It was late at night when she returned to her residence after taking the photo, she felt very tired and tired, and she fell directly on the bed without even changing her clothes, Lulu was going to put water on it, she knew her habits, as long as she wasn't too busy at work, when time permitted, she liked to take a bath before going to bed, but seeing her lying motionless on the bed, Lulu couldn't bear to wake her up, hesitated, took a shower and went back to the room to sleep.

When I got up the next morning, I rubbed my sore neck, took a bath with water, and remembered the events of the previous day, and couldn't help but laugh sarcastically.

Since she unexpectedly met Cheng Shuo when she helped Bian Che make a music video, she suddenly didn't want to think about the reason why she had been persevering, and when she met him again, even if she couldn't help but remember some of the previous things, she didn't want to face the reason why she decided to leave her previous life in the first place.

She shook her head vigorously, amused by her behavior yesterday, after so many years, I'm afraid only she is still nostalgic for the past, even if she seems to have moved forward, but she knows that the idea buried in her heart, because of his sudden appearance, sprouted again.

Yan Zhuan Xin clenched his palms hard, don't you give up? Then try again, anyway, it has already been injured like this, what else is there to be afraid of!

After taking a shower, Aunt Fang had already made breakfast, and Lulu saw her go downstairs and said, "There is no notice and no class today, you can rest all day!"

He nodded, thought for a while, and said, "I'll go out for a while, and I won't come back for dinner at noon." ”

Lulu propped her chin with her hand, "Aunt Fang said to make chestnut cakes, you come back early, otherwise I will eat them all!"

He smiled, took the spoon handed by Aunt Fang and put it in the oatmeal, and said, "Okay, I won't rob you, you can eat more." ”

When she first became Yan Zhuanxin's assistant, Lulu used to follow her every step of the way, but later found out that she was really different from other artists, she usually didn't work or go out, and when she really had a private matter, she refused to ask someone to follow her, and even the bodyguards sent by Qiao Lin were returned by her. Lulu was really not at ease, she secretly followed her out twice, and found that she was just meeting with a friend, and after separating from her friend, she called her out directly, embarrassed, she quickly explained that she was not tracking, Yan Zhuan Xin was full of amusement, only said that she understood, but still hoped to have a personal space, and after getting along for a long time, when she said that she wanted to go out alone, Lulu didn't say anything more, after all, even Qiao Lin acquiesced, and her little assistant was not qualified to ask.

After breakfast, I went back to my room to make a phone call, and I didn't go out until almost noon, so I lowered my hat and took a taxi to a restaurant.

Not long after she sat down, Qu Fei arrived, the two of them ordered, the waiter left, Qu Fei took a sip of water and looked at her.

"I met him on the show. Yan Zhuan Xin said such a sentence without a head.

Qu Fei's expression was as usual, and he said: "When you decide to take this road, you should be prepared, one day you will meet again, you will meet on a narrow road, is it possible that you are afraid?"

"This is the path I chose, right or wrong, I don't regret it, anyway, I have nothing, how can I be afraid. ”

"That's good. ”

They often come to this restaurant, and the food is served very quickly, the two of them didn't say anything more, and began to eat, Qu Fei, who used to always talk non-stop, has been too quiet.

"Are you still teaching those kids?"

"Well, there are almost no classes in school this semester, I already had a concert last semester, and I can just hand in my thesis this semester. ”

He paused for a moment and said, "We can't imagine what we will become, I never knew that I would leave music one day, and I never imagined that you would have the patience to teach children." ”

Qu Fei raised his head and smiled shallowly, "Life is originally unknown, even I couldn't have imagined that I could have so much patience, and I didn't expect that you would persist in going so far and for so long." ”

She didn't speak, bowed her head to drink the soup, Qu Fei looked at the crowd coming and going outside the floor-to-ceiling window, "Zhuan, our best days have passed, and we will never come back." ”

Often I don't feel the good times at the time, and I don't stop to look back when the time is over, and I even wish I could go back to that time, even if it's just to tell myself at that time, please cherish every minute and every second of that time.

Compared with Qu Fei's incomparable nostalgia, she didn't dare to look back, her only happiness was consumed at that time, and now she has nothing left, only full of trauma.

The two of them didn't feel about the past anymore, just chatted casually about the things around them, as if they had never been hurt.

After eating, Qu Fei said that he would sit for a while, and then go directly to teach the students, but she wanted to accompany her but was refused, "No, you can go back quickly, Lulu is not here, in case there is something I can't deal with." ”

Hearing this, he felt a little sad, Qu Fei, who was once not afraid of heaven and earth, is now unrecognizable.

"Alright, you, call me if you have something. ”

Qu Feiwan smiled, "What, can't you make small talk if it's okay?"

Yan Zhuan Xin smiled when he heard this, "Accompany me at any time." ”

She put on her hat and scarf and left, Qu Fei looked at her departing figure, put away her smile, and felt a little sad in her heart, is it worth it?

Back then, she was the closest bystander, she couldn't imagine that he who loved her like life would leave her so decisively, if it wasn't for the change she had suffered, she really had to ask him clearly, but after that great change, she also understood that if a person wants to change his mind, nothing can stop him, and if a person wants to leave, nothing can stop him.

In the relationship, Qu Fei thinks that she is a loser, she is not qualified to enlighten others, let alone who she is responsible for, all she can do is to accompany Yan Zhuan Xin with each other, there is no need to say a lot of things, because it is useless to say it, everyone understands the truth, but there are a few people who can really do it.

Leaving the restaurant, she didn't go back right away, she went to the south square of the city, where the fountain was beautiful. On weekdays, it was afternoon again, and there was no one in the square, so she sat in a chair and watched the water splash in the sun.

When she was 17 years old, she left her hometown to go to college in T City, leaving her cold home, she subconsciously breathed a sigh of relief, but the unknown of the unfamiliar environment did not make her afraid.

Those worries ended the moment she dragged her luggage into the dormitory.

She is a person who doesn't like to talk and is more introverted, Qu Fei, who sleeps in the same bedroom opposite her bed, is just the opposite of her, she is lively and cheerful, except for a little quieter when practicing, it is really hard to believe that she is a girl who studies classical music at other times.

At first, everyone thought that these two people, even if they lived in the same dormitory, were the kind of people who were least likely to be friends, but the truth surprised everyone.

Qu Fei felt that this girl was really quiet when she saw her for the first time, so she took the initiative to talk to her and chat, and took her with her from receiving books to physical examinations, and she was not disgusted with Qu Fei's enthusiasm, after all, from childhood to adulthood, there are not many people who are willing to approach her like this. Her best and only friend, Ran Ning, grew up a lot quieter from the night of Ran Rong's illness, in fact, she was a person who didn't know how to refuse in her heart, and the two began their inseparable college life.

Qu Fei can't be idle all day long, she has to tell her everything, even if the two of them take all the public classes together, they will still talk non-stop, talk about their own things, talk about what they hear, and talk about all kinds of gossip, most of the time Qu Fei is just saying that she is listening.

Sometimes the person next to her asked her: "Qu Fei, you chatter so much every day and don't speak, aren't you bored?"

Every time she replied with a smile: "No, no, people like me who love to talk need people like me who are willing to listen to me." ”

Later, slowly, she even asked Qu Fei a "What happened later?" which stimulated her interest even more.

After a long time, she was also brought by Qu Fei with more words, and even smiled more, most of the time Qu Fei kept talking, she was smiling on the side, it was already a very beautiful picture.

After a long time, even if she didn't speak, Qu Fei could guess what she was thinking, so she appointed herself as the "spokesperson of Wei Zhuanxin".

Qu Fei is also the only person in the university who knows about her and Cheng Shuo, and is a witness to their relationship.

Because Qu Fei and Cheng Shuo were together, she really came out of her own world, and when she was 18 years old and became an adult, she felt that she finally had the joy and happiness that girls of this age should have.

Later, Qu Fei fell in love with the arrogant senior of the command department, and devoted himself to this relationship desperately, even at the expense of putting down his body and chasing after him. In that relationship, Qu Fei let go of her pride, restrained her temperament, accommodated and retreated everywhere, and her changes moved everyone around her in their eyes.

During that time, they had their own love, Cheng Shuo was far away in C City, and she still lived the same life as before most of the time, but because of love, she became much more cheerful. When Qu Fei followed her seniors, she could even eat and chat with the members of the band.

Qu Fei tried her best to restrain her outgoing personality because her seniors liked to be quiet, and she had a good foundation but was not good at practicing the piano, but she began to practice very seriously under the leadership of her seniors. After a long period of practice, even the skin of the left jaw bone of the piano was worn out, and the harvest was rapid progress, which made the professional teachers happy.

The senior is going to go to graduate school, Qu Fei also decided to take the graduate school entrance examination, and he has always been the proud disciple that Teacher Yue hopes for the most, so Qu Fei spurs himself even more to be admitted to graduate school, so that he can accompany the senior and Zhuan for another three years.

At that time, they had the best time of their youth.

At the time of the car accident, Qu Fei, who was staying in school, was reviewing with her seniors in the library, and after receiving a call from the hospital, she left in a hurry.

She went to all the porridge shops around to buy all kinds of porridge for Zhuan and called her mother to ask how she took care of the sick.

She massages her every day, worrying that she won't be able to move and will be uncomfortable.

She told jokes to Zhuan to make her happy, but she knew that Zhuan was waiting for another person.

She called the number over and over again outside the room, but she couldn't get through.

That day, when she found Zhuan in that old place, she hugged the unconscious Zhuan, and she finally cried, and she couldn't help it, she was so afraid that she would lose her soul like this.

During that time, she always stayed by her side, but she didn't know what to say, looking at her silent appearance, she really couldn't open her mouth.

Later, she sent Zhuan Zhuan on the train home, and stood alone on the platform for a long time, and it was no longer clear whether she was distressed or afraid, and she had a vague premonition that she couldn't tell.

Time passed quickly, and the people on the train looked out the window at the receding scenery in a daze, as if she had taken this train from T City back to her hometown not long ago, and now she had embarked on the flight back to T City.

In just three months, she lost the opportunity to compete and the qualification of Baoyan, Cheng Shuo left, Ran Rong passed away, and her hand has not fully recovered. During the lowest period of her life, the two people who had dragged her away from despair had left her one after another, maybe because she had been too painful, maybe because she had experienced too much and had been tempered into steel, but this time, she did not fall.

Back in T City, she didn't go back to school, but made one last attempt for her love, which turned out to be a failure.

There were only Qu Fei and her in the bedroom, and in the dark, she opened her eyes and said very calmly: "Xiaofei, I hope you can always be happy, what I lost, I hope you can have it." ”

After she sealed all the things that carried memories in the old house, she met Xiao Xia with nowhere to go, and with the persuasion and support of Ran Ning and Qu Fei, she packed her things and went to the crew of "Trajectory" with the heart of wanting to escape.

In the days when she was exiled, Qu Fei always helped her take care of all the things in the school, so that she could leave with peace of mind.

But not long after she left, no one, including her, thought that Qu Fei's love that almost caused a sensation in the entire department finally ended with the senior suddenly going abroad for further study.

The love that almost exhausted all her strength came to an abrupt end with the sudden departure of the senior, and Qu Fei, who had been lowering herself, unexpectedly did not want to redeem it after learning the news at the end.

is in her senior year, and she is the only one who is left with Qu Fei and Yan Zhuanxin, who are going to be admitted to graduate school. She never thought that she had prepared so many words to enlighten her but didn't use them, and it didn't take long for her to be able to return them directly to herself. The bruised Zhuan was filming "Trajectory" in the field, and Qu Fei, who stayed in the bedroom, grew up overnight and chose to face it alone.

No one knows what happened to her in the dorm room alone, except that when she reappeared in the library, it seemed to be the same as usual, the only difference was that she had cut off her newly grown hair.

It's God who is playing tricks on her, in the past, she always looked down on those weak girls who wanted to die for love, tore up the diary and cut her hair and went on a crying hunger strike, she was convinced that she would never be abandoned one day, because she Qu Fei fell in love with it, and she would not be a negative man!

It's just that she is too confident, so God made a big joke, she fell in love with a man who was completely different from what she imagined, and changed her silently, because he said "long hair is like a girl", she started to grow long hair without saying a word, embarrassed to say it in front of others, but more than once complained to Zhuan why her hair grew so slowly.

Her hair grew slowly, so slow that it didn't grow to the length that the senior liked, and he left.

When she returned to school from the crew of "Trajectory", the first thing she saw was Qu Fei's return to her former short hair, in fact, she always thought that Qu Fei still looked good with short hair, but people in love can't understand what they do.

"I didn't cut my hair for those bloody reasons, I just wanted to be my original self, the real Qu Fei. ”

After knowing what happened, she didn't know how to enlighten and comfort her, but the calm Qu Fei kept talking, "They must be exaggerating, in fact, it's nothing, it's just an old-fashioned story of giving up love for a career, oh, no, it's not even love, from beginning to end, he never said that he liked me, but it was just my wishful thinking."

From the very beginning, it was I who caught up with him, and I was not tired, but I always felt that one day, he would be a little nicer to me, even if it was just because I was moved, I had been lying to myself! It was only when he was about to leave that I realized that from beginning to end, in his future, there was no me, and even, he never loved me. You say, what else do I have to fight for?"

She held Qu Fei's hand, but she didn't know what to say, in love, she was not a loser.

Qu Fei squeezed out a trace of an ugly smile, "You don't have to say anything, those words that I once wanted to use to enlighten you and comfort you are useless to say to myself." I used to feel so sorry for you, and I tried hard to take you out of that shadow, but in fact, I really didn't feel the pain, but now," she paused, "I understand everything, I understand everything, I know what I should do, but I really hurt here, I don't even have the strength to cry because of the pain, I understand that only by experiencing it myself can I have a personal experience." ”

She hugged Qu Fei and was extremely sad, "Xiaofei, I'm sorry, I couldn't be by your side when you needed me." ”

Qu Fei let her hold her, "It's good that you're not by my side, forcing me to be strong alone in this way, after all, it's already a fact, your staying by my side will give me a reliance to indulge, and it will hurt your heart, what's the point, for him, everything about me as a person has no meaning." ”

It's just a few dozen days, from the time she left to the time she came back, Qu Fei seemed to have changed as a person, she never thought that such a lively and cheerful Qu Fei would become like this.

In the darkness, neither of them saw the tears left by the other.

As graduation approached, he stayed in school to prepare for the thesis defense and some formalities. After that night, the two of them decided not to mention the topic of love anymore, and everything seemed to be back to when they first entered school, going to the cafeteria to eat together every day, going to the library to check the materials needed for graduation thesis, walking on the playground, watching various free performances in the school, and cherishing this last campus time, while Qu Fei was enjoying the last days with her day and night.

On the eve of the graduation ceremony, Qu Fei said that she wanted to go hiking, and she agreed, and they went to the suburbs of T City. Qu Fei, who has never liked sports, climbed to the top of the mountain step by step, and when she also climbed to the top of the mountain, she only saw Qu Fei standing on the edge of the cliff, bending over and gasping for breath, she stood there and did not move forward, she knew that Qu Fei, who used to love to talk, laugh and make trouble, had completely left.

I don't know how long it took, Qu Fei finally straightened up, stood for a while, and then turned around and said, "Zhuan, shall we stay in the mountains for one night?"

He stepped forward to take her hand, deliberately not looking at her reddened eyes, "Okay, the air here is so good, I want to stay one more night." ”

They live in the mountains, at night when eating, the next farmhouse self-prepared karaoke is lively, the proprietress warmly greeted everyone can go to sing casually, I don't know where I got the courage, patted Qu Fei's shoulder and got up and walked over, asked: "Boss, I want to sing a song, can I?"

Originally, the proprietress was just for fun, and she was naturally happy to see someone come up to sing, "Yes, yes, but we can't compare to the KTV outside on the mountain, the equipment is not so good, and the song is not very new, girl, you can see if there is a song you want to sing." ”

She thanked her, looked at the screen, and there was really that song, she had never sung in public, she took a deep breath and sang seriously:

"It's okay for you to say it in a thick nasal voice, anyway, whether there is pain is the essence of love, traveling alone may be more interesting, and he can only start again after the real end, a few years of intimate days for two words to break up, but you are strictly only allowed to cry for a while, looking at the way you try to smile, my heart is so wet as the rain is coming, can we not be brave, when the injury is too sour to bear, even if women are very popular now relieved, it seems that any predicament knows what to do, can we not be brave, when love is too tired and dreams are too chaotic There is no answer, can't you cry frankly, it hurts to take away a person from the bottom of your heart。 ”

Qu Fei sat and watched her sing seriously, and finally burst into tears.

After graduating from college, Qu Fei began her graduate life, and unlike before, Qu Fei, who likes to talk about being able to make trouble, has transformed into a mature and stable Qu Fei. She didn't live in the school, but chose to share a house with strangers near the school, in addition to taking some students to class, often to her level of teachers are willing to take some older students, can not spend so much effort and earn more class fees, and she is willing to teach some beginner children.

She told Zhuan, "The life of children is really simple, they can be happy for a long time because of my praise, such a simple and peaceful life is what I yearn for, and I will be happier with them." ”

After graduation, she and Qu Fei, who never returned to school, only contacted each other through phone and text messages, and when they were busy, they would not make a phone call for a long time, but she would always find a chance to meet Qu Fei when she was resting. Looking at Qu Fei, who was becoming more and more stable, she almost forgot what Xiao Fei looked like when she was so noisy that she had to turn over the whole bedroom.

In Chengnan Square, I sat on a chair and watched a young mother holding her baby to see the fountain, such a simple happiness, they all thought it was easy to get, but the reality told them that there is no happiness in this world that can be easily obtained.

Qu Fei once fell in love so vigorously, but in the end she lost to reality, she tried her best to protect but it was still irreparable, she was extremely tired, and finally willing to let go.

Some people are destined to be passers-by in your life, no matter how reluctant and cherished you are, they will not stay.

If we had known the end, would we still have enough courage to fight for it?

For Zhu Zhuanxin, from the very beginning, she was passively accepting love, and when she finally felt at ease to tie her future to another person, and finally understood how to love, love left, so she was unwilling and tried desperately to recover it, even at all costs.

The loneliness of his youth makes others seem frightened, but the people in the story are obsessed and unrepentant, but who knows that some roads start and there is no turning back.