Before the Spring Festival was over, Jolene had already started working, and the number of times she came to eat was significantly less, Lulu couldn't help but start counting her fingers to calculate when Aunt Fang would come back, and what worries her the most every day is the question of what to eat.

She has never asked much about Jolene's work, and since she was chosen in the first place, she will have complete trust, and the cooperation has been very pleasant in the past few years.

With Lulu around, the TV is always on, even when she sits on the couch and holds her iPad, the TV is always on.

After dinner, she didn't go upstairs, she sat on the sofa with a cup of hot milk, and Lulu was changing channels with the remote control, and finally stopped at a channel.

Every winter and summer vacation, there are always some high-rated TV series replayed on TV, and "Trajectory" is one of them.

Because of Xiao Xia, she has received too much praise, encouragement and honor, and has also carried too many experiences and transformations.

She looked at the plot that was being broadcast on TV: Xiao Xia, who returned to the city where she once loved and saw that person, endured the turmoil in her heart and just smiled lightly and whispered "Long time no see", and the two once closest lovers can now only say an inconsequential word from such a safe distance, and then turn around and leave. Turning around, Xiao Xia, who was still smiling, smiled and left tears, she took a deep breath, turned a street corner, slowly squatted down and hugged herself, covering her mouth and crying like a child who couldn't find a home on the crowded street.

This was once rated as the most poignant plot in "Trajectory" in Internet statistics, only Yan Zhuanxin himself knows why Xiao Xia can be played so deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, that story is not only Xiao Xia's story, but also her traces, but all Xiao Xia's infatuation and sadness are seen by everyone and then distressed, but her past is only known best in her heart.

Even Zhao Jin, who saw her at a glance, never knew how desperate she was when he saw her for the first time.

She didn't say anything and didn't mention anything anymore, but it didn't mean that she could really put it down, on the day she accompanied Ran Ning to sign the contract, she waited alone in the hall, and saw a whole wall of floor-to-ceiling windows from a distance, and even the sky in the distance could be seen clearly. She walked over step by step, getting closer and closer, the sun was shining on her body, she looked down at her feet, she had forgotten how many floors it was, the cars and pedestrians below had become so small, she stretched out her hand, but touched the cold glass, raised her head, closed her eyes, the sun shone on her face, in fact, the warm wind here is very sufficient, but no matter how warm the wind is, it can't warm her heart.

Zhao Jin, who had just lost his temper because of the selection of actors, saw such a flutter at the moment he got off the elevator, and her figure with her head upturned and wrapped in the sun looked like Xiao Xia after escaping in his imagination.

After deciding to play Xiao Xia, she read the script almost sleeplessly, she was very grateful to Xiao Xia, it was she who let her forbearance be vented, if it wasn't for that experience, maybe she wouldn't have made her later decision.

After filming "Trajectory", she went bungee jumping alone.

On the high platform of several hundred meters, there were only a handful of girls in the small crowd, and there were many who flinched, only she waited without saying a word from beginning to end.

She took her equipment, walked to the edge of the platform step by step, and after signaling to the staff, she opened her arms, took a deep breath, and without hesitation, she fell straight forward.

Her body was falling rapidly, her face was a little painful from the wind, and her heartbeat was beating uncontrollably, as if she had been falling all the time, boundless.

Ran Rong's words still echoed in her ears: "No matter how hard and difficult life is, as long as you keep persevering, you will definitely get better one day." How many people in this world give up all their feelings, wealth and even everything they have, just to stay in this world for a while longer, but they don't have this opportunity. ”

When her feet were back on the ground, she looked up at the high jump, "Yes, I want to be good, brave, to live alone, I want to see all the changes in this world with my own eyes." ”

She changed her clothes and strode away.

After drinking the milk, he said he was going to take a bath and went upstairs. She twisted the faucet of the bathtub to release the water, she hardly watched the plays she played, and after debuting for so long, she was still not used to facing herself who was already an actor.

Sometimes she feels very strange when she looks at herself on the screen, she never feels that her original choice was wrong, but time has passed, whether she is unwilling to hate, or to escape, even she herself has not wanted to think about it.

After graduating, she stayed alone in the old house, with the living room still stacked with the luggage she brought back from school, and she stood there looking at all the furnishings in the room, the music scores on the shelves, the music table in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and the CDs densely packed on the shelves under the player......

I've watched it so many times, and over the years, with my temperament casually placed things, I can find any score and CD with my eyes closed, and the picture still appears clearly in front of me when I close my eyes, and her eyes are sour, but she doesn't want to cry.

From the age of four to twenty, there are all the memories of her childhood and all the joys and sorrows, standing at the door, she seems to see her four-year-old self stepping on a small bench to sit in front of the piano, her little fingers repeating the boring practice little by little; the seven-year-old self secretly stands in front of the window and watches the children downstairs playing happily but she can only envy; the eleven-year-old self holds the first trophy and smiles so proudly, and then one after another trophies and certificates are placed on the table; the twelve-year-old self sits on the ground and loses his temper at the music thrown on the ground; the fifteen-year-old self sits on the ground at night and secretly sheds tearsAt the age of seventeen, I endured the pain and kept practicing.

She realized that everything in the past ten years existed in her mind as clearly as a movie, even if she never had anything to remember, they always existed and all emerged at this time, reminding herself that from now on, she was going to say goodbye to this life completely, a life that has not changed since she was born, a life that has never wanted to change.

She slowly sorted out everything by herself, looked at the unrecognizable room, and finally cried out loud without concealment, this time, she didn't want to suppress herself, she didn't want to hide her feelings.

Sixteen years, I once thought it was all the things in my life, but I was destroyed by my own hands, Yan Zhuan Xin knew that what she destroyed was her whole world.

From childhood to adulthood, in addition to the Ran sisters, her most heartfelt friends are music and piano, whether it is when her parents lock her at home when she is young, or every moment when she is lonely, scared, and sad, all she can think of is playing the piano. Except for Jean, nothing has always been by her side and never left. And this piano and this harp are also the only memorials left by their parents.

Now the piano has been left in the old house in her hometown that has been uninhabited for a long time, and her harp has been stored in a large cabinet in the storage room where she now lives, and she has not dared to look back from the moment she left school.

She got up and went back to her room to get her pajamas, but it was snowing outside the window again, and she walked over to look at the snow outside in a daze.

Cheng Shuo, it's been three years, it's been three years since I left the world I used to be, this time may not be long, but it is enough for me not to stop.

Xiao Xia, Yi Lan, Wen Wen, Meng Xin, every character I picked has a shadow of my past, I desperately want to escape from the past, but every time I choose a story related to the past, I want to use my busy work to temporarily forget the past, obviously afraid of the news I will hear but faintly looking forward to it. I used my character to laugh and cry in the play, acting in other people's stories, but thinking about my own past everywhere.

When I was so desperate that I was almost dying, it was Sister Rong who dragged me back, and when I thought I had nothing, it was your appearance that gave me hope. She is gone, it is a decision that none of us can change our fate, for her, we can only do our best to obey the destiny of God, so I can accept it, but for you, even if I think I am unwilling, I can't hide my heart that I have never let go.

Cheng Shuo, do you remember our story?