before going to bed...... Whenever I think of anything, I do it right away.

However, since yesterday, after the collapse of willpower, I have become lazy, and I have thrown away all the things I insisted on before, and then I was very annoyed, so I began to look for it, and I have been annoyed to look at it, and even now my heart is still chaotic, and I can't calm down at all, and I don't even want to go out of the house, and I also call takeout for dinner.

Speaking of which, I'm stuck again, and I don't know what to say next, this is the disadvantage of forgetfulness and insomnia.

After pondering for a while with his eyes closed, he continued.

I took a lot of medicine and went to the doctor about insomnia, but I found that it was not a disease that medicine could cure, and I could only rely on myself, on my own willpower.

It was hard to get a little better before, but as long as the day was broken, everything would return to its original shape, and it would be even worse than before.

Alas, when I think of this, I am a little desperate, I don't want to do anything now, I just want to close my eyes and simply don't open them again, but helplessly, I can't sleep at all at this time......

I was thinking, is it really my willpower or the environment?

I thought about it, and if I didn't have a computer, a mobile phone, and the temptation of the Internet, I really seemed to be able to try to overcome the current difficulties.

Yes, I've thought about it many times and I've never dared to face it or admit it, but that's what happened.

Mobile phones, computers, and the Internet have brought us convenience and rich spiritual life, but for people like me, whose self-control has already deteriorated, it is really a poison, a deadly poison.

As soon as I got it, I started chatting, watching movies, watching live broadcasts, watching all kinds of short videos, and sometimes I couldn't stop at all, is there anyone like me? If so, I personally think it's a pathological phenomenon.

Some time ago, I read a news article that said that playing games addiction is a mental illness, and by extension, playing mobile phone addiction is similar to this, right?

At this point, I turned my head and looked at my phone, and then at the computer screen: Maybe, I should get rid of them? Only then can I be healthy.

But sadly, my brain and other body systems simply ignored my thoughts, and even had some faint disdain in my heart.

If you don't believe me, I feel like I've become two people, with split personalities, one is the rational me, and the other is the me with all kinds of desires and desires.

Although the boundary between them is not obvious, I am clearly aware of their existence with each other, which sounds ridiculous, but if I think about it, if I have the upper hand and control my body, then I can selectively do things that are beneficial to my health, and if I have the upper hand in my desires, I will be lazy, impulsive, and reckless to harm my health.

In the final analysis, the real enemy of this mental distress is still myself, and only by defeating myself can I become strong, sane and sober.

But...... It's too difficult, it's really too difficult, I don't have the belief to defeat myself at all, and I even think at this moment that I'm going to keep going on like this, and I can't find a breakthrough.

But who knows what the future holds, and maybe in a few days, I'll find a way again?

Before I knew it, I had written so much, all about myself, which was a very taboo thing in conversation, so I was stupid again, and the real testimonial was to summarize the past and look forward to the future, while I was talking about myself......

Alas, after all, everyone is separated by thousands of mountains and rivers, and in reality they are strangers to each other, and now there are so many authors on the Internet, and those who write testimonials like me are suspected of selling miserably.

Readers read books, they read books and not authors, so what I said above is more nonsense, and I can imagine that many people read it, the corners of their mouths turned up, some disdain, and even secretly scolded that they deserved it.

Some people will say, what is the strength of the blind comparison, I am here to read books, and I am not doing anything else, do I go to the kiln, do I have to sympathize with those people's life experience, or sympathize with her poor health?

Moreover, even if it is relatives and friends, there are not many people who can really understand and care.

If you want to say that this society is good, it is indeed good, but it is also true to say that people's personalities are getting cooler and thinner, because the core values of human nature and morality are gradually shifting, just look at the live broadcasts of various video clips on the Internet.

To be honest, at first I was unhappy with this crackdown, because it affected me, but now my thoughts have changed again, and I can cleanse the crooked tendencies under me, including myself, and there are many things that I wrote before that are too YY and vulgar, and not normal.

In this regard, I used to think that I was happy, and the readers also felt happy, so it should be done, but now looking back, it is really harmful to others and myself.

If I had written positive things and persisted, maybe my body wouldn't have become what it is now.

The current state of affairs may be a punishment for me in the dark. (I can only comfort myself like this)

Writing this, I made a Ctrl+A+C, copied it, afraid that I accidentally deleted it, of course, if suddenly there is a blue screen, I consider myself unlucky, because my computer often has a blue screen.

…… As for the new book, I definitely want to write it, after all, I can't do anything else except write a book, and I used to do business and do wholesale, but in the past two years, the market has stabilized, and I want to do it again, which is no longer realistic, and I will only lose money.

But the genre of the new book will no longer be a harem, with a single heroine or no heroine.

I know that as soon as these words come out, there must be many readers who will stop paying attention to me, because many of the readers who can see this are coming for the harem, and there are few of my real fans, and I still have points in my heart.

In the past, when I wrote books, I just wanted to make ends meet, but since last year, I have felt that I have to make a great covenant no matter what, right?

I know that I still have a long way to climb from that height, and maybe I will never reach that height in my lifetime, but as long as I still write books, I will definitely strive for that goal.

As I spoke, I got crooked again.

Back to the topic, I don't know when the new book will be released, anyway, the insomnia has not been alleviated, and I am not going to open the book until the outline is listed.

Even if all the iron fans are gone, there is no one left, I will not rush to open the book and finish it in a hurry this time, this is irresponsible to myself, but also to the reader, as I get older, I will slowly feel that responsibility is actually a kind of vitality in life, I don't want to destroy it, and I dare not destroy it. Even when I was half-dead, I felt that this was the bottom line that I should stick to, not only me, but even every one of us as adults.

…… It's over, it's stuck again.

After thinking about it for two minutes, I realized that there was nothing more to say, so let's do it.

I wish you all good health, family happiness and smooth work.

Also, look less at things that are not healthy for your body.

Finally, thank you to everyone who can see here.

。 m.