Xiao Qi died, the waves were too fierce, and when everyone went down to the sea to salvage Xiao Qi, his body had already been churned by the waves and didn't know where it went.

The police searched for four days and four nights, until the fifth night, when Yu Manting sat next to me and cried and told me that I wanted to accept the facts.

How do I accept the truth, how do I accept this sudden everything, that night four days ago, it was a dream for me, I felt like I was trapped in this dream and couldn't get out.

Yu Manting saw that I hadn't reacted at all since I came back, she couldn't control her emotions anymore, and covered her lips and cried.

She was right next to me, crying so sadly, but I just felt very noisy.

I just want to rest now, I just want to be quiet.

I got up from my chair and walked forward sleepwalking.

Yu Manting followed behind me, and saw that the direction I was walking was the position of the window, she thought I was going to commit suicide, and when she rushed over and closed the window, she cried and said: "Xiaofan, the child will still have it, don't do this!"

But as soon as she finished saying this, I just lay quietly on my bed, I pulled the quilt on the side, wrapped my body, and I said to her in a calm tone: "Turn off the light for me when you leave, it's too bright, shaking your eyes." ”

She stood there, looking at me in a daze, I didn't expect me to be so calm and unresponsive, and then I Xiao Ruoyun walked in, and when she saw me lying on the bed, she rushed up and hugged me in her arms and cried and said: "Xiaofan, don't be like this, don't scare your mother, you talk to your mother, you haven't eaten for four days, how can you do it like this, your body will collapse"

I didn't react, I just felt bored, I was fed up with all this, it was too noisy here, and this person lying on top of me.

I frowned and said a little tiredly, "I need to rest." ”

Xiao Ruoyun was still lying on top of me, she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, "Xiaofan, you have been sleeping for four days, you can't sleep anymore." You need to eat, do you know it. ”

I saw myself through her pupils, her hair was messy, her face was full of dried tears, and her clothes were from four days ago.

I thought, this woman is so ugly, how can she be ugly like this, but I don't have much mood to struggle, I don't even want to move, I just said tiredly: "I'm not hungry, you let me sleep for a while." ”

Xiao Ruoyun cried and shook me and said, "I can't sleep anymore, you need to eat." Xiao Fan, don't scare me, wake up, let's eat first, okay. ”

I frowned tightly, my eyes closed tightly, I refused to do what she said, I was tired now, I just wanted to rest, only by resting, I felt comfortable.

Xiao Ruoyun didn't react at all when she saw Yo lying there, she asked for help to Yu Manting, who was standing on the side covering her lips and crying: "Manting! Come over and persuade Xiao Fan! We can't let her do this!"

Listening to Xiao Ruoyun's voice, I only feel that being a mother is really pitiful. She is anxious when the child does not eat, she is anxious when the child is sick, and she is anxious when the child is unhappy.

But my child died, but I didn't feel sad at all, isn't it hateful for people like me, but why did I become a mother?

Thinking of this, I felt more painful and more tearful, Xiao Ruoyun's crying was getting farther and farther away from me, I thought, I should have fallen asleep again.

The voices of Yu Manting and Xiao Ruoyun talking. It all became as if someone had been separated by a membrane, vague and vague, and it made people hear it too clearly.

In my dream, there was still the sound of the waves churning, but my heart was inexplicably quiet, there was no struggle, no heart-rending crying, no panic of the police.

When I opened my eyes again in a daze, Yi Jin's face appeared above me, and I looked at him for a while, but I only felt that he was also a little haggard.

I struggled to get up from the quilt, looked at him and asked, "What's wrong with you? Don't you have to go to work today?" I saw that he didn't have any energy at all, so I stretched out my hand to cover his face and asked, "Is there something unhappy?

Yi Jin looked at me for a long time, he stretched out his hand to cover my hand on his face, his voice was so soft as if he was afraid of waking me up, and asked in a low voice, "Have you eaten?"

I shook my head and said, "I'm not hungry." I thought about it and asked, "Did Xiaoqi find it?"

In Yi Jin's dark eyes, there was an abyss that could not be seen, and it took almost a minute for him to say in a hoarse voice: Still looking. ”

I said calmly, "Oh, I'm sure I'll be able to find it, so many people, it's going to be fine, don't worry too much." ”

I saw that no one in the room thought that he must not have eaten yet, and that he had been so busy these days, so I got up from the bed and said, "I'm going to cook for you, I'm too lazy these days to move anything." ”

But before my legs landed, and before I could stand firm in my shoes, Yi Jin behind me suddenly snapped me into his arms, and I didn't dare to move in an instant.

I only felt his chin on my shoulder, which made me feel a little pain, and I didn't struggle, and whispered to him, "What's wrong?"

Yi Jin clasped me and didn't speak, I felt the strength he put on his waist reach a peak, he slowly relaxed, and he said in my ear, "Do you know if you want to eat?"

Hearing his words, I immediately smiled and said: "I have eaten, I have always eaten, and in the morning Mother Chen cooked me white fungus lotus seeds, and I ate a lot." ”

Mother Chen didn't know when she stood behind us silently, she frowned tightly and shook her head at Yi Jin.

Yi Jin didn't debunk my nonsense, he just followed my words and asked, "How much did you eat." ”

I said, "It's a lot, a big bowl, and I still have a bowl for Xiaoqi to come back and eat." ”

Yi Jin sighed, and he said, "Xiao Qi must be very happy. ”

Me: "Hmm. "Yes.

He let me go after holding me for a long time, and when I got out of his arms, I sleepwalked out of the room to find the kitchen.

Yi Jin's whole body sat down behind the ground. He looked at me wandering around the room as if he had been drained of his soul, his face hanging between his arms, the light outside the window shining on him, and the indescribable sadness that could not be described in words.

The whole room, even the air is cool.

Almost half a month later, Xiao Qi's body was still not found, and the result given by the police was that Xiao Qi was confirmed to be dead, because the sea area was boundless, and there were many sharks in it, a child in a coma, even if it was not eaten by large sea creatures. A big wave hit, it was enough to kill him, even if the big wave didn't let him do anything, no one could save him in a short time, he would suffocate to death.

And the police have been looking for him for so long, and even miracles in that sea area are impossible, so the police believe that if the child can't recover the body, then there is only one possibility, which is swallowed by large sea creatures.

And Xiaoqi's case is a kidnapping case, and the murderer was found to be Zhao Xiaowen, and there were no suspects in the second or third place.

The case was closed the day after the cause of Xiaoqi's death came out.

My baby is gone.

Yu Manting and Xiao Ruoyun are afraid that I won't be able to bear the news. Although Yi Jin's indictment has been withdrawn, it is not good to live here in Yi Jin, so he came to Yi Jin to pick me up in the afternoon.

I still like to walk around the room and look for what I want, but I can't find what I want, no matter how much I look for it.

The servants here in Yi Jin all said that I was crazy, but I didn't know what madness was, I just felt that I was very calm, and I had to find the hidden thing.

When Xiao Ruoyun and Yu Manting were brought to my room by the servants, I was still walking around the room, and Yi Jin kept leaning on the side of the bed and looking at me.

How long have I been here. He just watched there for as long as he wanted.

Because the room was too quiet, Xiao Ruoyun and Yu Manting didn't dare to make a sound, and the servant quietly retreated.

I knew they were coming, but I didn't look at them, I felt tired of walking, so I went back to Yi Jin and leaned on him, just like when I was a child, Yi Jin was reading a book in the room, I leaned on him and looked at the white clouds outside the window, floating, I felt that the sky was so blue at that time.

But now the sky is still dark clouds except dark clouds.

The two of us have been in this way these days, and we are alone without saying anything.

Yi Jin was also terribly silent, and he didn't seem to want to speak much.

They waited for a long time, Xiao Ruoyun couldn't wait any longer, and wanted to come up, but was stopped by Yu Manting and motioned for her to wait a little longer to speak.

Xiao Ruoyun was a little anxious, but there was nothing to be done.

The servant on the side thought about it, and finally walked up and arrived in front of Yi Jin, the room was too quiet, she was afraid of scaring me who was leaning on Yi Jin, so her voice was as soft as possible to a volume that could hardly be heard. Carefully reminded: "Sir, Miss Yu and Mrs. Yu said that they have something to look for you. ”

As soon as the servant's words fell, my head thrust deeper into Yi Jin's arms, and he sensed my uneasiness, stroked my hair with his hand, and the room fell into stillness again.

The servant didn't wait for Yi Jin's response, he could only turn around and walk to Yu Manting's side again, and said in a low and embarrassed voice: "Miss Yu, Mrs. Yu, why don't you wait any longer? ”

Xiao Ruoyun said anxiously: "I just took my daughter home, nothing else." She thought for a moment and added, "I'll tell you gentlemen personally." ”

Xiao Ruoyun broke free of Yu Manting, and immediately walked towards us, after she arrived in front of Yi Jin, she said: "Mr. Yi, our Yu family is very grateful to you for taking care of our family Xiaofan for so many years, this incident happened, no one wants to, but since the matter has become a fact, we can only accept it, and I came today, and I came here to pick up Xiaofan back, I hope you can understand my feelings as a mother, please please return my daughter to me."

When Xiao Ruoyun said this, her voice couldn't be controlled anymore, she was all choked, she begged Yi Jin, and kept bowing and saying, "I beg you, okay, give me back Xiao Fan, okay." ”

Xiao Ruoyun's behavior still made me and Yi Jin have no reaction, she simply knelt directly in front of us and cried: "I know that my current request is very excessive! I shouldn't have abandoned Xiao Fan at the beginning, but now I am willing to do whatever you ask me to do, even if it is to take my old life, but I beg you, you can return her to me, she can't bear anything now!"

Xiao Ruoyun knocked her head very loudly, her forehead was bruised and purple, Yu Manting came up and wanted to drag her to death, but she didn't care about it, the originally quiet room became noisy again, I felt that my head hurt even more, and I couldn't hear a little noise these days.

My head drilled deeper into Yi Jin's arms, he covered my ears with both hands, lowered his head and kissed me lightly on the top of my head, feeling that his restless emotions gradually stabilized a little, he looked at Xiao Ruoyun who was kneeling there and said lightly: "I have never argued with you about her, since you want to pick her up, you should not ask my opinion, but ask her if she wants to go back with you." ”

Xiao Ruoyun was stunned for a few seconds, she didn't expect Yi Jin to say this, she was a little uncertain and asked, "Is what you said true?"

Yi Jin ignored her, but lifted my face out of his arms, I wanted to bury it again, he controlled my face, raised it again and looked at me and asked, "Fan Fan, are you willing to go with them?"

I looked at him blankly, there was no emotion in his eyes, and asking me this was like a procedure.

Again, he said, "Huh?"

At this time, all eyes were on me, and I was silent for a long time. For almost three minutes, Xiao Ruoyun suddenly clasped my hand and said, "Xiaofan, if you go home with your mother, you should treat it as your mother begging you."

My stiff neck moved twice, Xiao Ruoyun's face was full of tears, her eyes already had eye diseases, and when she cried like this, her yellow eyes were even more cloudy.

Yu Manting also walked up at this time and said: "Xiao Fan, my mother is almost sixty years old, she was indeed at fault before, but how to say that you were always pregnant by her in October, when you were three months old." The doctor said that you may have dysplasia in your right ear, but she still didn't give up on you, and still gave birth to you without hesitation, if she wasn't really desperate, she wouldn't have abandoned you, Xiao Fan, just take it as if I begged you, Xiao Fan, you are at her age, forgive her, okay?"

Xiao Ruoyun knelt and buried herself in me, crying so much that she almost collapsed.

But I sat there indifferent.

Yi Jin asked me again, and he said, "Xiao Fan, just nod your head, don't you just shake your head?"

I nodded.

Yi Jin's hand on my face slowly fell, and after Xiao Ruoyun saw my answer, he also collapsed on me, as if he was exhausted.

Yi Jin didn't speak again, and he let go of me.

Between me and Yi Jin, there will be no result in this life, even if I don't go, so what, the distance between us is like a galaxy, this river is loaded with too many factors, even if there is no blood relationship between us, but I have never been able to change the fact that we are mixed with family affection.

This society can't tolerate us at all, until now, everyone is tired, his hurt to me, can not be filled with no amount of love, we are originally two people who are bound to each other, only let go of each other.

When Xiao Ruoyun helped me up from Yi Jin's arms, Yi Jin suddenly said, "Wait." ”

Xiao Ruoyun's hand paused, thinking that Yi Jin had repented, and made a move, looking at him with nervous eyes.

Yi Jin also stood up with us, his eyes just looked at me and said, "Xiao Fan, I'm sorry." ”

I didn't know what he meant by this sorry, but he didn't say anything more, reached out and patted my head, smiled helplessly, and said, "Let's go, I'll go to see you often." ”

I nodded and said, "Okay,"

Yi Jin's hand slipped from my head, and then the smile on his face became deeper and deeper, but his eyes were obviously a melancholy and lonely sea.

After that, Xiao Ruoyun and Yu Manting helped me out of Yi Jin's place, and when I arrived downstairs and was about to get into the car, I raised my face at that moment, Yi Jin was standing upstairs at the floor-to-ceiling window looking at me, there was a long distance between us, but I could still see clearly that he was smiling at me.

Yu Manting saw me standing there, looking up at the sky in a daze, and also looked up with me, but the moment she looked at it, Yi Jin had disappeared from the floor-to-ceiling window, she thought I was mentally abnormal again, and a trace of worry flashed in her eyes, but she didn't say anything, and urged me in a low voice: "Let's get in the car." ”

I nodded and bent into the car, Xiao Ruoyun and Yu Manting also bent over and followed me into the car.

Yu Manting and Xiao Ruoyun brought me into Yu's house again,

Yu Zhenghe probably knew that they would pick me up today, and they were waiting there for the first time, and when he saw me and Xiao Ruoyun walking in together, he put down the teacup in his hand and immediately got up, greeted us, and said with a very cordial smile: "Xiaofan, it's okay if people are fine, everything is over, you will live here well in the future, and your mother and your sister will also move here to live with you." ”

Xiao Ruoyun looked at Yu Zhenghe with gratitude, and said with tears in his eyes, "Zhenghe, thank you." ”

Xiao Ruoyun has not been able to live in Yu's house for so many years, because Yu Zhenghe is hindered by Du Fengqi's face, and now Yu Zhenghe doesn't even care about Du Fengqi's face, making an exception for the three of us to live here together, which is a great grace for Xiao Ruoyun.

Xiao Ruoyun's gratitude made the smile on Yu Zhenghe's face wider, and he looked like a good husband and a good father and said: "After so many years, I have wronged you, you were originally my wife, but there are too many factors in this, so you have been wronged outside for so many years, I should tell you sorry." ”

Xiao Ruoyun saw that Yu Zhenghe would say such a thing, and the tears in her eyes flashed even more and said: "Now Xiaofan has a ----" She just wanted to continue, Yu Manting shook her hand and signaled her not to talk about that topic, Xiao Ruoyun stopped the topic in time. The tears in his eyes were put away and he said, "Fortunately, Xiaofan is fine, I believe that life will be better in the future." ”

Yu Zhenghe seemed to agree with these words, but there was always a deep worry hidden between his eyebrows, he seemed to be worried about something, and after a long time, he tried to ask: "How is Xiao Fan's condition now?"

Yu Manting said on the side: "I'm still in a trance, and she doesn't pay attention to talking to her, when I went to Yi's house to pick her up just now, I asked the servant over there about her situation in the past half a month, and the servant over there said that although she wasn't too excited in that half a month, she also seemed a little confused." ”

Yu Zhenghe asked with concern: "Didn't the Yi family ask her for a doctor?"

Yu Manting shook her head and said, "There is no one over there of the Yi family." Say it's only temporary. ”

Yu Zhenghe sighed and said, "This child" He sighed heavily and said, "I hope to be able to come out of it in the future, but I think it's better to find a doctor to come and have a look." ”

He said yes, so he quickly instructed the housekeeper on the side and said, "Qiao Ding, quickly call Dr. Wang, and ask him to come back quickly and show the young lady quickly." ”

After hearing Yu Zhenghe's order, the housekeeper immediately said yes, and quickly went to make a call.

After about 20 minutes, Dr. Wang couldn't come in time and opened my eyes to examine me.

Yu Zhenghe watched nervously from the side.

He saw that the doctor didn't speak for a long time, and he asked more anxiously than Xiao Ruoyun: "Doctor Wang, how is my daughter? Is she really sick?"

The doctor looked at it for a long time, took his hand off my eyelids, shook his head with a frown, and sighed: "It's hard to say, it's been like this for half a month, and it is estimated that it will be too good in the future." ”

After hearing this, Yu Zhenghe sighed deeply. Didn't speak.

Xiao Ruoyun was in a hurry, she rushed up, chased after the doctor and asked, "What do you mean that it won't be too good? Doctor, my daughter was normal before! She is only like this now because she is stimulated, can you treat him?"

The doctor said, "It's not that I won't treat her, I will definitely treat her, but I don't know when she will get better." ”

Xiao Ruoyun said: "It's okay! As long as you are willing to govern!"

Seeing that Xiao Ruoyun was so anxious, Du Zhenghe said on the side: "Alas, don't be so anxious, Dr. Wang is the best psychiatrist and will definitely cure Xiao Fan." ”

Xiao Ruoyun heard Yu Zhenghe say this, and subconsciously said several good words in a row.

After that, the doctor talked to me for a long time, and when he saw that I was just sitting there sluggishly, he didn't say anything more.

Yu Manting saw that I was a little tired, so she asked Zhenghe to take me into the house to rest, Yu Zhenghe naturally said yes immediately, and asked her to accompany me and enlighten me more.

Yu Manting nodded, and helped me to my room, and then Yu Zhenghe chatted with the doctor about my condition in detail.

Xiao Ruoyun saw that Yu Zhenghe attached so much importance to me, not to mention how happy and relieved she was. It seems that after so many years, I have finally come out, only I know what Yu Zhenghe is thinking.

He was better than anyone else wishing I was crazy, and there was one less person who knew what was going on that day.

And he was so considerate and didn't care about Du Fengqi's face, and let Xiao Ruoyun live in Yu's house, just to control me and see if I was really crazy or fake crazy.

He's a person, how can he allow everything to be overlooked.

After that, the servant took the medicine prescribed to me and walked in, she gave the medicine to Yu Manting and explained to her how to drink the medicine, Yu Manting took the medicine in her hand, looked at it a few times and did not speak, and as soon as the servant left, she put the medicine aside and did not let me take it, she seemed to vaguely guess something.

I was a little tired, and I fell asleep not long after lying in bed.

In the dream, I dreamed that I was holding a knife and cutting off Yu Zhenghe's head, and at that moment, I heard my other self let out a terrible laugh.

(Tianjin)