Unconsciously, I have been in this city for more than eight months, accompanied by tears and pain, the experience of these months has made me deeply understand a lot of things, and I have changed a lot, perhaps, everything I have encountered is just the price of growth.

It's finally time to leave it, and the first place I can think of to go is still my hometown, because there is my stupid brother there, and after going through so much, I feel that the person I am most sorry for is my brother, no matter what, I have to apologize to him, sincerely apologize.

On the way back, I kept circling a lot of things in my mind, many memories, good and bad, all so poignant. The people I met also made me unforgettable, I was reluctant to let Sister Yu and Tao Wanxin go, and I always thought about Xiaoyue in my heart, and for those who gave me shame, Luan Yu, Four Eyes, Lei Zi, Little White Face, ruffian children, college alumni, Tao Wanxin High School students, I just want to be ashamed and let them look at me with admiration.

So, whether it's for the sake of the people I care about, or for the sake of those who look down on me, I'm going to come back, to come back to this city, and change myself completely.

Thinking about things, I took a nap again, and the time on the train passed imperceptibly, and finally, the train stopped in my hometown city, and as soon as I got off the train, I was ready to go straight to my poor country ravine.

However, as soon as I got out of the train station, I encountered two policemen chasing a person, accompanied by the shouts of the crowd: "Catch the thief, catch the thief!"

I immediately understood that the police were playing a scene to catch the thief, and I happened to be a little sensitive to the police, so I was about to take a detour to leave the scene, but as soon as I walked a few steps, a very familiar voice came into my ears: "Uncle policeman, misunderstanding, misunderstanding, I'm playing with him!"

Sure enough, when I saw the face of the man who was being chased by the police, I was convinced that he was a dog from the same village as me, and he was in the same class as me in elementary school, but he was expelled from school for stealing.

After that, he wandered around the village all day long, his hands and feet were still not clean, and he always did some things like stealing chickens and touching dogs, and he was the most annoying thing in the village, he was a well-known suspicion in our village, but after I let Xiaoyue go, I became the second suspicion.

I didn't expect that this guy who was idle in the village all day long would run to the city to steal things, listening to his conversation with the police, I probably understood, this kid seems to be a habitual offender in the train station, always taking advantage of more people to do some petty theft, today, he was finally arrested.

I don't have much affection for this dog, but after all, I have known the villagers since I was a child, and I will inevitably be touched by some hearts when I meet them outside, and more importantly, it will definitely be inconvenient for me to go back to the village now, if I can let the dogs help me to inquire about my brother, it will save a lot of trouble.

So, I was nosy for a while, and I silently followed them to the police station near the train station.

The moment he saw me at the police station, the dog seemed to be so excited as he saw his deceased mother, and he burst into tears, I could also understand his mood at that time, knowing that it was not easy to meet an acquaintance in a foreign place, and he mainly hoped that I could testify for him and prove that he was a good citizen in the village, and wanted me to bail him out, he said, as long as I can save him out, everything will listen to me in the future, I am his second parent, his eldest brother.

Seeing him like this, I can't bear to refuse, besides, the dog is a habitual offender, the police are ready to detain him, I saw the dog end up like this, I can't help but think of myself, we belong to the category of sympathy, are helpless and homeless people, since I was a child, I have no parents of the dog, life is worse than me, if I don't help him, there will really be no one to help him.

So, in the end, I still let go out and saved the dog's egg, at the cost of 10,000 yuan for me.

Coming out of the police station, Goudan was still scolding all the way, saying that these turtle grandsons were too dark, and he didn't steal so much money combined, I was speechless by him, so I directly interrupted him and asked, "Goudan, I want to ask you, is my brother in the village now?"

When the dog heard my words, he stopped his scolding, looked at me, and said, "No, I'm going to ask you, your brother hasn't come back since he went out to look for you last time!"

As soon as I heard this, my heart immediately cooled a lot, in fact, I faintly felt that my brother might not go home, but I still didn't feel at ease, I wanted to go home to find out, but I didn't expect that he really didn't come back, which made me particularly uneasy.

Then, I asked Goudan about my parents, and Goudan told me that my parents had been back for a while, but they knew that after my brother left, they put the blame on me, so Goudan advised me not to go home, otherwise my parents would have to skin me alive.

Although I know that my parents' attitude towards me is still the same, but finally they are safe and sound, this is the best, I also know that Xiaoyue did what she said, she did not call the police at the beginning, and she also kept her promise to rescue my parents, which makes me more grateful to her.

However, I have all come here, and I can't say that I can't go home to see it, and although no one in the village welcomes me, I still want to see my grandmother who passed away, and I want to see the place where I grew up.

So, on this day, I hid directly back to the village with the dog.

Dog Dan took me, found my grandmother's grave, is a small dirt bun, no tombstone nothing, think of my rickety grandmother, a lifetime of hard work, and finally lived in such a simple soil bun, my tears can't help but fall, as a grandson, I did not do my filial piety, when she was alive, I did not do well enough, to her death, I also came to see her for the first time, I was really sad and sad.

Sad to be sad, but in the face of my grandmother's small grave, my mind is more clear, I don't want to be like my grandmother, nest in a small mountain village all my life, and finally return to heaven in obscurity, I would rather die vigorously than be willing to live peacefully, I don't want to live too aggrieved, I don't want to be bullied everywhere, I want to change, change from the bones, I swear, I will never be the timid as a mouse and just want to live in peace.

Leaving the cemetery, I asked Goudan to inquire about my brother's whereabouts and see if anyone knew his whereabouts, but in the end, I got the news that there was no news, and no one knew where my brother was now.

Goudan saw my sadness, and he immediately told me that he had a buddy in the city where I went to college, and he had been staying for several years, and he probably knew some people, and asked me if I wanted to go to him together and inquire about my brother's whereabouts.

As soon as I heard about that city, I immediately replied, don't use it for now, don't rush it for the time being. Actually, I just don't want him to know what happened to me in that city, and I can't go back immediately as it was, if I want to go back, at least I have to change my appearance, and then go back when I have a little confidence.

In the end, Goudan and I returned to our hometown city, and here, I told Goudan what I thought in my heart, I said, I want to change, I want to become a man who doesn't look weak, and I asked him to take me to get a tattoo.

When the dog heard this, he almost laughed, he said what age is it now, what kind of tattoos do you have, that thing can only scare children, he said, to become tough, not from the appearance to do tricks, but to change from the essence.

He also took himself as an example, saying that to be a thief, the most important thing is to have a ruthless heart, even if it is a migrant worker's money, he will steal it correctly, so he is only thriving in the thief industry. He also said that if I want to be a man who can bluff people at a glance, I must also be ruthless, the truth is the same as being a thief, as long as you are hard in your bones, and your heart is ruthless enough, you can really change your own scholarly temperament.

Indeed, in the past, I was bullied, all because of the weakness in my bones, from my fearful character, and the first step for me to really change is to make my heart ruthless. Unexpectedly, such an illiterate thief as Godan, his head is really alive, and he can see my problem at a glance, I think he will definitely be able to help me in the future, so I couldn't help but ask him: "Or you will be with me in the future, and we will mix up together!"

Dogan didn't think about this question, he agreed in one bite, he said that he had already said it at the police station, and I would always be his eldest brother.

I definitely didn't believe this, and I seriously asked him why he agreed to mix with me so easily.

The dog smiled and told me the truth, saying that my legs were actually better, and I was dressed like a dog, and the important thing was that I took out 10,000 yuan to save him, and I didn't blink my eyes, which showed that he followed me and would not be hungry. Based on these, Goudan said that he deduced that I must have met a noble person, because he could see at a glance that I had changed a lot, as if I had matured a little.

The dog's words made me even more convinced that this kid who stole chickens and dogs was indeed smart enough, had brains, and had skills, so I felt more and more that it was right to make friends with him.

Besides, I know that the dog is a person, the heart is not bad, and he also has his principles, if he didn't have parents when he was a child, he wouldn't have to rely on stealing to support himself, if he didn't steal, he would have starved to death, and he said that he would never steal until he had no money.

Of course, I told him that the condition of being with me was that he couldn't steal anymore, and the dog immediately assured me that as long as he followed me and wouldn't go hungry, he would never steal again.

In the evening, he took me to the place where he lived, this is a dilapidated slum, the rent is very cheap, the dog is still shared with someone, this person, dark skin, strong body, the dog said, this person is actually his colleague, called Niu Tomb, nicknamed Niu Dan, they two work in shifts, the dog is responsible for the day, the cow dung is responsible for the night, people call them, black and white.

Cow dung is also a bright person, he heard the dog say that I can have food, smoke and smoke, and immediately agreed to mix with us, this time, I have two more brothers, and suddenly feel that I have an unlimited future!

Since then, I have started my path of change with them, and the dogs who know my weaknesses have tried all kinds of ways to prescribe the right medicine to prompt me to change as soon as possible. He took me to many occasions to see some fights and brawls, the survival of the strong and the elimination of the weak, and let me watch and learn.

Of course, he will also take me to experience it personally, and he said that I am always unconfident in talking and walking, and this must be completely changed.

So, he first took me to the gate of the primary school to intimidate and blackmail the primary school students, at the beginning, no one was afraid of me, some dared to scold me for being neurotic, and some directly did not bird me, I suddenly felt that I was not fake and useless, it was really useless, and even the primary school students could not be bluffed.

After realizing this, I worked harder to ponder, to try to change, under the careful training of the dog, I finally slowly realized, the majesty conveyed by the eyes, and the momentum revealed in the bones, people can not have strong force or anything, but must always maintain self-confidence beyond themselves.

He also made an analogy with me and asked me what the difference was between a thief and a robber, and I said I didn't know.

He explained that a thief with a weapon is a robber!

The same person, how to transform from a thief to a robber, that is, you dare to fight, dare to be ruthless, dare to do.

I'm not stupid, the dog taught me the truth, I quickly understood it thoroughly, and I also tested it myself, so, I passed the level of scaring elementary school students, some of them were scared away by me, some were scared by me and cried, and some gave me money obediently, of course, I won't ask for money.

After abusing elementary school students, I began to point the finger at junior high school students, high school students, slowly, my state, gradually changed, and the effect was remarkable, although in this process, we were beaten, also abused, and suffered a lot of lessons, but I lived a very full life, very energetic, constantly falling and getting up, much happier than the feeling of collapse.

With the passage of time, the former cowardly Ge Tian disappeared, and a new Ge Tian was born.

Now I am really a bit manly, I have learned to smoke, I have learned to drink, and I have learned to fight, but I don't think I have learned badly, but I feel that I am more manly, my change lies in my heart, becoming ruthless, becoming crazy, becoming confident, becoming very hard, becoming myself almost unable to recognize myself, and feeling that my soul has been sublimated.

One night at the end of June, I was having a supper with dogs and cow dung, and on the way home, we saw a beggar...