It's winter again, the temperature in T City is getting lower and lower day by day, Cheng Shuo's new album "Dawn" is still hot, and the announcements are also full, working around almost every day, and rarely have time to rest.

The building where TS Music Productions is located stands in the heart of the city, and countless people pass by here every day, looking at it, dreaming that one day they can come here to work or be signed here, but there are very few people who can really make their dreams come true.

In Shi Yu's office, Cheng Shuo was looking through a document, which was a female singer named Tian Tian, who was newly signed by the company at the beginning of the year.

Tian Tian is a newcomer that the company is ready to support, positioning is a sweet style with good singing and dancing, and now there is a shortage of female singers of this type, she has just graduated and is very young, and her appearance is also petite and cute, she loves to talk and laugh very cute, and she is very popular with the audience. She is also angry, she has the foundation and is willing to endure hardships, and she is obedient and not tired when she enters the company, which is rare. ”

Nowadays, there are not many newcomers who can endure hardships and be obedient, it is rare that the conditions are not bad in all aspects, Ts has always had a very good eye for picking people, looking at the dawn of this girl named Tian Tian is in sight, but it still needs time and time.

Cheng Shuo didn't speak and waited for the following, Shi Yu wouldn't tell him this for no reason.

"The company originally arranged for someone else to mention her, but this girl said in an interview not long after her debut that she was your fan, your alumnus, and your junior sister who was two years lower than you. You know more about her situation, and then the company will arrange for you to go to the notice together, but people worship you tightly, don't know anything about it at that time. ”

Cheng Shuo nodded and understood, and after a little thought, the junior sisters who were two years lower, if they calculated the time, they could not have much intersection in school. Shi Yu continued: "There is an event in S City next week, Qi Qi will also attend, and when the time comes, let's interact, after all, it is a company." She is still the same old way, her temper has not changed, her popularity is still not low, she is doing singing and acting, and she has a lot of works. ”

Qi Qi is Cheng Shuo's predecessor, with neat short hair and a tall figure, and even his personality is very boyish, he is famous for his bold atmosphere in the circle, and his popularity is also very good. She was originally discovered by her current agent because of a singing competition, she was still a student at the time, and singing was just a hobby, and the company saw that she was a potential stock, so she signed back. It's been almost ten years since his debut, from the tomboy at the beginning all the way to the current royal sister style, in addition to singing, he also got involved in the film and television industry, and the ratings of several fashion dramas are not bad, especially the styling in the play can be popular every time.

Cheng Shuo didn't have much intersection with Qi Qi before, plus he had been away for so long, in this ever-changing circle, people can easily see that there is often a big difference from the actual things behind it, and some of them are even unexpected. Cheng Shuo, who has experienced falling from the clouds and now returning again, has a much more solid heart than before, and when he sees more, there is naturally nothing unacceptable and incomprehensible, even if he does not necessarily agree, but here with fierce competition, people must live first, and they must survive before they are qualified to talk about ideals and ambitions.

Xu is mentality is very balanced, and maybe it is a blessing and a curse, the activities in S City are not smooth, no one asks those marginal questions from beginning to end, and the stage and the stage are harmonious. What makes Cheng Shuo feel at ease the most is Qi Qi, he just needs to cooperate with everything he did at the event, he will mention Cheng Shuo's new album whenever he has the opportunity, and he also took the initiative to help recommend the list, even when he chatted in the backstage, it was very comfortable, how could such a girl not be liked.

After the event, Qi Qi stayed in S City and had other jobs, Cheng Shuo set off directly back to T City, it was still early to return to T City, he suddenly missed his grandmother very much, took out his mobile phone and called her. There is still a short period of time before the Lunar New Year, the old man began to plan early, and asked if he could go back for the New Year this year, his son and daughter-in-law are busy, and his grandson is also busy, and there is only this one festival that can be looked forward to all year round.

Cheng Shuo held the full schedule in his hand, put it in his bag casually, and said affirmatively: "Grandma, I will definitely go back to accompany you during the Spring Festival this year." ”

He couldn't see the appearance on the phone, he could still feel his grandmother's happiness, no matter how much the old man said that work was important, he still hoped that the children could go back to accompany them more. From his debut to training abroad, he rarely could accompany his grandmother for the holidays intermittently, he felt guilty, and his grandmother comforted him every time, the days are still long, and the work is important. But he understands that the work can never be done, and the time to accompany his relatives is limited, the old man has always attached importance to the Spring Festival, and his son and daughter-in-law have determined that they can't be on their knees because of work, Cheng Shuo made up his mind that he must find a way to go back to accompany his grandmother during the Spring Festival this year.

A few days later, Cheng Shuo met Tian Tian in the company, and she was really a sweet little girl, small in size, with two dimples when she smiled, and her words and deeds were also cute.

"Hello Senior Brother Cheng Shuo!" As soon as he saw Cheng Shuo enter the door, Tian Tian immediately stood up and stretched out his hand generously to say hello, "I used to hear Teacher Bai talk about you as an excellent student at school, and I have admired your name for a long time!

Since she saw Cheng Shuo, Tian Tian has always been very happy, and the two dimples have always been smiling, talking about things until the agent took her away to take pictures.

After Tian Tian left, Shi Yu asked Cheng Shuo, "How is it?"

Cheng Shuo put down the cup, "People are as their name suggests." ”

As soon as the words fell, Xiao Du came in with a big push of gifts to be distributed, "Brother Shuo, you sign first, and there will be more later." ”

Cheng Shuo picked up the pen and began to sign these gifts for fans without saying a word, and his hands were sore for a whole afternoon. From the game to the present, no matter whether his development is good or bad, these fans are firmly by his side, even when he trains abroad, they are patiently waiting, believing that he will definitely come back, and he is really grateful for this unwavering companionship.

How many people in this world can stand there and wait so willingly? He has not been on the Internet for a long time in the United States, and he does not want to read reports that disturb his mind. When he thought that everyone had forgotten about himself for such a long time, he clicked on the website of the support club, and his eyes were almost red when he was waiting and waiting.

There were so many responses to such a wait, which seemed almost hopeless at the time, that even he didn't know, and whether there was a day when he could go back, he didn't dare to think that if he really went back one day, how many people would remember him. Their presence on the other side of the globe in those dark days gave him great hope and motivation.

They say that his singing can bring them hope and light, but they don't know that because of their presence, he can have this light. In the boundless darkness, he lay dormant quietly, waiting for the day when he would wake up.

When Shi Yu came back, he was still signing, sat next to him and asked, "How many more?"

Cheng Shuo didn't look up, "It's almost there, there's only this stack left." ”

Shi Yu didn't speak, Cheng Shuo still lowered his head and signed one by one, and finally wrote his blessings on the big poster to the support club.

He put down the pen, shook his hand vigorously, it was sore, he rubbed his knuckles, raised his head, it was dark outside, and the neon lights were on one after another.

Shi Yu patted him on the shoulder and said, "Let's go have a meal." ”

There are still a lot of people in the company who are working overtime, Cheng Shuo greeted everyone all the way out of the gate, took the elevator directly to the underground garage, Shi Yu drove, and he sat in the co-pilot's position.

The car stopped at the door of a Cantonese restaurant, and Shi Yu said as he got out of the car: "I can't eat Sichuan food recently, so it's good to drink more soup to nourish my throat." Cheng Shuo shrugged, he hadn't picked anything to eat for a long time.

The two of them asked for a private room, and the dishes they ordered came up quickly, Cheng Shuo drank the soup, and Shi Yu said while picking up the fish bones: "The meaning of the company, the book still has to be published, it doesn't have to be how good the writing is, how many words to write, the key is to let the fans know what you have been doing in the past two years, let them be sure that the wait is worth it, Cheng Shuo has never given up his music dream." ”

Shi Yu gave him a large piece of fish, and then said: "There are photos, please ask friends to write a few prefaces and recommendations, and the rest just need you to sort it out." ”

Cheng Shuo lowered his head and ate the fish without speaking.

"Ah Shuo, why did you go to 'further study' in the first place, you know best, and I know it, but not all the truth can be made public, especially in our circle, many times, the word truth is worthless, and no one cares. ”

Shi Yu picked another piece of fish meat and put it on his plate, "If you want to come back completely, you have to let yourself never leave, singers can have their own untold stories, but stars, whether they are idols or strength, have no privacy, especially for fans who have always supported him, let alone not." What you have to do is fill in that gap. ”

What privacy does he have, except that she is the scar in his heart and his calamity, there is nothing that cannot be known to outsiders. In the past, he wanted to protect her, so he wanted to hide her and leave her, but it turned out that this method was not very good.

In Shi Yu's plan, in his own plan, the first thing he has to do is to come back completely, he wants to get back everything that belongs to him, only in this way can he have enough capital to do other things.

When Cheng Shuo returned to the apartment, it was already past nine o'clock, and the heating in the house was sufficient, so he took off his coat, took off his scarf, and sat down on the sofa a little tired, without turning on the light.

Everyone has memories that they want to forget, some truths, it's better not to know than to know, when the original story of the matter is not clear, it will hurt a little less, and knowing all of them will hurt more seriously. When everything is completely in front of you, you no longer have the right to deceive yourself and coax yourself.

Since he was young, his only dream was to sing, and there was nothing else he wanted, the identity he wanted was just a singer, and it was not his pursuit to be a star and idol artist. In order to realize his dream, he stepped into this circle without hesitation, and slowly understood that many things are not something you want to do, and the straight line between two points is not necessarily the shortest, and many times it is necessary to save the country with a curve. He began to accept all kinds of work arrangements other than singing, and even spent most of his time, so that he didn't have much time to do music.

It's not that he's not irritable or disgusted, but what can he do? He roamed this circle alone, and he didn't even know who to trust except Liu Feng.

Cheng Shuo has always respected Liu Feng very much, even if he knows some of his methods, but after all, it is for the future of his artists, and he tries to make himself understand and understand. He is disgusted but powerless to refute, he can't get used to it but can't change anything, in such an environment, a newcomer is as small as an ant, and he can't do anything. After being exposed to too many things that were contrary to the past in a short period of time, he was powerless to refuse when he found that Liu Feng had deviated from his career plan and his original dream.

The more he knows, the more conflicted he becomes, with a precarious trust on the one hand and an uneasy bottom line on the other. All these contradictions and entanglements are hidden deep in his heart, who to tell him, no one can say, he can only swallow it in his stomach and take one step at a time.

The days are starting to get tough. He grew up with his grandfather who was born in the army, and the darkness that he could understand was on the verge of the border, he mentioned to Liu Feng several times not to take the initiative to do anything, he could give in, but people were soft-spoken, at first Liu Feng also perfunctory a few words to him, and later, he just told him that he didn't need to dictate his behavior, and if he wanted to sing, he would follow his path.

He's really miserable, just a teenager who hasn't been deeply involved in the world, what can he do.

When Liu Feng hid him in half-snow, he thought not only about his dream, but also about the price he had to pay for this dream, the most important of which was his own stream. At that time, he figured out that this world is not something that can be changed by blindly accepting it. Anything he had, even freedom, could be given up, but she, the first and only person he fell in love with, could not give it up no matter what.

That's why he was so angry and irrational when he learned the truth about that car accident. Everyone has their own bottom line that cannot be touched, and once touched, it is unforgivable.

From the day he first saw her, he felt that such a beautiful girl deserved the most favor in the world, and should not be touched by any dirt. After she finally belonged to him, he did his best to be good to her, because of love, he was willing to draw the ground as a prison, just to be with her. Especially after he learned about the Yan family, he cherished her more and more, he wanted to do his best to give her all the good things, he wanted to give her a complete home with everything he had, to make up for her shortcomings all the time, and he wanted to help her complete the only dream.

is such a treasure by him, because Liu Feng lay in the hospital for half a month because of a word, and even her most cherished hand was so injured that she couldn't play the piano.

He couldn't accept it, he couldn't forgive, and he couldn't continue to cooperate.

That old place, where she had been dragging her body and her heart hurting all day, and he had been behind her all day. He would rather she cry and even hate him than be quiet, and she made him feel frightened, afraid that she would disappear like that.

But what was he going to do? All this she had endured was because of herself, because of her 'disobedience,' and the one he loved was about to suffer such a catastrophe, and what face did he have to see her again? He had no ability to protect her.

It hurts as much as he loves, but he needs time to accumulate the ability of love to protect her, he let himself say those words ruthlessly is already the limit, he doesn't dare to see her at all, he tries his best to let himself go, he can't give her the peace and calm she wants, and he is not willing to let her face the hurt and ugly world with him, so he pushes her away.

He thought that without him, she would be safe, he thought that if he drew a line with her, no one would hurt her again, but he proved to be too naïve.

In that short period of time, he finally saw how ugly human nature can be, because he refused to compromise, Liu Feng cut off all his ways out, but that's it, he still refused to bow his head, he was like a trapped beast, imprisoned in the apartment.

He didn't expect her to come to him again, he was so surprised that he couldn't help but push away for only a few seconds, he saw the figure who hadn't left from the reflection of the opposite glass, so he had to drive her away indifferently, she only saw him slamming the door shut, but she didn't know that he was afraid that he would lose his courage if he looked at her more.

Just through a door, her heart seemed to be hollowed out, her clenched left hand ached faintly, she stood there knowing that she should turn away, but she couldn't move her feet, and on the other side, he leaned against the door and covered his chest, the pain inside seemed to be bleeding, this time, he really couldn't go back, but at that time he was so depressed to cry.

She didn't know what kind of-for-tat he had with Liu Feng before she came, and she didn't know what he was going through.

And what he didn't know was that losing him was the most painful and unacceptable thing for her.

He once took the key she put at the door and wanted to find her desperately, wanted to make everything clear, wanted to tell her: he really loved her very much, he didn't want her to leave at all, even if he had nothing, he still selfishly wanted to stay by her side, without her company, he didn't know how to go down, what scenery was ahead, he was not interested at all.

Fate is always so tricky, but the distance of only one street has become infinitely far away because of the news that Grandpa Cheng is critically ill. He stood on the academy road, clutching the key so hard that it was almost embedded in the palm of his hand, and with a thought of life and death, he chose to turn around.

But he rushed back non-stop, and he still didn't have time to see his grandfather for the last time, and the double blow almost knocked him down.

He finally took off all his pretense and cried loudly in front of his grandfather's hospital bed, he couldn't let his grandfather see him standing on the stage that belonged to him and singing to them, he couldn't keep Juan, he didn't even have the opportunity to sing, he didn't fulfill any of the promises he made, he was never smooth sailing, and he failed.

Grandma Cheng pulled him to talk about his grandfather's youth after seeing his grandson, as if it was still many years ago in the afternoon, he refused to sleep, pestering his grandmother to tell stories, but this time, it made him cry.

Cheng's mother coaxed her grandmother for a long time before she finally fell asleep, and in the living room, the father and son, who had not seen each other for a long time, were talking, "You can sing with your grandfather's accordion when you are three years old, and the little one stands on the chair, and the voice is still very immature, but he can sing word for word and not run the sound, and grandpa can't sleep at night when he is happy." Your mother and I have taken very little care of you over the years, and at that time, transatlantic phone calls were still very expensive, and grandpa always told us what happened to Xiao Shuo, and even the neighbors knew that the old man of the family loved this youngest grandson the most. Xiao Shuo, grandpa has never asked us to do anything in his life, and he doesn't want to trouble us to take care of him before leaving, you have the deepest relationship with your grandparents, what you want to do, don't let go easily, grandpa will see it. ”

Cheng Shuo never thought that people could be fragile to the point of breaking at the touch of a button, and he suddenly fell to nothing, who had been in the clouds. Life is always more full of dramatic changes and twists than stories, no one knows what will happen in the next second, no one can control the direction of development, in the confusion, can only go in the direction it gives.

After his grandfather's funeral, Cheng Shuo remembered to charge his mobile phone, which had long been out of battery, and received a call from the company shortly after turning it on, saying that he wanted to negotiate a contract. Grandma didn't know when she woke up, and she heard him cry out in a low voice, "Xiao Shuo?"

He heard that his grandmother was awake, hung up the phone in a hurry, and walked into the room quickly, "Grandma, is there anything uncomfortable?"

Grandma sat up with the help of Cheng Shuo, without her previous spirit, "Grandma is fine, it's just a little tired these days, just take a rest." Xiao Shuo, go back, work is important, grandpa understands. ”

His eyes turned red all at once, and he didn't speak for a long time.

Grandma reached out to touch his hair, "Your hair grew fast when you were a child, every time I took you out to play, people I didn't know thought it was a beautiful little girl, and then I shaved my head, at first you were not used to it, always touching your head, and I didn't know what grandpa told you, I saw you sitting on the sofa cross-legged and pretending to be a rest when I came out of cooking, and I sang a song when I came out." Grandma paused for a moment, then said, "Go back, grandma will wait, grandpa will wait." ”

Cheng Shuo nodded vigorously.

Back in T City, he went straight to the company. Liu Feng has stopped all his work, because the director who cooperated with him in the previous filming has a new drama that wants to use him, but the assistant director has been in contact with Liu Feng before, and this time the director finally contacted Cheng Shuo by contacting himself. In addition, Xu Yan's program has wanted to ask him to be a guest on the show twice, but he has not received a reply, so the program team directly found the relevant person in charge of the company.

Cheng Shuo directly proposed to change agents and terminate the previous contract, the person in charge of the company took out the report intercepted from the media, after Cheng Shuo read it, he hated Liu Feng from the bottom of his heart, he had long thought that after that day, he would intensify his efforts to deal with himself, such a method was finally used on himself, in fact, he should have thought that he could use such a means to deal with others, and he could use the same or even worse means to deal with himself.

Who is the one who complains about falling into such a fate? It was he who took the initiative to continue to let Liu Feng be his agent after the TV station's contract expired, even if he had nothing to do with Ts, thinking of Cheng Shuo's active request, plus all his work was taken care of by Liu Feng, and a sudden change would inevitably affect his work, Ts agreed, but it was just a delaying tactic, but it almost ruined Cheng Shuo.

When he returned to the apartment, he calmed down and began to think, in fact, since his debut, he has been eating his old book, and he has no time and energy to improve professionally, on the contrary, in order to continue to maintain his popularity, he has done a lot of things that have nothing to do with singing.

What about the choice he didn't have before? Does he have to go on like this? One day, he will be exhausted, this is not what he wants, never has been.

And he knew very well in his heart that he couldn't tolerate such a self-turn.

He didn't go out for a few days, and if it wasn't for Yueyue coming to bring him food, he wouldn't have cared that his stomach was already upset.

When Xu Yan called, his whole body was emaciated, his eyes were blue, even his voice was hoarse, and the stubble on his chin was not shaved. After not seeing each other for a long time, Xu Yan just patted him on the shoulder and already represented everything.

Anyway, there is nothing left, and I am afraid of starting over.

He didn't even look back when he left, he didn't let anyone send him off, he wanted to remember clearly how he left with nothing, he wanted to make himself clearly remember how much he paid for his ignorance and hesitation.

When he first arrived in the United States, he was really uncomfortable, but at that time, he had nothing that was unacceptable, the language barrier was inconvenient, the training was obviously very hard but not recognized and optimistic, all of which he gritted his teeth and persevered.

Whenever he felt that he couldn't stand up, he would think of the picture of him leaving T City alone with his luggage and embarking on an international flight, thinking of the promises he had made, thinking of his debts, and he kept telling himself that nothing could not be overcome.

"Don't be afraid to wait, don't be afraid that time will be forgotten for too long, time can change everything, and when we come back, we will not see the idol with an empty appearance, looking forward to the new transformation of the Cheng Shuo, waiting for you to come back. ”

Whenever he saw this, he would tell himself that I would definitely go back.