But why is it that the more I try to persuade myself, the more barren my heart becomes? Why is my heart so empty and empty? I feel like a dandelion scattered around, unable to find a place to live.

Lin Cheng was standing in front of the window in shorts and smoking, his back was facing me, and I could only see the perfect lines of his back and the white smoke curling up, enveloping him little by little, and it felt a little unreal. It's like a bicycle in the morning fog, with a faint mystery and loneliness.

I walked into the bathroom, and the floor tiles were covered with water, my bath towels had been used, my body wash had been used, my facial cleanser had been used, and the towels I used to wipe my face had been used.

I looked at it faintly for a moment, then began to clean up, taking together everything that had been touched by the woman and throwing it into the garbage basket at the door.

I'm disgusting.

When I brushed my teeth in the mirror, I felt an inexplicable sadness when I looked at my emaciated and emaciated self in the mirror, and I felt a sense of despair at every turn as I have been doing this lately. Especially when I'm with Lin Cheng.

Brushing my teeth every day is the most uncomfortable time for me, because of the relationship between my stomach and chronic pharyngitis, I vomit every time I brush my teeth. And this is especially evident today.

When I was holding the sink and vomiting and couldn't stop vomiting, Lin Cheng suddenly ran to the bathroom, hugged my shoulder from behind, gently leaned on my ear and asked me, "Are you okay........?"

Because I was wearing a sleeveless dress, he hugged my shoulders and touched my bare skin, and the inexplicable touch didn't give me goosebumps.

"Get out. I was weak, propped up on the sink, and the sourness in my stomach stimulated one after another, "You wish I died sooner, don't you?" Hehe, no, you wish I had lived so desperately so that you could continue to torture. Lin Cheng, I won't get what you want. ”

"Gu Wanjing, I don't know what happened last night, you don't have any reason to make trouble, okay?" It's me who is wrong, I can apologize to you, but I didn't think about taking last night's incident to ........" Lin Cheng hugged my shoulders tightly and explained to me with sincere apologies.

"Forget it, Lin Cheng, I'm not who you are, you can't explain it to me. Also, please let go of me, everything in you, I feel disgusting. I said coldly. The thought of him stroking Rebecca last night makes me feel furious.

"You're just ......... Grass!" It's obviously his fault, and he blames me now, "I don't believe that every time you went to sleep in your room last night, Gu Wanjing, you didn't stop me when you saw me sleeping with other women, and now you are pretending to be a white lotus here? Don't you just want to humiliate me with this matter? Hehe, think about it, you are really willing to tolerate me and other women going to bed in front of you, do you say that you are fucking weird? You .......?"

Before he could finish speaking, I slapped him. "Lin Cheng, saying that you are a brute insults those two words. You're not as good as a brute. "Because the hand was wet, the slap was particularly loud.

As soon as the slap went down, Lin Cheng's eyes immediately ignited with anger, he didn't think about it, he actually raised his hand and prepared to hit me, while the other hand pinched my chin so that I couldn't move.

I stared at him with wide eyes and sneered, "You're not as good as a beast anyway, and it's not surprising that you hit a woman." Besides, this isn't the first time you've hit me. ”

I just looked at him like that, and I wanted to kill him with my eyes.

But he still didn't fight it after all.

When he slowly lowered his hand and lowered his head, I knew I had won.

The two of us just stood like that, and after about three minutes, Lin Cheng slowly raised his face and took my hand and put it in the palm of his hand, I swore I was not mistaken, Lin Cheng had tears in his eyes. This made me feel very strange and surprised, but the few tears in his eyes didn't move me after all, no matter how sincere he said at that time, "Gu Wanjing, maybe you don't believe it, I want to live a good life with you, although I hate you." I don't know how to deal with Rebecca's thing, but I really thought it was you who was the one last night, and I don't ask for your forgiveness, but I hope you don't ........."

I didn't feel moved at all, I just thought it was very funny, I pulled away the hand he was holding, pushed him out of the bathroom, and then turned back to Lin Cheng who was stunned and said, "Lin Cheng, I'm not as fragile as you think." I don't love you, so it doesn't matter who you sleep with, because from now on, even if I sleep in the same bed as you, you don't want to touch me, because as soon as I think about how you were last night, I feel disgusting. ”

Lin Cheng's face was slightly gloomy, he always liked to purse his mouth gently when he was uncomfortable, I smiled lightly, and then left his sight.

During breakfast, Wu's mother kept dodging, but I didn't mind at all. I don't care if she opened the door for Rebecca or not, and I didn't think about embarrassing her, after all, she was just a servant, what the master said, where could she resist?

Putting things on the table, I told Mama Wu to call Zhao Suyun and Lin Nan out for dinner, Mama Wu looked at me a little embarrassed, and said resignedly, "That........ The wife may not want to come out, so why should you ........"

"Mother Wu, it's her business that she can't come out, and it's my business whether she can't call or not. Go ahead, I'll pour the soy milk. ”

Mother Wu nodded, and then wiped her hands on her apron while going to Zhao Suyun's room.

When Lin Nan pushed Zhao Suyun out, I didn't care at all, to be honest, it was reasonable for her to come out to see my jokes, anyway, she and Lin Nan both wanted to see me and Lin Cheng have a fight.

Lin Nan pushed Zhao Suyun and walked towards the dining table with a smile, but the faint sweet smile was more like a sarcasm and a good show, I saw my actions in the living room last night Lin Nan saw it, and she already knew how Lin Cheng would clean me up.

There is no so-called gift for me at all, hehe, if Lin Nan gives me a gift, the sun will come out in the west.

"Morning, Gu Wanjing, did you sleep well last night?" Lin Nan said deliberately.

I looked up and smiled, "Okay, why not." "I had soy milk on one side, and then Lin Cheng came down from upstairs.

"Mother Wu, please go upstairs and change the sheets and quilt covers, don't wash them, just throw them away, and the pile at the door of the bathroom, throw them all away. I ignored them, and said to Wu's mother while eating fried dough sticks by myself.

Zhao Suyun looked at Lin Cheng with a strange yin and yang on the side, and said sarcastically, "This is the wife you brought back, thinking that the Lin family has gold and silver mountains?

"Don't be angry, I'm also for your son's good, or your tutor is good, he has a good habit of raising a body, the girls outside don't know how many they have served, they said that they will bring it back, and they will sleep for a while, I don't know if they brought a condom last night, hey, by the way, Wu's mother, you will check the trash can in a while, and throw away everything that should be thrown. In the face of Zhao Suyun's deliberateness, I didn't care at all, and retorted calmly, "I don't know if the woman is sick, so I think it's better to throw the quilt away, if there is any disease, it will be troublesome." Your Lin family is a boy in Lin City, and you are still counting on him to pass on the ancestry, just a quilt, it's a pity to throw it away, if you get a disease that shouldn't be infected, then it will be troublesome, and when the time comes, your Lin family will be cut off from children and grandchildren, then you won't be able to live with the ancestors of the Lin family, right?"

"Gu Wanjing! Shut your crow's mouth! Rebecca is an actress, not the kind of woman you say! She is ten thousand times better than you!" Lin Nan said.

Zhao Suyun was so angry with me that she sat in a wheelchair with a pair of eyes staring at me, and I thought to myself, she was fantasizing about killing me with her eyes.

"Good sister, don't get excited, whether the goods are good or not, you still have to know your brother. What are you doing with me in a hurry?" I glanced at Lin Nan, and then continued to eat. But in the face of such a group of fucking people who have no appetite, I really can't eat it.

After taking a sip of soy milk, I got up, "You eat slowly." ”

Lin Cheng came down from upstairs until I left the table, he didn't say a word, just as I was about to go upstairs, Lin Cheng suddenly said.

"Lin Nan, I asked Uncle Chen to buy you a ticket to go back tomorrow, and I will ask my classmates to help you deal with the affairs of the school. You don't have to come back after you go back, unless I agree. Lin Cheng's voice really didn't have any temperature at all.

"Why! Don't, I don't want to! Brother, you know I don't want to go abroad, you promised me at the beginning, and when I come back, you promised me! How can you go back on your word? Don't want to get rid of me, I'm leaving, what if that woman bullies her mother? What's going on with you now, you obviously don't love her, why did you marry her back with good medicine? Come to our house to add to the block? Brother, have you forgotten how your father died? Have you forgotten?"

"Lin Nan, don't tell me about the conditions, you have already made an adult, you have a sense of proportion, as for Mom, she doesn't need you to worry, she is very good. Lin Cheng said.

Zhao Suyun suddenly grabbed the soy milk cup on the table, splashed all the cups of soy milk on Lin Cheng's face at once, and said angrily, "This is the son I worked so hard to raise! If it weren't for Gu Yunyi's cheap woman fooling around with him, how could our neat and beautiful home be like this?

Lin Cheng slowly wiped the soy milk on his face, and the off-white liquid dripped onto his black shirt, which was very funny.

"You yourself know very well why Dad cheated, and you know very well how Dad died. Mom, I beg you, don't torture others with your mistakes. Since you were a child, you have wanted to control my thoughts, my concepts of right and wrong, and my love and hate, but now that I am twenty-five years old, do you think I am still a marionette for you to play with? There are some things you don't think you've done, I don't know. You're my mom, I know you. While I haven't lost the last bit of confidence in you, don't meddle in my affairs with Gu Wanjing. ”

I stood at the top of the stairs and sneered, what is this? A family singing? Between us, who is the protagonist and who is the spectator?