167: But I love you

I turned my head to look at Lin Jingshen, and I smiled, "I'll talk about it in the evening." ”

I could clearly feel my lips trembling as I said this again, and I didn't linger for a second before I turned around and walked in.

I wandered the banquet hall like a nobody, but I wasn't minded at all.

Mo Qian didn't know when he walked in front of me, he looked at me, called me twice before I came back to my senses, he asked, "Xiao Yan, what's wrong with you?"

"President Mo, you still call me Mrs. Lin or Manager Tang!" I said lightly.

"But I prefer to shout at you. Mo Qian smiled, he said, "We're friends, aren't we?"

"Friend?" I smiled: "I'm afraid I'm afraid I'll be a friend when you're Governor Mo, but Governor Mo doesn't necessarily mean that I'm a friend, right?"

"What do you mean?" Mo Qian frowned.

I said seriously: "Mo Qian, why do you continue to pretend? You know very well what you and Jian Ran are going to do. ”

"I don't understand what you're talking about?"

"Mo Qian, you and Jian Ran are really brothers and sisters, and they all speak exactly the same. I smiled and turned around to leave, but Mo Qian reached out to hold my hand, and he said, "Xiaoyan, I haven't done anything to hurt you." ”

"But you and your sister have been hurt. I didn't hold back my feelings, and I said, "I have to say,

The banquet didn't end until ten o'clock in the evening, and we naturally stayed at the villa.

Before the guests were finished, I went back to the bedroom in advance, I sorted out the luggage I brought, and prepared to take it to the guest room to live, at this time, Lin Jingshen went back to the room and saw this scene, he frowned and asked, "What are you going to do?"

"Lin Jingshen, are you done now? When you're done, let's talk!" I didn't respond to Lin Jingshen's words, but looked at him lightly, my eyes fixed on him.

Lin Jingshen's expression was solemn, and he said: "It's not early, you're tired today, rest early, and talk about other things tomorrow, okay?"

"No, just say it now, let's make it clear!" I rejected his words directly, I said, "There are some things, it's better to make it clear." ”

"I said it, I'll talk about it tomorrow. Lin Jing said in a deep voice.

I was very persistent, and I said, "No, right now, just now." ”

Tang Yan. Lin Jing shouted coldly.

I looked at him, his eyes looked at me with a hint of coldness, if it was in the past, I would be very afraid, but now, I don't have a trace of timidity, I look directly at him.

I smiled faintly, inevitably trembling in my heart, and I asked softly, "Lin Jingshen, you really disappointed me." ”

I said to myself: "You followed the gimmick of the whirlwind project, obviously because you want me to disclose my identity with Yueyue, so that everyone knows that we exist, maybe in the eyes of others is very happy, or maybe I think I am very blessed to be able to marry you Lin Jingshen as a wife." ”

Speaking of this, I smiled coldly, and I continued: "Even when I didn't hear those words, I thought so, but the truth is often unsatisfactory, when you said those words to Jian Ran, did you think about me?

"Lin Jingshen, you use Yueyue to stimulate your ex-girlfriend, are you worthy of Yueyue? Do you still have this daughter in your eyes?"

"You don't deserve to be a good father at all!"

"I'm so disappointed in you. ”

At this moment, I couldn't tolerate the mess of the past, I could pretend not to know, but when he confessed it himself, I couldn't bear it anymore.

He can use me, but he can't use Yueyue.

Yueyue is our daughter, and her blood is in her veins.

He couldn't do that.

Neither can it be.

My questioning made Lin Jingshen silent, he remained silent and did not speak, his eyes staring at me.

Seeing that he didn't speak, I continued: "Lin Jingshen, in fact, you haven't forgotten Jian Ran in your heart, right? Otherwise, how could you let me and Yueyue stand by your side publicly at this time, you did this to make her jealous and make her regret it, right?"

"It's just a misunderstanding, it's not like that. He finally spoke, his voice a little deeper, but it made me hear a lie.

I smiled: "Misunderstanding, then tell me, what is the truth?" I shouted softly, "You have admitted it yourself, you just want to make her regret it, regret that she left you in the first place." ”

"Lin Jingshen, you hate her very much in your heart, you hate her for leaving you, so you deliberately designed this to stimulate her. ”

"But you have never considered my feelings, maybe in your eyes, I can't compare with Jian Ran at all, maybe, you still love her in your heart, but what to do? She doesn't love you at all. ”

"Lin Jingshen, do you think you are very smart in doing this? Do you think her appearance is just accidental? Don't be too naΓ―ve, she is just trying to use you, you let him lose his child, she wants to take revenge on you. ”

"Shut up. My words reminded Lin Jingshen of the past, and he shouted loudly that I was not allowed to continue.

But I didn't, and I continued, "What?

"You took me to her birthday party, the purpose is to let me change her, right? Otherwise, how could you order a dress in advance and make me the focus of the audience? Lin Jingshen, your mind is so meticulous, even I was deceived by you, I never thought that you, the pillow person day and night, my daughter's father would be so ruthless to me for his ex-girlfriend. ”

It wasn't until I heard what he said to Jian Ran tonight that I fully understood.

But I didn't expect my heart to ache so much, as if it had been hollowed out by something, and I could hear the sound of it shattering clearly.

I pursed my lips, tears rolling in my eyes, I couldn't help it fall, I looked at this heartless man.

It's not that he doesn't have feelings, it's just that feelings don't give me feelings.

At this time, the sentence that you can never wake up a person who pretends to be asleep, and you can't move a person who doesn't love you is no longer suitable for my mood at the moment.

I sneered, clasped my hands tightly, and continued: "You have never mentioned your affairs to me, but you know everything about me, in front of me, you are like a mystery, people can't see through and guess, Lin Jingshen, in your eyes, what am I?"

"In your heart, you remember the memories you once walked through together, you have never forgotten her, why do you still want to marry me?

"No, don't think too much. Lin Jingshen lit a cigarette and said softly.

Looking at the curling smoke, I sneered: "Do you want to think more? Lin Jingshen, it's all now, do you still want to escape denial?"

"Lin Jingshen, you obviously hate her, why do you pretend not to know her?"

"Oh, I know, because she abandoned you in the first place, she didn't want you anymore, because she thought you were an illegitimate child and didn't deserve her at all, so you hated her, and the hatred you had for her in your heart can't be described in words, so you came up with the idea of using Yueyue to use me to stimulate her, and wanted her to apologize to you and confess her regrets to you, right?

"That's enough, shut up!" he exclaimed coldly, "That's all that, you can go."

"Let's go? I'm your Lin Jingshen's wife, this is your place, so it also belongs to me, what's the matter? Let me go when you're done? Lin Jingshen, you're too ruthless and unrighteous. "The more I talked, the more excited I became, and the whole person seemed to have changed, and the depression in my heart was like a faucet that opened the floodgates.

I continued: "Lin Jingshen, admit it! When you know that she is married to someone else, you must be very disappointed in your heart, right? Especially when you learn that her husband has a legitimate identity, you must be very inferior and angry? So you have to take revenge on her, and you have to make her regret what she did in the first place!"

"Lin Jingshen, no matter how smart you are, you are still deceived and fooled by her. ”

"Shut up! Get me out immediately!" My words made Lin Jingshen explode, his kind of scourge handsome, cold as ice, and there was a hint of fear in his eyes.

Seeing him like this, I couldn't help but smile, I don't know what's wrong with me, I don't know where the momentum came from, it was like a barrible with him, I sneered: "I'm annoyed and embarrassed by what I said? Why? I don't want to hear these words? You don't want me to continue, but I want to say it." ”

"When I was hospitalized with heat stroke, I heard everything you said, but you still hid me like a fool, in order to give Yueyue a complete home, in order to persuade yourself to turn a blind eye, do you know how I came over to face you day and night? Do you know what kind of suffering and contradictions I have gone through?"

"Lin Jingshen, you don't know at all, you only care about the hatred of Jian Ran in your heart. ”

"Let me guess, what the hell did she do to you, that could make you hate you so much?"

"Tang Yan shut up, get out!" Lin Jingshen interrupted me again, he said slightly angrily: "Get out!"

"Lin Jingshen, you can only bully me, but you just rely on me to love you! If I don't love you anymore, what qualifications do you have to bully me?"

"Get out, get me out at once, right now!"

"You don't dare to do this to Jian Ran, because you are afraid of her ....."

"Get out!" he roared, a face full of anger staring at me, and he yelled coldly, "Get out!"

I looked at him coldly, opened my mouth and wanted to say something, but he suddenly raised his hand as if he was going to do something to me!

Seeing such a move, I was stunned for a moment.

We looked at each other, and I laughed coldly, and I said, "What? You still want to beat me? Lin Jingshen, since you want to fight, then you should fight me, and why should you stop?"

"Lin Jingshen, you fight, you fight!"

As I spoke, tears flowed out of my eyes, and the warm water made my heart colder and colder the older I got.

I was numb all over, and his chilling demeanor and cold gaze pierced a deep mark on the tip of my heart!

A mark that can never be erased!

After I finished speaking, I looked at him motionlessly, and he also looked at me, his hands stiffened in mid-air, but this scene made me unbelievable!

I stood like this, and after a long time, I came back to my senses, I looked at him, opened my mouth, and said something that I didn't even hear clearly, and the words landed, and I turned and left.

Coming out of the room, the evening breeze outside was blowing on my face, and it was only autumn, but I felt like a cold winter. I walked until I reached Ms. He's room, where the lights had been turned off, and I stopped and stood at the door for a while for fear of disturbing Yueyue.

Whenever this happens, I feel like a homeless orphan, and I am.

I took a deep breath and walked to my room.

.....

The next day, I came together and went to Ms. He's room, but the room was empty, so I hurriedly called, but the response was a mechanical female voice, which had been turned off.

I hurriedly walked towards the hall of the villa, and when the servant in the villa saw me, he greeted me and whispered to me: "Madam, Mr. and the old lady have left to go back to Yucheng, and Mr. asked me to tell you that you can go back to the villa directly, or go back to the apartment, Mr. said, let you choose." ”

"That's what he said?" I felt like I had misheard.

Lin Jingshen's meaning, I couldn't understand it better, he wanted to tell me that if I want to go back to the villa, then I can continue to see Yueyue, and if I want to go back to the apartment, then Yueyue will naturally not be with me.

Did he really want to be so ruthless?