025. Repeat the cycle
He suddenly asked me so seriously, to be honest, I was really a little embarrassed, even if he was a doctor, but he asked me again and again, as a woman, I always feel embarrassed, right?
Before I swallowed a sip of water, I said impatiently, "You didn't come, are you bothered?"
Lin Rongshen didn't speak for a long time, his expression seemed to be pondering something, but I asked, "Why don't you speak?"
Lin Rongshen reacted, took the empty water cup away from my mouth, put it on the bedside table, and said to me, "It's okay." ”
I flipped my body a little and whispered, "Inexplicable." ”
Lin Rongshen didn't say anything, just sat on the edge of my hospital bed and didn't speak, the atmosphere suddenly became cold, I lay on the bed and felt his eyes fall on me all the time, inexplicably felt a little uncomfortable and embarrassed, so I opened my mouth and said, "I'm going to rest." ”
He was puzzled and said, "Aren't you lying on the bed?"
I turned in one direction and turned my body completely sideways at him, and said in a posture of seeing off a guest: "Go out and turn left, remember to bring me the door, thank you." ”
When he closed his eyes, he stopped talking, and he no longer cared about Lin Rongshen.
But there was no footsteps in the room from him, he still didn't seem to have any intention of leaving, his eyes still seemed to fall on me, I felt annoyed inexplicably, even the air was mixed with the word annoyance, so I tried to close my eyes and ignore his presence.
It's really too tired, and I fell asleep unconsciously in the process of forcing myself to close my eyes, and when I woke up in a daze, I was awakened by the warm touch on my face, and I just wanted to open my eyes, and suddenly realized something, and my heart shook suddenly, and when nothing happened, I continued to pretend to sleep quietly.
The hands on my face have a faint smell of disinfectant, this smell should be no stranger to me, how obsessed I used to be, now I feel a little incredible when I think about it.
But in the past, he had never acted with such pity, what happened to him......
Just when I was in a state of confusion and didn't know what to do, my voice suddenly came to my ears, his voice did not have the mean and calm of the day, nor did it usually mock me mercilessly, but became very soft and soft, even soft to the point of gentleness, I don't believe it was his voice.
He said: "It's been five years, and I've been wondering if you've really forgotten me in the past five years, or are you stubborn and deliberately saying those words to anger me."
I inexplicably felt that my mouth was dry and my heart was pounding, but his voice was still unbroken, and there was even a bit of self-mockery in his tone, he said: "But why do I always feel sad and want to be angry when I hear your words?" He chuckled and said: "You little villain, whether it was in the past or now, there is always a way to make me become a chicken and a dog, so that I can't control myself, what should I do with you, ignore it?"
He muttered to himself, "I can't seem to do it." ”
His words made my body shrink under the quilt break out in a cold sweat, and at that moment, I suddenly really hoped that this moment would be the end of the world, and the whole world would be destroyed, so that I would not be able to hear his words, and even if I did, I would never have the opportunity to throb again.
But many times, some things are so cruel, he will always be when you decide to give up, when you are about to give up, and use those things that you can't get before and want to get very much to lure you, you dodge very much, you restrain yourself, but in the end you still die unwillingly, re-hooked, after taking the bait, waiting for you is the other party's loud slap back to the prototype again, and the cycle repeats, so that you will always be in this strange circle of circulation, never able to climb out.
I couldn't control myself more and more, my body was already obviously trembling, and the owner of the hands also felt it, he felt the layers of cold sweat on my face, without any surprise, his eyes still fell on my face with closed eyebrows, and he said with a calm expression: "Lailai, how long are you going to pretend to be asleep." ”
I suddenly opened my eyes to look at him, and at this moment I realized that it was already very dark, and the room was pitch black, only the moonlight outside the window shone in, so that people could barely see the face of the person in front of them, so blurry, but it could make people see the emotions in the eyes of the other party.
I said, "What's the point of saying that?"
As soon as these words came out, tears flowed from my eyes, and my face was staggered, and my voice was hoarse, and I said, "Do you think I will still believe what you say?
My last words almost roared out because I was so excited that even the hospital bed was shaking slightly.
Lin Rongshen's eyes flickered with cold light, and he frowned and said, "Don't you like me now?"
I didn't even think about it and said, "Of course, I don't like you at all, and if I liked you, I would have jumped for joy for what you just said, right?" But now? You don't see it? I'm not happy, I'm very unhappy, because I don't like you anymore, so your belated words only make me feel funny." ”
I asked again: "Don't tell me, you suddenly find that you like me now, if so, then I can only send you a sentence that you deserve, it turns out that you also have this day, let you deeply understand how uncomfortable I felt at the beginning." ”