Look, it's been so long, what progress have I made?

Not only has there been no progress, but not even the first step has been taken.

Sure enough, the killing can only be completed by relying on hatred of falsehood and anger at the character.

I still think about what progress I have, and I worry that I am wasting my time. You have to go crazy to be reckless and reckless just to kill.

I've had that anger that suddenly erupts as if it wanted to ruin it all. During the time when I was making coffee, I had a very strong anger, and I felt like my whole person was about to explode.

But I don't know why, I didn't explode or go crazy, and now I don't have a trace of anger.

That kind of anger at that time, even if God was standing before me, would have been torn apart and destroyed.

Unfortunately, that anger didn't hold up, maybe just a little bit, it could turn from a spark to a flame.

If you don't, you won't be able to kill yourself, what if you can never take the first step, and you'll always be enslaved by the characters?

Alas, it was the characters who tempted me to leave this path and keep me away from what to kill. It's scared me, worried that this series of actions will not be rewarded.

It's funny, the reward of this path is to kill the character. For the character, no reward is the best reward, because the character's survival is guaranteed.

At the moment, the character wants to use the usual reason of "no return" to scare me away from this path. It seems as if the character is thinking about me, "You see, this path doesn't pay off, let's go to some path with a big reward, like success or something." ”

Am I going to leave this path? Will I keep going?

As much as I wanted to swear aloud, swearing itself was a sign that I couldn't do it, and I was trying to restrain myself desperately.

What the future holds, I don't know at all. Sounds like it's not very inspirational or passionate, but it's honest.

How can I grasp the dynamics of the future?

Do I have superpowers to control the future, or am I God's will?

I'm just a background existence, thinking about the role of Yuan Changwen. Doesn't it sound ridiculous for a humble character to try to determine the future with the knowledge and information in his head?

No one will admit that they are humble, and even if they say so, they only want to get a side compliment, "Wow, you are so good, you can see through this." ”

Whether it's really humble or not, just scold him for two sentences, and immediately lose your temper to let you know who is in charge.

The character is indeed very humble, although I don't know how the unknown power makes the character exist, but the existence of the character itself is only in my service.

Where would I be without that unknown power, without the presence of characters?

What to watch on a screen without cinematic light?

Now, I actually want to kill the character, I have a problem with my brain!

However, it's really noisy, and my mind is a mess, and this quarrel ends and that starts. Either this person is the thing, or else the fantasy begins.

It's so noisy!

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt the urge to cry, but for some reason nothing happened, he just suddenly wanted to cry. Tears slowly accumulated in his eyes, gradually welling up, and a tear slid down his cheek.

It's not because I'm sad, it's not because I'm sad, I don't know why, I just want to cry.

Teacher!

You've done me so badly, and right now, you're on my mind.

I want to consider your teachings, and then compare whether my actions are wrong, whether my path to killing is smooth, and follow the map you have given, and keep comparing and thinking.

You shouldn't be in my head, and you shouldn't be so much of an influence on me.

Teacher, you are not qualified to appear in my head!

Your map is right, your words are sacred, irrefutable, should I always worship you, worship you in my head, and you can influence me in my head?

There is nothing that cannot be killed, everything is my own delusion, everything is cognition in the head, and everything is just self-definition.

There is no sacredness, no authority, only truth or not. And the real one cannot be killed.

I really can't figure out why I can't take the first step for a long time, what is stopping me from starting to kill?

Are you afraid of losing something? Funny, what belongs to me? Even the thoughts in my head don't belong to me, what else does this world belong to me?

Teacher, what are you doing in my head?

It's my life, and no one can interfere with it, and no one has the right to interfere.

You don't deserve it, you don't deserve it.

I'm still cautious, for fear that I'm going the wrong way, for fear that my progress will not be in line with what the teacher said.

What the hell is this Nima doing?

I don't have eyes myself, I can't see!

That's right, characters mislead me, they deceive me, they make me ignore the obvious. Then, the teacher's words are the character's weapon, which makes me pay attention to the map drawn by the teacher and ignore the reality.

Honestly, that's a great weapon.

Yuan Changwen was a little uncomfortable, and his tears couldn't stop flowing. There was nothing sad, nothing happened, a big man alone there slowly weeping.

Of course, no one will pay attention. Who would see that under a tree in the park meadow, a certain man is crying. There is no one, there is no one else in this world, only oneself.

I'm still comparing, and the teacher is still influencing my head.

Is this crazy?

From time to time, the teacher jumped out and made me think that I was going the right way or the wrong way.

Damn it!

The character uses the teacher in this way, makes me believe the teacher's words, makes me dare not refute the teacher, and makes me doubt my own progress.

To kill self-definition is to throw away all the opinions you have. So, what is the reason to maintain the teacher's opinion?

The teacher was always there, smiling at me in my head, always having a cognitive projection in my head.

This road does not require learning any new knowledge, let alone any instruments to assist navigation.

All the reasons, what teachers can point out the way, what books can navigate the coordinates, these are all excuses for the characters.

Honesty is enough.

What is true, if you are honest, you can see that it is all false. And the so-called can't find the direction and can't see the way forward, it's because of their own dishonesty.

I still haven't gotten rid of the role, and I'm even far behind. Countless self-definitions are like vines, entangled together, firmly enveloping the "selfless".

Airless.

Can I really get rid of the character?

Yuan Changwen felt powerless, as if the flow of tears had exhausted all the strength in his body. All along, the teacher's words have pointed out the direction, but for some reason, I just think that the teacher is not qualified in my head.

It's not rhetoric, it's not that only I can dominate myself in heaven and earth, it's just helpless.

Teacher, please die.