When my mother woke up in the afternoon, I stayed with her in the room, and she lay on the bed without talking or responding, just staring at the light above her head with her eyes open, and I didn't know what I could see in the dazzling light.

I put the glass of water to her lips and said, "Drink some and moisten your lungs." ”

My mom said, "What else to drink, no matter how much you drink, it's a dead end." ”

I didn't expect her to be so pessimistic, I said, "It's just the beginning, that is to say, it's not that there is no chance of survival, don't scare yourself." ”

My mom said, "Yes, it's just the early stages, but a few people who got cancer survived." ”

I said helplessly, "The doctors said that they would be fine after the operation, why do you have to drill the horns?"

My mother's eyes finally blinked twice, and she said, "I dreamed of Lin Haixin just now." ”

My hand clenched the cup.

My mother's tone seemed to sigh: "It's been many years, I haven't dreamed of him for many years, in the dream, you don't know how young he is, I stand in front of him and look old like his mother, I keep asking him repeatedly if he knows me, but he doesn't speak, just looks at me with a cold face, just when I want to give up and leave." ”

My mother suddenly stretched out her hand and grabbed her neck, and said to me with some emotion: "He grabbed me from behind, so that I couldn't breathe at all, I couldn't see his face, I only felt that the hands he held my neck were the same temperature as when he died." My mother said with fear in her eyes: "Lailai, you don't know how terrifying, that feeling is like you are really going to die in his hands, I desperately struggled and called for help It seems to be useless, no one pays attention to me, I was so helpless at that time, so scared, I begged him desperately, but his hand around my neck is still getting tighter and tighter." ”

My mother seemed to be still in that fear, and her face suddenly became extremely hideous.

I was afraid that she would be emotional and affect her body, so I shook her body vigorously and said, "Mom, it's just a dream when you wake up, and now it's the real world, and he can't pinch you." ”

My mother grabbed my hand and cried and said, "Lailai, I think I may not be able to escape this level, Lin Haixin will not let me go, I killed him, he must have come to me for revenge this time, otherwise I am in such good health? Why did I suddenly get such a terminal illness? Lailai, my mother will definitely die!"

I grabbed her hand and said, "It's impossible, Mom, wake up! It's just a natural physical disease, don't think about it anymore, the doctor said it's the early stage, there is help, after you have surgery, you can live a normal life as before, don't scare yourself." ”

"What are you going to do if I don't wake up on the operating table?" said my mom, who suddenly became quiet, asked me.

I didn't keep up with her thinking for a while, and I couldn't even answer.

My mother said with tears on her face: "Lailai, it doesn't matter if my mother dies, but what should you do, you kid is too lacking in heart, when you encounter feelings, it's like having no soul, after I die, you will definitely get mixed with Lin Rongshen, and at that time you will definitely suffer a lot of crimes, I can't help you anymore, the person I am most worried about is you, do you know." ”

I took my mother in my arms, and said in a choked voice: "I know, I know, Mom, don't worry, you'll be fine, you really believe me, now don't think nonsense?"

After my mother was hugged by me, she no longer struggled, just leaned on my shoulder and cried, she cried for so long that I didn't know what words I could use to comfort her and make her not panic so much.

I don't know what her mood is at this time, after all, I'm not her, and naturally I can't really understand how she feels now, but I understand that people who are entangled in cancer are actually desperate for most of their hearts, and this is not at all what other people's two or three words of comfort can make her relax, and now she must be very scared and scared, and it is very difficult.

When she got to the back, she was so tired from crying that she didn't even have any strength anymore, so she lay on the bed and closed her eyes to rest.

She kept her hand on mine, as if she was afraid that if she wasn't careful, I would slip away.

I sat on the edge of the hospital bed and looked at the gray hair mixed between her hair and the wrinkles at the end of her eyes, and I felt an indescribable discomfort and sadness in my heart.

In the end, no matter how strong she is in her heart, she will still be instinctively afraid when facing death.

When my mother fell asleep completely, I was pregnant myself, so I couldn't sit still for a long time, so I took her hand away from my hand and left the ward lightly.

After returning to the room, Lin Rongshen was still sitting on the sofa reading the information, about preparing for my mother's surgery, I stood at the door and looked at his side face seriously looking at the information, and suddenly felt warm in my heart, I asked in a whisper: "Don't you go to the hotel to rest?"

Lin Rongshen heard my voice, he raised his face to look at me, and he said, "Well, I'm almost leaving." ”

He held out his hand to me and said, "Come here, let me give me a hug." ”

I saw that he was so tired for my mother's affairs during this time, and I didn't shirk him as usual, but walked towards him very cooperatively, Lin Rongshen put down the information in his hand, and hugged me on his lap, buried his head in my chest, and said in a slightly dull voice: "How is your mother's mood now." ”

I also put all the weight of my body on him, rested my face on his shoulder, and played with my collar with my hand a little bored, and said: "The mood is not very good, I cried just now, and I coaxed him for a long time before falling asleep." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "It's normal to be afraid. ”

I said, "Rong Shen, do you hate my mother?"

After I blurted out these words, Lin Rongshen hugged my hand tightly for two or three seconds, and then returned to his previous strength, but his tone was very ordinary and asked, "Why do you ask like this." ”

I leaned on his shoulder, and my fingers were a little dishonest to smooth the folds on his collar and said, "I've been thinking about why you are willing to help my mother with the knife, after all, our family ......"

I didn't say the rest of the words, because those words still can't be taken out too casually for us.

Lin Rongshen raised his face from my chest, he held my face with his hand, and said: "For me, there is no personal vendetta now, only dying patients, this is my job, so don't worry, I won't insert your mother on the operating table." ”

Hearing his words, I immediately knew what he had misunderstood, and I quickly explained: "Rong Shen, I didn't mean that, I just thought it was strange that you should hate my mother very much, why are you willing to save him in this place, don't get me wrong, I didn't mean that." ”

Lin Rongshen smiled and said, "What do you mean, what do you mean?"

I said, "It's not like you're going to take revenge on my mom with this surgery." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "If your mother knew that the person who took charge of the knife this time was me, she would definitely think about this matter like you." ”

I felt that Lin Rongshen still misunderstood, so I said a little anxiously: "I didn't, I really didn't mean it, I didn't think of it at all, I'm just afraid that you misunderstood my words." ”

Lin Rongshen picked me up with an expression that was about to cry, the smile on the corner of his mouth gradually expanded, and he patted my head with his hand and said, "Okay, fool, tease you." ”

I felt like a roller coaster ride because of his words, and I complained a little and said, "Why do you keep talking nonsense, I obviously didn't mean that." ”

Lin Rongshen stroked my face, held me in his arms, studied my face carefully, and said in a gentle voice: "Even if there is, it is human nature, if I were you, I would probably think the same way, there is nothing to explain." ”

I said, "But I know you're not that kind of person at all." ”

"Huh?" Lin Rongshen raised his eyebrows and looked at me.

I said: "My mother did have such doubts in her heart, that's why as soon as I got close to you, she was very alarmed, if you really want to use this operation to make my mother never wake up, I won't work hard for my mother's condition like now, I know, this operation is very risky, even you who usually don't do anything to prepare, have become extremely serious, this is also related to your future, so I have never doubted you like this, I know what kind of person you are." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "What if the final result is that your mother really didn't wake up?"

I never thought about this question, Lin Rongshen saw that I was silent, and he always waited for me to answer with a smile on his face.

I thought for a moment and said, "If that's the case, all I can say is that we deserve it, and we should give you everything back." ”

As soon as I finished saying this, Lin Rongshen suddenly put me down on the sofa, he kissed me on the forehead and said, "Tell me, what kind of person I am in your mind." ”

The faces of the two of us were very close, his gaze was very gentle and gentle, like a pool of spring water, and he waited quietly for my answer.

I waited for a long time under his gaze before I said, "A very powerful man, a very powerful doctor, and a man I like very much." ”

When Lin Rongshen heard my answer, he nodded and said, "Sounds like it's not bad." ”

I noticed that his face was getting closer and closer to me, and the warm breath sprayed on my face made me feel itchy, and I thought he was going to kiss me, so I pouted his face and said a little shyly, "What are you doing?" ”

Lin Rongshen gave me another kiss on the tip of my nose, and he said in a muffled voice, "Well, what do you say?" ”

I blushed and said, "Didn't you say no, and then ......."

His lips reached my earlobe, and his voice changed slightly, pretending not to understand, and asked, "What." ”

I felt that the itching in my ears was almost fatal, and I closed my eyes and simply played Rippy and said, "I don't know, I don't know anything." ”

Lin Rongshen chuckled and said, "Really, your current body is obviously very excited. ”

I immediately opened my eyes, my face was flushed and I denied: "Nonsense, I don't have it, you let go of me!"

Lin Rongshen asked in a frivolous tone, "How to put it?"

I stretched out my hand to push him away, but after Lin Rongshen held my hand, his kiss fell softly, and I immediately didn't dare to move, and my body lay straight on the sofa.

Lin Rongshen kissed me little by little, and after kissing the back, most of my clothes were removed by him, and I realized that something seemed to be a little wrong, and I just wanted to remind him that I couldn't continue, but when the words came to my mouth, I swallowed it, and I thought in my heart that it should be fine, just once in a while, it should be fine.

I thought like this, so I didn't care so much, and seriously cooperated with Lin Rongshen, who was a little confused, but when it came to the last step, Lin Rongshen, who was a little impulsive, still held back, he stopped all his movements, and there was no reaction when he pressed on me.

I gasped slightly, blindfolded to look at him, he hugged me a few times in his arms, put his face to my ear and said in a hoarse voice, "No." ”

I said, "Are you going to feel bad?"

He said, "Well, of course. ”

I didn't want him to be too uncomfortable, so I whispered, "Should I ...... Is it okay once?"

Lin Rongshen said: "Well, it still doesn't work. ”

I could only sigh.

Lin Rongshen heard the loss in my voice, and he asked, "You want it?"

I immediately denied it, saying, "No, I'm pregnant with a child, and I don't have any need for this." ”

Lin Rongshen was amused by my words, and he said, "Well, you really don't need it, who is the person who kept pestering me just now and wants the next step?"

I didn't expect him to hit a rake upside down, and he wanted to refute something.

Lin Rongshen suddenly kissed the lips again, blocked the words in my mouth, and after the kiss was out of breath again, he let go of me and changed me to lie down, and pulled a blanket on the sofa with his hand casually, hugged the two of us and said, "Sleep, get up early tomorrow." ”

I said, "Aren't you going to the hotel to rest?"

Lin Rongshen said: "Hmm. ”

To tell the truth, I'm really a little scared to live here alone, I always feel panicked, I was a little happy to hear him say that he was going to stay tonight, so I shrunk into his arms, lay on his chest and closed my eyes and said, "Rong Shen, do you love me?"

He didn't answer me, but touched my head with his hand.

I didn't bother to find out, I just fell asleep with peace of mind.

It turns out that with him, I can still be as happy as before, this feeling is as if I have not withered, as if I am still a young Charlele.

Who you're with in love and marriage really matters.

When I lived with Zhan Dong, I always felt that the future was frightening, and sometimes I felt that the future was far away, but in the past few days when he was together, no matter how much trouble I encountered, and how difficult it was, I thought in my heart, it was good to be with him, and I didn't have to be afraid of him anymore, with him in the future, I would never be afraid of getting lost.

I thought that Lin Rongshen would just hold me and lie on the sofa all night, but who knows, when I opened my eyes the next day, I was lying comfortably on the bed, and I was cleaning up the house.

The sunlight pouring in from the window was brilliant.

After I sat up from the bed, the special nurse who was wiping the glass smiled and said, "Miss Xia, did you sleep well last night?"