After a while, Lin Jingshen let go of me and sat up straight, his deep eyes looked at me, and he asked, "Why do you suddenly want to go to college? Don't you want to go abroad to play? Let's go abroad!"

"Jing Shen, this time I have the final say, okay?" I also sat up straight and looked at him, I had already decided, no matter what happened, I didn't want to change, and I wouldn't change.

Including Lin Jingshen, too.

If he refuses, then I'll go alone, and I'll go to his university anyway.

I met his gaze, and he looked at me intently.

Lin Jingshen saw that I was unwilling to back down, so he could only compromise and said, "Okay, since you want to go, then go!"

.....

Early the next morning, I took Secretary Zhao Xiao Yang and the four of us to Lin Jingshen's university.

Lin Jingshen told me that the university was not as good as it is now, and the old teaching buildings were a little dilapidated, but now they have been rebuilt, but all the buildings are the same.

The uncle outside the door is still the same as before, he has a deep memory of Lin Jing, and after chatting a few words, he didn't even need to register and let us in.

I walked around the university campus holding Lin Jingshen's hand, and the students who came and went looked at us from time to time.

The campus is very spacious, and when we walked to a garden on campus, I suddenly heard a student passing by say: "I heard that the confession list is going to be renovated, and the confession list that has been kept for nearly ten years has not been renovated, and now it is suddenly going to be renovated, and the things left behind before are going to disappear, so let's hurry up and take a few photos to keep a souvenir." ”

When I heard that, I suddenly wanted to go.

I grabbed Lin Jingshen and deliberately followed the two classmates in front of me to a huge old tree, there was a huge wall, which was covered with all kinds of notes, because there were too many, and many of them overlapped.

Lin Jingshen's gaze swept here, but he continued to walk forward, he deliberately wanted to avoid it, the look in his eyes had betrayed him.

I grabbed him hard, and I said, "Jing Shen, wait a minute!" Lin Jingshen had to stop, he turned his head to look at me, I smiled and said, "Let's go over and have a look! Maybe you can still see the love letters that those beautiful girls confessed to you before!"

"Don't look. Lin Jingshen said very firmly.

His voice was too familiar, and the atmosphere cooled down all of a sudden, Xiao Yang and Secretary Zhao, who were stretching out their hands, looked at us, and the expression on my face froze, and he said this, then I concluded that they had been here.

Then I'm going to go.

I said, "Jing Shen, why don't you read it? I want to see it, I haven't gone to college, I want to see how everyone confesses when I was in college!" I continued: "You say, if I had the opportunity to go to college, would we have gone to the same school? If I had studied in the same school, would you still choose me as you do now?"

I said to myself, "If we go to the same university, I will definitely chase you and make you mine as early as you were in college." ”

Lin Jingshen looked at me, he didn't speak, I prayed: "Jingshen, just take a look!" After speaking, I looked back at Secretary Zhao and Xiao Yang, and I said, "You guys should go and see it too!"

After the two of them heard it, they immediately understood what I meant, and then walked from behind us to the confession list, Lin Jingshen and I were still in a stalemate, Lin Jingshen never wanted to retreat, he said: "There is nothing to look at, and this kind of thing is meaningless, it is the same whether you look at it or not." ”

"But I want to see it. I continued, "Since you have agreed to accompany me to the university, what does it matter if you look at this confession?"

"If you are interested in this, next time I will take you to the places where you confess abroad, which are more romantic than here. ”

"But I just want to see it here. ”

Tang Yan. Lin Jingshen finally let out a trace of displeasure.

No matter what I said, he was unwilling to agree, I met his gaze, a terrible result welled up in my heart, I stared at his gaze, and the next second, my mouth did not obey the call and highlighted a sentence: "Lin Jingshen, in fact, you and Jian Ran have known each other for a long time, you used to be the most familiar person, but now you have become the most familiar stranger, you and she have been here before, right?"

I thought he would say if I didn't ask, but he didn't, whether I asked or not, he wouldn't say, but I couldn't help it.

I looked at him, just silently, and I wished he could say a word, but he didn't.

His silence made me even more affirmed.

So without waiting for him to speak, I continued: "Lin Jingshen, in fact, Jian Ran, no, it should be called Mo Nan, she is your only girlfriend, right?"

When I asked this, my voice trembled.

I clasped my hands tightly and I said, "You must be curious, how do I know? Do you want to ask, who did I ask? Actually, I didn't ask anyone. I smiled self-deprecatingly: "I have eyes, I am not blind, in fact, it is you who are blind, you think you can hide from everyone, but as long as someone sees the way you look at each other and your words and deeds, you can see through everything." ”

"Lin Jingshen, it's not really stupid to be stupid for three years after being pregnant, so if you don't say it, I know it all. ”

"The reason why you resist coming to the university is because there are beautiful memories you share here, and you don't want to be broken, do you?

"If you don't speak, I'll take you as a default. ”

I smiled, Lin Jing still didn't speak, I was a little angry, I said, "Look! You are still like this, you are like this about Xerox, and now you are still like this about Jian Ran." Lin Jingshen, you didn't say it when I waited for you to say it, so when you want to say it, I don't necessarily want to hear it. ”

I feel so helpless, I feel powerless, and this humility makes me feel that I am not as good as dust.

I look at the man in front of me like this, I hope he can tell me calmly, then it means that he has let go, but he has not, on the contrary, this will make me feel that her position in his heart must not be simple.

At these moments when I thought about it, Lin Jingshen spoke, he faced me, the sun behind him shone on him, and he said, "It's all in the past, don't think about it." ”

His words undoubtedly acknowledged this hidden relationship.

Although he spoke very lightly, even casually, I listened very heavily.

The breath I was holding in my heart kept pouring out, and I shouted: "Since it's already in the past, why don't you say it? You say that you don't know each other, you just know each other, in fact, you and Mo Qian are classmates, you must have met Jian Ran through him, right? The reason why you and Mo Qian have become like this is because of Jian Ran, right? Lin Jingshen, if you don't say it, do you think I don't deserve to listen? Not worthy of knowing?"

"Not really. Lin Jingshen said in a deep voice: "I just don't think it's necessary, it's already in the past." ”

"Yes, for me. I was a little excited, my voice was too loud, and from time to time people looked around me and I said, "It's necessary, it's very necessary." ”

"Lin Jingshen, do you think that I am hiding the matter between me and Lu Feng from you, then I tell you, there is no need to mention it again, what are you doing and feeling in your heart?"

"I didn't have a formal relationship with Lu Feng, and you are different from her, you have been officially together, you have dating, and the relationship between your previous boyfriend and girlfriend is an indisputable fact. ”

"Lin Jingshen, in fact, I don't have to come to the university, nor do I have to come here, I just heard my classmates say that this place is going to be renovated, and I can't help but want to come and have a look, that's all, I don't mean anything else, since you don't want to, then forget it." With that, I turned and walked forward.

Lin Jingshen didn't follow, on the contrary, it was Xiao Yang who followed, and she shouted, "Madam, what's wrong with you?"

"Have you read it? are there a lot of confessional love letters?" I didn't respond to Xiao Yang's words, but smiled at her and asked.

Xiao Yang was silent for a moment and said, "I don't understand it." ”

"Xiao Yang, Secretary Zhao is an honest man, you have to take the initiative, the man chases the woman in the layer of the mountain, the woman chases the man in the layer of sand, you have to come on!" I laughed and teased.

Xiao Yang pursed his lips after hearing this, but his cheeks were red like an apple.

We circled around campus, walked everything roughly around, and left.

Since the showdown between me and Lin Jingshen, we have never said a word, and the car is even quieter to the extreme.

Back at the villa, I got out of the car first, first greeted Ms. He, and then hugged Yueyue for a while, Yueyue arrived at the time of feeding, the nurse took her to the room to breastfeed, and I followed upstairs.

Lin Jingshen didn't come up, he should have been accompanying Ms. He below.

I put down my bag and leaned back on the chair on the balcony, it was very hot now, but I didn't feel the heat, on the contrary, I felt cold from body to heart.

I looked out in a daze, and my heart was very empty.

What do I do next?

For a while, I was a little powerless.

I took a deep breath and just stayed quietly, I don't know how long it took, I suddenly figured it out, maybe it's time for him to figure it out, otherwise, he will never be able to see what is going on in his heart?

If it turns out that he still has her in his heart, then I admit it, if not, then I earned it.

I decided to start snubbing Lin Jingshen, making our relationship unfamiliar with each other, and giving us enough space to be quiet with each other.

Maybe that's the best way to go?

In the evening, Xiao Yang came up to call me to eat, I followed her downstairs, Yueyue went to sleep, Ms. He was already seated, Lin Jingshen didn't see anyone, I asked: "Mom, where is Jingshen!"

This is what a wife should do.

After Ms. He heard this, she smiled and said, "In the kitchen, today's dishes are all made by Jing Shen." ”

"Really?" I also smiled, seeing the dishes on the table, my first reaction was surprise, but the next second it was uncomfortable, did he also cook for her?

I suppressed my suspicions and sat down.

As soon as I picked up the chopsticks, Lin Jingshen came out of the kitchen, he wore an apron around his waist, the three of us sat down, Ms. He also poured a glass of red wine for one of us, she raised the wine glass and said, "Our family hasn't been together for a long time, let's have a drink." ”

I quickly picked up the wine glass and touched it, and drank it all.

During the banquet, Lin Jingshen kept serving me dishes, and I nodded and thanked me, but I didn't touch the dishes he sandwiched.

After dinner, I walked with Ms. He in the garden.

Ms. He suddenly mentioned: "Xiaoyan, listen to Jingshen, you went to college today?"

"Yes. I answered.

Ms. Ho said, "Has the university changed a lot?"

"It should all be the same!"

"No, it's changed, people have changed, everything in front of you is what everyone wants to have, Xiaoyan, do you understand what I mean?" Ms. He's words made me stunned, how could I not understand?

I looked at her and whispered, "Mom...."

"Mom knows that you know it in your heart, you just don't say it, Xiaoyan, you remember my words, in this life, I only recognize you as a daughter-in-law, whether it was before or now, I only recognize you. ”

Ms. He interrupted, she said slowly, her words, made my heart warm, took the initiative to reach out to hold her, gently leaned on her shoulder, I said, "Mom, thank you." ”

"However, this time, I want to solve it clearly, so that I can really feel relieved, otherwise I will have a gap. ”

"Okay, I support you, you do what you want in your heart. ”

........

In the next few days, although I didn't have a cold war with Lin Jing like last time, ignoring him, every day, we slept in the same bed, at night, he still held me in his arms, in the morning, I still said good morning to him, we would talk about Yueyue together, I tried to pretend to be nothing.

But I can see that Lin Jingshen has sensed that something is wrong, that is, I have never chatted with him like before, shared everything, and never called him the word Jingshen affectionately.

Finally, Lin Jingshen spoke.

That morning, when I got up, I whispered to him, "Good morning." ”

Then I went straight to the bathroom, but Lin Jingshen immediately followed, I wanted to close the door, but he stopped, he said, "Xiaoyan, let's talk." ”